"If he cares about you, how can he mind if you're sick, so why don't you dare tell him? Or, Wanyun, you yourself feel ashamed of your illness. ”

Shen Yun looked at her expressionlessly, with unfamiliar eyes, as if he was looking at a stranger.

Zhao Meizhen turned her back to her and evoked a mocking smile where she couldn't see: "Are you unable to accept that he sees you sick, and if you think about him so much, he will be moved?" Don't think about it, he will only think that you are unbearable, Shen Yun, Lu Qixiu are just ordinary people, don't think of him so noble. ”

Shen Wan frowned painfully, shook his head, and said, "He won't." ”

Zhao Meizhen turned around and glared at her angrily: "When is it time for you to be reckless, don't you say he won't?" ”

"He won't." She repeated firmly.

"Shen Yun, don't be sentimental."

"I didn't, you said that Zhou Ruonan would dislike me because of this, I really believe it a little, but now this person is Lu Qixiu, he won't, I said he won't."

Zhao Meizhen couldn't suppress her emotions and asked her sharply: "Look at the way you look now, you are no different from going crazy, I will call your doctor over and treat you." ”

Shen Yun: "Mom, are you really for my good?" Am I not clear about my own body? I said I'm fine, why do you think I'm sick? Actually, you wish I had been sick, right? ”

Zhao Meizhen slapped her, Shen Yun's face immediately floated a slap print, she turned her face away, and heard Zhao Meizhen say: "Shen Yun, what are you talking about, do you want you to get sick?" Did I cause you this disease? ”

Shen Yun pursed her lips and didn't speak, her face was hot.

"Who has been taking care of you in the past few years, Shen Yun, won't it hurt my heart if you say this?"

Shen Wan still didn't speak, silent, as if he hadn't heard.

"Your dad will come back tomorrow, the matter between you and Lu Qixiu, I am not your own mother, I can't control you, Shen Yun, I have done everything I should do, and it is also for your good not to let you be with Lu Qixiu, but you don't appreciate it, there is no way, the fault is all me, who let you give birth to you is not me."

Shen Yun gritted his teeth and turned his head sideways, raised his legs and left the study.

The conversation with Zhao Meizhen broke up unhappily, Shen Yun returned to the room and called her doctor, she said: "Doctor, I have recovered and recovered, you will not be used to help me treat in the future." ”

The doctor was silent for a few seconds and asked, "Can you control your emotions?" ”

"Hmm."

"Shen Yun, if you can control your emotions freely, it means that it is a good thing, as long as you take medicine on time......"

"I'm done with all the medicine."

"Then I'll prescribe another pair for you, and come to me tomorrow to get the medicine."

Shen Yun sneered: "You were bought by my little mother?" Do I have to prove that I'm sick? Am I never going to get better for the rest of my life? ”

The doctor said, "Shen Yun, don't choke me, I'm a doctor, I just want to help you heal your illness." ”

Shen Wan hung up the phone, didn't want to listen to him anymore, and curled up on the bed, motionless.

She didn't even dare to think of Lu Qixiu.

If you care too much, you are afraid that he will look at himself with colored glasses like others.

It took a long time for Shen Yun to dial Lu Qixiu's mobile phone number, and the moment he connected, he asked him, "Where are you?" ”

Lu Qixiu was quiet, and there was not even the sound of the wind.

He said, "In your neighborhood." ”

"You're not leaving?"

"I didn't leave, I'm worried about you."

His voice was low and good, Shen Yun's tears fell out without warning, she sat up from the bed, put on her shoes while taking her coat, and said, "I want to see you, now, immediately." ”

He smiled and said, "Me too." ”

Shen Yun took his mobile phone and wallet, pushed open the glass door of the terrace, stood on the terrace, and could see the grove not far away, remembering the last time Lu Qixiu climbed over the wall into her room late at night, and he didn't know how to do it.

By the moonlight, Shen Yun saw Lu Qixiu standing outside the courtyard wall, and she could recognize it at a glance.

Shen Yun didn't think about it, and immediately walked out of the house, and when she passed the living room on the first floor, she was afraid that Zhao Meizhen would be there, but fortunately, there was no one, and she didn't turn back to leave the Shen family.

Lu Qixiu stood not far away waiting for her, and when she saw someone, she immediately jumped up and hugged him.

Lu Qixiu said with a smile: "It feels like cheating, I'm seducing you to do bad things." ”

"Do you want to do something worse?"

