At the beginning of the last semester of the third year of graduate school, Tian Li and Qin Xiaotian were busy writing papers, Tian Li's thesis framework had been basically set up, Qin Xiaotian's questionnaires were all collected in mid-March, she was as anxious as ants on a hot pot, she had to hurry up these days, and enter all the questionnaire results into the SPSS in the dark, and then she could do a comprehensive quantitative analysis, such as correlation and significance analysis. In addition, you also have to submit your resume to find a job. Qin Xiaotian submitted a lot of resumes on Zhaopin Recruitment and China Talent Network during the winter vacation, but there has been no news yet, although she is anxious, but at present, she can only go all out to catch up with the paper.

After returning to school, she met with Yuan Dutian once, Yuan Dutian mentioned to her that Ren Jingya had returned, but there was no follow-up, Qin Xiaotian knew that they had not met, but she didn't know that after Ren Jingya returned to China, she contacted Yuan Dutian during spring break, but the two just greeted each other awkwardly, and because of Yuan Dutian's cold attitude, the call was hastily ended.

Because Qin Xiaotian has to go all out to catch up with the paper, Yuan Dutian has a lot of things, Qin Xiaotian doesn't want to spend time on you and me now, the two just make an appointment to meet briefly every night. When Qin Xiaotian came out of the library today, he happened to see a big poster posted on the propaganda board at the door, which was the introduction of Professor Su Lisong of Peking University Law School who was coming to the school to give a speech, the time was Thursday evening, and today is Monday. Qin Xiaotian looked at the time and took out her mobile phone, she thought that Yuan Dutian shouldn't be anything important now!

"Hey, Twilight, I saw the poster that Professor Su is coming to give a lecture, isn't he your mentor?" Qin Xiaotian didn't wait for Yuan Dutian on the other end of the phone to speak, and asked in one breath.

"Yes, Professor Su will be here tomorrow and will come to our college to communicate, and I am preparing materials now." Yuan answered with headphones while typing.

"Oh, are you busy right now?"

"A little, I guess I'm going to have to work overtime today."

"Do you want me to bring you food later?"

Yuan Dutian hesitated for a moment and said okay.

After hanging up the phone, Qin Xiaotian went back to the dormitory to put down the book, went to the cafeteria to make two boxes of meals, and happily went to find Yuan Dutian. Coming to the door of the law school's office, Qin Xiaotian poked her head in first, and saw Yuan Dutian facing the computer, and there were two teachers sitting in the office, she was suddenly a little embarrassed to go in, but she couldn't just stand at the door and wait for the other teachers to leave.

She probed her brain at the door of the office and happened to be seen by another male teacher, the male teacher coughed twice in front of Yuan Dutian, Yuan Dutian looked up, and the male teacher's eyes glanced at the door. Yuan Dutian turned his head to look at the door, and Qin Xiaotian was standing by the door helplessly and embarrassed.

Yuan Dutian smiled clearly: "Xiaotian, come in, why are you standing at the door!" ”

"Sorry to interrupt!" Qin Xiaotian walked inside, bowing and apologizing to the other teachers.

The other two teachers smiled gently at Qin Xiaotian, and then they both looked at Yuan Dutian with deep meaning. This look made Yuan Dutian look unnatural.

"Well, this is my girlfriend." Yuan Dutian introduced.

"I've heard about it for a long time, and I'm lucky to see it today." Another male teacher looked at Qin Xiaotian carefully, Qin Xiaotian was even more embarrassed, how could he eat this way. She smiled awkwardly.

"I've got you some food." Qin Xiaotian put the lunch box on Yuan Dutian's desk.

"Dinner of Love! I feel hungry when I say that. "The male teacher who was the first to find Qin Xiaotian just now deliberately said it to another male teacher.

It is really worthy of being a lawyer, and by no means a nerd, another male teacher immediately understood and said, "Yes, I feel hungry when I smell it, Mr. Liang, let's go down and eat together." ”

After speaking, the two walked out of the office with a smile.

