Twenty-six (2)
The car drove all the way out of the Overseer's Palace, and the rain curtain in front of it was intertwined, and the sky was a little blue. Cheng Jinyu leaned against the window, looking at the drizzle in front of him, and there was a flash and thunder at this moment.
The driver turned on the windshield wipers, creaking in her ears, the asphalt road on both sides was narrow by the rain cage, and the trees on both sides flickered by, her mind was heavy, and she only felt that the speed was too fast, and everything seemed to pass by.
But if you think about it carefully, her life is like a passing cloud. Another thunder fell from the sky, she couldn't help but tremble, and suddenly remembered that the day her father was imprisoned, the sky was thundering and lightning, and since then she has been afraid of thunder, at first her mother accompanied her, and then she married Su Qingyang, and he guarded her.
In the past, she always felt that companionship was permanent, but it can be seen that she still couldn't understand the truth of this world at that time. What now? It's just that after a few years with grievances, what has she seen through?
The rain marks on the window were intertwined, and she watched the window turn, and the clouds seemed to be close in front of her, as if they were within reach. The rain was heavy, like tassels on clothes, clusters and clusters, light and thin.
She couldn't help but think of what happened when she was a child, but after many years, her memory was scattered and messy, and she only vaguely remembered a little. That year was also a rainy day, there were distinguished guests in the house, she was a little young lady, and she was taken to the main hall by her grandmother, she remembered that it rained a lot that day, she was small, and there was always rain splashing on her body, and before she reached the main hall, her sleeves and hem were wet.
This made Mama so anxious that she had to wait where she was and let the maid fetch her coat. She stood on the edge of the verandah, stretched out her hand to catch the rain to play, she remembered that the rain was cold, but it was itchy in the palm of her hand, it was very fun.
Seeing a little boy in a long coat running past in front of her, followed by many people in military uniforms, she was very curious, so she took advantage of Mama's inattention to follow, and walked through the verandah, she hid under the eaves. I saw the little boy holding a puppy in his arms, which was the one she had raised.
She was anxious, so she ran over, regardless of the need to snatch the dog back, and said while grabbing it, "This is my dog, what are you doing?" ”
The little boy seemed to be startled by her, and then he relented and said, "Sister, this puppy is sick, and I am about to take it to the doctor." ”
She didn't remember what she said at that time, but she remembered that Mama came and took her away, and when she turned around, he smiled and said to her, "Sister, don't worry, I will definitely save it." ”
She saw him running towards the gate with the puppy in his arms tightly, his clothes were soaked, and the guards behind him called him while holding an umbrella, "Second young master, you run slowly." ”
She didn't know how she suddenly remembered these old things, but they flashed in her mind, and they seemed to be extremely important. She couldn't help but stroke her forehead, which was hot. Her fingers shrunk, and she only felt very tired.
Fortunately, the car turned another corner and arrived at the place. She glanced out and saw that it was a police station in the city, with guards guarding the door, and the car drove directly in, and it was a tall building. The car stopped at the bottom of the steps, Su Fangfei got out of the car first, opened the door for her, and helped her get out of the car.
She was watered by the rain at this time, she only felt refreshed, and went up the stairs with Su Fangfei, and when she reached the second floor, the director of the police station greeted her, Su Fangfei said a few polite words to him, and said: "Second sister-in-law, you go with Director Lin, I will wait for you here." ”
She nodded, and followed Director Lin step by step, Xu was afraid that she would be worried, so Director Lin comforted: "Second young grandmother, please rest assured, the second son has not suffered half a cent here." ”
She was reassured, turned to the left, and saw that the corridor was narrow, deep and dark. There was a dim light in front of him, and it looked even more ghostly.
She only felt that the world was spinning, and she barely supported the wall to move forward, and then she heard the guard at the door click to open the door, she slowed down a little, ignored the politeness of Director Lin and her, and walked in.
There was a small bed, a table, a chair, and a few gray rays of light in front of the window, Su Qingyang stood in front of the window, and turned his head when he heard the sound. ”
Cheng Jinyu walked over, "I'll come to see you." Raising his eyes to see, he saw a pair of deep eyes, the two of them hadn't seen each other for a long time, and they were in such a situation, and they couldn't say anything, so they were silent for a long time, and then Su Qingyang said: "It just so happens that you are here, and you don't have to bother me to find Lao Qi to be the master, let's divorce the marriage, and the marriage of life and death in the future has nothing to do with it." ”
When he had said this, he turned away. Cheng Jinyu knew that he had said it to this point, and there was no room for turning around between the two of them, and she had always understood him.
