Forty-one (3)
There was no light in the room, only a hazy ray of moonlight shone in through the window, pouring silver on the head of the bed, Su Huiyi stood in place for a long time, until the night was deeper, he said lightly: "Since you have seen it today, it also saves me the trouble of explaining." That's it, I fell in love with her. ”
Shen Qiangrose was originally reluctant to pay attention to it, but the indifference and naturalness in his words stung her at once, as if all this did not represent betrayal, as if a light sentence negated all the feelings and commitments between them.
Such a coolness! At this time, she didn't want to show a compromise to please her, so she instinctively sneered, "Whatever, I'm not interested in listening to this." ”
She turned her back to him, "I'm sleepy, you can go." She actually wanted to roar and vent all her emotions, but her natural stubbornness made her endure them all alive, but her hands were clenched tightly, feeling a trace of despair that made people almost numb, as if all emotions were slowly being withdrawn, at this moment, she just wanted to be a puppet without expression.
Su Huiyi pursed his lips, his expression was blocked by the dark night, and he was silent for a long time before he said: "I know I am not qualified to ask you, but please give birth to the child, I will save a sum of money for you, and I will give you everything you want......"
Before he finished speaking, Shen Qiangrose had already interrupted him coldly, "No need! I don't want anything! This kid has nothing to do with you. ”
Her hands trembled uncontrollably because of excitement, she bit her lip fiercely, forcibly suppressed the sour mood, took a deep breath, and said: "Qishao knows very well that there is no relationship between me and you, from beginning to end, I am an unrecognized existence, and now, I don't want to mention these hypocritical things, just one sentence, nothing to do with it." ”
She only felt that her eyes were hot, and it seemed that even the words she said had a trembling tail, "You go, don't come again." ”
The corners of Su Huiyi's mouth twitched slightly, but he chuckled, and said in an indifferent tone: "Why do you want to be so angry, after all, you are pregnant with my child in your belly, how can I ignore it?" ”
He paused, "Besides, everyone in the south knows the relationship between you and me, and now that you are pregnant, I have abandoned you, isn't it remarkable?" It's good that you don't want to see me, I'm about to send you away. ”
Shen Qiangrose couldn't help sneering when she heard what he said so lightly, she couldn't help but turn over and sit up, and looked at him coldly, although it was just a vague figure, it still made people feel cold when she looked at it, she said mockingly: "Qi Shao is really amazing, a few words decided my life!" Why are you? Why do you think I will follow your instructions and live according to your instructions? Do you have the qualifications? ”
Su Huiyi looked at her quietly, the wisps of moonlight were hazy like a light white veil, faintly covering her face, like a pearl's streamer, lining her face white and translucent, and those eyes seemed to be overflowing with tears, but he looked at himself with a very stubborn look, like a sharp sword, so that he didn't dare to look directly.
He calmed down for a moment before he said, "Whether I have this qualification or not, I am the father of the child, and I must be responsible for him." ”
Shen Qiang Rose smiled sarcastically again, "How are you responsible for him?" Trapping our mother and son in this small building as caged birds? To be a father who came to see him when he was free? When he grows up, how do you explain who he is? How do you want him to accept it? I'm telling you, I'd rather raise him cleanly by myself than touch the scenery of your seven young people. ”
When she first knew that she was pregnant, she was at a loss, but when she said this, she strengthened her inner thoughts, although there were too many unwillingness and resentment in her heart, but at this moment, she did not drag the mud and water to cut off the relationship between the two, which made her feel relieved.
It was as if a lot of shackles were pressed on her body in an instant, and even those shackles entangled in her heart seemed to be liberated at once, and so many emotions were so fast that she didn't even have time to think about it, but when she said this sentence vividly, she felt neat and free.
yes, what else is there to be nostalgic for? It was already so unbearable, all the doubts and ridiculous ideas she had had were swept away, as he said, he was in love with that woman, everything that could have been explained so simply, his heart changed, that's it, no need to say more.
Su Hui thought that she was sitting there, as if she was in an emotion that she couldn't extricate herself from, but her eyes were very hollow, like a desert with no grass, deep and empty as if it were vast.
