What's more, Su Nianjun also said just now that the reason why she almost lost her life this time was because the Gu blood in her body was hurt externally, and it was a backlash against her body, which she had to solve, and she could only leave after figuring out everything.

Of course, she knew that Su Nianjun was doing this for her good, but she still couldn't hurt innocent people.

"I know I've worried you this time, but, it's my own business, I want to deal with it myself, I'm very grateful that you saved me this time, anyway, I owe you, and I can't pay it back, but as long as you have a place where you need me, I can't give up, I will never shirk, although I don't hate you, but I won't leave with you."

Shen Xianhe lowered the doll, didn't dare to look at Su Nianjun's eyes, and said indifferently that he wanted to break off the relationship with him.

Su Nianjun paused for a moment, and then immediately sneered coldly, and while sneering, he stood up, his eyes were full of disappointment, sadness, and some anger, and he looked at Shen Xianhe condescendingly and said.

"Who wants you to be obliged? Who wants your thanks? I do so much, not for these, why? Didn't you say you didn't hate me before? Why are you pushing me away like that? Break off the relationship with me? What am I not doing well? You say, I'll change it, even if you're a stone, you should be covered by me, right? You're so ruthless ....... ”

Su Nianjun's words, word by word, although Shen Xianhe still looked indifferent on his face, but the hand on the quilt involuntarily clenched tightly, and his teeth were clenched tightly, like a knife cutting her heart, but he saw blood one by one.

"I didn't ask you to do that...... But since you've done it, I'm not ungrateful, so I'm naturally going to repay you...... I really don't hate you anymore...... Forgive you too...... But I didn't say it...... I'm leaving with you...... I didn't say that we still have the possibility of ...... It's just wishful thinking on your ....... ”

"Hahahaha...... Okay, very good, great, I think I, Su Nianjun, have grown so big, I have never been treated like this, and I have never handed over my sincerity, and it is really ironic to hand over my sincerity for the first time in exchange for such a result...... It was said to be wishful thinking...... Hahahaha...... Shen Xianhe, killing people is not too much, you make me uncomfortable than killing me directly, you really ...... Very good....... ”

Shen Xianhe was extremely sensitive, naturally she understood the sarcasm and coldness in Su Nianjun's words, she forcibly held back the sourness in her heart, and after being silent for a moment, she swallowed the sourness from her mouth back into her stomach before she raised her eyes to look at Su Nianjun again.

"From the beginning, we were in an unequal position, it was you who deceived me in the front, I gave up on you in the back, now, I don't hate you anymore, and I forgive you, we can be honest with each other now, from the beginning, it is that I have affected you a lot, I don't want to have too much entanglement with you, but I am still entangled, we are all too proud people, very clean to feelings, and we can't tolerate a trace of impure feelings, but our beginning is full of calculations, use, although I have you in my heart, But I don't want to make myself not like myself, become unconfident, become suspicious all day long, and make myself look like a resentful woman, I want to let myself live freely, without restraints, whether it is mental or physical, so I understand your thoughts, I am sorry for you, and I have failed your heart. ”

Su Nianjun didn't make a sound for a long time, and the silence was so long that Shen Xianhe thought that Su Nianjun was asleep, she turned sideways slightly, changed her sitting posture again, and saw Su Nianjun smashing the cup that fed her water and drank before on the corner of the wall.

The strength was so great, there was a loud sound where the teacup fell out, and the debris on the ground splashed up, Shen Xianhe was so frightened that he fell backwards, he was already seriously injured and had just recovered, his face was bloodless, and after being frightened by Su Nianjun like this, he was even more pale, and even his lips turned pale, and the whole person sat on the bed, frightened and overwhelmed.

Su Nianjun said sharply.

"You didn't feel sorry for me, everything is my fault, it's all me, and I'm to blame."

Su Nianjun's uncontrollable anger was the first time it was shown in front of Shen Xianhe.

Shen Xianhe's back was tightly pressed against the bed rail, as if he wanted to get into the wall, and looked at Su Nianjun with a pale face.

Su Nianjun looked at the fear in Shen Xianhe's eyes, and after slowly calming down, he couldn't help laughing out loud.

"I can't imagine that I have today, I have never done anything that I don't put others in my eyes, but today I am so disgusted, I am afraid that I will ruin her desire for a free and unfettered life, no matter what I do, I am always very sure, as long as I want it, I will always get it, but now, no matter what I do, put aside all the pride you say, and self-esteem, just because I like you, I want you to be by my side, I want you to have me in your heart, for others, the simplest, most ordinary thing, for me, But it's as difficult as heaven, maybe God doesn't punish me enough, as long as it's the people and things I care about, they will leave me in the end. ”

Su Nianjun's voice was tired like an old man.

