Lu Qixiu originally teased her on a whim, wanting her to relax, but when she saw that she was good, she accepted it, and the time was not early, so she stopped teasing her, and left consciously, and only after confirming that she closed the door did she return to the car and lie down.

It's stiff.

There was not much space in the car, he couldn't stretch his limbs, tossing and turning in the car, and he could faintly smell the fragrance of her body between his noses.

The night is thick, and the world is quietly white hanging in the night sky.

Lu Qixiu squinted for more than ten minutes, his mind was extremely clear, and he didn't know if she had fallen asleep.

It was quietly dark, and the quieter it was, the more sober he became.

Shen Yun was lying on the wooden bed in the room, constantly building for himself in his heart, if he really saw Chu Hua tomorrow, what could he say, what else could he say, he hadn't seen her for so many years, could he recognize her.

The eighteenth change of the female college has changed, and she looks less like Chu Hua, more like her father Shen Jiayang.

Thinking about it, I don't know when I fell asleep.

Early the next morning, Shen Wan woke up before six o'clock, opened his eyes and saw that everything was lit outside the window, rubbed his eyes and got up and walked out.

The locals get up early, finish their meals early and go to work in the fields.

When Shen Wan went out, he saw Agri cooking something in front of the stove, because of the language barrier, Lu Qixiu was not on the side to translate, and it was difficult for Shen Yun to communicate with her.

Agri enthusiastically gestured with her hand to ask her if she was hungry, and brought her a bowl of gruel, steaming hot.

Shen Yun took it and said thank you, and Agri seemed to understand and smiled.

Lu Qixiu pushed the door in at this time, he seemed to have just woken up, his eyes were obviously bloodshot, and he didn't sleep well last night.

Shen Yun held the porridge and handed it to him, saying, "I ...... the porridge cooked by Agri."

"You eat, I didn't eat anything all night last night, eat some rice porridge to cushion my stomach."

Shen Yun couldn't understand from beginning to end, so he ate porridge quietly on the side, taking small bites.

The action is sven, unlike Lu Qixiu, who killed a bowl of porridge in three strokes and divided by two, and ate it faster than her.

"Do you still eat it?"

Shen Yun shook his head, holding the empty bowl and not knowing what to do with it.

Lu Qixiu took the bowl in her hand, walked out of the house, and washed the dishes by the well at the door of the house.

Back at the house, Lu Qixiu said: "Agri's parents are not at home, she has to take care of the family's pigs and cows, and she has to be busy when she gets up early in the morning. Her younger siblings go to school in the town, and she counts as half a parent. ”

Shen Yun sat on a small wooden stool, clasped his hands on his knees, and asked, "How old is she?" Don't go to school? ”

Lu Qixiu: "Not everyone has the opportunity to go to school, she gave the opportunity to her younger brothers and sisters in the family, she is an older sister." ”

Shen Yun bit her lip, lowered her head, and didn't ask any more.

Lu Qixiu touched her head, "Let's go, I'll take you around." ”

Shen Yun didn't dodge.

This is the northwest, and the further north you go, the more barren it becomes, even more barren than eucalyptus.

The houses where the locals live are made of wood, and every house is close to each other, and after turning around, Shen Yun found that they were all old faces, or young children, and there were no young people of their age.

But also, young people don't stay in their hometowns and have to go out to work, so it's the elderly and children who are at home.

So when the two of them appeared in the local area, it was still more eye-catching.

He was quite familiar with the local environment, and as he walked, Shen Yun asked him, "How many places have you been?" ”

"A lot, I can't remember."

"All going to transport supplies?"

Lu Qixiu licked his lips, "No, make a documentary." ”

"You still make documentaries?" Shen Yun was slightly surprised.

"Well, at that time, a friend who lacked a photographer asked me to come over to help, it was to make a documentary, and it was also in Tibetan areas, and in the end, there was no money to shoot, and I couldn't shoot anymore, so the team was disbanded."

Tibetan area, documentary, these two key words are combined, and you can know how difficult it is.

If it wasn't filmed by the public, it would be really difficult to make a documentary.

Shen Yun said: "Then do you still want to shoot?" ”

"I don't want to."

Shen Wan didn't ask, he talked to death.

