(Girls' Literature)

"You're still not the same as me." Kang Hui said this sentence leisurely. The interlocking index fingers are closed one by one. I looked at her. Savor the meaning of this sentence carefully. Today she is very different from what she used to be. It seems to be in this shell. Re-injected with a new soul. It's not the same Kang Hui before at all.

Faced with this meaningful sentence. I only smiled slightly. I don't know how to proceed.

She turned her head to look at me. Then he laughed too. I swear this is the first time I've seen her laugh. Preconceived impressions. The memory she brought to me was sitting in the doorway all day doing nothing. "Crackling" melon seeds. "Puff" spit out the husks. Totally a husk maker. Enjoy the natural comfort.

His face was gloomy all day long. It's almost like a rag that can wring out water. Talk to her. She will never look up at you. So the communication between them is very, very little. I didn't expect to be able to sit here and talk with her one day. This was almost impossible before.

"You know what. I do not like you. There's a reason for that. "An extremely rare smile. Still hanging on her face. Right. She was right. I'll admit I'm not very smart. But I also knew that she just didn't like me before. And I don't like it very much. But I just couldn't figure out why she didn't like me.

I'd love to hypocritically say "nothing". But instead, I nodded. Since you can sit here and talk openly. I don't think I have any reason to be hypocritical anymore.

"Why?" I asked her with a smile. Actually, I'm also very curious about this reason. You know, I grew up and was rarely hated. This sounds a bit narcissistic, though. But it's true.

Kang Hui laughed out loud. "It's not because I'm jealous of you." She turned her face to the side.

"What. You're jealous of me. I have nothing to be jealous of. I'm compared to you. It's just a hardship from other places who came to the provincial capital. You don't have to do anything every day. Just grab a piece of paper and a pen. Rent is collected from house to house. You can have no worries about food and clothing. And me. Every day, I have to run non-stop to make a living. I waved my hand. She's to me. There are indeed many advantages in terms of economic and material conditions. This is a plain fact. What can I make her jealous?

"Hi. You don't just see that one aspect. You make me jealous of everything. Actually, as long as you want. You can get a lot more than I do. And it's easy. It's just that you didn't choose to go that way. She looked at me. It's a fact. You look at what kind of cars the people around you are driving. What are the identities. It's just that what you stick to has your own principles and bottom line. Kang Hui put away her smile. In a heartfelt tone.

In the face of this kind of heart-to-heart. I just nodded. Because she's really right. At this moment, her heart and I are completely open to each other.

"But I'm different......," she said, a cloud of gas coming out of the tip of her tongue. I wonder if it was nicotine that had just been left in her mouth. She put her whole face straight at me. I saw an indescribable sadness in her eyes. I could feel it completely.

"When I was a kid, I knew I wasn't the stuff for reading. I wonder why there are some things that other people can do so easily. But I can't do it if I try ten times more than others. The time of each exam is the hardest for me. I looked at the snow-white test paper in front of me. I don't recognize it. It doesn't know me either. Sometimes an exam passes. I often only write my own name on the test paper. ”

I looked at her with interest. I didn't expect her to say such humorous things. After saying this. Kang Hui smiled "self-deprecatingly". I didn't answer. As a loyal listener to her. I could only listen quietly to what she was saying. "My dad and mom didn't have much of a culture of their own. Every time I worry about studying. They always comfort each other and say. I'm all inherited. Born not to be a good reader. At that time, the conditions of our family were still very good. There is this large area of land and houses. Occupy such a geographical advantage. My parents thought that the children would have a good life in the future. Just rely on these tenants to feed themselves. At least they won't starve to death. She tugged at the hair on her forehead.

As he spoke. Kang Hui was about to take out the cigarette case from his pocket again. I reached out and stopped me. "Alright. Sister Huihui. You don't smoke anymore. Smoke is not good for the body after all. She took a look. After a few seconds of pause. I put the cigarette case back in my pocket. "Actually. That's why you saw me smoking. I've been smoking for many years. No one knows. My mom doesn't know either. She always felt that she could plan my whole life for me. The one in control. I just have to follow the path she's planned......"

