The high walls built in people's hearts, the isolated desert world, are even farther than the ends of the earth.

——— inscription

Qin Dabao finally went home.

Liu Xingyu originally planned to catch up with him, however, things in the world are always not transferred by human will, she was too busy, she just sent him to the hospital, and before he had time to bandage, she answered a phone call and left in a hurry.

She left his phone number.

Dabao understands her, in this world, if there is one person who really cares about him, it is only a little star.

She is still the same, still so stubborn and strong, and he is proud of her.

However, he is not the same person he once was.

Eventually, he was still alone, walking home.

When I came to a community in the west of the city, as described in his novel, it was dilapidated, deserted, without a single camera, without a single security guard, and this community was like the residue left after the prosperity had fallen, no one paid attention to it, no one cared about it.

Therefore, Dabao has always felt that the rats jumping around in the stairwell are particularly kind, and he is just like them, when he sees the sun, there is no reason for everyone to shout and beat.

Quietly opening the door, Qin Dabao went straight to the bathroom, he wanted to take a hot shower, this was his habit.

Cautiously, Dabao put a plastic bag on his head, wrapped the wound, then took off his clothes, and again, he looked at the fat on his body, and the corners of his mouth swayed a little curvature.

"I hate myself!"

With a low mutter, Qin Dabao turned on the faucet, closed his eyes, and let the hot water brush over his body.

Gradually, he couldn't help but think of what happened tonight, this world, what fucking bullshit, it turns out that being fat is a sin in itself.

He doesn't hate those two police officers, even if they don't trouble him, in everyone's subconscious, he has already been sentenced, what crime? Fat, disgusting, affecting other people's eyes, in their hearts, has already given him a life sentence.

Mainstream consciousness can make or break many people, and once prejudice and discrimination occur, it is difficult to change.

And he is a complete victim of the prejudice of the mainstream consciousness.

The most terrifying thing is that this consciousness is taken for granted by all.

For example, if you kill a person, whether the person is guilty or not, whether he has done anything harmful, as long as everyone thinks that the person deserves to die, then he deserves to die, because this is the mainstream consciousness, no matter how ridiculous and ridiculous, it represents the so-called will of the masses.

Dabao remembered a conversation with the editor when he submitted the article:

"Why do you write books?"

"I want to express something!"

"What phenomenon?"

"At the beginning of this year, there were two pieces of news that were sensational, do you want to listen to them?"

"Uh...... Tell me about it! ”

"A Chinese female college student, clean and immaculate, as simple as a blank piece of paper, was ruthlessly dumped by her boyfriend, but she did not give up, has been pursuing hard, in the end, this matter spread, no one saw her good side, foul language, said that she was lowly, in the end, she committed suicide, death is not over, those fair public, once again splashed dirty water on this girl......"

"Well, you go on!"

"The same woman, a Japanese bitch who made a film, under the camera, the man she slept with, not a thousand, but eight hundred, got married, but was blessed by everyone......"

"You...... What exactly is it trying to express? ”

"I want to say that there are many people who have always claimed to be righteous and pushed many people into the abyss without knowing it, and they are still complacent, and most of them agree with the view, is it right? Is it intolerable to contradict their views and consciousness? Could it be that a clean Chinese female college student is not as good as a Japanese slut? ”

"Your mind is dangerous! Sorry, I can't accept your manuscript! ”

"I already knew the result, it doesn't matter, you can find glowing gold in the garbage heap!"

……

I don't know how long it took, Qin Dabao opened his eyes, turned off the faucet, changed into clean pajamas, and pushed open the bedroom door.

A slender figure, with his back to him, curled up on the bed, was playing with his phone.

Hearing the movement, she didn't look back and was silent.

With a light sigh, Qin Dabao took off his shoes and lay down on the bed.

"Jingyi, I went out for some wine today, and my book is finished!"

"Oh!"

"On the way back, I met two people who checked their ID cards, and beat me back, and there was some blood, so I went to the hospital to bandage it!"

"Oh!"

"You...... I said, I'm injured and went to the hospital! ”

"I see!"

"By the way, when we got married, didn't I say that I have a married little sister, I saw her today, she said, when you have time, come to the house and sit, she wants to see you!"

"Hmm!"

"Okay, then I'll tell her tomorrow......"

Qin Dabao was a little happy, leaned behind his wife, and whispered: "Jingyi, we haven't done it for a long time......"

"I'm tired, sleep!" Yang Jingyi put away her mobile phone, moved her body, and simply closed her eyes.

"Okay!" Qin Dabao's expression was bitter.

Sitting on the bed, he lit a cigarette.

He didn't know why they became like this, at first, like glue, I don't know when, his wife became bitter, either calling him fat, or complaining that he was poor, or sarcastically mocking him for being cowardly and unresponsible, and even his ancestors eighteen generations turned it over and over again.

He didn't blame her.

At the beginning, she followed him without hesitation and endured a lot of hardships, over the years, he worked hard, worked hard, wrote books desperately, and saved a little money, but after buying a house, he was empty.