After walking along the winding path for more than ten minutes, Lu Qixiu called out to her: "Shen Yun." ”

Shen Wan looked up at him, and both of them stopped, standing on the mountain path, surrounded by houses, and in the distance were cascading mountains.

The weather is bad today, the clouds are overcast, and the sky is gray.

Shen Yun looked up at him.

"I've inquired, Professor Chu has lived here since Eucalyptus left, but she's not at home recently."

Shen Yun paused, his legs seemed to be filled with lead, and he couldn't walk.

There was a house on the slope, and there was no one in front of the house, Lu Qixiu pointed to the house and said, "Professor Chu lives there, do you want to go in and see yourself." ”

Shen Yun pursed her lips, her face was a little pale, and she didn't know if it was because she didn't have a good rest last night, and said, "When did you find out?" ”

"Before you got up, the locals got up early, so I looked around and inquired about the situation. Professor Chu is not a local, and it is not a secret to the locals that he came here from other places, and it is easy to inquire. ”

"I'm not going in," she said. ”

"You came here alone, don't you want to meet her?"

She suddenly lost her courage, her eyelids were red, and she looked up at him: "But I regret it." ”

Frankly admits that she regrets it, she wants to escape.

Lu Qixiu lowered his head and looked down at her, "I reminded you when I came, it's too late to be afraid." ”

Shen Yun lowered his head and stiffened.

Suddenly, they stretched out their hands and heard a girl's voice, which was in Mandarin with a round voice, without a single accent.

"Who are you?"

The little girl was about seven or eight years old, standing at the door, although her skin was dark, her facial features were quite good-looking, and she wore two braids.

Shen Yun glanced at her, her brain exploded with a bang, and her little face was as white as paper.

Her lips were all bloody, and her changes were too obvious, Lu Qixiu could see it at a glance.

After Lu Qixiu saw the girl's appearance, he also understood Shen Yun's emotions.

……

There was a faint smell of bacon in the room, and the girl brought a coffee table to entertain the two of them from the city, she poured tea skillfully, she was not afraid of strangers, and she could chat with Lu Qixiu.

Lu Qixiu asked her how old she was, what grade she was in, what about her mother, and the little girl answered.

"When I was eight years old, my mother and father went out, and my grandfather and I were at home, and I was in junior high school."

The girl poured tea and placed it in front of the two of them.

Shen Yun didn't take it, but said, "Thank you." ”

The girl has seen the world, talks eloquently, and has a smile on her face all the time.

Lu Qixiu looked at the environment in the room quietly, the whole room was clear at a glance, simple but clean, his eyes finally fell on the photo of a family of three on the wall, among which the woman holding the child was the little girl in front of him, the man had nothing to say, ordinary and gentle appearance.

The girl looks very similar to Chu Hua, but she is a little darker, not ugly.

Shen Yun also saw it, so it wasn't a taste.

Lu Qixiu saw that Shen Yun was in a state where he couldn't meet Chu Hua at this time, so he didn't sit for a while, and then got up to leave.

The little girl said, "Where are you from?" Are you here to volunteer? ”

"Yes, I'm here to see your mom by the way, I'm your mom's former student."

"What's your name, big brother?"

"My surname is Lu."

Shen Wan was just about to step out of the door, but the little girl stopped her: "Sister, what about you?" ”

I didn't answer for a while, and after a minute, Shen Yun said, "My surname is Shen." ”

Lu Qixiu asked on the side, "What about you?" ”

"My name is Cheng Cheng."

……

After leaving, the two of them didn't speak on the way back to Agri's house, mainly because Shen Yun was uneasy, she kept her head down all the way, and the air pressure around her sank.

The mountain road that had rained was a little muddy, and her feet were covered with mud, and she didn't realize it.

Lu Qixiu accurately held her wrist from behind, dragged her over, touched her hair, and said, "What are you doing, don't say a word." ”

She didn't dare to look up, for fear of being seen in her embarrassment.

So he only showed him his head.

Lu Qixiu sensed her depressed mood and soothed her softly: "How long has it been since you saw Professor Chu?" ”

"......," she said.

Lu Qixiu was not in a hurry, diverted the topic, and said, "Go back, but you have to look at the road and raise your head." ”

Shen Yun snorted.

