I sat in the car and counted the money in my hand, there were more than 3,000 yuan, and Mimi's salary at the pharmacy was not much, but how did she get this amount for me. Someone once said that there are two test criteria to test whether a friend is true or false, the first is when you borrow money, and the second is the person you can harass at will within 24 hours a day, I think Tang Mimi meets both standards, Mimi, I can make you a friend in this life, I am really fortunate to have three lives.

Soon, the car started slowly. It left the provincial capital and drove me in the direction of my hometown. I really want to get there soon, I really want to know how my dad is doing, and on the other hand, I hope it doesn't arrive so early, because my dad colleague just called and said he was in the ICU, and I was afraid that something would happen that I couldn't accept. Thinking of this, I couldn't help but fold my hands, bow my head and pray, please really don't let anything happen, Daddy, Daddy, I hope you will get better soon.

About three hours later, the car arrived in our hometown Z City. I flagged down a taxi and went straight to the hospital where my dad worked. That's when my phone rang, and it was my uncle calling.

"Hey, uncle."

"It's Xiaoya, where are you now?"

"I'm at the hospital, where are you now?"

"We are at the entrance of the ICU on the 8th floor of this ward building in the back, you can come over quickly."

I hung up the phone and ran as hard as I could. The elevator in the ward building is full all the time. I couldn't wait, so I ran up the stairs, layer upon floor, like a whirling maze, I felt like I had run hard, but I couldn't run to the end, and when I saw the number "8", I immediately rushed out.

When I walked to the corridor, I saw a lot of colleagues in my father's unit, their eyes were red, and many of them wiped their tears, all of them looked like they wanted to speak and stopped. I slowly came to the door of the ICU, where there were many relatives at home, and I had already guessed seven or eight points in my mind what this situation meant as a result. But without confirmation, I forced myself to think that the result would be good.

"Go see your mother, your mother just woke up." Uncle whispered.

"I want to see my dad." I said, and my uncle fell silent.

"Where's my dad? Uncle. What about my dad...... I kept asking.

"Child, don't ......" An aunt who had a good relationship with my parents before stepped forward and grabbed me.

"Your dad died of a cerebral hemorrhage." I understood that it was difficult for my uncle to say this sentence from the innermost part, but he said it anyway.

I fainted, really, in the horrified eyes and screams of horror. It was as if I had encountered steel with an extremely hot object, and it instantly melted into water and collapsed on the ground. In the haze, I saw the last time my father and mother went to the provincial capital, and our family of three was reunited. When Dad left, he took Li Yunxiang's hand and said, "You have to treat my daughter well." Tears in his eyes, and ...... My tears kept rolling in my eyes, but I couldn't get them out, even if I tried my best.

"Pat her on the back, hurry up, don't let her hold back." Someone shouted.

"Xiaoya, cry out loud if you want to cry......" Uncle cried.

"Ah......h

"Daddy, Daddy......" At this moment I had no strength to stand up again, I lay on the ground and cried.

"Come on, boy, get up." An aunt came over and she tried to pull me up from the ground but couldn't do anything. It wasn't until several more people came that they pulled me up.

"Drink some water...... "Someone brought me water.

"Don't be too uncomfortable, child, you still have to take care of your mother." Everyone comforted me.

I sat on the stool and felt completely empty inside, like a rat hole.

I slowly shuffled to my mother's bed in the ICU.

"Xiaoya, my child......" the mother cried bitterly. I knelt in front of my mother's bed, and my mother put my head in her arms, and we wept bitterly.

"Hey, what do you say these two will live in the future?"

"yes, isn't it all at once?" My ears were filled with other people's comments.

Yes, the sky has fallen, the earth has fallen, and my mother and I now seem to have fallen into a bottomless abyss, and there are many faces around us that sympathize or laugh at us, but I can't hear or see them.

At night, I knelt in the morgue to hold a wake for my father. There's a memorial service tomorrow, so tonight is my last night with him. After those people put on my father's birthday clothes, they gradually dispersed, and the whole morgue was gloomy, and after autumn, the night was cold and dewy, and I didn't know if it was the weather or psychological reasons, I knelt beside my father's coffin and kept shivering.

The two white candles burned slowly, and the liquid produced by the burning of the candles flowed down drop by drop, like tears on my face that could not be dried. I put the paper money in the brazier, and the jumping flames reflected my face, and my skin ached. Dad, I'm there for you right now, can you feel it? Dad, it's late at night, are you cold? Dad, why didn't you let me see you for the last time? Dad ...... "In this lonely night, I was talking to myself alone.