Qin Xiaotian breathed a sigh of relief. Yuan Dutian saw that she was relaxed, so he said, "Come here to eat on the coffee table." He brought the lunch box to the coffee table.

"Do you all three have to work overtime at night?" Qin Xiaotian opened the lunch box and handed the chopsticks to Yuan Dutian.

"I'm definitely going to work overtime, I don't know if the two of them add it or not." Yuan Dutian took the chopsticks and opened the lunch box, intending to concentrate on eating first.

"Don't you do the same thing?" Qin Xiaotian thought that the three of them were preparing materials to welcome Professor Su's arrival.

"Some of them are things in the hospital, and some of them are things that you should do." Yuan Dutian understated.

Qin Xiaotian nodded and didn't ask.

"The food is cold, do you want it to be hot?" Qin Xiaotian ate two bites by himself.

"No, I don't pay attention to it, but it's you, do you want to take it hot? Don't eat until your stomach hurts. Yuan Dutian wanted to take Qin Xiaotian's lunch box to the microwave to heat it.

"No, this lunch box can't go into the microwave." Qin Xiaotian stopped Yuan Dutian. "I'll do it myself." Qin Xiaotian lifted the lunch box and went to the water dispenser to pick up some boiling water to soak in rice. "That's fine." Qin Xiaotian used chopsticks to pull the rice a few times.

"Do you eat boiling water and rice?" Yuan Dutian shook his head.

"Well, I used to eat it a lot when I was a kid." Qin Xiaotian didn't care.

"Alas, I knew I wouldn't ask you to bring me food, and you wouldn't be able to eat well."

"Say what? I'm willing to bring food with you. Qin Xiaotian very much disagreed with Yuan Dutian's statement, and her Qin Xiaotian's stomach was not so delicate.

"Why don't you have some supper in the evening when I'm done?"

"I'll talk about it when you're done. Do you have more to live? Need my help? Qin Xiaotian took advantage of the fact that the food was still a little hot, and hurried to eat.

"No, you can go back in a while, hurry up and write your paper, how is your paper?" Yuan Dutian knew that Qin Xiaotian had been rushing to catch up with his thesis recently.

"Alas, I just finished counting the data, and I wrote a little bit according to the outline." When it comes to papers, Qin Xiaotian is not in the mood, some of her classmates' first drafts have come out, and she doesn't know when she will be able to finish this first draft, so she inexplicably began to become anxious.

"Then you go back to writing your paper after eating, and I'll look for you later." Of course, Yuan knows that graduate theses are not as easy to fool as undergraduate theses.

After the two finished eating, Yuan Dutian wiped the coffee table with a paper towel, and Qin Xiaotian put the leftover lunch box into a plastic bag and threw it into the trash can in the corridor.

"I'm leaving." Qin Xiaotian was about to go back to the dormitory.

"Have a goodbye kiss." Yuan Dutian stretched out his hands and warmly invited.

"It's in the office, and it's going to be big when they come back and bump into it." Qin Xiaotian reminded Yuan Dutian.

"What are you afraid of!" After speaking, Yuan Dutian aimed at Qin Xiaotian's lips and kissed it, a very short kiss, and before Qin Xiaotian could react, it was over.

"Let's go, I'll send you down." Yuan Dutian pulled Qin Xiaotian out.

"No need, you go to work quickly." Qin Xiaotian was unwilling to delay Yuan Dutian's work.

"The next floor can't be delayed for a few minutes." Yuan Dutian continued to pull Qin Xiaotian out.

"Alright, let's go up!" When he arrived downstairs, Qin Xiaotian urged Yuan Dutian to hurry upstairs.

"You girl, how much do you want to drive me away?" Yuan Dutian approached Qin Xiaotian's face.

"How is it possible, I'm worried about delaying your business." Qin Xiaotian glared at him.