Lu Qixiu held her hand all the way, she didn't hide, she didn't struggle, and she didn't say anything.

Back at Agri's house, Agri was reading, and although she didn't have the opportunity to go to school, she read the books that her younger siblings had brought home whenever she had time, and waited for her siblings to come home and ask questions about the words she didn't know.

When Shen Yun saw Agri, he was a little cautious and wanted to chat with her, but he didn't understand the language, so he dragged Lu Qixiu and asked him: "You help me ask Agri, if there is a chance to let her go to school, would she be willing to go to school?" ”

Lu Qixiu relayed his original words, stared at Shen Yun again, and asked, "Do you want to fund her?" ”

"If you don't see me, you don't know, if you do, you can't treat it as if you didn't see it. She was young and should have been in school, not at home. ”

Lu Qixiu frowned: "Shen Yun, are you sure?" “

She said, "yes. ”

It doesn't cost much to sponsor a few children to go to school, and she doesn't lack the money.

can help one is one, as for the future of these children, she can only have a clear conscience.

Agri knew that there was such an opportunity to go back to school, but he was not very happy, but said to Lu Qixiu: "Uncle, I'm leaving, no one takes care of the family's livestock, no one does housework, and my younger brothers and sisters don't have hot meals to eat when they return home, I can't go." ”

Lu Qixiu also knew about this common problem, and Agri also said, "Thank you, uncle, but I'm fine now, I want to read and write, and when my younger siblings learn to come back and teach me at school, it's the same." ”

After Lu Qixiu told Shen Yun what Agri had said, she stood in place, her brows furrowed, and her voice was choked for a while.

"My younger brothers and sisters can go to school, and so can she, how old is she, can't she be a little willful?"

If when her parents divorced, she was a little willful and a little nonsense, and she just didn't let them divorce, then there would be no today.

Lu Qixiu couldn't stand it anymore, and dragged her hand to the back of the eaves.

Behind the eaves, there was no one, and behind the house of the Agri family was the mountain, and between it there was a small open space for miscellaneous items.

Shen Yun said: "Not every parent will love their children, she doesn't love me, she hasn't contacted me for ten years, when she divorced my father, I was similar to Agri, I only cared about my own feelings at the time, and my classmates laughed at me for not having a mother, I didn't dare to cry or make trouble, I was afraid that she wouldn't want me anymore, but in fact she did not want me." ”

Her eyes were full of water, crystal clear, but they were genuinely sad.

"She doesn't love me, and she gave birth to another daughter, named Cheng Cheng, do you know what Cheng Cheng means? She said that orange was her lucky color, and the little girl just now said that her name was Cheng Cheng. That's why I'm the one who doesn't get loved, maybe she doesn't love me all along. ”

Shen Wan was completely heartbroken, always thinking that the years were long and there was a lot of time to redeem and forgive.

But Shen Jiayang remarried, Chu Hua also remarried, and her home was gone.

Chu Hua had another beloved daughter, so she was named Cheng Cheng, and she was the one who was not loved, the one who was destined to be abandoned and forgotten.

So Chu Hua has never contacted her for ten years.

She still can't figure out how she got to where she is today.

It's not that Lu Qixiu hasn't seen a woman shed tears, there are all kinds of things, but he has never seen Shen Yun so sad.

The eyes, nose, and lips are all red.

The more she cried, the more she couldn't stop it.

It's like a weed that doesn't hurt mom.

Before seeing Chu Hua herself, just seeing her daughter, Shen Yun's psychological defense line was defeated.

She's not strong, she's not vulnerable.

Lu Qixiu pinched her chin and forced her to raise her head, and there was a pair of eyes that spread water beads, he lowered his head and kissed it, kissed her tears, and whispered, "Don't cry, okay." ”

Shen Yun shed tears without a sound, and the tears didn't want money to flow out, and while reacting, he pushed him.

But the strength was like an ant, and it couldn't shake him at all.

Lu Qixiu didn't know how to coax, he had no experience in coaxing women, so he could only keep saying, "Don't cry, okay?" If you let Agri see it, you'll probably think I'm bullying you. ”

“……”

"Woo Woo."

"......" she changed her breath and raised her eyes to stare at him tightly, her eyes were resentful and aggrieved, as if he was also bullying her.

"Then you cry."

