146 Wandering
"Beifan, it's not good for you to do this." Zhong Yuze took a bite of the sandwich in the basin and put it down again. For the things he always loved to eat, now he has no appetite.
Looking at He Beifan again, he pursed his lips, and the expression on that face made Yu Ze a little incomprehensible, "I won't reply." He said this coldly, and then he was speechless, and his black eyes looked fixedly at the snacks on the white porcelain plate, but they looked careless.
"How can that be?" Zhong Yuze seemed to be particularly dissatisfied with He Beifan's answer, "You came out and didn't say a word, so how worried should your family be." He tried his best to comfort Beifan, although he didn't like to hear what he said, Zhong Yuze still had to say, "Tell me about you, your grandfather is so old, what are you angry with him." Yu Ze said with more complaints.
"I'm angry with him?" He Beifan grabbed the goblet on the tablecloth and took a sip of water fiercely, "Did he take me in his eyes?" He Beifan shrugged his shoulders, making people feel very sad, "No." What did he take me for? I'm just a burden to this family. It's just going to drag him down, I'm afraid that's what happened to him. The young man's eyes were a little moist, he didn't understand why he was so vulnerable, anyway, he now had a desire to cry.
"Alright, Beifan." Zhong Yuze patted him on the shoulder, as if he wanted to give him some comfort, "Don't you be like an old man." "I mean, he's understandable, isn't he?" Seeing that He Beifan was silent, he refused to give up, "After all, he still loves you." ”
But no matter what Zhong Yuze said, He Beifan still didn't think so, "Really? But I don't feel it. In his mind, there were only the old man's stubborn words, "If you dare to learn art, I will break your legs." "He Lao is so sure.
"Tell me what's wrong with me studying art?" The boy rolled his eyes fiercely at the opposite wall as he spoke, "Since he's my grandfather, shouldn't he respect my choice?" How could he ......" He Beifan choked up when he said this, he had an indescribable pain, maybe Zhong Yuze couldn't feel it.
"However, you just left and didn't call home, I think ......" He also knew that He Beifan didn't like to listen, so he stopped and didn't say anything more.
"I know." At this time, He Beifan looked at him unusually calm, "But even if I call home, what can I do?" Even, I'll go back. He said and pursed his thin lips again, "Can he let go of his prejudice against me?" Yuze, do you know how I live in this home? I really ......" he shook his head as he said this, tears streaming down his cheeks, "I really don't have any status at all. I admit that He Beichen is excellent, but am I so unbearable in his eyes? You say, you say what I have to do to forgive me. His tone was full of pleading, and he looked really vulnerable.
Zhong Yuze had never seen such He Beifan, he was extremely disappointed, contrary to his usual sunny and energetic appearance, "Beifan, in fact, you didn't do anything wrong. He said and then patted the boy on the shoulder, "Maybe it's just that everyone looks at things from different angles, and you don't need to feel guilty, it's really not necessary." ”
"Ugh." He Beifan sighed deeply, his emotions hadn't fluctuated like this for a long time. He has been living in Uzawa's house these days, and although his parents are very enthusiastic about him, it is not a matter of going on like this.
After a long time, Yu Ze felt that Beifan's mood had improved somewhat, so he started the original topic again, "Go back, Beifan, don't be angry with him anymore." Anyway, he's your grandfather too, isn't he? You can just worry about it with him for two days, you shouldn't keep thinking about it like this. I know you're feeling bad, but you're also going to have to face it. ”
He Beifan really didn't want to discuss this matter anymore, and talking about this topic today was like pouring salt on his wounds, which was painful. "That's enough, I said, I'm not going back." As Zhong Yuze expected, he is still as stubborn as ever, "Unless, he is soft, he will no longer say such cruel words." He Beifan seems to be very strong on the lips, but in fact, his heart is already extremely cold.
"Impossible, Fan, don't think about it." Zhong Yuze felt that He Beifan was talking in a dream, "He won't reverse his will, he is already old." Old people are generally very stubborn. ”
Seeing that He Beifan's face still did not change, as if he didn't take Zhong Yuze's words into account at all, he continued, "If you have an awkward relationship with him, forget it." But have you ever thought about your mother? How worried she must be these days when you don't come home. Fan, even if you are angry with that old man, you should also consider your mother, after all, she is innocent. ”
If what Zhong Yuze said before was nonsense, then this sentence is definitely not. Yes, there is still a mother at home, what would she think. Beifan is a soft-hearted person, not so much that he is ruthless, but that he expects to be cared for, but it is obvious that the object of his revenge should not be He Yulei, but the stubborn old He.