"Know, tease you. Then I'll go up. When Yuan Dutian turned around and was about to go upstairs, he found two figures not far away, and he paused. Qin Xiaotian saw Yuan Dutian frozen in place, and turned around strangely. Two figures walked towards them. No, no, there must be something wrong, Yuan Dutian's whole portrait was nailed there, his feet seemed to weigh a thousand catties, Qin Xiaotian could feel that Yuan Dutian wanted to lift his legs and walk, but there was an invisible force that made him stay there, waiting for the people who came over. Qin Xiaotian obviously felt that Yuan Dutian's body was trembling slightly, she couldn't help but approach Yuan Dutian to hold his hand, his hands were warm, but his palms were full of sweat, Qin Xiaotian looked at him blankly, what was wrong with him?

The two figures approached, Qin Xiaotian's heart suddenly tightened, although she had never seen it before, she knew intuitively that Ren Jingya was coming.

"Twilight." A crisp female voice.

Yuan Dutian didn't seem to hear, her eyes stared straight at the woman next to her, and there was no response.

"Twilight." Luo Qingtian shouted again.

"Qingtian, what are you doing here now?" Yuan Dutian's tone was full of anger, blame, and provocation, and the green tendons on his forehead came out.

"No, Twilight, Sunny didn't bring me here on purpose." A gentle and delicate female voice came from next to Luo Qingtian.

A long plaid cashmere jacket, a high-necked lilac sweater inside, shoulder-length hair, and a beautiful and well-defined face, there is a kind of mature vicissitudes, but it is still beautiful, revealing an independent and quiet beauty.

Seeing that Yuan Dutian was silent, Ren Jingya continued: "It's because I know that Professor Su is coming to Yunshan University to give a lecture, and I also want to come to listen. ”

Luo Qingtian stepped forward and faced Yuan Dutian, and said with words: "Yuan Dutian, I didn't reply to your text messages, and you didn't answer the phone, you obviously knew that Jingya was back, but you didn't care." Now you're throwing tantrums at me, you're right! ”

"Sunny day!" Ren Jingya grabbed Luo Qingtian.

"I'm sorry, we didn't expect to meet you here." Ren Jingya's tone was a little apologetic, she glanced at Qin Xiaotian a few times, and saw that she was holding Yuan Dutian's hand, and somewhere in a quiet corner of her heart there was a mirror that was broken and shattered.

Yuan Dutian still pursed his lips and refused to speak.

"Well, I'm sorry, Twilight might not be comfortable today. So, that's why ......" Qin Xiaotian couldn't make it up.

Yuan Dutian took Qin Xiaotian's hand and motioned for her not to talk any further.

Luo Qingtian glanced at Qin Xiaotian with a little disdain, and said viciously: "Yuan Dutian, don't think that you are amazing, relying on other people's love for you, you can trample on other people's kindness and sincerity at will." ”

"Enough, sunny day, don't say it, let's go!" Ren Jingya pulled Luo Qingtian again, Luo Qingtian retreated to Ren Jingya's side, looked at Yuan Dutian angrily and said, "Jingya, let's go." Then, he pulled Yuan Dutian and left without looking back.

Yuan Dutian still didn't move, his hand was still held by Qin Xiaotian, fine beads of sweat oozed from his forehead, he never thought that he would see Ren Jingya again like this. A long time ago, there was a black hole somewhere in his mind, and many nights passed, and that black hole did not fill, did not shrink, and became deeper and deeper. Later, he slowly filled in the hole, studying, reading, exercising hard, and desperately buying all kinds of puzzles to pass the time, but the bottom of the hole could not be filled except for a pool of water, and in the end he could only find a big boat to block the hole, and gradually the dust was sealed. But today, something that could not be seen under the water in that black hole was salvaged, reminding him of how he had worked hard to fill that black corner. Today, that black hole opened again, and then he was laughed at nakedly.

He just wanted to ask for the truth of the year, but 5 years later, even if he saw her now, she still refused and did not plan to tell him the reason for leaving. Yuan Dutian felt that he was stupid, why should he care about the reason why someone left 5 years ago.

Qin Xiaotian panicked, he had never seen Yuan Dutian like this, she was afraid, afraid that the beauty before was all illusions and beautiful bubbles, and with a light touch, there would not even be a shadow left.

