In this competition, Yan Guo won in the end, and the current scene has formed a 1:1 situation, and the third written test will be held.

Because the two of them are equal, the spiritual power consumed is also very huge, and the time it takes is relatively long, a full stick of incense longer than the last time.

Xiao Yezi was a little bored, so he walked around with Liu Ye, but he didn't expect it, but he found a crying person, Xiao Yezi didn't want to care.

But......

"System prompt: Mission released, take in Nangong Qiao Xin."

"Who is Nangong Qiao Xin? This woman in front of you? "Xiao Yezi is a little angry, does she really seem to be opening a shelter?

"That's right, it's the person in front of you. Master, there are only benefits and no disadvantages for you to keep her, you believe me, I will never cheat you. ”

It was the first time that Zihan tried her best to let her take in someone, Xiao Yezi was a little curious, what kind of person was this, and he could make Zihan so excited.

"Who are you?" Xiao Yezi's cold voice sounded, and Nangong Qiao Xin lost his mind for a moment, this voice seemed to be ......

Nangong Qiao Xin raised her head, and the moment she saw Xiao Yezi, there was a flash of loss, and Xiao Yezi didn't understand where her emotions came from.

But she found that she didn't seem to hate her, which was a little strange, not only did she not hate her, but there was some closeness, did she have anything to do with her?

Maybe Zihan will know a little bit, but now is obviously not the time to ask.

"I'm Nangong Qiao Xin." It's also a phantom butterfly.

"Why are you here? Why cry here? Perhaps out of a good impression of her, Xiao Yezi couldn't help but ask a few more words.

Nangong Qiao Xin may also feel that Xiao Yezi is closer and more similar to that person, and she doesn't feel that she wants to be close to her.

She didn't have anything just now, but suddenly she was sad and couldn't control it, she just ......

Suddenly, I found that I was really a grain of sand in the world, and I couldn't function without anyone.

And she herself suddenly found that it seemed that whoever left her could live well, but she seemed to live very badly.

She envied everything about others, especially looking at the people around her, one after another, one by one, so happy, and suddenly she was in a trance.

I used to have a happy life, but now why is I alone? And it's still such a bad self.

I don't really understand, I don't really understand, I don't know why. Her heart...... Gradually, gradually, it became barren, leaving not a single trace of life.

I really miss him, especially ...... In this sad moment, every time I am vulnerable, I want someone to accompany me, but it doesn't seem to be.

Nangong Qiao Xin didn't feel that he could show everyone his vulnerability, too

Not everyone was able to understand her feelings.

They didn't have any obligations or responsibilities to accompany her, so she never asked for anything, because she knew she wasn't qualified, and sometimes because she wasn't worthy.

She never resented them, maybe she was a little angry at the time, but after that period of time, in fact, she was able to figure it out.

Maybe it's really because they will compare them with the previous one, or maybe it's because they have met a person who is very good to themselves, so if he treats himself badly, he will subconsciously think of that person's goodness.

Since leaving that person, her life has been unusually bad, I don't know what the reason is, maybe it's because ...... Because she's too annoying, because she's too ......

She made a mess of herself, and her life was very bad, but he was doing well, at least, much better than when he was with her, probably like this.

Maybe that's just the surface, who knows. Anyway, she's real, she really can't even do the superficial phenomenon.

I really feel so tired, so tired, so tired, I want to stop and rest, I really want to have someone to rely on, but it seems to be really difficult.

She didn't know why it was so difficult, was it because she was too demanding? Or is it because she has done so many things wrong and deserved the punishment.

Did she really do a lot of wrong things in the past, make herself into ruins, make herself dislike herself, and resented them? Probably yes.

But it's more about resenting yourself. Resentful of oneself, too soft-hearted, too undetermined, too ...... Guilty of cheapness.

Maybe she really doesn't deserve love like this, so she is a little scared, afraid to fall in love with the familiar people around her.

Because Nangong Qiao Xin is such a person, a person who will not hide things about herself from them, but the impression of the people around her is ...... It's really, it's really beautiful.

But what they don't know is how ugly and disgusting she is under such a beautiful surface.

She likes white, I don't know if she wants to cover up the ugliness in her heart, or because she really looks good in white, probably both.