Lu Qixiu simply hugged her, his arm was on her waist, and he didn't feel anything special at this time, he just wanted her not to cry, don't be sad.

Wait for her to finish.

Lu Qixiu let go of her, pressed her against the wall, and asked, "I've cried enough, what's next, do you want to see her?" ”

He didn't even dare to mention Professor Chu's three words.

Shen Yun was aggrieved, his eyes were bright and watery, his voice was small, and his nasal voice was very heavy, and he said, "I don't know." ”

I really don't know, she longs for Chu Hua's love for her, and she has been longing for it for so many years.

But the more she craves something, the more she can't get it.

Lu Qixiu took away the hair on her cheeks, "It's a pity to come so far away, it's a pity not to see each other, let's see it, so you don't have to worry about it." ”

Shen Yun's emotions came and went quickly, and after crying, he calmed down a little, remembered what he had taken advantage of just now, and twisted his eyebrows and said, "Lu Qixiu, you played a hooligan again just now." ”

The voice that had just cried was soft and nasal, and Lu Qixiu's heart softened when he heard it, and said, "The hooligan is used to play, otherwise what would you want it to do." ”

Shen Yun glared at him.

Lu Qixiu: "Stay one more night tonight, and leave tomorrow, okay?" ”

She thought for a moment and nodded.

"Won't that disturb Agri?"

"You know that, too."

"Then I'll go back and sponsor her younger siblings to study, how old are her younger siblings?"

“……”

Lu Qixiu suddenly stared at her, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes with his fingertips, and was silent for a while.

Shen Yun pushed him in embarrassment and said, "You go away." ”

"Shen Yun, don't cry in the future, if you want to cry, you can only cry in front of me."

Shen Yun also knew what he was thinking about him, that time Zhao Yi tied her up and threatened him with her, he obviously didn't care about the opportunity, but he still didn't hesitate to stay and exchange himself for her to leave. And kneeling, the heart she had always thought was indestructible was already swaying.

Lu Qixiu took advantage of the fire to rob and continued to bewitch: "Shen Yun, I haven't coaxed a woman like this, what I mean to you has always been obvious." ”

Shen Wan had already rejected him once.

Shen Yun finally said: "I'm not sure. ”

"Then think again."

……

In the evening, Agri's relatives came to see her, and they happened to meet someone from her house, so they sat down and chatted together.

The locals have nothing to do at night, they sit together and drink tea and chat when they have time, and few have televisions.

As he spoke, he talked about Cheng Cheng's family, these two words are very similar to Mandarin, and Shen Yun heard it at once.

Shen Yun wiped his body with hot water in the house, and he could only wear the original clothes without a change of clothes, and the door was closed, but the sound insulation was not good.

Lu Qixiu sat in the living room, chatting with them.

They didn't mention those two words again, and Shen Yun couldn't understand them.

Not long after, Agri's uncle also came to the house, he recognized Lu Qixiu, gave Lu Qixiu a cigarette, asked him about the recent situation, said and sighed, saying that this year's income is not good, some time ago there was a continuous drought, and the rain and heavy rain in the back flooded the crops, and every family did not have a good life.

……

It didn't take long for everyone to leave.

The room fell silent.

Agri said, "Uncle, don't take my uncle's words at ease, he didn't ask you to donate. ”

Lu Qixiu: "I know, but everyone is really having a hard time this year." ”

Agri was a little sad, "Our people here are actually not bad, but they are poor, poor and afraid. ”

Lu Qixiu didn't talk to him, he couldn't choose his background, and he couldn't even change his fate, which was a common phenomenon here.

If you don't work hard, you will be rewarded, but if you don't work hard, you will have problems with food and clothing.

……

After Shen Yun wiped his body, he felt much more comfortable, the only uncomfortable thing was that he couldn't change his clothes, he came in a hurry yesterday, and he didn't expect to bring clothes.

She stood under the courtyard, looking up at a crescent moon hanging in the sky, Lu Qixiu also came out, lit a cigarette, and smoked slowly.

"Just now, Agri's relatives came over and talked about the Cheng family."

"......" Shen Wan looked at him silently.