He was not afraid of her complaints, however, things developed beyond his imagination, and his wife had no interest in complaining about him, and became indifferent and cold, which was terrifying.

They slept in the same bed, but they were like passers-by, and even if they made out occasionally, they were only hastily done, and then they slept on one side.

It's been a long time since he and she had spoken properly.

After smoking a cigarette, Qin Dabao got out of bed, walked to the study next door, turned on the computer, and wrote a paragraph in his new volume: Who can tell me the whereabouts of happiness, I have been looking for it for a long, long time.

Looking at the computer, he wanted to continue writing something, but he was stunned for a long time, but he didn't write anything, and finally, he lay on the table and fell asleep.

……

Qin Dabao opened his eyes, only to find that it was already dawn, he stood up in shock, glanced at his watch, and took a long breath.

Half past six, it's still early, and I can get to work in time.

Walking into the bedroom again, Yang Jingyi was still sleeping, he didn't bother, silently changed into work clothes, washed up, and walked out of the house.

"Hoo ......"

A gust of wind hit, and for some reason, Dabao felt a little cold, tightened his clothes, shivered, and headed for the bus stop.

I don't know if God deliberately played tricks on him, or he was too unlucky, on the road, there was a sudden heavy rainstorm, Dabao ran forward hard, and when he was about to reach the platform, he fell heavily and smashed in a puddle, and it took a long time to get up slowly, covered in mud.

"Haha! Fuck the fat pig, it's funny! ”

"I'm in a bad mood today, when I see this dead fat man, it's all right of nowhere, you look at him, haha, it's so fucking fun!"

"It's a waste of food, I don't know how much he can eat in a meal, and how much a pig can eat!"

"It's embarrassing, it affects the city's appearance, we Ancheng has just been rated as a good city, don't be messed up by this kind of person!"

For a while, the laughter continued, the insults continued, Dabao turned a deaf ear, as if he hadn't heard, his face was expressionless, he silently walked to the platform, stood alone in a corner, waiting for the bus to arrive.

The heavy rain was pouring down, constantly washing the mud on the side of the road, forming a turbid water flow, rushing into the sewer, Qin Dabao, who happened to be next to the sewer, looked at the turbulent water, his eyes flickered.

In the midst of the taunts, the bus finally arrived.

The crowd on the platform rushed in, and when Dabao was about to take a clumsy step and was about to get on the bus, there was a bang, the door closed, and the bus roared away.

Watching the bus go away, Qin Dabao gritted his teeth and was silent.

Not long after, another bus arrived, Qin Dabao finally got on the bus, and saw a lot of empty seats, he didn't sit down, but came to the exit door, holding on to the railing, waiting for the arrival of the next stop.

The van staggered and moved forward in the heavy rain, Dabao looked at the regressing streetscape, and suddenly, he felt so strange, so strange that he was afraid.

He is out of step with this world.

A sense of powerless loneliness swept through his body, and he felt even colder, cold to the bone marrow.

"Don't be afraid, all the pain you have suffered will help you one day in the future!"

couldn't help but flash a sentence left by Liu Xingyu when she left, and she told him that this was what her father told her.

"Thank you, girl!"

Qin Dabao wiped the muddy water off his face, and his gaze became firm.

Just then, the van stopped, the doors slowly opened, and the factory arrived.

Qin Dabao got out of the car and was about to trot into the factory, when a beautiful shadow appeared in his eyes.

She, dressed in a white dress, with long flowing hair, delicate and flawless, she carried a small flower umbrella, under the protection of a burly young man, into a luxurious Rolls-Royce.

"Wu Zixuan!" Qin Dabao was in a trance.

He had seen her, not long ago, at a funeral, and had seen her from afar.

"Brother, don't look at it, she is the little princess of Longtan, not something that people like you and me can think of! Besides, you have a family, you have to be a good person, you can't work in the morning, or work in a down-to-earth manner! ”

At this time, a male voice came into Dabao's ears, and at the same time, a wide umbrella blocked the rain on Dabao's head.

Without looking back, Dabao knew who was coming when he heard the voice, who else was there besides his team leader?

This is one of the few people who can afford him.

The team leader is very easy-going, with very good skills, and has always encouraged him, often saying that he is a college student, don't give up on yourself, as long as you work hard, you will have a chance.

"Boss, who is that young man next to her?"

"Her brother, Wu Dazhuang, famous, you should have heard of it, the last director of the Public Security Bureau, entered Longtan, and almost couldn't get out, it's this person who makes it difficult!"

"...... like this"

"Let's go, the boss called me and asked you to go to her office, she has something to discuss with you!"

"Yuan Jingfang looking for me? I'm a general worker driving a car, what is she looking for me? ”

"You'll know if you go, you go to me to wash your face first, boss, don't look at her beautiful and gentle, smiling all day long, that's a knife hidden in a smile, this person has a habit of cleanliness, don't make excuses for her to fix you!"

……