That night, Qin Xiaotian rushed downstairs to the dormitory in one go, completely ignoring that Chunming had been calling her from behind. She bent over her hands on her knees and gasped for breath in the small playground below the dormitory building, and there was a fishy smell in her throat, but she couldn't stop.

"Oda, how are you?" Na Chunming ran over and bent over side by side with Qin Xiaotian, also a little panting.

Qin Xiaotian shook his head vigorously, then raised his head and slowly straightened up, his eyes empty.

"Xiaotian?" Na Chunming pulled Qin Xiaotian's sleeve.

"I'm fine." Qin Xiaotian smiled hollowly at that Chunming.

"But I think you're in trouble." Na Chunming tightened Qin Xiaotian's sleeve and pulled her closer.

"I'm fine!" Qin Xiaotian repeated, aggravating his tone, wanting to break away from that Chunming.

"Who says you're okay? Look at your white face! Although Chunming didn't understand what was going on, it must have something to do with Yuan Dutian, and he wanted to punch Yuan Dutian just now.

"I'm fine, I'm fine! I was in too much of a hurry, and I was going up. Qin Xiaotian almost roared, she just wanted to shout now, shake off Na Chunming's hand, and go to the dormitory building, she had to hurry up, otherwise she would burst into tears.

"Xiaotian—" Na Chunming shouted anxiously, hitting the air with a few fists and kicking a few times.

Qin Xiaotian trotted into the dormitory without looking back, leaving Na Chunming alone in the playground to sulk.

Rushing into the dormitory, Qin Xiaotian couldn't control her crying, Tian Li was startled, and Liu Zilan also lifted the curtain and poked her head out of the bed and asked, "Sister Tian, what's wrong?" ”

Qin Xiaotian squatted at the door and hugged his knees and cried loudly, Tian Li said to Liu Zilan apologetically: "I'm sorry, she encountered something tonight, she was in a bad mood, and she made a noise until you rested." In this way, you go to sleep first, and I'll take Xiaotian out to talk. ”

"Sister Lili, Sister Tian, is she okay?" Liu Zilan poked her head and asked cautiously.

"It's okay, you can rest, let's go out for a while." After speaking, Tian Li wanted to help Qin Xiaotian up, but Qin Xiaotian just couldn't afford it.

"Xiaotian, let's go outside and say, you made such a noise to Zilan." Tian Li admonished her in a low voice.

Qin Xiaotian lowered his cry and went out with Tian Li's support. Tian Li helped Qin Xiaotian upstairs, Qin Xiaotian kept her head down and sobbed, she didn't dare to look up, afraid of the occasional passing by. The two of them came to the steps leading to the rooftop on the top floor, usually the door to the rooftop is locked, but it is very quiet here, few people come, under the dim light, Qin Xiaotian's crying face and red and swollen eyes are reflected in Tian Li's eyes.

"What the hell is going on?" Tian Li knew that something must have happened between Qin Xiaotian and Yuan Dutian and Ren Jingya just now, and she had a sense of foreboding in her heart when she came out of the conference room before, but she didn't have anything to tell Qin Xiaotian.

"Lily, you know what, the truth is always cruel!" Qin Xiaotian no longer had the strength to cry, and all that was left was helplessness.

"Is it Ren Jingya's business?" Tian Li helped Qin Xiaotian comb the hair stuck to his cheeks.

"She didn't leave Twilight on purpose, she really had a lot of trouble." Qin Xiaotian leaned on Tian Li's shoulder, wanting to seek support and comfort. Tian Li gently patted Qin Xiaotian's shoulder like a baby.

Qin Xiaotian briefly explained the ins and outs of Ren Jingya's departure, and Tian Li also sighed in her heart, in this way, maybe Qin Xiaotian would be hurt a lot, which she didn't want to see.

That night, Qin Xiaotian did not fall asleep, nor did he reply to Yuan Dutian's text message. She lay on the bed and thought over and over again: Will Yuan Dutian leave her and Ren Jingya to get back together, after all, they loved each other so much before. And it can be seen that Ren Jingya is still in love with Yuan Dutian, and her farewell back then was also unspeakable, Yuan Dutian now knows it, and will definitely consider the relationship between the three of them. The triangular relationship is the most difficult to choose, not to mention that this object is still an ex-girlfriend who has been in the relationship for many years. Qin Xiaotian knew that even a person like Yuan Dutian must have a vulnerable and contradictory side, so would he choose her? She rationally analyzed it and felt that there was little hope of choosing herself, although she was emotionally difficult to accept and painful, but maybe this was the case. After thinking about it, she thought again: If Yuan Dutian really chose Ren Jingya, then what should she do? Smiling and blessing? At least she can't do it now, what can she do? She couldn't think of a second way other than desperately diverting her attention and running away.

