(Girls' Literature)

The heat of summer is almost coming to an end at this time, and although the heat of the sun in the sky still seems to have not diminished at noon, my limbs are biting cold, as if I have tied large ice cubes to my hands and feet. It makes me feel like I just want to shake. Zhang Yefeng's pickup truck almost flew up, but we didn't go to the welfare home this time, we only had one trip, and that was the children's hospital in the provincial capital. Officer Huang called, Mimi is sick, and now she is living in the intensive care unit of the children's hospital in the provincial capital, and after I heard it, I could hardly catch the phone in my hand.

"When I saw Xinxin for a while, you must not look too sad, that child is very smart, but now for her, the only person she trusts is you!" Zhang Yefeng told me while driving, I nodded, of course I know this, but I am not sure that I can control myself from tears! Every time I come to the hospital, especially the intensive care unit, I feel a chill from the bone marrow, which is very bone-chilling. It seems to have become an instinctive reaction, a reaction that comes from the true heart.

I think I will take it for granted again, when my father died, when I walked to the hospital, I may never forget it, but this scene is always in my mind, like a brand on the lithograph, although this scene was deliberately chosen by me to forget in the deep sea of memory, not to think, not to ask, not to touch, and not to touch, this is how it slowly fell silent in my mind, But when my feet stepped into the corridors of the intensive care unit, my legs were still shaking uncontrollably, and I could barely walk.

My mind went back to my homecoming, and the goodbye to my father, and I suddenly realized that I was so stupid, and what I tried so hard to forget would never be erased from my memory in any way, whether I wanted it or not, it still stood there, although the usual clamor was very small, but as soon as I remembered it, this faint clamor turned into some irrepressible screams. It just hovered like a giant crow in my head, and it was painful!

I shook my head hard, trying to get this terrible memory out of my brain, but at this time, these things seemed to have taken root, and they stayed in my mind and refused to leave, no matter how hard I tried, it was all in vain, it was all in vain, it was all in vain, "Ai Xiaoya, what's wrong with you?" Zhang Yefeng stepped forward and hugged me all of a sudden, "I'm fine, let's hurry up and ......" Before I finished speaking, Officer Huang suddenly appeared, I saw his serious and sad face, and my heart was folded again. "You're here......" Officer Huang saw me, "Miss Xiaoya......" He looked like he wanted to speak and stopped, but when I walked into him, I found that his eyes were actually red, yes, I read that right, his eye circles were red, so red, red, and it looked really terrifying.

I took a deep breath, my nose was filled with the smell of disinfectant water, I was almost a little irritated by the smell of my eyes, I fixed my look, so that I didn't look so flustered, "What about Shin Shin?" I got straight to the point, but Officer Huang didn't answer, and his words were full of hesitation, "What about Xinxin?" Officer Huang, tell me quickly......" Seeing that my attitude was more eager, Zhang Yefeng stepped forward and patted me on the shoulder, "Xiaoya, don't be so anxious first, you listen to Officer Huang first!" "I also realized that my attitude at this time was a little stiff, so I had to calm down and listen to Officer Huang finish speaking." Miss Xiaoya, I know you're in a hurry right now, but Shin Shin's situation is really not very optimistic, hi ......."

Hearing this, I felt as if the back of my head had been smashed by someone else, because my eyes began to blur, everything in front of me seemed to be covered with a layer of gauze, I looked at the light, but the light was a vague shadow, or it couldn't be seen, but I could see as if a figure was shaking all the time, but I couldn't see what it was, "Didn't it mean that her condition was getting better?" She's so nice, so cute, so sensible, why should she take on all this? My voice was so loud, my body seemed to be shaking violently, I was so excited as if I was questioning someone, but I didn't know who I was questioning, and it seemed that no one could stand up and give me an answer, so I still stubbornly asked.

"Xiaoya, you have to be calm, I know that you have no way to accept it, this is something that none of us can accept, but we still have to face reality......." Zhang Yefeng hugged me, my body, at this moment, as if I had found a new fulcrum, I leaned my head on his shoulder, his broad shoulders, just gave my head a stable fulcrum, "Calm down, Xiaoya, okay, are you obedient, you are like this, how can you go in to see Xinxin?" She needs your help, she needs your encouragement, you don't want to be like this anymore, okay? Zhang Yefeng patted me on the head, I understand, I can listen to him, but the only thing I can't accept is that Xinxin's current situation, the reason why she is now admitted to the intensive care unit, is not because of her own illness, as everyone said, her illness has begun to slowly improve, but now the reason why she is really sick and really lying on the hospital bed is because of a car accident! You see, how ridiculous, car accidents. This seems to be an unthinkable thing, how can this be?

The director of the welfare institute came out to explain to us, "Shin Shin's situation is getting better day by day, and her appetite is starting to get better, so the teacher organized the children of the welfare institute to visit the zoo, and Shin Shin was also invited, so she went with everyone, but when crossing the street, no one thought that a motorcycle would suddenly rush out, and it hit Shin Shin's body straight ...... it, Shin Shin was like a piece of paper and was hit on the spot, and the rider of the motorcycle was defined as drunk driving

I listened quietly, I felt as if my internal organs were bleeding, this thing has happened for three days, three whole days, for three days, Xinxin has been lying on the bed, enduring, almost purgatory-like torture, but my damn situation these days is that I don't even know, yes, that's how it is, these days, Xinxin's current situation, I actually don't know anything, "How is Xinxin now?" I tried my best to be calm, but at this time I still began to choke uncontrollably, and the dean shook his head, "The doctors have tried their best, but now the situation is not good, and the blood loss is too much, but she, she wants to see you, Miss Ai, we didn't inform you at the beginning, because we also feel that we have to trouble you from time to time, and if we always trouble you, it will make us feel very embarrassed, after all, you have no obligation in this regard......" I shook my head, "It's not like this, I promised her mother to take good care of her, but my attention to her has really been too little lately, and I, I want to see her......"

The dean looked at me, "Are you sure that there really is nothing wrong with your emotions right now?" I looked at him and nodded firmly, "Okay, then you can go and see her, try to keep your emotions calm, now the child is in danger at any time......" I looked at the dean, and Officer Huang continued, "Zheng Encai is also on the way here, no matter what, we still have to arrange for their father and daughter to meet......" The dean nodded, muttered, "My poor child......" The room was still a thrilling white, just like that, Xinxin was lying on the bed, the blood-red scar on her face and her black hair, It became the only other color in this room. I looked at Xinxin blankly, Xinxin was still asleep, I don't know if it was under the effect of anesthetic, or if she was really asleep, I looked at Xinxin, her eyebrows and eyelashes were still slowly vibrating, she still looked very peaceful, and there was still a hint of a smile on her mouth, child, what did you dream about?

I slowly sat down on the edge of the bed, "Auntie......." Xinxin slowly opened her eyes and called me, "Baby, are you awake......." I came back to my senses, just looked at her like this, Xinxin's face had a lot of bruises and abrasions, just like that, I saw her clear eyes, and me in the eyes, "Auntie, I miss you......" This voice is very beautiful, like a newborn chick, just like a newborn chick, just like a newborn nestling kept shouting in the nest, this voice directly reached the depths of my heart, The lake in my heart began to slowly rise slightly, and my breathing began to become a little abnormal. "Xinxin, I'm here, I've always been there......" I slowly grabbed her little hand and pressed it tightly against my face. Xinxin's hand also held me tightly, yes, her hand was holding me so tightly, and there was a more complicated look in her eyes, I have no way to define, is this a kind of life and death, if so, then why have I experienced so many life and death for a while?