He didn't know what to say for a while, he knew that she had always been stubborn, but at such a time, he couldn't allow him to hesitate, just lightly, in an explanatory tone: "I am his father, this cannot be changed." ”
Shen Qiangrose clenched her palms hard, only to feel that her back was full of cold sweat, Han Yan's whole body was trembling, she tried her best to make her voice steady, "Why do you think that until now, I will let my children recognize you as a father?" Qishao, I don't care how many warblers and swallows there are around you, isn't it good for you to let them give you a baby? But don't touch my child! You don't deserve it! ”
Su Huiyi chuckled, walked forward slowly, and sat on the edge of the bed silently, the night was already deep and the five fingers were gone, and when he looked at it, it was pitch black everywhere in the room, as if he had covered it with a black cloth, and there was a kind of scorching blackness.
He sat for an unknown amount of time before he asked softly, "Do you hate me?" The low voice seemed to be muttering, so that Shen Qiangrose couldn't help but feel her heart twitch fiercely when she heard it, and it seemed to be held by a pair of warm hands, and the pain was mixed with a trace of stubbornness that was unwilling to break free.
How should she answer him? In fact, she didn't need to think about it, but her personality was so stubborn, so she just replied lightly, "If you don't love it, you don't hate it, I don't want to say anything, you can go." ”
She said it with a hint of weariness and laziness, and even said it in an uncaring tone. Although Su Huiyi didn't move, his hands tightened unnaturally, his eyes burst out with a resolute light in the dark night, and the corners of his mouth were tightly pursed, like a clay stone statue.
He paused for a moment before saying, "That's fine." He got up and walked out slowly, but when he reached the door, he paused, turned his head slightly, and said in a commanding tone: "You'd better not think about just leaving and just stay here, if you need anything, just tell me, and I will meet you." ”
After a pause, he said, "When the month is older, I will arrange a ship to take you to the United States." ”
Shen Qiangrose's tears fell suddenly, as if her heart was being pulled, and it slowly turned into a tearing pain, making her even breathe short, but she still had to pretend to be casual, and said: "What are you, why do you dominate my life, this is my life, I have the right to choose." ”
In fact, she knew that it was useless to argue with him, and even with herself, she didn't know what this painless toss was for? Is it to make him value himself, or is it for him to pray that he will not leave? Or is there a question about how he likes someone else?
Even she couldn't figure it out herself, maybe there were all these factors, and she kept trying to get rid of her relationship with him, maybe it was just to let him tell her softly that everything was fake......
Tears rolled down the corners of her eyes, burning the skin on her face, she felt that she was going to die in this silence, full of emotions all cucked into her heart, squeezing her breathless, what should she do?
Su Huiyi turned around at this time, his eyes looked at her for a moment, but his voice was cold, "Just think of me as domineering, you can blame me, hate me, this matter is settled, if you dare to try to escape, I can guarantee that you will never see your sister again." ”
This sentence undoubtedly added fuel to the fire, igniting all Shen Qiangrose's emotions in an instant, she couldn't hold back any longer, got up and lifted the quilt, and walked up to him barefoot and ignored it, raising her eyes to look at him, his eyes were unwavering, as if facing the most ordinary person.
She smiled sadly at first, then nodded, tears fell silently, she just pursed the corners of her lips and said, "I forgot, Qishao has always been such a person, whatever you want, whatever you want." ”
She didn't feel even the slightest desire to be hoarse, but she turned away with a tired look and said, "Just do as you say, and I'll stay here in peace." ”
The two of them were not far away, Su Huiyi naturally saw her trembling shoulders, as if he was forcibly suppressing his excitement, he unconsciously lowered his eyes and said, "Pregnant people, don't stand on the ground barefoot, go to bed." ”
Shen Qiangrose listened to his gentle voice, and only felt that everything was ironic, so she sneered, "Qi Shao should keep these words for your sweetheart." She walked slowly to the bed, but she felt that her body was shaking uncontrollably, and it was easy to get on the bed, and saw that Su Huiyi was still standing by the door and looking this way.
She clenched her hands fiercely and lay down on the bed, never looking at him again.
Su Huiyi didn't stop, he opened the door and walked out, the night was dark, and the four fields were silent, as if there was only the sound of his departing footsteps in this world.
She curled up and wrapped her arms around herself, only to feel her heart torn and broken, even if she hated the feeling, it was to no avail, she could only let the heartache spread until she was truly numb.
When she opened her eyes, she saw that it was dark all around, and she only felt that the time was too long, as if she had stopped every minute and every second, wrapped in the dark night, so that she could not escape or break free.