Therefore, early the next morning, Qin Xiaotian walked out of the dormitory with a backpack with frog-like eyes. She can only force herself to forget and escape from reality through studying and working all the time, and she is so busy that she is tired and crazy, so that she can not think, listen, or watch, so that she can sleep peacefully.

She didn't bring her mobile phone for three days in a row, burying herself in the provincial library, she didn't want to go into the school library, for fear that someone would disturb her, she didn't dare to look at her phone, she was afraid of knowing any news about Yuan Dutian, she was afraid of hearing what she didn't want to hear the most but might come sooner or later. It's best that no one looks for her, and it's best that no one can find her, so that she is quietly closed in her own world.

She desperately checked the information and rushed to the paper, and when she was tired of writing, she browsed all kinds of recruitment information on the Internet, and then submitted her resume everywhere as if she was in a hurry, and most of the votes were from units outside the province. Before, she had been trying to write her thesis first and then look for a job, so she didn't prepare her resume well, and now she has to toss herself well and get everything in advance. If there is a place to live, Qin Xiaotian doesn't even want to go back to the dormitory, she steps on the closing point to return to the dormitory every day, Tian Li is worried about her, and asks her where she went during the day, she only said that she went to the library, and then she didn't want to say anything, she just wanted to do her own thing quietly, she asked Tian Li not to tell others about her current situation, please Tian Li understand her, she needs to be busy to let herself escape some people and things.

Tian Li could understand, but she couldn't accept that Qin Xiaotian, who was a good person, suddenly became so withdrawn and unwilling to accept the care of others.

"Xiaotian, come closer and let me see!" Hu Xiaojuan slapped the table on the other end of the computer.

Although Qin Xiaotian was reluctant, he could only stretch his head forward for a moment.

"Look at you, your face is swollen, your eyes are swollen, it's only been a few days, and you suddenly look like you're 10 years older. Do you know that the most important thing for a woman to stay young is especially her mentality! Hu Xiaojuan wanted to wake up the listless Qin Xiaotian on the computer screen.

Tian Li walked over and looked at Qin Xiaotian sympathetically, and compared a few actions with Hu Xiaojuan behind Qin Xiaotian, asking Hu Xiaojuan to enlighten Qin Xiaotian well.

"Xiaotian!" Hu Xiaojuan really couldn't do anything about her, sighed and softened her tone: "You don't bring a phone every day, or you just don't turn on the phone, do you plan not to contact people for the rest of your life if you escape like this?" ”

"Of course not, I'm just ...... this time" Qin Xiaotian leaned on the stool and lowered his head in frustration.

"I know, but don't you think your problem is not solved? The matter between you and Yuan Dutian has not yet been decided, you yourself will hide first, your attitude is clear that you want to push Yuan Dutian out! Maybe Yuan Dutian originally wanted to be with you, just because you gave your opponent an opportunity to take advantage of it now, so you gave him to someone like this, are you willing? Take 10,000 steps back and say, even if you really want to break up, are you really willing to separate so indistinctly? Hu Xiaojuan was meticulous and painstaking, just to wake up Qin Xiaotian.

is worthy of Hu Xiaojuan, who has been in love for a long time, seeing Qin Xiaotian falling into deep thought, knowing that she is thinking about her words, and not giving Qin Xiaotian any respite, Hu Xiaojuan continued to hit hard: "I know that everyone is afraid of falling out of love, and I am also afraid, but many things can be avoided without being afraid." If you are really afraid of breaking up, then go and fight hard, keep Yuan Dutian by your side, if you have not achieved the result you want, then there is no regret, and from now on you will officially turn the page and start a new life. In my opinion, you shouldn't be the kind of person who shrunken your head when you encounter something, you usually have a warm temperament when you're fine, but if you encounter difficult things, aren't you always a more frustrated and courageous personality? ”

Yes, it's not that she Qin Xiaotian hasn't fallen out of love, no matter how painful things are, there will always be a day in the past, even if she falls out of love, it's just a trivial matter in life. Why is she hiding? At least she is still Yuan Dutian's rightful girlfriend now, even if she has an ex-girlfriend as a natural rival, she will either fight or break it happily, why trap herself and embarrass others?

