364 Queen's Dream
"Why can't you just let go of everything? The only way to get rid of this is to let go. An Qingyan said on the side. He knew, yes! He knew, he knew the inhumane encounters that Shangguan Min'er had encountered. It's just that everything has become a fact, it's not that he wants to expose people's scars, he just doesn't want Shangguan Min'er to be controlled by hatred again and again.
An Qingyan's strength range is very large, although others were in the court at that time, they could collect all the information in the world. However, on the same night he received this information, all of his people died in an accident. At that time, he couldn't be sure of the authenticity of the source, so he pressed it in his heart.
Later, he also sent people to investigate the matter several times, but without exception they all returned empty-handed. Everything is covered by the huge hand hidden behind the back, and all the truth is erased. Although, at that time, An Qingyan was sure that he couldn't be sure of what he knew, but now judging from the whole thing that Shangguan Min'er did these things, it seems that what he said at the beginning was true.
When An Qingyan said this, Shangguan Min'er was suddenly shocked, judging from An Qingyan's tone and expression, he must have known what happened at that time. It turned out that everything still couldn't be hidden from the old fox, and she should have guessed early on that they must have sent out the news before they killed the two spies from the Killer Gate. "Down? Have you ever put it down?? Here, Shangguan Min'er is naturally referring to An Qingyan's matter to An Qing.
In fact, in Shangguan Min'er's opinion, she and An Qingyan are actually quite similar, really similar. In order to avenge his sister, didn't he also do a lot of crazy things at one time? So, why should she not do it for herself, for her Amma? As long as she is the one who holds the supreme power at that time, then the whole world will be convinced of her at that time.
That's right, at this time, Shangguan Min'er still has a 'queen dream' in her heart, if she wants to redeem the beautiful things she once passed, she must climb to the top of the power after her hands are stained with blood. At that time, she must still be the most beautiful, and everyone will not look down on her because of her uncleanness, and she will control the whole world.
"Me? ......" An Qingyan pondered for a moment, he really couldn't control himself for An Qing's sake back then, and finally there was a catastrophe under the window. Perhaps, this is also the reason why An Qingyan did not have the depth to investigate Shangguan Min'er at the beginning. At that time, I inexplicably had a feeling that Shangguan Min'er was also a fallen person at the end of the world, did I have an echo in my heart?
For Yu Anqing's blow to him at that time, everything Shangguan Min'er did now is understandable. At the beginning, he couldn't hold on to a single man, let alone that she was just a woman? The pain of losing a loved one, watching her blood fall in front of your eyes, is like a nightmare that you can't wake up.
In addition, Shangguan Min'er was ruined, this must have been a great irritation to her, right? What do women value most? It is nothing more than one's own chastity, which would rather die than be insulted. Perhaps, how thin is the red face, An Qingyan really can't continue to make any criticism of Shangguan Min'er's various experiences. At least, he doesn't even have the qualifications to criticize!!
But, "I let it go!" Just as An Qingyan replied to Shangguan Min'er, he glanced at Gu Yanran seriously. Yes, he really put it down. An Qingyan thought that he was much luckier than Shangguan Min'er, and there was a person by his side who had been silently infecting him with 'love'.
In the past, his heart was like ashes, and his natural methods would be ruthless and inhumane. Now, his heart has been occupied by love, and as long as he thinks of everything Gu Yanran has done for him, his heart is full of emotion. A person's greatest fear is heart death, and he is very glad that he is alive again.
"......" Shangguan Min'er frowned, he said that when he put it down, why did he look at that woman? Could it be that woman who changed him? Looking at An Qingyan's calm face now, she couldn't believe it, is she really the only one who is still obsessed now?
In fact, she has always been jealous of Gu Yanran, crazy jealousy. Although she is as beautiful as a fairy, she is not as ugly as this woman to the extreme.
Perhaps, no one will believe it when she says it, she would rather have Gu Yanran's current appearance than her face as the 'No. 1 beauty in the Dragon Yueguo'. If it weren't for her face, she wouldn't have been insulted, and maybe she wouldn't be what she is. In the past, she was also kind~~
Shangguan Min'er's jealousy of Gu Yanran is far more than that, she doesn't understand, why can she win the favor of Huang Puyu with such an ugly face? Why is there always so many people around this woman who love her? Why does this woman always have a smile on her lips? Why was this woman able to conceive a child for Huangpu Yu? All of this is what she doesn't have, and the more so, the more she goes crazy with jealousy.