But at this moment, she was like angry, standing there motionless, only feeling that her nose was sour, and as soon as the words came out, tears flowed down, "Sixth sister has prepared a ticket for me to go abroad, and I will leave later." ”
She paused, "I know your temperament, even if you lose, you won't bow your head, but even if you don't think about yourself, you should think about your mother, she is old......" Before she finished speaking, her voice was already choked up.
wiped away his tears with a handkerchief, "Those things in the past, just think that I can't live with you." Holding back her tears, she said this, and then turned to leave, and behind him he called out, "Sister." ”
She froze in place, her feet as if they had been filled with lead, and she couldn't move. She remembered that since she got married, he had been calling her Jinyu, but this was the first time her sister had heard it in so many years.
Her tears fell uncontrollably, but she stiffened her back and listened to him: "I have no regrets about marrying you all these years, the only pity is that child, I can't stand you." ”
Cheng Jinyu's tears fell like beads, she originally thought that she would carry his resentment for a lifetime, but this moment was relieved, but it made her heart even more uncomfortable, she knew that he said this, proving that he had written off all the entanglements between them, including his feelings for her.
He really didn't want her anymore.
She tried to look back at him again, but found that she didn't have even the slightest extra strength. At this moment, there was only one voice in her head urging her to leave quickly, she wiped the corners of her eyes and walked out slowly.
Every step felt like time passed so quickly, but she knew better than anyone else that he would never call her sister again, and he would never say anything more.
He was going to give her the freedom she wanted most in a long time, when they quarreled so fiercely, she begged him to let her go, but he hated and said that he would never think about it in this life, but he finally let her go.
Thinking like this, she only felt like a knife in her heart. Finally walked out, listening to another click behind her, the door was slammed shut, she slowly turned her head, maybe this is the last time in this life, she thought with tears.
There was no longer any strength in her body, she leaned against the wall weakly, and Su Fangfei's anxious voice was in her ears, she slowly opened her eyes, but saw a sudden white light in front of her, bright and bright.
She grabbed Su Fangfei's hand and asked softly, "Sister, I told him that I was going abroad, you can help me hide it from him." Su Fangfei felt uncomfortable when she saw that her breath was dying, "Second sister-in-law, why are you hiding it from him?" Let me go and tell him that he will see you one last time. ”
Cheng Jinyu shook his head, "I can't tell him, according to his temperament, if he knows that I lied to him, he won't give up." ”
She breathed a sigh of relief, "It's my life, and I don't want him to suffer." ”
Her mind sank more and more, and she vaguely remembered that it was raining so hard that day, and she was about to snatch the puppy, and he said that it was sick, and then she saw that the puppy was not moving, and she was so frightened that she began to cry, and kept whimpering, "Is it dying?" Is it dying? ”
She didn't know what death meant at that time, only that adults would cry when they mentioned the word, and she felt that parting was imminent, and she cried even more carelessly.
But he hugged the puppy tightly and coaxed her over and over again, "Sister, don't cry, sister, don't cry." ”
In the end, Mama came, she felt embarrassed, Mama wiped her tears for her, and said: "Miss, don't cry, provoke the second son to laugh at you, it just so happens that the two of you have met, say hello, this is the second son of our southern patrol envoy." ”
Before Mama finished speaking, he grinned and said to her, "My name is Su Qingyang, what about you?" ”
She also smiled and said, "Cheng Jinyu." ”
It was the only clear picture in her remnants.
Faintly hearing the sound of rain, crackling in her ears, she thought of Su Qingyang's sister just now, and only felt that there were no regrets in this life.
Is it still raining outside? I don't know what Su Qingyang is thinking at this time? This was her last thought, and she slowly closed her eyes, and couldn't help but sigh that this life was too short.
The rain outside is still blowing, no different from the rainy season in the past, the flowers in front of the court bloom and thank, and the morning and twilight are empty in the blink of an eye, just like all the truths in this world, in the end they are empty.
The sound of rain on the eaves was dripping, flocks of swallows flew by the window, chirping, Su Qingyang stood in place, looking at the sky and the sky, the wind gradually became less and less, the rain was gently floating, he remembered the back of Cheng Jinyu leaving, and the old foreign oil lamp on the table was reflected on her, and she was very emaciated.
He watched her drift away, walking slowly, but disappearing into the darkness as if she had never been.
He turned around and saw that the oil lamp was like a bean, and the walls were lonely, as if he could not find even a trace of her breath.
But obviously she just said to him, "I can't live with you in this life." ”
She cried a lot when she said this, but there was only one sentence, and there was nothing left between them. He closed his eyes slightly, and it took a long time to adjust his breathing.
The swallows on the eaves flew away at some point, hovering in the air, but in an instant, they disappeared.