215 Thy helplessness

"You can go to the hospital with me tomorrow!"

Ji Ziqi's heavy words were still echoing in her ears, she remembered that she was self-righteous and brushed the hair around her ears, and then smiled sarcastically, "Ji Ziqi, are you okay?" I'm not sick or sick, what are I going to the hospital with you for? Or did you not wake up? Do you want to go sleep a little longer? ”

Ji Ziqi's face sank, looking at her eyes showing a trace of palpitating cruelty, her heart jumped, she was a little inexplicably afraid, and suddenly had a bad premonition.

In order to relieve this inexplicable fear, she forced a smile to herself, "What's wrong?" Am I saying something wrong? ”

Turning his face, Ji Ziqi suddenly seemed to take a breath, and the hand on the steering wheel tightened and loosened, and so many times, but he didn't speak. The solemnity on his face that he had never felt before made Yan Xin's doubts even worse, and he became more and more uneasy.

He looked at her seriously, his tone was a little weak, and there was a faint threat, "If I say that this matter is about Yan Ke's life and death, don't you want to go?" ”

"What did you say?"

She was shocked, almost thinking that she had heard it wrong, she wanted to laugh very much, and easily shook it off, "Ji Ziqi, what are you making international jokes?" ”

However, looking at his eyes, she only felt that her legs and feet were weak, her cheeks were stiff, and her movements turned into grasping his hands, and her voice was low and hoarse like hers, "Ji Ziqi, what do you want to say?" How can whether I go to the hospital or not have anything to do with my sister's life or death? Can you be serious? Your joke isn't funny at all! ”

She suppressed the trembling all over her body, she really hoped that Ji Ziqi could say a word of denial, or suddenly turn into a smile, and said, "I'm joking!" "Just like every time he used to joke with Yan Ke.

However, Ji Ziqi is still stubborn, and he treats women other than Yan Ke as always, without any patience!

His hand slammed into the steering wheel in his hand, causing an astonishing vibration, and the sadness and regret in his eyebrows and eyes were comparable to that of a beast that was about to lose its partner!

He looked at her with scarlet eyes, she couldn't help but tremble, but he gritted his teeth and said, "Yan Xin, do you think I'm playing with you?" The seemingly fluttering tone was like a rock pressing on her heart, making her feel like she couldn't breathe.

"I wish it was a joke, but is it a joke?! If anyone tells me tomorrow that Xiao Ke's illness is just a joke, I'd rather exchange my life for it! ”

Ji Ziqi, whom she knew, was naughty and naughty when she was a child, mischievous everywhere, and when she grew up, she swaggered and deceived everywhere with a harmless face of humans and animals, with a mouth that could speak well, to win the sympathy and admiration of the majority of women!

Like today, she is like a foul talker, angry as a trapped beast, powerless as an octogenarian, sad as if she has lost Ji Ziqi in the world, she is still the first time to see her, it is really just the first time!

At this moment, she suddenly understood that in this competition for love, she was not the only one who lost her first love, but also him - Ji Ziqi!

She looked at him in horror, eager to know what his sister's illness was, "Ji Ziqi, what's wrong with my sister?" ”

Ji Ziqi was immersed in a sad swamp and couldn't extricate himself, he didn't speak for a long time, and there was a dead silence in the carriage!

She couldn't hold it back, and what she hated the most was that he said half of it, and left half of it, and suddenly grabbed him, raising his voice to the point that he couldn't control it, and prayed: "Don't worry about losing your temper!" You tell me, okay? ”

Ji Ziqi seemed to realize his gaffe at this time, wiped his face, showed a slightly decadent look, and seemed to say casually: "Kidney failure, advanced stage!" Lesions in other organs have been triggered. If she doesn't find a suitable kidney source, she ......"

Ji Ziqi suddenly couldn't speak, she also turned white, the corners of her lips trembled, and there were only five words left in her mind, kidney failure? Advanced? Kidney failure! Advanced! Renal failure, advanced ......

She's so cold, she's never felt such a cold weather, but it's obviously sunny outside! Why did she have the illusion that she was frozen?

She knew, of course she knew what it meant to have that disease? She and Yan Ke have special blood types, both of them have inherited Yan's mother, Rh negative blood, commonly known as panda blood! Out of 10,000 people, only one person has this blood type!

To cure this disease, you have to find the right kidney, and to have the right kidney, you must first have the same blood type, and the new organ will not be rejected in the recipient body! It's so hard!

Really, it's so hard!

Ji Ziqi put his eyes out of the car window, and after a while, he said dejectedly: "She should have known it a long time ago, she should have ...... I knew it six years ago! Don't tell her, she's hiding it! I estimate that your father, your mother, and Gu Jifeng shouldn't know about her illness! ”

If the test sheet that was casually stuffed in the corner had not been found by the nurse who cleaned up the bed, it is estimated that he would not have known, and he would not have known how the one he loved the most died in the end!