This night, I didn't close my eyes, and my mind recalled every scene I spent with my dad in the past 21 years.

"You pay me bubble gum, you pay me ......" When I was a child, I slapped my father's back and spoiled it. Dad stroked my head lovingly, "Okay, I'll buy it for you now"

"How's that, it's not high." My father took me to watch the temple fair and put me on his neck.

"Well, my daughter is the smartest, you see she took the first place in the exam again." Dad held my test paper and sighed.

"If you are asked to go home and work, you will not come back, and you are willing to stay there and suffer." When my dad learned that I had decided to stay in the provincial capital, he kept complaining about me.

I will never forget him holding Li Yunxiang's hand and saying, "You have to treat my daughter well." ”

God, how much are you going to lose me. It's going to make me miserable. I suddenly felt so cold, this cold seeped into my skin and invaded my heart, like a sharp ice blade hollowing out my internal organs. Dad, if you were alive, would you feel distressed and sad to see me so sad?

The next day, a lot of people came to the memorial service. Some of them are relatives of our family, but most of them are friends and colleagues of my parents. I have forgotten what the whole memorial service was about. Dad was lying in a transparent crystal coffin in a brand new shroud. has been "beautified" by the mortuary of the funeral home, and it looks very peaceful, just like he usually sleeps. Until the memorial service is over, he is to be pushed to be cremated.

"Dad......" I ran over, holding the cart with both hands, "Don't... Father. ”

"Son, let go of ......" someone came and broke my hand.

"Yaya, be obedient, let go." My mother came over to persuade me. I'm still caught.

"Let's do you a favor." Three or four men came up at once, yes, there was still a clear disparity in strength between me and them, and my hands were torn apart alive.

"Daddy......" I called out one last time, and I saw the door to the cremation room firmly closed. As soon as my feet went limp, I realized when I knelt on the ground that all my father's marks in this world were all wiped out the moment the door closed. This man who held me in the palm of his hand for 21 years, this man I haven't had time to repay, left completely, and I will never see him in the crowd again, and the moment I go home and open the door, I can no longer shout happily, "Dad".

"Here, pick it up, it's the ashes." I picked up my father's ashes at the door of the oil depot. I can't say what I feel in my heart, and in this life, in the end, it will just turn into a piece of soil. The urn is placed in the tomb, covered with a stone slab, and the whole funeral process is over. Dad, you go to the ground and settle down. I fell to my knees and knocked my head three times against the tombstone.

When I got home, my mother and I looked at each other, not knowing what to say, let alone what to say? Now it may be that a very simple sentence can trigger our fragile nerves. I didn't dare to sleep at night for the past few days.

I didn't dare to look at what my father left behind. The home I've lived in for 21 years scares me. I felt as if my heart and lungs were being pressed by an object of unknown shape, and it was extremely difficult to breathe.

"Yaya, your father passed away, our family's mortgage has to be repaid more than 3,000 yuan a month, and my mother's salary is only more than 1,000, what will we do in the future?" Mom said sadly, swollen like peaches' eyes. Reddened again.

"Mom, you don't have to worry about this, I'm grown up and working now, and I can make money for our two to live." I said firmly. Hey, that's easy to say, I'm too weak to do it. I know best what the actual situation is, the job of the magazine is gone, the income is gone, I broke up with Li Yunxiang, and I live like a rat crossing the street in the provincial capital, but there is no way, at this time, if I tell my mother about my current actual situation, she will definitely collapse.

"Child, you are really pitiful, you are just starting out now, and it is the time when you need your father's support, and now you have to face so much pressure." Mom looked sad again.

"It's nothing, it's already like this, do we still have to complain? There are no charcoal in the snow in this world, a lot of fallen stones, if we are slumped because of the death of our father, it will not do us any good, the more in this period, the stronger we must be, the more we have to live beautifully. ”

After I finished speaking, I saw my mother's surprised gaze.

"Yaya, you seem to have grown up." My mother was very pleased.

"Mom, I'll go back to the provincial capital tomorrow, you must take care of yourself at home, remember to cheer up." I gave the money that Don Mimi lent me to my mother in one go.

"Where did you get so much money, didn't you ask for that Li Yunxiang. Yaya, although he is rich, we can't take other people's money indiscriminately. "Mom is righteous.

"Don't worry, this money is saved when I was working, and it has nothing to do with him, Mom, Dad has worked for so many years, has not been opportunistic, exploited loopholes, our family has little money left, you can rest assured to take this money to spend, I will send you money regularly every month in the future." I say.