"Yiyi, it's really early after school today, why don't we go to the lake for a while."

It was dark late in the beginning of spring, which became a better reason for He Beifan to stay outside.

Ye Nianyi looked at the young man standing next to him, and suddenly felt that it had been a long time since he had taken a break with him.

This proposal was just right, and after thinking about it, she agreed lightly, "Okay, I'm not in a hurry to go back to the piano store anyway." ”

They had just come out of the school building, and there were a lot of pedestrians on the street, which inevitably made people feel crowded.

"Why don't we take the path, okay?" Beifan suggested a little casually.

"Hmm." Nian Yi agreed softly, and there was a thoughtful look on his cheeks.

He Beifan didn't know what she was thinking anymore, but he knew that she was smiling happily.

The two of them then went to the lake, where the ice and snow had just melted in early spring.

The bright green willow branches are pulled out of the tender strips, and it is a lively scene.

"It's been a long time since I've been to the lake." Ye Nianyi looked at the dim light by the lake, and seemed to be talking to herself.

He Beifan stared at the girl's eyes, he seemed to have not looked at her so carefully for a long time.

The warmth on that cheek made him feel incredibly comfortable.

"Do you know, Beifan, when I was young, I liked to play here, and my father's piano shop was very busy."

"So there's always not so much time to take care of me, and when I'm bored alone, I'll always walk around here."

"Even if no one talks to me, and no one knows what I'm thinking, it's a joy for me to just wander around the lake casually."

The girl said and glanced affectionately at the lake in front of her.

"But, you know what, Beifan, it's been a long time since I've felt that kind of happiness."

"That happiness seemed to be close to me, but when I reached for it, I found that I was so far away from it."

Nian Yi said, and couldn't help but have a wry smile on his face.

"But you know what, Beifan, I really miss that time, being able to play carefree every day, and not being affected by anything at all."

"At that time, I always wanted to grow up, and I was very envious of the power I could have as an adult."

"But now, I don't want to be an adult anymore, but I know that day will come." She said with a calm look on her face, and inadvertently closed her lips.

He Beifan just stood aside and listened quietly, his eyes looked as full of light as usual, but he didn't know why he was a little more sad unconsciously.

"I also want to go back to that time and experience the feeling of relaxation."

"Like, it's been a long time since I've played like that, and I don't want to put so much pressure on myself."

"But you know what, I don't feel at ease until I tense myself up and think about what happened afterward."

The young man's tone was very low, although Beifan's words were very tactful, Nian Yi could also hear what he meant.

It's just that she also seems helpless about such a thing, and she doesn't know how to help him.

What's more, she is now also a mud bodhisattva crossing the river, and it is difficult to protect herself.

"So, why do you think this is happening, why we used to think about nothing, but now."

Ye Nianyi couldn't help but sigh as she spoke, and looked at He Beifan's eyes with a little more sympathy inadvertently.

"Because we've grown up." He unconsciously interrupted Nian Yi's words.

"We understand the rules of the world, and we want to have a better life."

"So, we have to push ourselves to do what we can, otherwise, we won't get anything."

Bei Fan's tone was very light, but he had to admit that such words were really cruel, and they didn't seem to be quite the same as the mind he should have at his age.

"Can you not be so sad?" Ye Nianyi seemed to have touched the dark side of He Beifan's heart, and there was a feeling of avoiding it.

"It's not that I'm sad, it's that reality is like this."

Bei Fan bit his lip lightly, and seemed to be more determined in his thoughts.

"Don't you think? Everything we do now is just to survive, that's all. ”

"Is it ridiculous to say that it is for the pursuit of a higher quality of life? You have to take off a few layers of skin that you are tired. ”

Beifan said as if he had a somewhat questioning tone.

Ye Nianyi could feel that the topics they were talking about were getting heavier and heavier, and these were exactly what she didn't like.

"Actually, no, we can make ourselves happy, can we?"

"Even if there are so many unsatisfactory things, we can change our opinions."