Seeing that Qin Xiaotian didn't speak for a long time, Hu Xiaojuan continued to add: "Everyone has a time of vulnerability, and I am the same, but this fragility of feelings must not be our norm, and we are not people who collapse for the sake of a relationship." ”

Isn't it? Qin Xiaotian asked himself. Maybe it's easier for Hu Xiaojuan to come out of a love injury, but is this the case for Qin Xiaotian? She knew that she was cowardly and fragile at this time, that she could be hard, but this hardness was just a disguise, just another escape, sealing herself in a thick shell, cut off from everything she didn't want to see and hear, but was it really forgetting and cheering up?

"If you want to know what Yuan Dutian really thinks, you have to ask it in person, why bother with a silent random speculation." Hu Xiaojuan saw Qin Xiaotian staring at the phone, and asked tentatively, "Waiting for Yuan Dutian's call?" ”

"It's not." Qin Xiaotian shook his head in denial, his thoughts seemed to float far away, and his voice was also far away. "It's because I had more than 10 missed calls a day in the past few days, and there have been fewer text messages and missed calls in the past two days."

"Didn't you answer Yuan Dutian's phone call all this time?" Hu Xiaojuan wanted to pinch Qin Xiaotian to death so much.

Qin Xiaotian nodded numbly.

"You elm head! It's been almost a week, you don't answer the phone every day, what do you think about Yuan Dutian, do you have a hot face and a cold ass? You deserve someone not to call you now. Hu Xiaojuan was so angry that her teeth itched, Qin Xiaotian, this girl, sometimes lacks heart and dies.

"So I want to reply to the text message he just came?" Qin Xiaotian's tone was light.

"Aren't you talking nonsense?" Hu Xiaojuan roared, "What is the content he posted?" ”

"Just ask me what's wrong? When will you answer his phone? Qin Xiaotian picked up her mobile phone and began to flip through the text messages that Yuan Dutian had sent her these days.

- Xiaotian, are you okay? Why don't you answer the phone?

- Xiaotian, what are you doing? See the text message I sent you?

- Xiaotian, I know you're sad and don't want to see me, but I want to talk to you.

- Xiaotian, when did you lose your anger, remember to send me a message back.

……

"Then what are you waiting for, hurry up, make an appointment with him to meet!" Hu Xiaojuan was anxious for Qin Xiaotian in Shanghai.

"But I really didn't think about it and I wasn't ready, I didn't know what he would say, and I didn't know what I should say." There were two villains fighting in Qin Xiaotian's heart, one desperately wanted to rush out to the unknown world, and the other desperately dragged the villain into the door, telling him that the room was the safest.

"When will you be ready! Some things may be able to clear through the fog by taking a step forward, otherwise do you want to hide in the fog all the time and ask for trouble? Hu Xiaojuan continued to encourage Qin Xiaotian to get out of the dark side of his psychology.

"Well, okay, I'll make an appointment tomorrow." Qin Xiaotian let out a long sigh, what should come will always come, isn't it, he can escape to the ends of the earth, and he can't escape his own magic barrier.

"That's right, remember to tell us what the situation is, we will always be your adviser and strong backing." Hu Xiaojuan squeezed her eyes.

"Thank you, Xiaojuan, I don't even know what to say. I just want to say, I'm glad I had you around, otherwise I wouldn't know what to do. Qin Xiaotian is really grateful to her friends, she would be helpless without them.

It's been another sleepless night, Qin Xiaotian has been thinking about how to face Yuan Dutian tomorrow, and what will he say to her? Is it clear to her that he has no thoughts about Ren Jingya now, or will he want to calm down for a while before making a decision.

During this time, Qin Xiaotian had no appetite, so in order not to affect the mood of eating, she and Yuan Dutian made an appointment a little later.

The two had met for the first time in a week, and they were walking side by side half a person apart, feeling very distant. Walking out of the school from Ginkgo Road, speechless all the way. Finally, Yuan Dutian broke the suffocating silence.

"Xiaotian, I'm sorry." After saying these three words, Yuan Dutian didn't know how to say it to express his apologies and hearts, he shouldn't have let Qin Xiaotian run back to the dormitory alone that night, let alone let her get involved in the past rights and wrongs between him and Ren Jingya, if he didn't have to want to know the truth, maybe Qin Xiaotian wouldn't have been hurt.