Qin Xiaotian didn't know what to do, what could she do, she just wanted to instinctively hug him and comfort him, but it was clear that Yuan Dutian's hands were sweating, why did she feel like an icicle, Qin Xiaotian was frozen, she was so cold.

Yuan Dutian slowly found that his chest was shaking slightly, he didn't know how Qin Xiaotian could tremble so much, and his chest suddenly became a little hot. "What's wrong, Xiaotian? Are you cold? Why are you shaking so much? Only then did he react and hugged Qin Xiaotian, but Qin Xiaotian just shook his head vigorously in his arms. Desperately holding back tears, gritting his teeth desperately, enduring until his body was knotted and twisted into a ball, except for trembling, as if his body could no longer move.

"Xiaotian, don't scare me! What's wrong? Yuan Dutian saw that Qin Xiaotian couldn't even speak, his body was just shaking, and he was scared to wake up instantly.

"Let's go, I'll take you up first!" Yuan Dutian picked up Qin Xiaotian and turned to go upstairs.

Yuan Du Tiantian opened the door of the small conference room, pressed the switch on the wall, and put Qin Xiaotian on the sofa, he took off his coat and draped it on Qin Xiaotian.

"Wait a minute, I'll pour you some hot water." Cold sweat broke out on Yuan Dutian's forehead, and the black hole in his heart was covered by another kind of worry.

Yuan Dutian brought a cup of hot water from his office and put it in Qin Xiaotian's cold hand, seeing that Qin Xiaotian's hand was also shaking, he quickly took the cup out of her hand, brought it to her mouth, and fed her hot water.

Yuan Dutian hugged Qin Xiaotian and kept rubbing her back up and down with his hands. "Are you better?" Yuan Dutian was already frightened by Qin Xiaotian's appearance.

Qin Xiaotian couldn't stop nodding, trying to control his slightly trembling body, but his body was still trembling involuntarily.

"Drink some more hot water." Yuan Dutian picked up the cup and fed it to Qin Xiaotian again.

"Okay, good, much better." Qin Xiaotian took the cup and held it in his palm to cover his hands.

"You're scared the hell out of me." Seeing that although Qin Xiaotian's body was still a little trembling, his consciousness was already clear, Yuan Dutian was a lot more relieved.

"You, you're the ...... Just, just scared me. Qin Xiaotian said intermittently.

"Me? What's wrong with me? Yuan Dutian was puzzled.

"I, I was worried about you just now, you were in a bad mood, so I hugged you, but your body felt like you couldn't move, as if you were frozen, like a statue, no life, no temperature, no reaction, I was really frightened." Qin Xiaotian's speech gradually slipped out.

"Really?" Yuan Dutian was shocked, he didn't know that he was behaving like this just now.

Qin Xiaotian nodded, "Are you okay now?" Asked with concern.

"I'm fine, but you, I trembled so much just now, I was so scared that my heart instantly regained my heartbeat." Yuan Dutian said in a tone of pity.

"I—I don't know what's going on just now, maybe I'm too worried and nervous to see you like that, and I feel so cold that I don't obey you." Qin Xiaotian looked at Yuan Dutian apologetically.

"Fool!"

Qin Xiaotian felt that her body was warm, and she took off the coat that was draped over her and handed it to Yuan Dutian.

Yuan Dutian pushed away his coat and let Qin Xiaotian continue to wear it, Qin Xiaotian shook his head and said, "I'm not cold anymore, you hurry up and put it on, don't freeze." ”

"Twilight, I'd like to ask you." Qin Xiaotian hesitated, but still mustered up the courage to speak.

"What?" Yuan Dutian sat beside Qin Xiaotian and held her hand.

"Well, is it the first time you've seen your ex-girlfriend when she comes back?" Qin Xiaotian's eyes were uneasy and anxious, and they also had the meaning of exploring the truth.

"Yes." Yuan Dutian has been avoiding information related to Ren Jingya since she knew that she was coming back, and avoided meeting, and today was really an accident.

"Can you tell me what you—what do you think?" Qin Xiaotian asked very carefully.

"What do you think?" Yuan Dutian didn't know what Qin Xiaotian was asking.