"It's me who forced it, it's me who disturbed your life, it's me who shouldn't be here, I should have treated you as if you were really dead when you faked your death, so that I can still deceive myself, saying that you have me in your heart, and the regrets left behind may make me feel better, instead of being so disgusted by you like now."

Shen Xianhe's heart was like a knife, and he shook his head again and again, although he was not a sharp person, but he was usually articulate, but at this moment, listening to Su Nianjun's self-description like ashes, he couldn't say a word, so he could only choke and shake his head violently to deny.

It's a pity that Su Nianjun has been injured too thoroughly by him, and he doesn't want to see her anymore, so he laughed self-deprecatingly as he turned around and stumbled away.

Shen Xianhe's tears were still hanging on his face, but he couldn't help but smile self-deprecatingly, he had already made a decision, but in the end he couldn't help shedding tears, yes, she had Su Nianjun in her heart, and she also wanted to leave with him, but she was afraid, afraid that she would be hurt again, afraid that he would deceive and use her again, afraid that he would change his mind, and most afraid that she would become less like herself and become the kind of person she looked down on the most.

However, after listening to Su Nianjun's self-deprecating words, her heart hurt so much that she couldn't breathe, her internal organs began to throb, and her tears fell even more, and a lot of regret and remorse instantly surged in her heart, which made her explode when Su Nianjun was about to step out of the door.

She shouted at Su Nianjun, who was about to leave.

Su Nianjun...... Don't leave...... I...... I have something to say....... ”

Su Nianjun's back paused, and he said without looking back.

"Don't you think that's enough? Do you want to continue to rip out my heart? ”

Knowing that Su Nianjun had her back to her and couldn't see her movements, she still shook her head and continued in a hurry.

"I know what I just said hurt your heart, but I have my own troubles, and I'm afraid that after accepting you, what should I do if you are deceiving and using me? I don't want to go through that kind of pain a second time, so I'm afraid, afraid that something like that will happen, and I'm afraid that you won't like me so much in the future, and then I'm afraid that I'll become a resentful woman, I'm afraid that I'll become not like myself, I'm afraid that I'm suspicious, I'm afraid I'll become the kind of ......person I look down on. ”

"So, you are afraid that such a possibility will happen, so you simply put an end to the beginning of all this possible happening, so that there is no beginning, and there will be no such possibility, but all this is what you think is possible, have you asked me? Have you heard my thoughts? Have you ever seriously believed me even once? Is it fair to me that you don't even try, and you put on things that didn't happen, and then turn me away without giving me a chance? ”

Sadness and despair kept coming to Shen Xianhe, and she lowered her eyelids again and continued.

"Yes, everything is my fault, but after I saw you so sad and sad, I realized that I had been excessive, how unkind, but I was really afraid, afraid that something like that would happen...... I really don't want that...... I'm sorry....... ”

In the end, Shen Xianhe's voice became lower and lower, and he had no confidence at all.

Su Nianjun turned around suddenly, and strode angrily towards Shen Xianhe, who was crying on the side of the bed, hugged her in his arms, and then forced her eyes to look into his eyes.

"Shen Xianhe, I know that it was wrong for me to deceive and use you before, but I also explained, that's because at the beginning, I didn't think I would like you at all, you were just an ordinary person to me at that time, a stranger, you also have people and things you want to protect, I'm the same, I also have things I want, if I hadn't fallen in love with you, I wouldn't have done this to you, I wouldn't have been so low-voiced, and I wouldn't have a sense of guilt, of course, you would be the same, if you hadn't fallen in love with me, what you did to me, You will only feel that your skills are inferior to others, and you will not have the slightest resentment and heartbreak, so we never expected that things have developed to this point today, and I don't want to miss them because of this, and then regret it for life. ”

Shen Xianhe looked at Su Nianjun in a daze, unable to say a word.

"I know what you're worried about, you're afraid that I'm going to hurt you again and make you miserable, but you're someone I can protect even if I don't want my life, how can I hurt you again, watch you hurt, watch you sad, I'm more sad than you, hate myself for not protecting you, hate why those injuries didn't hurt me, hate myself for not being able to bear these pains for you." Complain to each other