I looked at her with some sympathy. She shouldn't have lied to herself. Because Auntie's personality is indeed relatively strong. "She didn't think I was learning this material. I dropped out of school. Stay at home every day. The work that is done day in and day out is housework. Dine. Rent collection. Rent collection. Utility bills are counted. And then the days went by like this. I didn't think it mattered at first. Though it is simple, it is smooth. But after all, what I learned was housework. Dine. Rent collection. Rent collection ......"

She shook her head with a wry smile. "When I met you. I'm so jealous. This jealousy comes from the heart. You're beautiful. Have academic qualifications. You can find a good job. There are so many excellent boys to escort. Even my mom is in her words sometimes. Inadvertently reveals a liking for you. Before, she didn't agree with my brother and Wu Min's matter. will involuntarily say, 'You said that Wu Min is okay if he is the same as Xiaoya.'" Kang Hui and I looked at each other and laughed.

Hehe. This sentence still satisfied my vanity. Because I thought about the landlord and my aunt didn't like me very much. Today I found out that she had a good impression of me.

"But you're getting married soon. And after marriage, it is also close to the aunt's side. Besides, you and Shao Dong have been playing since childhood. You'll be happy in the future. I smiled and patted her on the shoulder.

She held out a finger and waved it in front of me. "Huh. Shao Dong. Shao Dong was also chosen by my mother. My marriage is entirely my mother's decision. I still admire my brother on this point. He is willing to fight for Wu Min. Go and fight. Don't you see that didn't work out either? But what about me. I just want to follow the route she set. Although I understand very well that this is not what I want to go. Shao Dong is not my favorite either. But what other way out do I have than to keep going. ”

She paused. A cigarette was quickly pulled out. Ignite violently. But the suction is too strong. She choked and coughed. "Cough, cough, cough...... I've always grown up in this urban village. The world you see is the sky above your head in the alley. It's just that sometimes the color changes. The weather alternates between warm and cold, changing clothes. I also want to fly out of this alley. Go outside and take a look. But I don't have any culture. Two are incapacitated. I don't even recognize the pinyin of Chinese characters. What do you think I can do? ”

I didn't stop her from smoking this time. Even now I think it makes sense for her to smoke now. It's very much in line with the current mentality and situation. "Sometimes I just think. I've been stuck in this narrow alley for the rest of my life. Maybe that's fate......"

I know I'm not articulate. But at least I can still speak clearly. But I really don't know what to say in this situation. Only the hand was on her shoulder.

It turns out in everyone's heart. There are one of one kind or another. What we don't know and don't understand. We are always accustomed to taking things for granted according to our own ideas. But I don't know the opposite side of something. They all have this or that same as their original imagination. The opposite is a truth. We don't know. I don't understand. It's like I can't even think of it if I want to break my head. I will sit here with Kang Hui and have a heart-to-heart relationship.

Initially. I just thought that we were people walking on different paths. Even if the direction of walking is the same. But the two paths are parallel. The time and space we live in are also parallel to each other.

But now there is an intersection between us. "I didn't have a very good attitude towards you before. The reason I don't like you is because I'm jealous of you. You're so good......" Kang Hui patted me on the back. "Can we be friends in the future?" She asked me.

"Absolutely." I replied with a smile. "You forgot. When you got married. I'm going to get you married. ”

Kang Hui smiled after hearing this. "That's right. The boy who drove the BMW off-road before. I haven't seen him lately. "I know she's talking about Li Yunxiang." He's pretty handsome. I think he's really attentive to you. Since that accident that happened to you that night. Several times I saw him standing downstairs late in the evening. Looks like I really have you in my heart......"

Kang Hui's words shook my heart greatly. Li Yunxiang: Are you really like this? I thought that the three words "Li Yunxiang" had been forgotten by me on the beach of memory. With the wind and sun and heavy rain. It will slowly fade away. Weathering. And I can face the simple life in a plain way.

But why did it come out of Kang Hui's mouth. My heart still can't stop shaking.