"What did you think after meeting Ren Jingya? Will you ever see her again? Qin Xiaotian wanted to know what Yuan Dutian thought.

After a moment of silence, Yuan was trying to find the words to piece together the sentence: "You know what? There was a time when I had thought about meeting her countless times in my mind, but I didn't realize once, but today I met like this, and I really, really didn't expect it, and caught me off guard. ”

Qin Xiaotian kept looking at Yuan Dutian with encouraging and comforting eyes, she knew how difficult it was to get him to say this past and a true thought, even if he wasn't ready to say it now, even if he didn't mean it, she couldn't interrupt him, she could only be a listener now.

"I don't know if I'll ever see her again, like today, and it's not like I can't see it. But I don't want to hurt you. Yuan Dutian felt a little indebted to Qin Xiaotian, supported his lowered head with his palm, and then looked up at Qin Xiaotian again.

"For so many years, I feel like I've been waiting for her to give me an explanation why she left without a sound back then. I looked for her many times, and she would send me emails back for more than half a year at first, and then the emails and texts I sent her were all in vain. It's just that, occasionally, Luo Qingtian will bring me some news about her, but she hasn't said why she left. So I've been obsessed with this for a long time. Later, after a long time, I thought that maybe I was too persistent, maybe she just didn't love me anymore, and wanted to leave me but couldn't find a good excuse and reason, so she simply left. Then, I covered up the black, bloody wound and stopped thinking about it. After so many years, until today, I found that the wound of the black hole has not disappeared, but has just filled things with layers of salt, and formed layer after layer of thick pipes, once the cracks are broken, the pus and blood left by the wound are all miserable. Yuan Dutian's voice was very soft, as if he was talking about something that was very painful for a long time.

"This wound cannot be healed only by the truth!" Yuan Dutian spat out a sentence heavily. "Xiaotian, I just think that until the real reason why she left back then, only in this way can the black hole in my heart be filled, I felt that I only needed an answer, and with the answer, I could really move forward easily."

Qin Xiaotian was silent, but her heart had already set off a thousand waves. She can understand Yuan Dutian's thoughts, if it were her, she would definitely not be able to understand a lover who said goodbye. But what if Yuan Dutian didn't want the answer she wanted? What if that answer was just between Yuan Dutian and Ren Jingya? Her heart ached, she was afraid of the real reason for Ren Jingya's departure, she was afraid of the answer. But that answer made Yuan Dutian feel trapped in his heart for so long, how eager he was to know the truth, even if she Qin Xiaotian didn't let him find the answer today, could he guarantee that he wouldn't look for it tomorrow, never again? It would be better for her to help him find it.

"Since you want to know the answer so much, why don't you just ask her about it? Now that she is back, she is in this city, and she didn't say that she would come to listen to Professor Su's lecture in two days, then you will definitely meet again, and after the lecture, it is better to ask her for clarification. Qin Xiaotian thinks this is the fastest way to solve the problem.

"I'm worried about you, and it doesn't really matter to me whether or not to find that answer now. Since it's a blank answer, it's good to keep it blank. Yuan Dutian felt that it was much easier to say the thoughts that had been depressed in his heart for many years, and the answer and the truth were not so important to him now, right?

"I know that the answer doesn't matter to you right now because I took care of my feelings, but I hope you will fulfill your wish and find the answer you were looking for. In this way, we can go on without any worries. Qin Xiaotian was very conflicted in her heart, but she thought that if she thought about something for a long time and worked hard for a long time but it didn't come to fruition, it must be very painful and disappointed, and she didn't want Yuan Dutian to be like this.

"My wish now is just to be with you, and nothing else matters." Yuan Dutian's gentle gaze reassured Qin Xiaotian.

"But I think one day the answer will appear, and it's better to know it when I can." Qin Xiaotian herself really wanted to know the answer, so that she could feel at ease.

"So, Thursday night, you have a good talk with her. Let that relationship end clearly. Qin Xiaotian held Yuan Dutian's hand and was very resolute. Any relationship, only when it ends without regrets and clearly, can you truly open your heart and start a new relationship.