"I'm sorry what?" Qin Xiaotian's nose was a little sour.

Yuan Dutian grabbed Qin Xiaotian's arm, turned her around to face him, held her shoulders, and looked sincere: "If it weren't for the events of that night, you might not be hiding from me like you are now, and you wouldn't be sad." It's all because I've been obsessed with the truth, which is why I have caused you harm. And I'm so sorry to let you run back alone that night. ”

"So, what was the reason you didn't come after me at the time?" Qin Xiaotian's eyes were also sour, originally if Yuan Dutian chased her back, she might feel better, at least it proved that he cared about her feelings, but he didn't.

"Because Chyya grabbed me and told me to finish her story." Yuan Dutian's eyes were burning.

"Is the rest of the story exciting?" Qin Xiaotian tried his best to restrain his emotions, but he still didn't hide the loss in his heart, he really still thought that her story was more important.

"I was just shocked, I didn't expect the truth that I had been looking for so long to be so ruthless and cruel. Because of illness, the family sold a house here and spent all their savings, so they did not live well in the United States. Her father could only work in a Chinese restaurant introduced by an acquaintance, and Jingya had to apply for a California bar certificate while receiving treatment, and she also had to take care of her mother. It wasn't until the year before last, when my work was on the right track, that my life slowly improved. Yuan Dutian only wanted to state the facts, but to Qin Xiaotian's ears, it was full of too much meaning.

"Do you sympathize with her, then?" Qin Xiaotian lowered her head and turned around and continued to walk forward, her voice was a little small, and she was a little afraid of the answer.

"Of course, I even felt sorry for her, feeling that I didn't take good care of her at that time and made her suffer a lot." Yuan Dutian frowned, trying to keep his voice steady.

Tears quietly spread across his eyelashes, Qin Xiaotian buried his head lower, and tears just dripped onto the shirt on his chest. "So, what are you going to do?" The voice trembled.

Yuan Dutian stopped again, Qin Xiaotian didn't dare to stop, and continued to bury his head and walk forward.

"I love you, Xiaotian." Yuan Dutian chased after a few steps, and behind Qin Xiaotian, he was neither light nor heavy, and spit out these words a little stiffly.

Tears dripped down, Qin Xiaotian sniffed hard, raised his head and took a deep breath, quickly wiped his cheeks with his hands, gritted his teeth and asked, "So what?" What is Ren Jingya to you? ”

"I don't know now, it's a little confusing, but what I like now is you, and for Jingya it may be more of a guilt and can't let go, maybe there are still feelings, but I feel that the feelings are very erratic. It seems that there are more feelings for her than friends and less than lovers! Yuan Dutian lowered his head, he didn't know if he was expressing it accurately, in fact, he didn't know how to express what he was thinking. He didn't want to give up Qin Xiaotian, and he didn't want to hide anything from Qin Xiaotian, he just wanted to tell her what he really felt in his heart. If he was allowed to ignore Ren Jingya at this time, he would not be able to do it.

Qin Xiaotian sniffed again, and in order to control his tears, the corners of his mouth twitched unconsciously.

"And what if one day your feelings for her go from erratic to certain?"

"Xiaotian, don't make such unnecessary assumptions!" Yuan Dutian roared. "No, it won't." He squeezed three words out between his teeth. His heart is actually not as calm as it seems on the surface, he is also afraid, he is afraid of losing Qin Xiaotian, and he is also afraid of hurting Ren Jingya, who can understand the pain of this choice and contradiction? Besides, he has no one to talk to here. A few nights ago, because Qin Xiaotian had been refusing to answer the phone, he had no choice but to dial the transatlantic phone and confide in Xiang Chao for more than 1 hour, but what a bad idea did that stinky boy have! actually asked him not to choose either of them, and find another one, so that it is good for both of them, and he is not indebted, what a bad suggestion, he should not find a person who changes women like changing clothes to pour bitter water.

"You are so embarrassed, which shows that this assumption is not untenable." Qin Xiaotian wiped his tears again, his throat seemed to be choked with a thousand words, but he couldn't say it.

"Xiaotian, don't be like this, don't cry like this. I'm even more uncomfortable with you like this. Yuan Dutian gently covered Qin Xiaotian's face with his palm and wiped away the tears on her face with his thumb.

"So, what are we going to do? What am I going to do? Qin Xiaotian cried.

