Her repeated questions made Jiang Ruonan herself have a trace of suspicion, could it be that she may not have died suddenly?

But in retrospect, the painful memory at that time was so real, so real that she didn't even want to bear it again.

And, from the bottom of her heart, does she want to go back?

Even if she didn't die suddenly, she was just asleep in the real world, so does she still want to go back now?

Subconsciously, the first thing that came to mind in her mind was the faces of several children, who seemed to be shouting in her ear: Mom, Mom! So real, so cute!

and Lu Zhenjun, such a serious and dull man, can say "I am happy with you" to her, can she really leave all this behind?

People are not plants and trees, who can be ruthless!

It's not just people who adapt and change their surroundings, but the environment changes a person as well!

In her previous life, Wang Lan was undoubtedly indifferent, selfish, and even sharp, and she was really emotionally indifferent, because she got too little, so she was stingy with giving.

But now?

It's very poor, it's very backward, and there's even a terrible X-leather, but she's already unconsciously put her heart here.

It was here that she regained the ability to love people!

Why did she go back? Back to the so-called real world where there is a big house, a mobile phone, an Internet and a refined life, but there is only one person every day, and there is no fun except for making money?

Jiang Ruonan's heart struck, just like Dickinson's poem wrote: If I hadn't seen the sun, I might have endured the darkness.

Several children and Lu Zhenjun, including the Jiang family's relatives, is the sun of Wang Lan today, how can they endure the lonely desolation after seeing such a landscape?

She is Wang Lan, but now, she is this Jiang Ruonan!

"I'm sure I'm dead, and it's the same as many times you ask." Jiang Ruonan replied to her directly, "It's useless for you to look for me, because I can't go back to the real world." ”

Jiang Ruonan didn't want to give her an illusory hope.

Don't say she doesn't want to go back, it's just that she wants to go back, is there a way now? Even Zhou Linglong as the author can't help it, she only knows that she is a person who wears books, what else can she do?

Zhou Linglong originally looked for her to find a way for the two of them to work together, but when she looked at her expression, she became more and more unbelievable: "Then you have to tell me, how did you die?" And, don't you want your real-world relatives and friends at all? You are here, do you know how sad your loved ones and friends can be in the real world? ”

Jiang Ruonan was silent for a while: "Then do you think that if we can really go back, then what should our relatives and friends here do?" ”

"What to do? What to do? Zhou Linglong couldn't wait to grab Jiang Ruonan and shake her awake, "It's just a world, it's not true at all!" The people here are just a character, just like the NPCs in the game, what the hell are you thinking? It's not reality in the first place! ”

"NPCs in the game?" Jiang Ruonan directly brushed Zhou Linglong's hand away, "Don't forget, you can have the ability to come to me so unscrupulously now, isn't it from the Du family?" You're saying now that they're just NPCs in the game? Are you picking up a bowl to eat and putting down the bowl to scold your mother? ”

"You, you, you're unreasonable!" Zhou Linglong was stunned by Jiang Ruonan, and only after a while did she reply helplessly, and said deflatedly, "Yes, I admit that this is indeed a living world, but, but for me, it is really a book, or I wrote it myself, and now I am trapped in it...... Do you understand my anxiety? It's a ridiculous and confusing ...... I don't know how to describe the feeling at all. ”

She lowered her shoulders and looked depressed: "Since I found out that I couldn't go back, I hid abroad for the first time, not just to avoid X-leather, but also because I don't know what else I can do." Although this character was written by myself, she was just a cannon fodder, and she was even only mentioned in her memories, even if I became her, I didn't know anything about her, her family loved her very much, and I didn't have any memories of her except for those plot settings that I knew, I couldn't live like her in a short time, I had to leave. ”

"But it's also very sad abroad, you know, at that time, China was already very powerful, but when you go to Europe and the United States and other countries, you still have to be discriminated against...... I don't mention any of that, anyway, I've been in a blur all the time. ”

"It wasn't until I received an international call from Xiao Changwei that he told me that Jiang Ruonan did not marry Wang Baozhu, but married a man in the army, and it was Lu Zhenjun, at that moment, my heart began to wave."

"Yes, I've been following you since then. You're the only one other than me who doesn't follow the story, and you know what? Because you don't follow the plot, a lot of things are changing. The plot that I was familiar with, the plot that I sketched and wrote by myself, began to change beyond recognition. I was both afraid of such a change, but I became delighted by a little observation. ”

"Because I found out that I am not alone in this world, I am not alone in this world, and there is another person, with me, that feeling makes me surprised and happy, I am thinking, I have an alliance, there will be someone to work with me. I can't think of a way to go back, don't despair, because there is another person, one person is short, and the other is long, and he will always come up with a way. ”

"And, no matter whether I can figure out a way or not, there is always someone to whom I can tell my secrets, and there will always be a companionship and support, and that's how I persevered. I inquired about your news little by little, of course, in order to prevent you from finding out in advance, I didn't use Xiao Changwei again. ”

Jiang Ruonan couldn't help but clench her hand when she heard her, she actually understood Zhou Linglong a little, because compared to what she thought was crossing, she was an author who wore it to the cannon fodder she wrote, and she didn't have some memories of the original body like herself, that trembling and ridiculous feeling could indeed crush a person.

But this hint of understanding and sympathy does not mean that she will agree to her and say that she will find a way to go back to the real world with her.

"I know all of this, but your so-called real world, where I'm dead, and your so-called world where I am, before you came, before you said these words to me, it was always my current real world, do you understand? Even now, I can clearly understand who I really am and what I am doing, existence is reasonable, and I don't think there is anything absolutely real and virtual. Therefore, I don't care if you are Du Jiaojiao or Zhou Linglong, I can't make any alliance with you. ”

"No, you listen to me!" Zhou Linglong's eyebrows were solemn, and she grabbed Jiang Ruonan, who was about to go upstairs to the ward, "I am the same person as you, this is not our destination!" We're just trapped in this virtual world, and even if you're luckier than me and have the memories of your original character, can you really become her? Everything you get now is just a flower in the mirror, maybe one day, it will be shattered! You may be happy, so you don't want to leave, but it's all fake, we're just book wearers, sober up, reality is our destination! Even death is better than living falsely like this! ”

"Falsely alive? I have flesh and blood, thoughts and feelings, everyone I come into contact with is alive, there are all kinds of joys and sorrows, my feelings are real, my consciousness is sober, this is called living falsely? Even if I got the stolen happiness, it wasn't my intention. If you come, you will be safe, and it is irresponsible to escape! Jiang Ruonan sneered, looking at Zhou Linglong, who was said to be stunned, she suddenly hooked her lips and smiled, "Besides, how can you be sure that I am a book wearer like you?" Can't I be a person who has traveled through this world or been reborn? ”

"Nope! Absolutely not. Zhou Linglong is very determined, "Because I am the conception and creator of this world, no one is more familiar with the development of the plot than me, if you are a local reborn, how should you choose Wang Baozhu, after all, in the original plot, I wrote that Jiang Ruonan and Wang Baozhu finally respected each other, and the husband and wife were in love." Even if there are regrets in rebirth, you should definitely choose Luo Jiuan, your first love, how can you choose Lu Zhenjun? If you are a traveler in this world, it is even more impossible, because a person in the next generation, even if he does not want to marry Wang Baozhu, he will definitely not choose to marry Lu Zhenjun. ”