Women are always sensitive animals. Especially for a woman who has been injured, the inferiority complex in her heart is actually very strong, and the more she is afraid, the more distorted her heart will be. When she meets someone who is luckier than her in every way, her heart will begin to explode, blaming that woman for everything that has happened to her.
Actually, that woman doesn't have to be Gu Yanran, it can also be a certain xx or a certain xx, Shangguan Min'er just wants to find an outlet, because her heart is too depressed. Only by diverting certain emotions can she feel better. In fact, her nature is really not bad, she is all a mess of life.
In this world, no one wants to be evil, and those so-called wicked people are not born with evil spirits. It's just that it may be because when I was born, I inherited some of my parents' personalities, and then it was the edification of the growth environment, and then it was the experience of growing up. People say that it takes three years to learn well, and three seconds to learn badly, so no one can be a good person for a lifetime, nor can they be a bad person for a lifetime.
- The most important thing is to achieve 'three times a day and three times a body'.
"I'm sure you're just like me then, just blinded by hatred. But you trust me, and since I can rest assured, you can too. As long as there is someone who loves you by your side, as long as you are willing to accept this love and feel this love, love can heal all the scars you have suffered. An Qingyan's heart is no longer hateful, not because he really knows how to let go, but because he has discovered something better. Of course, you can also say that he had an epiphany, and he found that 'you go to protect someone, it is far happier than you hurt someone'.
An Qingyan pointed out that the love in Shangguan Min'er's heart is naturally Huangpu Yu. It's just that because of Gu Yanran's involvement between them, Shangguan Min'er will never feel it. She neglected love and valued hate more, so she has not changed. A Gu Yanran who is not moved in her heart, only hatred, no matter how deep Huang Puyu's love for her is, it will not help.
"Love? Do I still have love? I've lost my family and have nothing left. "Ama and E-Niang don't want her anymore, who will love a woman like her? Huangpu jade? She didn't even dare to think about Huang Puyu, and she couldn't even see clearly whether their An Fen love was still there back then.
- This is a common thing in women called 'insecurity'.
"Don't you really feel the king's love for you?" At this time, Huang Puyu suddenly walked in from outside. After he came in, he just stood where he was, his eyes fixed on Shangguan Min'er, and he had to wait for her answer.
All the things that Shangguan Min'er has encountered, he knows very well that he loved her so much at that time. Even though Shangguan Min'er was sent to the border, he still secretly sent someone to secretly protect her, and kept inquiring about everything about her.
After he knew about it, he locked himself up for three days, without eating or drinking. At that time, his eyes were red and swollen, and he really wanted to go over and kill those beasts immediately. However, he was eventually stopped. The queen mother found out about his abnormality, and finally stopped him, and the queen mother told him that that kind of place was not where he should go, as for Shangguan Min'er, it was all fate.
Since then, he has hated the word 'life', and he has begun to live a life of addiction to alcohol, and his life has become more and more chaotic. Grounded, he couldn't go anywhere, so he could only torture himself again and again.
Soon, he got the news again, saying that Min'er had gathered all the people who had rebelled before, and he felt that the whole sky was going to fall. Confused!!
All this, Huang Puyu blamed himself for everything, why did he agree to cooperate with Qi Haoxuan? Why did he personally come to Fengming Country to exterminate this gang of thieves, it was because he didn't want Shangguan Min'er to end up in the hands of others.
He had already planned before he came, and as soon as everything was settled, he would take Shangguan Min'er and fly away to live a life of only the two of them. Of course, Gu Yanran's appearance was indeed an accident for him. Huang Puyu knows very well that he is not a flowery person, but he is by no means a cold-blooded and ruthless person, and his heart will beat for love.
That's right, this time he was ordered to exterminate the remnants of the rebels of General Shangguan. However, from beginning to end, he never thought about hurting Shangguan Min'er.
Watching Shangguan Min'er sink deeper and deeper, he really wanted to tell her, 'He doesn't mind, he really doesn't mind!' Since he loved her, he didn't care about unpleasant things. On the contrary, he regrets himself, because he is incapable and unable to protect the woman he loves.
In terms of feelings, Huang Puyu has always felt that he is a failure, because he is really a failure.