"Xiaotian, can you give me some time? I need to sort out my emotions, but I want you to know that my heart for you hasn't changed. I want to be good to you, I want to protect you, I want to see the world with you, I want to participate in your life, I want to love you well. I just hope you understand how I'm feeling right now, give me some time to sort things out, and let me prove myself to you. Yuan Dutian held Qin Xiaotian's shoulders with both hands and looked at Qin Xiaotian who was crying with his head tilted.

Intellectually speaking, Qin Xiaotian can understand Yuan Dutian's thoughts, but emotionally speaking, she is difficult to accept, she just wants a man to devote himself wholeheartedly to herself, is this wrong? Why did she encounter such a bloody plot?

When her gaze met Yuan Dutian's somewhat low-voiced and infinitely pleading eyes, she gave up her inner struggle, closed her eyes and said, "How long?" How long will it take you to recognize your own heart and get things in order? ”

Yuan Dutian's eyes glowed with joy, he was afraid that Qin Xiaotian would insist on forcing him to give a result now, or really walk away, so that he would be more miserable, but he didn't expect her to give him hope. He naturally knew that if it weren't for his hope and love, Qin Xiaotian would not be willing to give him time to sort out his feelings.

"I've been looking for you this week, and you haven't given me a chance. Actually, I wanted to tell you something very important. Yuan Dutian took Qin Xiaotian's hand and walked forward slowly.

"What's the matter?" Qin Xiaotian tried to restrain his emotions and let the tears stop.

"The day after Professor Su's speech, the institute held an exchange meeting with the school, and decided that I and Mr. Zhou, who is studying for a PhD at Peking University, to assist Professor Su and them in completing a national civil law project, and at the same time, we will also go to their Peking University Law School and the research institute in Beijing to study and exchange. I have to report to Beijing next week. Yuan Dutian spoke quickly, and only deliberately slowed down his speech speed in the last sentence.

"How long are you going?" Qin Xiaotian was surprised, just because she didn't want to leave Yuan Dutian this week, she just wanted to hide, and as a result, she missed a lot of time with Yuan Dutian, she felt sad and ridiculous.

"By the end of the semester."

Qin Xiaotian counted in his heart, which meant that they would be separated for 3 months. "Are you going to stay in Beijing until July?"

"Pretty much, but I'll try to get back before you graduate." Yuan wanted to celebrate her graduation with her. "You should write your dissertation and find a job during this time, and if you need my help, just ask."

"Is there one more thing you can promise me?" Yuan Dutian's flattering tone made the defense line in Qin Xiaotian's heart gradually fade.

"What's the matter?"

"Please, please don't let me find you in the future, I'll be afraid." Yuan Dutian clenched Qin Xiaotian's hand.

Qin Xiaotian nodded, thinking: During this time of separation, Yuan Dutian can just be used to sort out feelings? Is three months enough time for him to finish tidying up? Enough should be enough! She asked Yuan Dutian if Ren Jingya was looking for him this week? Yuan Dutian was very sincere and told her that Ren Jingya did not ask him alone, but just went to see off Professor Su together. Because he has never been able to find Qin Xiaotian, Yuan Dutian is not in a good mood, and he loves to ignore everyone, and Ren Jingya is no exception.

Qin Xiaotian cried enough, but he couldn't see enough of the people who were about to leave in front of him. Yuan Dutian sent her downstairs to the dormitory and hugged her gently, as if she had endless love words, and felt that every love word was not good, so she could only turn into "I like you" again and again.

Qin Xiaotian told Tian Li that he would give Yuan Dutian time to think about the relationship between them, and Tian Li agreed, but she reminded Qin Xiaotian not to show that she was worried, to get along as usual, and to fall in love normally. After Hu Xiaojuan found out, she reminded Qin Xiaotian that she must pay attention to Ren Jingya, she didn't show that she was not optimistic, too many things can happen in 3 months.

Before Yuan Dutian left, she invited Qin Xiaotian to eat her favorite hometown dish, ordered her favorite sauerkraut snowflake fish, carefully removed the fish bones and fed them to Qin Xiaotian to eat, and peeled the shrimp shell for her. Such a gentle and considerate Yuan Mutian made Qin Xiaotian fall into a huge soft silk net, and it was like falling into a large pile of white and soft cotton, fluttering, and it felt very unreal.

On the day Yuan Dutian left, Qin Xiaotian sent him to the airport, Yuan Mutian hugged her into his arms and kissed her forehead, at this moment Qin Xiaotian was reluctant and happy, but also uncertain about the future.

