At this point, this twist and turn is over.

Chapters 185 to 230 are adapted from real people and true stories, acknowledgement:

Snow Wolf, Yuke, Leng Yan, Bangyi, Yuzi, Ran Ai, Dongyu, Demon, Muluo, Berlin Blue, Xiaomeng (Void Puppet), Li Jifan

These stories come from my life.

Speaking of which, it was during the summer vacation of 2017.

At that time, I was like Blake in the recent drama, spending those times in suspicion, doubt, loneliness, and fear.

The summer vacation was sunny, but my days were full of gloom.

It was an unbearable memory, a nightmare that I didn't dare to restart.

But I'm not as lucky as Blake.

My former friends chose to leave forever after their trust with me was broken.

There was no reconciliation again.

I wandered for a long time, like Blake wandering the crater and the shore, wanting to die, but using the memories of the past to stumble my steps to hell.

I began to wonder if all the people around me had a conspiracy to be so good to me, whether every word was directed at me, whether every look and movement was deeply hostile.

Like Blake, I began to quietly follow the news of my former comrades, hiding in the corner and watching them, watching the people with whom I used to laugh, counting my faults where I thought I couldn't see.

I'm close to breaking down.

I felt like the whole world was dark.

So what am I doing here?

Why should I live?

Does it make any sense?

I can't sleep well and I can't eat. I have nightmares.

Like that reed Pyle virus, the torment is deep.

I was still part of Blake's luck after all.

I have friends who are in the dust.

In the dust, such an existence is probably that it can not exist in ordinary times, but at the critical moment, it will stand up bravely, open its arms, and protect you behind you.

Zaichen's existence is probably that, although it is very painful to even hug you, he will still grit his teeth and embrace you in his arms when you are at your coldest.

Zaichen's existence is probably that although he is usually fighting with you except for bickering, you let him accompany you through several long sleepless nights in this bickering.

Zaichen's existence is probably yelling at you to get out of here, I don't want to see you again, but I still stay by your side.

Zaichen's existence is probably that if the whole world betrays you, then he betrays the whole world for you.

In the presence of dust, there is always someone behind you, willing to raise his hands and hold the sky above you that is about to fall apart.

Such an existence in the dust is probably that in your dark days, he is willing to sacrifice himself to become a ray of light that illuminates your whole world.

No matter what kind of frustration and despair there are in life, it is just a test, you just need to calm down and wait for it to come to an end. In this process, you may be in pain, maybe you will despair, maybe you will struggle on the edge of life and death, but you must be strong and confident.

No matter how much tribulation it takes, it will eventually pass.

Maybe the damage it brings is eternal, maybe it makes you lose something that will never come back, but do you dare to believe that time is like medicine to heal the wounds that tear your heart, but do you have the courage to face a new life that is half-shallow after the disaster?

What should come will come after all, and you can't hide from it;

Those who should go will eventually go, and they can't be stopped.

What belongs to you, you don't want it and it must come to you;

What doesn't belong to you, no matter how extravagant you are, you won't really get it.

In the natural world, flowers bloom and fall, and the tide rises and falls, which is an inviolable truth;

On the road of life, there are twists and turns, bitter and sweet, which is an indispensable experience.

Since we are all passers-by in each other's lives, we should bring an indifferent heart, go through the years of mountains and rivers, and smile at the ups and downs of the world.

Ernest Hemingway once said, "Life always leaves us bruised, but in the end, those wounded places will surely become our strongest places." "Who hasn't been hurt? Injury is not terrible, you have to learn to deal with it calmly, even if you have endless hardships in your heart, you don't need to mention it, it is only right to raise your head and live.

On the battlefield of life, we must not only have the perseverance to get up after falling, the courage to pick up weapons and fight again, but also from the moment we are defeated, we must begin to prepare for the next wave of struggle, and even do not allow ourselves to fall and not allow ourselves to be pessimistic. Then, we will not lose completely, but only "do not win" for the time being.

No matter how hard it is, we go step by step, walk steadfastly, and never resist the burden that life gives us, so that we are brave.

On the journey of life, it is impossible to have smooth sailing and everything to go smoothly, and at any time you may encounter various difficulties, unexpected things, suffer many disturbances and contradictions, and even experience failures and setbacks. When the wind, rain, thunder and lightning in life hit mercilessly, we should bravely meet it, hurt, hurt, cry, but also endure it. Life has to experience the ravages of wind and rain, as if it is a kind of fate that cannot be escaped, every time you check the scars, you don't have to give birth to resentment and pity - do not complain about fate, do not pity yourself. Only steal a little shallow thought in the lightning and thunder, to dress up the plain time, relieve the horror and trembling of life, and bloom a smile that may wither at any time in the softest place of the heart.

Of course, I hope that on the road to chasing your dreams, you can also have friends like Zaichen to accompany you, you have absolute trust, and you can rest assured that you can completely hand over your back to each other when fighting.

And remember, trust is mutual. One-way trust is hard to maintain for long.

Stick to your original intention, no matter whether the times have changed, whether the road is far away, as long as it is something that has been identified, then stick to it and go to the other side of success!

Face life with a smile and be strong to show yourself!

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Do you have the courage to continue to face the arrogance of gossip

Do you dare to continue to do what you do, and let your heart soar

Hide your cowardice

Spread out your bravery

Self-abandonment and self-pity are not what you should be

Chasing the light, chasing the light

Don't forget your intentions and beliefs

Tracing the light, tracing the light

Guarding the heart and dreams

I'm afraid who will laugh at your madness

What is out of reach, don't let it be a wish

Do you have the courage to keep your fighting spirit high?

Do you dare to keep your share of strength strong?

Under the sea of stars, I miss my hometown

Under the sea of stars, dreams of vicissitudes

Self-esteem, self-love, self-confidence, self-improvement, and write your heroic posture

Seek the light, find the light

Mo buried the dream with his own hands

Backlight, backlight

It is agreed that the triumphant song will be sung

There will be no despair in our hearts

Rekindle hope for love and friendship