Recently, Qing Ruyun always felt that he couldn't face Xiahou's scorching gaze as frankly as he did at the beginning. I don't know why, when I accidentally look at each other, I'm a little uncomfortable.

This kind of discomfort, when you think about it, is not the so-called emotional surge. But when they look at each other, they will always recall some things from the past and cause some touches.

And those unexplained memories bring a moment as sweet as honey, a moment of bone-chilling cold, and then only a lingering and sad astringency remains.

Xiahou Wuyu asked, "Sister Mu Qing, did you remember something when you talked about Phoenix Flower City?" ”

Qing Ruyun awkwardly avoided his eyes, unconsciously pinched the corners of his clothes with both hands, and only said: "I studied under the old man of Kunlun Mountain, as I told you before, my master is from Kunlun in the Western Regions, but I have never been there, and I have only heard everything related to Kunlun from others." I don't mean anything to say to you. ”

Xiahou was not worried or disappointed, only groaned slightly, and said: "Don't worry, it's not that you have to remember, I just don't want you to forget me." ”

Qing Ruyun sighed in her heart, suddenly mustered up her courage, and said: "I still remember when we first met, you mentioned the Begonia Flower Creek under Kunlun Mountain, at that time I remembered one thing in a trance, and I have occasionally remembered it these days, but I always felt that it was difficult to say it to you, so I didn't mention it." ”

Xiahou Wuyu hurriedly asked, "What do you remember?" ”

"I ......"

Qing Ruyun hesitated slightly, but still said: "I remember, at that time, my eyes were no longer pitch black, I saw light, and some intermittent shadows, such as flowers all over the mountains, maybe begonias, maybe other flowers, I saw this world for the first time, I didn't know anything, and then it was...... Suddenly there was a fire, a black and yellow scorched earth, and ...... There was another person, he was very badly injured, and I still remember it......"

She tried her best to recall some more fragments, as if she had exhausted all her strength, but suddenly she was dizzy and almost fainted to the ground.

Xiahou Wuyu hurriedly helped her sit down on the cushion, only to see that cold sweat was dripping on her forehead, leaving along her sideburns one by one, like rain, and gently and meticulously wiped away the sweat for her over and over again, and said urgently: "Okay, okay, if it's an unhappy memory, don't mention it." ”

Qing Ruyun closed her eyes and bit her lips, almost biting blood.

Xiahou Wuyu brought another bowl of hot tea, and patiently fed Qing Ruyun a small spoonful to drink it to help her calm down.

The valley wind roared through the Zen courtyard, and there was an uproar along with the mottled shadows of the trees. No one came to disturb them, and the breeze brought the sound of horses' hooves in the distance.

"I ......" Qing Ruyun, who had been closing her eyes as if she had been sucked by a nightmare, suddenly opened her eyes, and her weak voice echoed lightly among the four walls.

She couldn't hold it anymore, and tears poured out like a tide: "I killed him, I killed him with my own hands......"

Xiahou Wuyu cupped her cheeks, wiped away her tears, and said gently: "Sister Muqing, don't be afraid, don't be sad, believe me, he is not dead." ”

Qing Ruyun shook her head, tears rained down for a while, and she was overwhelmed with grief, and no one felt sad when she saw it.

In the vague memory, the sword in her hand stabbed into the dark front, and in an instant, a beam of light sprinkled down, illuminating her eyes, she suddenly woke up, and hurriedly turned the blade of the sword, but the man had already fallen, and blood gushed out from the lower abdomen, staining the begonias.

Qing Ruyun couldn't remember who the other party was, and she couldn't see the other party's appearance clearly in her memories. She only knew that she was in the middle of a sea of flowers at that time, that place was very beautiful, and that person was also very important, and she didn't want to hurt that person from the bottom of her heart.

When the man fell, she felt like her half life was gone.

The memories of these fragments, like the rusty green bells in the ancient temple, echo in the mind from time to time with a dull and long roar.

Xiahou Wuyu hugged her tightly in his heart, gently ran his palm along her hair, patted his vest, and said gently: "Sister Muqing, don't be sad, he is not dead, he has been doing well in the past few years, he has been waiting for you." ”

Qing Ruyun suddenly lost all the strength to resist, like raindrops turning into the ocean, and no longer tried to struggle with Xiahou Wuyu's open embrace.