Lu Qixiu said in a low voice: "What are you thinking?" ”

Shen Yun's eyes were moist and shining, and he said, "I want to tell you how much I like you, Lu Qixiu." "I want to be with him for a limited time, not apart.

Lu Qixiu picked her up, raised his head to look at the moon in the gray-blue sky, and said, "It's cold outside, let's go back." ”

He can't mess around outside, like that.

Shen Yun laughed in his arms, and after laughing, he was quiet for a moment and said, "You...... Nothing to ask me? ”

Lu Qixiu glanced at her: "Go back and say." ”

"Okay."

She ran out like this, and she didn't know if her family knew about it.

After getting into the car, Lu Qixiu asked while driving: "You ran out like this, it really became that I kidnapped you." ”

"Isn't it?"

"Yes, I kidnapped you, Shen Yun, will you regret being with me one day. If it weren't for me, you would have lived better and wouldn't have suffered so much. ”

Shen Yun thought about it carefully, stared at his side face, and said, "I'm not as good as you think, Lu Qixiu, don't think too well of me." ”

She had not-so-good childhood experiences, as well as unspeakable experiences.

Back in the apartment, the moment the door was closed, Lu Qixiu pressed Shen Yun on the door panel and kissed him.

Shen Yun's breath was slightly chaotic: "Lu Qixiu, I won't regret it, so what about you?" ”

"Regret what?" This man always does more than he says, and is obsessed with her wholeheartedly.

"I was, I was sick...... My mom told you tonight......"

Lu Qixiu bit her earlobe, and she frowned in pain.

"Well, got it. Don't hinder us, don't think about anything else, we'll talk about it when we're done. ”

The man obviously said that he would come back, but when he came back, he changed again, and he had to finish his work before he said.

Back in the room, Shen Yun was lying on the pink sheets, her legs slender and white hooked the quilt, and she reached out to pull it up and wrap herself.

Lu Qixiu walked over and lay down and hugged her, smelled the fragrance on her body, sat up against the head of the bed, stared at the person in his arms, and said, "Are you still talking?" ”

Shen Yunqiang propped up his heavy eyelids and said, "Let's talk." ”

"Your little mother still doesn't worry about me, I'm afraid that you will suffer with me."

Shen Yun was a little more energetic, his hand stretched out from the quilt to wrap around his neck, and raised his head, "What else?" ”

"Also, you're sick."

Shen Yun asked him, "Have you ever known about my disease?" ”

"Yes."

Shen Yun bit her lip and said in a fluttering tone, "I told you about my parents' divorce, I used to think that our family was the happiest, although they were also poor, but they were very affectionate, I didn't think they would divorce, and I couldn't accept it for a while." ”

Lu Qixiu rested one hand on her waist, patted it lightly, and said, "Well, I understand." ”

"Later, my temper became more and more irritable, uncontrollable, out of control, I didn't want to go to school, I didn't want to see people, especially when I saw my dad inexplicably angry, often quarreled with him, they all thought I was rebellious, and they didn't care about me, let me, and then my little mother found out that something was wrong and forced me to see a psychiatrist."

Shen Yun was silent for a while, leaning on his chest, and hesitated: "Sex. The addiction was also discovered at that time, and I couldn't control my body's normal reactions, and I didn't know why I got this disease. I thought it was puberty hormones that were too strong, but it didn't turn out ......"

These are a little difficult for her to talk about.

Lu Qixiu's hand resting on her waist paused slightly, and after a few minutes, he said, "Huh? ”

Shen Yun didn't understand what he meant, and raised his head slightly to look into his eyes: "If you think it's ......"

"What do you think?" Lu Qixiu smiled evilly, raised his eyebrows slightly, and said with a frivolous and casual expression: "Are you still afraid that I don't want you?" ”

Shen Yun was silent for a long time, and said, "If you don't want me for the first time, there will be a second time." ”

The hand that imprisoned her back was strained.

Lu Qixiu looked down at her, his eyelids were red, he had just done it, and he said in a hoarse voice, "There won't be a second time." ”

She was so insecure.

Shen Yun said: "I don't want to be separated from you. ”

"There will be no separation." He kissed her on the forehead.

"You promised me, remember."

"Remember, I won't forget."

Shen Yun hummed, felt a little more comfortable when he said it, hugged his waist, and the whole person lay on him.

