"What's the matter, you, have you asked me out for coffee today?" Shi Yuqi looked at Qu Ke sitting in front of him, and couldn't help but feel surprised.

"Oh, no, nothing? It's just that I haven't seen you for a long time, and I want to ask you out to talk. Her words suddenly became cowardly in front of her, and of course, even she didn't know what was going on.

"Well, you say, I'll listen." Yuqi didn't know what medicine was sold in Qu Ke's gourd, but his eyes were full of fear for her as usual.

It's just that this fear can't stop him from pouring out what he really wants to say.

"This time, I asked you to come to the café, in fact, I didn't mean anything else, I just wanted to say sorry to you." Qu couldn't help but be a little silent again.

"In the past, I was always self-righteous and made you suffer a lot of grievances, I shouldn't have bullied you like this, I apologize to you."

The girl's tone was very low, and it was obvious that it was not easy for her to say the three words sorry.

Shi Yuqi didn't pay attention to Qu Qi's words, and the expression on her cheeks seemed to be listening very seriously.

However, Qu Ke thought that she was unwilling to forgive herself. The reason why she guessed so much also had her own reasons, after all, she had been bullied many times.

And, after that, there was no reason to turn around and leave without saying a word.

Of course, this matter is not as complicated as Qu Ke imagined, but she herself has always thought so.

"I really didn't mean to bully you, Yuqi, but you know what? I have low self-esteem, I'm not like you, I can't go to school, and I feel like I don't have anything to prove my ability, so I can only bully you. Qu Ke couldn't help but smile self-deprecatingly when he said this.

"I know, it sounds ridiculous, but that's what I really thought, so please forgive me, but to be honest, I know I've done too many wrong things, so if you're not willing to forgive me, I won't force it."

Without the domineering spirit on weekdays, the girl's voice sounds very cowardly, and it is a kind of inexplicable weakness, but she herself has no choice but to look aggrieved like this.

Shi Yuqi didn't speak for a long time, she shook the coffee spoon in her hand, and she didn't know what she was thinking.

Then she opened her lips, as if she had something to say, but her voice was small, an incorrigible low.

"Qu Ke, do you know what I think about every time you find someone to bully me?" The eyes that looked straight at her were indescribably wooden and tired.

Qu Ke didn't speak, just looked at her silently, it was a deep self-blame.

"I wondered if I was really doing something wrong. Since, I didn't do anything wrong, then why did you do this to me? ”

When she finished speaking, she looked at her and smiled, but it was just a helpless bitter smile. "Later, I seemed to understand that you don't need any reason to bully me, you just like to do it, and you can get a kind of pleasure."

She was still laughing, as if she were talking about someone else's story casually.

"I'm sorry, I know I ever hurt you. Can you give me another chance? I want to make it up to you. ”

When Qu Ke spoke, he couldn't help but look at Shi Yuqi's eyes, as the saying goes, eyes are the windows of the soul. But through those tired eyes, Qu Ke couldn't see a trace of forgiveness.

"Compensation? How do you compensate? Shi Yuqi couldn't help but feel that Qu Ke's words were ridiculous.

"You know how frightened I feel? At that time, I didn't even dare to come out of my family, and I felt that everything in this world was dark, as if the whole person was deeply trapped in a sea of suffering, which made me feel very painful, but I didn't seem to have any choice but to let you bully. ”

Shi Yuqi said, and his eyes couldn't help but exude a little sadness.

"Sometimes when I think about it, I think it's ridiculous, why do you like to bully me? Even if you bully me, what good can you get? ”

"I can't resist, and I don't know how to resist, so how can you get pleasure? Where do you get those pleasures from? ”

She looked at him, her eyes seemed to be full of resentment, even though Shi Yuqi had never been angry with her, but this time, it seemed that she couldn't hold back her emotions.

"It's a pleasure for you to watch me being bullied, but have you considered my feelings? Have you ever experienced how much pain I have? ”

Qu Ke pursed her lips, as if she wanted to say something, but Shi Yuqi didn't give her this chance.