Sometimes, words don't take much, maybe just a look at the other person can grasp the full meaning of you.

Maybe it's a long process, but if it does, it will be extremely happy.

But the early tribulation is very difficult, it is really not easy to do it, if you can't persevere, there may be no sweetness in the later stage, only the bitterness in the early stage.

She used to think that none of us would live the same life, but now she finds that she is really wrong.

After he left her, his life was still wonderful, and it didn't seem to have any effect, while she herself lived worse and worse day by day

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If she hadn't met him, maybe she would have lived a little better than she has now, but God let her meet him, and she doesn't know if this is her fate.

She recently saw a story, I don't know if what he said is right or wrong, the main thing is that before we were reincarnated, we have quickly skimmed through our lives, so sometimes we see a certain scene and it feels familiar, and that's because we have already seen it once.

In fact, she has also had such an experience, sometimes she just feels very familiar, but she is very sure that she has not experienced it, maybe we have really quickly browsed our lives before reincarnation.

She doesn't know why I chose such a life, maybe there is no other choice, maybe this is the best of all the options, otherwise why would she choose such a life?

In fact, the person she should resent the most is herself, no matter how big the other people do, for themselves, it is just a ...... It's yourself who is the main factor.

If you don't think about it, how can others coerce it? There may be some irresistible factors, but if you are resolutely opposed, you will never have a bad life like now.

She wasn't sure if it was the worst of times, and maybe if it wasn't changed in time, there might be worse times in the future, but how should it be changed?

She felt a little bad, really not good, whether it was physical or mental, she was not sure how long she could hold on now, she had never felt so hard to endure the insults and tortures before.

Hurt again and again, abandoned again and again, maybe she herself has really reached the limit of what she can bear.

She didn't know where he was after her? Maybe he's getting farther and farther away from me in the midst of my mistakes.

Maybe she'...... I've lost him. She didn't even know if she should cry or cry silently.

None of that seems to be ...... None of them should have it, and in their eyes, they will always be that lively and cheerful person.

But they really don't know themselves, they don't understand what kind of person they really are.

She didn't have anyone to talk to about her heart, and she didn't even dare to tell them what she really thought, and she didn't dare to tell them what she had experienced.

I'm really cowardly, very cowardly, and I'm really bad like this, really very, very bad.

She thinks that in fact, everyone is much more cheerful than her, and it is only because they hide it very well, better than any of them, that they think they are a cheerful person.

That's not because he's really cheerful, but because he's a hidden master. She can bring her own truth

All emotions are hidden, revealing the emotions they want.

And who can comfort her own wounded heart, she can jokingly say that she has had several boyfriends and broke up quickly.

She was able to accept with a smile that they called her a scumbag, because she knew they were saying it as if they were joking, and they didn't have any opinions about themselves as a person.

Maybe they are still very envious, but they don't know the truth of the matter at all, and they really have a good heart, but they don't know why, maybe it's because of ...... Because I can't put it down yet, it won't end well.

Slowly, slowly, she suddenly forgot, forgot what it was like to be in love? Forgot what it means to be in love? Forgot what it takes to be in love?

She didn't know if she had made the right decision, and it seemed that every time she made a decision, she would regret it, because every time she made a decision, she might get hurt.

Slowly, slowly, she became suspicious of her decision, maybe she was really not the one to make the right decision.

Maybe she has been making bad decisions all her life, maybe it will continue in the future, maybe there will never be an end.

She didn't know what the point of such a person was, she suddenly found that she was really decadent, she was really cowardly, and she was really, really, really pitiful.

She found that she could only have a temporary peace when others took pity on her, and when others found their true home, her temporary peace would be shattered.

She was only a temporary shelter for them, not a harbor for them to dock, because it was so dilapidated that no one wanted to approach it.

No one cares about crying in the wind, no one cares about crying in the rain, no one cares about such a shabby little harbor.

Envy the vitality of children, envy the innocence and cuteness of children, and envy their ignorance of troubles.

I really want to go back to when I was a child, back to that carefree moment, I always report safety with my parents and don't say such annoying things to them, because I don't want them to worry.

(End of chapter)