Lu Qixiu rubbed her earlobes and played, and said, "Silly girl." ”

Shen Yun stubbornly repeated: "You are mine, and the whole person is mine." ”

Lu Qixiu laughed dumbly, hugged her tightly, kissed her on the lips, and made her lost.

"It's almost dawn, I can't do it." She propped her hands on his chest, a little more distance.

Lu Qixiu looked out of the floor-to-ceiling window, "Then you can sleep." ”

"Well, you too."

"Hmm."

Drowsiness gradually came, and Shen Yun quickly fell asleep in his arms.

Lu Qixiu didn't fall asleep, in the dark moonlight, staring at her sleeping face, he leaned over and kissed her in the eye, and then slowly got up and left the room.

He closed the door and walked to the living room to look at his mobile phone, it was a message from Xu Yin, telling him that Li Daoxing appeared in Shichuan.

Xu Yin thought that he was still in Shichuan, so he sent a message to him to be careful, for fear that Li Daoxing would hate him and come to the door to retaliate.

Lu Qixiu lit a cigarette, didn't smoke it, dialed Xu Yin's number, and said, "What's the situation over there?" ”

"My people just discovered Li Daoxing's whereabouts, and when they wanted to track him, he found out and got rid of him, no way, he stayed in Shichuan for so long, and he was so familiar with the local environment, it's not surprising that he lost it."

Lu Qixiu said: "Be careful yourself. ”

"Don't worry, what am I afraid of, I'm mainly worried about you, I thought Li Daoxing would escape from the country, but I didn't expect him to be in Shichuan."

"I'm fine, I'm not in Shichuan, I'm in the state city."

"When did you run away from the state city?"

Lu Qixiu finally took a puff of cigarette, slowly exhaled a puff of smoke, and said, "Do something." ”

"I didn't listen to you about anything."

Xu Yin simply asked directly: "Are you going to look for her?" ”

Lu Qixiu didn't deny it, "Well, look for her." ”

Xu Yin laughed: "You should have gone to find her a long time ago, according to me, you shouldn't have left someone in the first place." ”

"You won't die if you don't say a few words."

"Okay, I'm going to sleep so late, I won't tell you."

……

The next day, Shen Yun received a call from Shen Jiayang, who said, "She wants to see you." ”

It's Chu Hua.

She did come back.

Shen Jiayang didn't expect Chu Hua to contact him, as soon as he got off the plane, he received an unfamiliar number, and when he heard Chu Hua's voice, he was shocked for a long time and didn't react.

He is sorry for Chu Hua, but with the dignity of a man, he will not admit the mistakes he made when he was young, let alone apologize to Chu Hua, after so many years, he always owes Chu Hua a sorry.

Chu Hua didn't need it, she just wanted to see Shen Yun when she came back this time.

She received the letter left by Shen Yun.

The reason why it took so long to return to Zhou City, Chu Hua also had his own difficulties.

……

Shen Yun went to see Chu Hua with Lu Qixiu, and he did not make an appointment at the Shen family's old mansion, but made an appointment to meet outside.

Chu Hua hadn't arrived yet, and Shen Yun couldn't sit still.

Lu Qixiu held her wrist and said, "Don't panic. ”

"I'm a little nervous."

Lu Qixiu understood her mood and comforted her in a deep voice: "When she comes, don't sit still." ”

Shen Yun took a deep breath: "I'm a little worried, whether she can recognize me." ”

"My own daughter, how can I not recognize it." Lu Qixiu poured her a cup of warm tea, "Don't scare yourself." ”

Shen Yun held the cup and couldn't help but want to wait for the next meeting, what to say, what to say.

After a while, Chu Hua came.

The moment Shen Yun saw her, his mind was blank, but Chu Hua was more casual, his face was calm, and he said with a smile: "Shen Yun, I haven't seen you for a long time." ”

She was calm, not like a mother should behave when she saw her daughter.

Chu Hua looked at Lu Qixiu again and said, "Meet again, Mr. Lu." ”

Lu Qixiu: "Professor Chu." ”

Chu Hua smiled, "Shen Yun, you don't know me anymore?" ”

Shen Yun came to his senses, confirmed that she was Chu Hua, sat down, his throat was jerky, and shouted, "Mom." ”

The smile on Chu Hua's face deepened, nodded his head, picked up the cup on the table and drank a glass of water, and said, "You have grown so big, time has passed so fast." ”

recognized her, but Shen Yun didn't feel much better.