"If this has already happened, and we can't reverse it, why don't we make ourselves happy, don't you think?"

She looked at He Beifan's eyes as if they were still so gentle, even if the topic he was talking about really made her feel a sense of loss.

"Hmm. I'll admit it's hard to do that, it's hard to be happy under so much pressure. ”

"Sometimes, I feel like I'm going to have a breakdown, but then I think I can't let myself break down so soon."

"After all, I still have a lot of things to do in my life, and I have to do it on my own, and if I break down, who else can help me do it?"

He stared at Ye Nianyi's eyes, as if he was comforting himself.

He Beifan would definitely not be able to say such words on weekdays, but today is an exception, he really wants to be very frank and talk to Nian Yi about what he thinks.

"You're right, there are some things that we have to do, and it doesn't seem to need any reason, no excuses, just a simple need to do it."

Ye Nianyi couldn't help pouting as she spoke.

"For example, I don't think there are many students who enjoy going to school."

"Ever since I was a child, my father told me that learning knowledge is a joyful thing, and maybe he was right."

"I just don't know why, all I feel now is pain."

"Even if he is a student who is interested in the knowledge in books, he doesn't like to go to school under the pressure of exam rankings."

Nian Yi couldn't help but sigh as she spoke, as if she couldn't say anything.

"But we have to, don't we? We always live in their expectations. ”

"The world tells us what is right and what is wrong, but it never tells us how to be ourselves."

"Is happiness in the eyes of others happiness, but what do we really desire?"

He Beifan's eyes were a little distracted.

"The world has never taught us how to be an adult, or how to be a happy adult."

"However, there seems nothing wrong with most of us living like this, and no one questions that."

"And we can't change anything about the things we are thinking about now, and we are just wasting time in the eyes of others."

Bei Fan sighed unconsciously, but his face gradually became relieved.

It seems that these are really nothing in the eyes of the boy, and he has long been used to this kind of life.

"Then why do we live so desperately?"

"Is it just to live as happy in the eyes of others, just to be recognized by others?"

Ye Nianyi seemed to have doubts about Beifan's words.

"Not really, but I dare say most people do."

The boy spoke, his tone becoming more and more determined.

"They are living for the eyes of others, and as a result, they live most of their lives without knowing what they want."

"That's sad. In fact, everyone's fate is basically the same. ”

"There is no difference in nature, going to school, finding a job, getting married, having children, and finally working hard all your life and then going to the earth."

"It's really sad if these are just to follow other people's eyes, and not to chase what you really love."

"Although there are many things that we have to do to live in this world."

"But we shouldn't limit our lives like this anymore, just do it in moderation, and live our lives the way we like."

"As long as you feel happy, there is no need to think about so many things."

Beifan said with a thoughtful look, but the young man's face looked very calm.

"Because, life is just a process, isn't it? And all we have to do is enjoy it, don't we? ”

"It doesn't make any difference that we came into this world with nothing and when we leave with nothing."

"So what are we struggling with? What are you worried about? ”

Ye Nianyi didn't speak, just quietly listened to Beifan's words, and she suddenly felt that Beifan made sense.

Before that, she hadn't seen the matter as thoroughly as this.

But now, Nian Yi seems to have figured it out, she wants to live happily in this world.

And other things, she didn't have to worry about so much.

"I'm really happy to come for a walk by the lake with you, you make me feel at ease."

"Of course, I haven't experienced this feeling for a long time, Beifan, thank you so much, whenever I feel tired of my current life, you always do your best to comfort me, thank you very much."

Ye Nianyi smiled again as she spoke, even though her life is not easy now, she laughs every time she sees him.

Sometimes, it's like a reflex.

As long as he was beside her, she would feel happy enough in her life, and there was no reason for such pleasure.

"Thank me for what I did, in fact, I was just comforting myself."

"After all, sometimes I don't know what I'm thinking, so I have to spit it out myself." The boy pursed his lips slightly.