Just as you disappeared in my world, like my death, in this secretive late autumn, or ushered in the beauty she admires the most in this season, under the towering autumn mountain, the autumn chrysanthemum is in full bloom, above the fragrant mountain, the maple tree is the most dazzling, the red leaves are like fire, the red fragrant mountain surrounded by mountains is like a beautiful red lady, or like a bride, Chu Chu moving, demeanor in all directions.

At the foot of Xiangshan, at the broken bridge on Qiushan Lake, the lake has long been overflowing with the lake embankment, the broken bridge has not yet been left with snow, and there is no cruel scenery, this mountain and water outline what a beautiful scenery in the world, but I am standing on the broken bridge and stepping on the traditional inscription in the Kangxi period, but my heart is like another cold situation.

I look at Xiangshan, the white clouds on the top of the mountain float by, the red maples all over the mountains are like a fire burning up the clouds, the raging flames seem to burn my heart and my person, at this moment, if I die, bury me in the depths of this season! Covered with dead leaves, the wildfire does not take away my soul, this is the most beautiful scenery that Qingyu has given me.

I stood on the broken bridge for a long time, the cold wind was dashing, but my heart was so quiet, I suddenly glanced at the surface of the Autumn Mountain Lake, the lake waves with the cold wind kept surging like the shore, the lonely apple trees on the shore shivered in the cold wind, so far away you could hear the sound of the branches breaking, some residual yellow leaves withered and fell into the lake with the wind, and unconsciously sank to the bottom of the lake, for a moment I seemed to see through life and death, maybe I followed the master for a long time, too much to understand those entanglements in the world, love and hate, cold and warm, More and more, I realized that there was no point in living.

I seemed to see Qingyu standing under the apple tree, smiling between my eyebrows, shouting, Erdan, I'm here, I jumped off the broken bridge and rushed to the apple tree on the shore of Akiyama Lake, and all this is an illusion, the apple tree is empty, there is not even a shadow, I kneel under the apple tree, but my mind is constantly playing back the movie, in the summer, I led Qingyu to this fishing and playing in the water, this summer, she gave me too much, only a few months after everything disappeared without a trace, came too fast, and went too quickly.

We can't meet together in this life, Qingyu, we are not people for a lifetime, but we have said words for a lifetime, you gave me your sincerity, but took your people away, maybe, not the right person, destined not to start and finish well, I bear you, I don't ask for the next life, but for this life to give you such an explanation.

I stood up, looking at the deep lake and suddenly felt close, I only need to jump deep, I can be with Qingyu's heart.

I turned around and kowtowed three times in the direction of my house and Master's house, Dad, Mother, Master, Erdan is an unfaithful and unfilial Erdan child, but I am most sorry for Qingyu, she gave me all the things on one of her daughters, and blamed me for not letting her down and failing to keep her, I can't find her now, I can't be with Qingyu anymore, I can only atone for my sins with death, Dad, Mother, you gave birth to my unfilial son, you bury me again.

I got up from the ground, walked to a yellow hill on the high place by the lake, took off my shoes and put them aside, proving that it was my Shao Erdan who fell into the water here, and there was no need to go crazy looking everywhere, and there was another point that if it couldn't float up in three or two days, it wouldn't feed the fish.

Qingyu, let me accompany you to take a final look at the most beautiful scenery in the world, just like when we travel in the mountains and rivers in summer, you and me, scene after scene reappears, maybe everyone is like this before they die.

I seemed to see Qingyu Jiao snuggling in my arms, **, she lay under me and grabbed my hand tightly and said, this person of mine has been given to you, no matter what, you can't give her up, I saw again, Qingyu's father did not agree with us drinking pesticides together to force each other to die, and when I wanted to follow the master's car to send Qingyu's father to the hospital, Qingyu's mother threw me out of the car and scolded me to get out, and Qingyu looked through the car window, that foolish look, saying, I'll wait for you......

I stood on the yellow hill and gently closed my eyes, I moved a few times, and the loess under my feet fell into the lake, and I told myself that it was all over.

"Erdan, Erdan, what are you going to do?" Just as I was about to take a leap, I heard someone call me, and the voice was like a scream, sharp and old.

I turned around and hurriedly took a few steps back, and found that the person calling me was none other than my elderly grandmother, who was over eighty years old and hunched over her back with a wooden basket on her back as if she had come out to pick up waste, her pale hair rose and fell with the wind, showing her old age, I saw my grandmother finally collapse to the ground crying bitterly, if it wasn't for her timely appearance, at this moment, I might have died, in a matter of seconds, life and death.

Grandma walked towards me, she didn't pull me up from the ground, but bent down and stretched out her hand to caress my cheek, her hand was rough but so warm, although grandma could see that I wanted to commit suicide by falling into the lake just now, but she didn't expose me.

Grandma took out a big shriveled and yellowed apple from her bosom and handed it to me and said, "Second egg, eat it quickly, grandma just picked it from the mountains, it's sweet, eat it, grandma just ate one."

Looking at my grandmother's loving eyes, I took a big bite of the apple, it was really sweet, refreshing, it tasted so good to be alive, it was so good to be alive, there were so many people who loved me behind me, how could I die! I seem to have come back to life all of a sudden.