Thinking like this, Beifan was a little shaken. He Yulei's loving face appeared in front of him, and the feeling like a spring breeze made him soften in an instant. Yu Ze saw that his face had changed a little, so he struck while the iron was hot and said, "So, Beifan, you have to think about it in general." You're not just hurting your grandfather by doing this, but what about your mother, have you ever considered her feelings? I can say that she is the most hit and the most worried about you when you run away from home. Can you bear to let her worry like this? Zhong Yuze has always looked like he is giggling, but today I don't know what's wrong, but it makes people feel his maturity.
Bei Fan bit his lower lip very tightly, and he almost didn't bite blood. In front of him was a very difficult choice, whether he should go back or not, he was driven out by his own grandfather, how could he go back to this home, but when he thought of his mother's face, he was like a person who had lost his backbone and had to go soft.
In fact, He Beifan was really homesick, but he didn't even want to admit it, so after a few minutes of stalemate, he finally lost the battle. It seems that after a long ideological struggle, "Then, I'll go back and take a look today." His words made Zhong Yuze wait for a long time, so he felt extremely excited as soon as he said this.
"That's right." Zhong Yuze smiled, he laughed very happily, as if he had resolved the knot in his heart for a long time, not so much polite, but more like being happy for Beifan from the bottom of his heart, "Fan, you have finally opened your mind." In fact, it doesn't make sense for you to go on like this. You yourself are unhappy, and you are also angry with the people in your family, why bother, Fan. ”
He Beifan has always hated others to persuade him, but at this moment, he has no dislike for Zhong Yuze, he even feels his own fault, this feeling makes him as uncomfortable as swallowing a fly. But he didn't say anything, and unconsciously felt a little more apprehensive in his heart, and he didn't take a few bites of the sandwich on the white porcelain plate in front of him, but he also lost his appetite.
"Waiter, check out." Seeing that Zhong Yuze, who was sitting opposite, didn't move his fork for a long time, Beifan felt that it was not a matter to sit down like this, and since he didn't have any appetite, he simply left.
Beifan paid, and the two of them walked out of the western restaurant silently, and walked towards the street to the left of the hotel. Yu Ze knew that this road led to Beifan's house. The young man in front of him is like a stubborn little beast, hurt by the people close to him, so he is reluctant to go home, but no matter how far the leaves fall, he will eventually return to the earth. Beifan is a prime example.
"You say, how should I explain when I go home?" He Beifan frowned, and it took a long time for such a sentence to come out. Although it seems a little abrupt, it is a logical thing.
"Hmm." Obviously, He Beifan's question made Zhong Yuze a little embarrassed, he turned his brain quickly, and finally came to a conclusion that he didn't know if it was appropriate, "You, you just tell your mother the truth." After all, it's not like she doesn't know how cold your grandfather is to you, and I think he should understand. Yu Ze was trying his best to comfort him, wanting to relieve some of Beifan's burden.
"Is that okay?" Yu Ze's words were obviously not enough to make Beifan trust, so he lowered his head, and he didn't feel a little weak, his mother must be angry with himself, which He Beifan could understand even if he didn't think about it. Although He Yulei is usually a very loving person, she will not be sloppy about principled issues at all, which He Beifan knows better than anyone else, so he can't help but be a little flustered about running away from home and returning home.
"It's okay, Fan, think for yourself, you haven't been home for so long. How happy should Auntie be when she sees you, how can she blame you? Besides, you can't be blamed for it, your grandfather kicked you out. You He Beifan is also a backbone person, you are not willing to bow your head easily, I think, Auntie should know this. Zhong Yuze's analysis was reasonable, but He Beifan still had an unspeakable concern.
"But ......" He was really a little panicked, this was the state that He Beifan had every time he did something wrong, and Yu Ze had long been accustomed to his expression.
"Okay, Fan, you're thinking too much." He was more like he felt helpless about He Beifan's current state, "Even if Auntie counts you down, she just says two words to you, what will she do?" Do you think she's going to hit you? Yu Ze's words were all on this, and Beifan also felt that he had nothing to say, so he just nodded silently.
"That's it." Yu Ze said and patted the boy on the shoulder, "It's okay, Fan, don't hesitate." Let's go, I'll accompany you home. "The leaves of the ginkgo biloba tree fell to the ground in the evening breeze, and the dim street lamp stretched the boy's back very long.