"Xiaotian, you must take care of yourself, and besides, I said that you are not allowed to answer the phone or reply to the message like last time, I can't find you, I will be worried." Yuan Mutian whispered softly in her ear, which made Qin Xiaotian's heart ripple.

"Don't worry, I will eat and drink well!" Qin Xiaotian wanted to make the parting atmosphere lighter.

"You!! It's a snack! Yuan Mutian poked her in the head.

"People take food as their heaven, no matter how big things are, they have to eat, right?" Qin Xiaotian played a clever little naughty skill.

"Xiaotian." Yuan Mutian suddenly said with a straight face.

Qin Xiaotian was a little confused about this sudden change of face, "What's wrong?" Qin Xiaotian became uneasy.

"I have to tell you something, I just learned about this matter not long ago, I heard the dean mention it, I don't know how much truth there is."

"What's the matter?" Qin Xiaotian was worried about hearing bad news.

"I happened to hear our dean mention yesterday that Ren Jingya might also go to Beijing, as if Professor Su invited her to come over to assist in the project and give some professional examples." Yuan Dutian looked at Qin Xiaotian a little nervously, afraid that Qin Xiaotian would overreact when he found out, but he felt that he had to tell her.

Qin Xiaotian's heart was beating faster, she didn't expect Ren Jingya to actually participate in the project, so wouldn't she have to be scared for 3 months?

"When is she going to Beijing?" Qin Xiaotian woke up from the sweetness of happiness just now, and his heart sank.

"I don't know, I really don't know, I heard this yesterday, maybe it's not certain whether to go or not!" Yuan Dutian emphasized that he did not know in advance, let alone other inside stories.

"Such a good opportunity, she will definitely go!" Qin Xiaotian muttered quietly, but Yuan Dutian still heard it.

"Xiaotian, you have to believe me, I'm not a person who is irresponsible about feelings, I don't want to see you sad, you said to give me and us two time to think about it, I will cherish the time you gave me." Yuan Dutian's eyes were very sincere, Qin Xiaotian knew that he was not lying, but she was worried that he was too responsible for his feelings and had to be responsible for his past feelings together.

"Well, you can get in quickly, you'll be boarding the plane in a moment." Qin Xiaotian urged him.

"Hug again!" Yuan Dutian also had times when he was coquettish, which made Qin Xiaotian's heart tremble slightly.

"Alright!" Seeing that Yuan Dutian didn't let go of her for a long time, Qin Xiaotian wanted to break free of that warm embrace, "Hurry up and go to the security check, otherwise your name will be broadcast later." ”

"Well, I can't bear you, I haven't seen you for so long. Why don't you come to Beijing after your defense, and I'll show you around. Yuan Dutian let her go.

"I'll talk about it then, you hurry." Qin Xiaotian urged him again.

"I know, you pay attention to your body by yourself, don't stay up late, it's easy to get old if you hurt your liver, wait until you go back to school and report to me that you're safe."

"Teacher Yuan, when did you become so verbose, come in!" Qin Xiaotian pushed Yuan Dutian.

"Also, work hard for your paper! Be sure to let me know if you have any questions! Yuan Dutian finally confessed uneasily.

Qin Xiaotian was happy that Yuan Dutian cared about her so much, and at the same time impatiently urged him to hurry into the security check.

Yuan Dutian stood at the security checkpoint and looked back at Qin Xiaotian, and the two waved goodbye. At the moment when she turned to leave, Qin Xiaotian's heart seemed to be emptied a little bit, the happiness just now turned illusory, and a strong sense of gain and loss made her worry that she once again felt like a fragile clown in her relationship.

I can't help but be vulnerable, but I can make myself stronger and counteract that abrasive feeling of powerlessness. Qin Xiaotian cheered himself on the way back to school.

Digression: Qin Xiaotian is too ordinary, so ordinary that she will not be confident in the face of Yuan Dutian, she is obsessed with why Yuan Dutian likes her such an ordinary girl, plus she is not a brave and reckless person in her relationship, so she is often trapped in her own emotions and contradictions, sometimes she wants to hold on, sometimes she wants to give up this relationship, trapped in her emotions that constantly add uncertainties to herself, making it difficult for her to see her own and others' sincerity. In the final analysis, I am actually afraid that I will be hurt, and I selfishly want to hide alone, and make up a good world for myself.