Grandma saw me kneeling on the ground and kept crying, she simply sat down with me, but she was too old, it was still a little difficult to sit down, she seemed to fall in front of me all of a sudden, the back of the head almost fell to the ground, scared me to cry and grievances, hurriedly helped her old man, so we still sat together, grandma gasped for a long time, before calming down, at first our grandparents and grandchildren did not speak, but sat next to each other like this, after a long time, grandma glanced at the empty lake, Said something sincerely.

"Erdan, grandma knows, you are bitter in your heart, but you have to endure it, then again, what is this matter, you are still so young"

"Grandma," I couldn't help crying when I listened to my grandmother's words.

"I've seen that girl, she's tall, looks good, but she's not destined to be your daughter-in-law, don't force it, don't be stupid, grandma believes that you can get back a girl who is more beautiful than her next time"

"Even so, you are better than your uncles, you at least brought other people's girls to the family, and the whole village was a sensation, unlike your foolish uncles, the daughters-in-law have married the family and have not even held people's hands, no"

"Grandma's heart is also bitter, none of the four sons are promising, all of them are submissive, nests and nests, people look down on them, dogs are annoyed when they see them, I think you are two eggs, my eldest grandson is the most promising"

"Erdan, you know what? You're not mortal! Grandma suddenly whispered in my ear, I was really startled when I heard it, I am not a mortal, I was busy asking my milk.

"I'm not a mortal, I'm an immortal?"

Grandma listened to my naughty words, leaned back and laughed, and she said, "I don't know if you are a fairy or not, but you were born really extraordinary"

Grandma stopped laughing, and said: "I remember that winter, the weather was unusually cold, your mother was about to give birth to you, and at night I saw that the firewood for heating was about to burn out, and the fire could not be extinguished anyway, so the whole house would become like an ice cellar, so your father took advantage of the night to secretly run to Xiangshan to steal some firewood and come back to use, your father was greedy, wanted to get more back, and I don't know how long the time passed, your father carried the firewood down the mountain, and he felt that there was something not far behind him, Your father didn't dare to look back, but your father was both scared and curious, he walked while looking back with his peripheral vision, like a white tiger, your father walked, it followed, your father stopped, it stopped, just like that, it has been following your father into the village, along the way there is no intention to harm your father, and when he arrived at the door, your father finally had the courage to look back to see what this thing was, but found that this thing was gone, then your mother just gave birth to you, and your father later said, as if he saw that thing ran into the house, your mother gave birth to you"

I don't think it's surprising to hear it, but I think grandma is a little tricky, when I was a child, I heard my dad talk more or less many times, my father's experience is really real, but as for my dad followed by a white tiger or a white horse, my dad can't tell, after all, he didn't see with his own eyes what kind of animal this is, but here to explain, I really don't want to have anything to do with these things, saying that I am the reincarnation of a white tiger or something, I just want to be a good person, But I really want to solve this mystery, what kind of animal is this animal? Why do you keep coming into the village with my father? If it was really a white tiger, I'm afraid my father would have fallen into the tiger's mouth, if it was a lost pony? No, where will there be horses in this deep mountain, is it a fairy beast on Xiangshan? It's really hard to say.

"Grandma, there are many animals in our mountains, and it's really not uncommon to meet one, and besides, maybe it's my father's hallucination."

Grandma said 'um', and did not object, but said earnestly:

"Whether it's true or not, grandma wants you to live as a person and support this big family"

"Grandma, I will" Although I was not infected by this story, I was still full of strength, I still have a lot of things to do, this time, although I was called by my grandmother, I also died once, in this case, I will live a good life from now on.

When dusk came, the heavens and the earth seemed to be connected into one color, and the whole world seemed to be yellow, orange and orange, but I didn't know that there was a cold wind there, and the temperature plummeted, so I helped my grandmother up from the ground and prepared to go back to the village.

I carried my grandmother's wooden basket on my right shoulder, and with one hand, I carefully helped my grandmother to the village.

"Erdan, grandma has something to ask for, do you agree?"

"Grandma, if you have something to do, your grandson will definitely do what he can do, and if he can't do it, he will find a way for you, what are you asking for?"

Grandma stopped and looked at the slanted sunset, sighed deeply, and said, "Grandma, I have never begged anyone in my life, but this time grandma begs you"

"If grandma has something to say, you can say it, what do you ask for, your old man is far away"

"Grandma is old, I don't think I have a few years to live, your second uncle and your fourth uncle are like this in this life, it is impossible to start a family, they have no children under their knees, grandma hopes that when they are old and can't walk, you can give them a stutter, and bury them after a hundred years, you are the only descendant of our family, can you do it?"

"Yes, grandma, I can do it, don't worry, your old man" Actually, when grandma mentioned the second uncle and the fourth uncle, I thought that this may be the most reassuring thing for her old man in this life.

"Grandma, do you know that this is embarrassing you? I can entrust it to you, so that I can spend the rest of my life without any baggage."

"Grandma, believe me, I can do it, this is human nature, two eggs, I can't do anything out of the ordinary, grandson, I wish you a long life, you always have to drink my wedding wine, and take care of your great-grandson."

Grandma didn't answer, she smiled with satisfaction, stepped on this sunset, and then walked into the next dawn, many years later, when recalling this thing that wanted to jump into the lake and die for love, it was really ridiculous, even stupid, but there were still two words left in my heart, it's worth it, because I was also young, loved, brave, and even to the point of death, isn't it the same as today's young people? Talk about a vigorous love, love is dead and alive, and then look back and find that love is so cute.