Shen Wan licked her lips, and her eyes fell on the silver ring on Chu Hua's right hand, which reminded her that Chu Hua had now reorganized her family and had a daughter.

The atmosphere was eerie for a while.

Shen Yun didn't know what to say, she wanted to see Chu Hua in her heart, and now she did, but Chu Hua's eyes were very cold when she looked at her, and she didn't have the feeling of mother and daughter, as if they were strangers to each other.

Lu Qixiu helped to play the round to make the atmosphere less awkward.

Chu Hua knew who Lu Qixiu was, he had only met him not long ago, and said with a smile: "I didn't expect you to be Shen Yun's boyfriend, the last time we met, you said that you were Shen Yun's friend, come and see me, this friend has to put double quotation marks." ”

Shen Yun subconsciously looked at Lu Qixiu, and he said: "Because I'm not sure if you are Professor Chu himself, I'm afraid of recognizing the wrong person, so I didn't say that it was Shen Yun's boyfriend, and that would make me and Shen Yun a little awkward." ”

Chu Hua tacitly agreed.

Lu Qixiu said: "I'll go out and make a call, I'm sorry, you can talk to Shen Yun first." ”

"Okay, let's go."

After Lu Qixiu walked away, Chu Hua asked: "I have paid attention to your dynamics in the past few years, this child is better than the child surnamed Zhou before, with good facial features, and the most important thing is that you have been dating for a long time?" Are you going to settle down? ”

It is not difficult for Chu Hua to understand her situation, now that the Internet is so developed, especially since she had a lot of trouble with Zhou Ruonan before.

She asked so many questions, but Shen Yun didn't answer, and asked instead: "Mom, why didn't you contact me after so many years?" ”

Chu Hua said: "I thought about contacting you, but I am more afraid of hurting you, you are still young and don't understand those things about adults." ”

"And now?"

Chu Hua smiled again, his smile was a little desolate: "It's all over now, and there's no point in mentioning it again." ”

Shen Yun: "Yes. ”

"Shen Yun, people want to move forward, don't always think about me, although I gave birth to you, I am not responsible for you, you don't have to worry about me, that Mr. Lu said that you want to see me, I thought about it, I think so, I should give you an explanation, you are so old."

Shen Yun stared at her, his eyes flashing unwillingly: "Confess? What do you mean by that? ”

Chu Hua was silent: "......"

She is old, the corners of her eyes are wrinkled, she has no conditions to maintain it, and she is very different from Zhao Meizhen.

Shen Yun can understand her mood of wanting to leave at that time, but she can't understand why she doesn't want to see her, she was born in October when she was pregnant, isn't she?

Shen Wan then said: "What you just said is really ridiculous, you are my mother, how can I not worry." ”

Chu Hua groaned: "No matter what, it's been so long, I hope you move forward and don't think about the past." ”

Sometimes ignoring is more indifferent than anything else.

She said not to think about the past, but Shen Yun directly singled out: "I think you are afraid." ”

Chu Hua smiled: "What are you afraid of?" ”

"I was afraid of hysteria and illness, so I didn't dare to contact me, so I ignored me. Mom, do you just think of what Dad did as long as you see me, you say you don't care about the past, it doesn't mean that you forgive. ”

Chu Hua's expression was a little cold: "Do you want me to become the ghost I used to be?" People are not human ghosts, ghosts are not ghosts, and their cloaks are scattered and crazy at home? Shen Yun, it's true that I gave birth to you, and it's also my responsibility to not take care of you, in this case, you should be without my mother, okay? ”

Shen Wan bit his lip tightly, and the flesh of his lips sank in, crimson.

Chu Hua sighed, "I know that the grievances between me and your dad shouldn't anger you, but Shen Yun, I think of your dad when I see you, I can't forgive your dad, you're right, not caring doesn't mean forgiving, he also has a wife now, everyone has a new life, don't mention those tangerine peels and rotten sesame grains." ”

What can Shen Yun do if she is unwilling, she can only say good, what else can she say besides good.

"I heard your grandfather say that Shen Jiayang doesn't agree with you being with that child, do you need me to help you with anything?"

Lu Qixiu was still on the phone, standing on the side of the road outside, Shen Yun could only see his side face, tough and handsome, with hormones all over his body.

Shen Yun said: "Dad, he doesn't agree, he should be afraid that I will follow your old path." ”

Chu Hua twisted his eyebrows and mocked: "Not every man is like him, he can't control his lower body, I have to say that this is a mistake that all men make." ”