At last, she wept freely, as if she wanted to vent all the heaviness and wind and rain of the past with tears, and prayed for a gentle answer.

She has always been very well-behaved and sensible, under the knees of Master Yun and Mrs. Yun, and in front of Master.

If there was anything she had to understand, she did what her elders had told her, and if there was something she shouldn't know or interfere with, she never asked more.

However, she also has something on her mind, she will be scared and sad. For example, in the long dark night, when those dream-like memories flash.

The grievances and tears that have accumulated in my heart over the years, all the pain for no apparent reason, exploded at this moment, in this hug, and I couldn't hold it back for a while, so I could only let my emotions tear and float endlessly, and I even felt difficult to breathe.

Xiahou Wuyu said softly: "Cry happily, it's all right." ”

After the mood gradually calmed down, Qing Ruyun suddenly withdrew from Xiahou Wuyu's arms, thanked him, restrained his heavy nasal voice, and still choked up when he spoke, "You said that person didn't die, is it true?" ”

Xiahou smiled without worry, patted his chest, spread his hands again, and opened his chest, as he always revealed this heart to the other party without reservation, and said, "Look at me, isn't it good in front of your eyes?" ”

Qing Ruyun's eyes were full of disbelief, and said: "It's you, how can it be you, it's really you?" ”

Xiahou Wuyu said: "It's me, it's really me." Look at me, isn't it good? Although the past was not satisfactory, if you think about it, it is actually not much worse, right? ”

Qing Ruyun still didn't believe it, and said, "But I didn't know you in the past." ”

Xiahou Wuyu smiled: "You have already seen the most direct evidence, but you are not allowed to deny it." ”

Qing Ruyun asked, "What evidence?" ”

Xiahou said without worry: "When you treated my injuries, you asked me if I had any old injuries, do you remember?" ”

Qing Ruyun nodded in a daze.

She has been very sensitive since she was a child, especially in the past, due to eye diseases, she was unable to read words and feelings, so she knew how to guess the meaning of others from words and meanings, so as not to cause trouble to outsiders. Kefu woke up from a nightmarish cry, and he couldn't think more about Xiahou's statement that he was safe for a while.

Xiahou Wuyu continued: "Sister Muqing, although I can't deduce what great changes happened in Phoenix Flower City that day, I can't escape a human tragedy. So, I can't think of it. I just hope that you will never blame yourself, and believe me, you have not hurt anyone. ”

Qing Ruyun said: "But the injuries on your body were caused by my own hands after all, I think...... What can I do to compensate you? ”

Xiahou said without worry: "Now that the injury is healed, the scar is no longer in my heart, how can I talk about compensation?" ”

Qing Ruyun sighed astringently, half-turned around, and looked out the window for a while.

The sky is so open, and the snow and clear sky in the morning bring a little warmth for a while, but in people's hearts, this deep winter season is still gloomy.

Qing Ruyun said slowly: "I have killed people, on the East China Sea, I have killed many Beichen soldiers, but how innocent are they?" From beginning to end, they are just pawns and minions of the powerful, and they have no choice. I could, I could have killed the usurper and the helpers he led, but I knew I couldn't do that. Just because they can't do this, they end up killing innocent people to vent their anger. Say, "Is an escapee like me no different from those wicked, and of the same unforgivable sin as them?" ”

Xiahou Wuyu's heart sank, and she only said that she couldn't bear to attack Xiahou Liangye because she was concerned about her own feelings, and she pondered for a long time, and comforted: "For everyone, life and death are great things. However, it has been caused and cannot be reversed, and can only be compensated in good faith. My mother once said that those who are in the upper position will inevitably be involved in the livelihood and death of the people, and they often have unbearable feelings, but born in the royal family, no one is not bound by their hands and feet, so they should not complain about the heavens, and they should not be especially others, and always believe that the goodwill in this world is surging and circulating, and doing a little more good deeds can make up for a little debt. It is very simple to fight for one's life, but there is no truth in this world, and justice is only in everyone's heart. ”

Qing Ruyun looked at the sky and was distracted, and I didn't know if I heard these words in my heart.

Suddenly, the tips of her ears moved, and she whispered, "Someone is coming." ”