"No, you don't experience it at all. However, I can understand you very well, because you really have nothing to do, but can you not be so selfish, you are just blindly willful, and you have never considered the feelings of others, even a little, am I wrong, you are like this. ”

Although Yuqi's words were a little ugly, they didn't seem to be anything compared to Qu Ke's usual bullying of her.

"Everyone's heart is flesh and blood, of course, they will know the pain, but what about you, when you are bullying others, have you ever considered this feeling, not at all, you are just happy for yourself."

"Have you ever thought about what you would think if one day, someone else would tear your hair and splash cold water on you? Will you cry? She watched as her eyes grew colder and colder.

"You haven't thought about it, crying until you choke yes. It's not because of the pain, it's because I'm full of fear of the world, like I don't believe in an innocent friendship anymore, and I wrap myself tightly in all my relationships, I'm afraid that I'll be hurt, which seems like a stupid thing, but I can't do it, I can only do it, and you won't understand these things. ”

After that, she began to look at her and smile wryly.

Shi Yuqi inadvertently took a sip of coffee, it seemed that she shouldn't have talked to her so much today. Because, even if she could understand, she didn't intend to forgive her.

"You won't understand my feelings, but it's normal, because you've never been bullied, so, of course, you won't understand my feelings."

As she spoke, her eyes couldn't help but roll up, and that state looked terrifying, but it was something she should bear.

"There's no way, Qu Ke, I've been distressed for too long because of you, so don't force me, it's really hard for me to forgive you."

Shi Yuqi didn't have a sense of disobedience at all when she said this, just like she shouldn't have forgiven her in the first place, and if she forgave her, she wouldn't feel very comfortable in her own heart.

"It's okay, I just want to apologize to you, as for whether you can forgive me today, to be honest, I don't care anymore."

Qu Ke laughed, and the eyes she looked at her softened at this moment. "I say I'm sorry for what I did to you before, I know, I hurt you, so, you can not accept my apologies, I just want to start from scratch now, and don't be bound by what happened before."

Qu Ke's words are very natural, but Shi Yuqi is not so easy to accept.

"You say it nicely, start from the beginning. But Qu Ke, these things are not as simple as you think, to give a simple example, this is like driving a nail in a wooden board, you pull the nail off, but the hole in the board can never be removed. ”

When she said this, she inevitably felt a little sad, "So, I won't forgive you, and you don't think about it anymore." Her words were soft, but they were enough to make Qu Ke sad.

It's just that this kind of guilt is something she should have borne in the first place, and she can't escape it.

"I don't need your forgiveness, though, I sincerely apologize to you."

"But it doesn't seem to matter now, I just hope that in the next few days, you can be happy, don't be affected by such things again, what is it, this is just a period of your life, not to mention that I regret what I did now. You don't mind. ”

Qu Ke said this, and felt that he was a little short of words. "So, can we be friends again in the future?" The look in her eyes seemed to be a kind of pleading in disguise.

Shi Yuqi, who was sitting opposite her, suddenly became irritable, "Can you take some more time with me?" Give me some time to forgive you? ”

Her eyes softened as she looked at her, but it seemed like she hadn't spoken to her in a long time.

"Okay." She answered softly. There was a state of silence between them again, and neither of them said a word again.

"You never know how much a friend means to you until one day you lose her." Qu Ke read silently in his heart, looking at Shi Yuqi sitting in front of him, her eyes became more and more unfamiliar.

"If you don't have anything else to do, I'll go first." Shi Yuqi said in a low voice, and then stood up on the chair.

"Waiter, check out." Qu Ke shouted to the front desk a little anxiously.

"No need, let's AA." Shi Yuqi spit out extremely coldly, and walked towards the front desk of the café.

Qu Ke, who was sitting there, looked at the girl's back and couldn't help but feel a little regretful. Once, they were best friends, but now time flies by so quickly that he can't get anything back now.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have done this to you, please forgive me." Qu Ke thought silently in her heart, her heart was very bitter, and she didn't know who to talk to about this painful feeling.

"Do you understand my feelings? Can you understand that pain? You won't understand, because you've never been bullied. Shi Yuqi's words could not be dispersed in the girl's heart for a long time.