Uncle Agri said that Cheng Cheng was very competitive, and said that she would definitely be able to leave here in the future and be admitted to a good university. Let Agri urge her younger siblings to learn from Cheng Cheng, and only by being admitted to university will she have a chance to leave the mountain. ”

It is really not easy to get a few universities in the barren mountainous area, although many people study hard, but for various reasons, many cannot complete their studies, let alone enter the university.

For the sake of her younger siblings, Agri can only give up the opportunity to go to university, and she has no regrets for her dedication to her family.

Lu Qixiu touched her head: "You haven't seen Professor Chu for so long, how can you be sure that she doesn't love you?" Both parents love their children, but in different ways. ”

Shen Yun: "......"

"I'll meet tomorrow, if you don't want to meet, I'll help you go."

Shen Yun turned his head sideways and stared somewhere, "Lu Qixiu." ”

"Hmm."

Shen Yun: "Don't worry about my business. ”

It's full of thorns again.

She was a little unbearable, and her weaknesses were seen.

Lu Qixiu said solemnly: "You don't look like a person who will bow your head, Shen Yun, there are some things you have to face." ”

She stomped her foot, "I know. ”

"Then don't cry."

Shen Wan snorted, "If I can hold back, I won't cry." ”

"Shen Yun, what scenes have you filmed?"

"You won't look for it on the Internet, will you?"

"There's no signal in the mountains."

Shen Wan wanted to go back to the room, turned around, and said, "I haven't filmed a crying scene, I can try it next time." ”

Lu Qixiu chuckled.

Under the moon, Lu Qixiu looked up, and the moonlight shone into his eyes, and there was a girl in his eyes that he had never forgotten.

The girl cried in front of him for the first time, and it was so sad to cry, he felt distressed, but he couldn't stop the girl from staggering forward and regaining her strength.

There are some pains that must be faced in order to grow.

Shen Yun had a snow-capped mountain in his heart, and now, the white tip of the snow-capped mountain began to melt.

At noon the next day, Shen Yun was ready, she didn't let Lu Qixiu follow, and went to Cheng's house by herself.

Chu Hua is not here yet.

Shen Yun stood in front of Cheng Cheng and left a letter, telling her: "If your mother comes back, can you help me transfer the letter to her?" ”

Cheng Cheng said generously: "Okay, sister, by the way, sister, what's your name?" ”

Shen Yun said: "Shen Yun, it is written here." ”

After handing over the letter, Shen Yun didn't look back and left Cheng's house step by step.

She couldn't wait for Chu Hua to come back, she was destined not to meet this time, so she could only wait for Chu Hua to receive the letter and whether she would contact her.

Everything that should be done has been done, and the rest depends on Chu Hua's meaning.

……

Lu Qixiu stood by the car and waited for her for a long time, about to leave, he said goodbye to Agri, who stood in front of the door and waved at them.

After getting into the car, Shen Yun rolled down the window and waved goodbye to Agri.

On the way back, it was another ten hours or so drive.

Not long after leaving the mountains, the mobile phone signal finally had two bars.

Lu Qixiu received a call from Ah Zhu and asked him when he would go back, he said about the approximate time, and hung up the phone after chatting a few more words.

Shen Yun looked at his mobile phone, but there was no power, so he didn't dare to continue playing, and asked what he had always wanted to ask: "Lu Qixiu, have you liked me for a long time?" ”

Lu Qixiu confessed: "It didn't take long. ”

"How long is it?"

"I've been thinking about you since I first saw you."

Shen Yun sighed, it's not salty or light, so there's no follow-up.

At this time, Lu Qixiu couldn't sit still, and said, "What about after asking this?" You don't want to say something? ”

Shen Yun raised his cheeks and looked out the car window, "I don't want to say anything, there are many people who have liked me, do I have to say something?" ”

Lu Qixiu licked his teeth and smiled, amused, "I'm different, I'm thinking about you." ”

The car drove steadily, and the stereo played the only Cantonese lyric song.

"The sea of bitterness turns over love and hate, it is difficult to escape fate in the world, blind dates are unapproachable, or I should believe that it is fate."

Shen Yun had to believe in fate, and gave herself a time in her heart, and when she went back to deal with the matter with Zhou Ruonan, she would come back to him.

But she didn't tell Lu Qixiu directly and asked him to wait.

Because she doesn't know how long this time is, she herself doesn't know.