She's so stupid! But he loved her stupidity again! Helpless!

There is always someone in the world who is your willingness and helplessness, even if her willingness and helplessness are not you!

Yan Ke is such an existence in terms of Ji Ziqi!

"What?!"

She became fierce for a moment, glared at him fiercely, and pulled the door open as if to walk outside. Ji Ziqi realized something, his face changed, he grabbed her in time, and asked in a deep voice, "What are you doing?" Where are you going? ”

She struggled and roared, "Let me go!" Are you crazy? You knew she was sick, and you helped her hide it from us! Now that she's like this, she should go to the hospital, what's the matter with staying at home? Waiting to die? ”

"Calm down!" The simple two words "waiting for death" stimulated Ji Ziqi, and the volume unconsciously increased, fierce and vicious, like a demon coming out of hell.

When Yan Xin thought of Yan Ke's condition, when she thought of her casual smile and hiding them all in the dark, she hated it so much! After so many years, how can she learn not to cherish herself!

When she was a child, she made herself, her room, dirty and messy, and now that she's grown up, she's made a mess of herself again! What the hell is she trying to do? Want to use this "special" way so that they will always remember her? Come to her endless guilt?

Ji Ziqi's roar happened to hit Yan Xin's tear ducts, and the tears couldn't help but flutter and fall, and there was no complete note in his throat, only a low whimper.

Tears sprouted in a similar face, Ji Ziqi choked in his throat, couldn't say anything else, and his voice couldn't help but soften a lot, "I came to you to ask you to go to the hospital for a test to see if your kidney is suitable?" I've been looking for more than half a month, both at home and abroad, and I'm ...... There's really no way around it. ”

The high-spirited Ji Ziqi will also have a day of low breath, if it was before, Yan Xin would definitely not believe it, but now she believes it and believes it!

The word love is very harmful, even the most beautiful people will become vulnerable in front of love!

So...... What about him?

When I thought of Gu Jifeng's appearance after knowing about this matter, my heart ached, and Ji Ziqi was anxious to go to the hospital, muttering to myself, "Go!" We'll go now, I'll go for a test now, and as long as it's appropriate, I'll come back and take her to the hospital for surgery! If she refuses, I'll tie her up! ”

"Yan Xin!"

Ji Ziqi stopped her in time, how could she not know, it was useless for her to go, Yan Ke's physical condition would definitely not allow it, if it was allowed, Ji Ziqi would have done it a long time ago, how could she wait until she made a move?

Yan Ke! Yan Ke!

Why do you have to make others remember you in such a drastic way every time!

You're so ruthless! It's really ruthless!

She wanted to calm herself down, but she couldn't do anything, she wanted to go back and hug the sister she loved and hated, but she couldn't do anything!

She's not as good at acting as she is! It's so weak that you can't do it, but you can still pretend to be strong! She really can't do it!

Huo Siyan couldn't get through when he called her yesterday afternoon, thinking she was with Yan Ke. I called several more this morning, but still no one answered. called Yan Ke, and Yan Ke said that she stayed for a while yesterday morning and went back, and he felt that something was wrong.

I looked for her for a morning, and when I saw that there was no movement in her apartment, I thought she was not there, but I vaguely knew that she was inside, so I broke down the door.

I didn't expect her to be here.

When he came, Yan Xin was still sitting on the cold floor, motionless, his eyes did not have the slightest focus, and his whole body was as cold as if he had just come out of the ice cellar.

He was distressed and wanted to ask what was going on, but instead of asking, he stretched out his hand and hugged her, and when he was about to pick her up, she suddenly came back to her senses, and her voice was hoarse, "What time is it?" ”

She turned her head to look at the clear sky outside, and he stroked her hair and replied, "It's almost eight o'clock." Seeing the wrinkles on her clothes, she frowned and asked, "You sat here all night?" ”

Yan Xin didn't answer him, but pushed him away and struggled to stand up. However, I haven't exercised for too long, and at this station, I am dizzy and dizzy, my head is full of stars, and I stumble under my feet, and I am about to fall to the ground.

Huo Siyan's eyes were quick, and he hurriedly held the person up, "You slow down, don't worry!" ”

Da Heng picked her up and walked to the sofa, looked for her all night, and now seeing her lost soul, he inevitably felt a trace of resentment in his heart, and said, "What happened?" Need you like this? ”

"It's fine! I'm going to the hospital! It's eight o'clock, and it's time for the hospital to go to work. She pushed away his hand rubbing her feet, and struggled to her feet again, staggering, but standing.

Huo Siyan looked at her stubbornly without saying a word, and the cold air on her body was colder than hers, but Yan Xin didn't seem to see anything abnormal, and left alone.

The moment the petite figure disappeared at the door, he couldn't help it after all, and took the car keys and chased after him.