Chapter 51: Hidden Love!
The latest chapter of the Jinse
Xiao Ling looked at the somewhat messy bamboo house and felt a little distressed for a while. Fortunately, only Wang Yuan and Xiaohui, who lived near the shore, were passively there. Wang Su's house and the bamboo house where Xiao Ling once lived were not passive because they were in the center of the lake.
"More Miss Xiao. If it weren't for you, Xiaohui and I wouldn't be able to hold this place. When the time comes, I won't have the face to go to see my father." Wang Yuan walked up to Xiao Ling and said with a grateful face. He and Xiaohui are subordinates, and if they just rely on them, they won't be able to hold here.
"Don't say things like that. I promised Brother Wang to guard this place for him. I'm not doing this entirely for you, either. I also want to fulfill my promise to Brother Wang." Xiao Ling pointed to the bamboo house that had been demolished for most of it and said, "Let's repair this place together. Others, Brother Wang, was sad when he saw it."
Xiao Ling's proposal was approved by everyone. The five of them started to move together. Fortunately, the ancient houses were relatively simple to build, so the destroyed areas were quickly repaired.
After repairing the house, Xiao Ling came alone to Wang Su's tomb in the depths of the bamboo forest. Looking at the cold stone tablet instead of Wang Su Xiao Ling, who always looked at him gently, his heart was mixed. Gently stroking some cold stone tablets, Xiao Ling said, "Brother Wang, I'm here to see you. Are you okay over there alone?"
Speaking of this, Xiao Ling couldn't help but shed tears. It was the first time she was faced with the fact that someone she cared about had left her. So it takes a long time to accept. Xiao Ling couldn't wipe away his tears. Let it flow out wantonly, Xiao Ling sat down in front of the tombstone. I want to be with you for a while.
"Actually, I've been here for a while. But some nasty people are coming to rob you of the house you gave me. But don't worry, I'm brave enough to get rid of them all. Do you see if I'm amazing?" Xiao Ling said here, his expression became a little proud. It's like it's really showing off in front of Wang Su.
"But one of them is your mother. I said something a little nasty to her. I wonder if you'll blame me. Even if you blame me, I won't regret it. I'm really upset with her." Xiao Ling pursed his lips as if he was complaining to Wang Su: "Then blame you for never saying anything about your mother. She really doesn't deserve to be your mother."
Speaking of this, Xiao Ling burst into tears again: "Brother Wang, do you know. When I knew that your mother was so virtuous, I really felt sorry for you. How can a man as good as you have such a mother? If there really is an afterlife and reincarnation. I hope you can have a mother who loves you and loves you."
Xiao Ling talked to Wang Su for a long time before going back. Xiao Hui suddenly walked in front of Xiao Ling and handed a box to Xiao Ling: "Miss Xiao. These are the things we found when we were tidying up the room. We don't know what to do about it. In the end, it was decided that this should be left to you."
"What's in there?" Xiao Ling was puzzled and took the box given by Xiao Hui. The box still has some weight, Xiao Ling was not prepared for a while, and almost didn't catch it. Fortunately, Ah Jīng and Xiao Hui shot together and caught her together.
No one answered Xiao Ling's question. Several people worked together to help Xiao Ling move the box to the house where she lived before. Then they all retreated, leaving Xiao Ling alone to solve this puzzle.
Full of curiosity, Xiao Ling opened the box. The first thing I saw was to the bamboo slips. Xiao Ling has always used cloth to write and paint. I've almost forgotten that there is no such thing as paper at this time. It was still an era when bamboo slips were used.
Xiao Ling picked up the bamboo slip and opened it curiously. It was found that this was the same thing as Wang Su's rì memory. Although I know that rì is a person's ** thing. Xiao Ling also has no habit of spying on other people's **. But at this time, Xiao Ling wanted to have a rough time. She wanted to know what other wishes Wang Su had not fulfilled. He didn't have a chance to know to do it for him while he was alive. At least try to do it for him while he's in the time.
Judging by the content. Xiao Ling guessed that Wang Su's notes were probably recorded from years ago. Every day is just a few short sentences. At the same time, it also fully showed Xiao Ling the simplicity of the original. In just a few words, his mood was clearly expressed.
He wrote about his happy mood of walking with Xiao Ling. I also wrote about a simple experience that I have always had. But there are some contents that Xiao Ling doesn't understand very clearly. It's as if one day he wrote a sentence from the Book of Songs: "Guan Guan Ju Dove. On the river island. My Fair Lady. You're good."
Some of them have only one word: "Read."
See at the end. Xiao Ling finally knew that Wang Su was using these notes to miss a woman buried in his heart. If it was a month ago, Xiao Ling would definitely be curious about what kind of woman would make Wang Su miss like this. But now that Xiao Ling sees this, he only feels more distressed for Wang Su.
At that time of Wang Su, Xiao Ling didn't know if he was conscious. But what he said to herself, she could never forget. It was also at that time that Xiao Ling knew that Wang Su had always invited him.
But he knew that he was not in good health and could not give himself happiness. Coupled with knowing that Xiao Ling has always had a person in his heart, he has been suppressing this feeling. At that time, when he heard Wang Su say, his consciousness was a little confused. It's about saying whatever comes to mind. Although Xiao Ling knew, his feelings were not very profound.
But now I see Wang Su's notes. Xiao Ling deeply felt Wang Su's deep feelings for him. She seemed to see the affectionate man who was silently watching her leave in the snow on that snowy morning and was unwilling to look away for a long time.
She also saw a man who was suffering from illness. Listen to the woman you love deeply and another man enter the palace of marriage. Endure heartache that hurts thousands of backs more than illness. Silently wishing her happiness where she couldn't see.
Xiao Ling looked at all the bamboo slips with tears in his eyes and distress for Wang Su. At this time, she realized that she would never be able to fulfill the wish buried in Wang Su's heart. Even if he were alive, she wouldn't have been able to do it.
The human heart is actually very small. Wang Su's heart can only fit her. But her heart is not small. Although this year has been somewhat unpleasant with Meng Tian. But there was only him in her heart from beginning to end. It's hard for anyone else to live in the depths of her heart anymore.
Although there is a small amount of space left for the people she cares about. But that part of the hair space is limited after all, if you want to fit so many people, the weight of those people will be less in these allocations. Like Wang Su. Like Weida. It can only exist as a brother.
So for such a strong love given by Wang Su, Xiao Ling can only say sorry. She can't and never will.
After reading the bamboo slips, Xiao Ling made a new discovery. She saw a hosta that was similar to the one on her head, but there were obvious differences. Xiao Ling remembered that this was when they first arrived in Xianyang City, and she was inadvertently attracted by a hosta on the stall that seemed to have brought her here.
She remembered that she had just picked it up and was snatched by Bo Yun. At that time, he was a men's clothing vendor, and he mistakenly thought that he and Bo Yun were husband and wife. At that time, in order to stop the hagging mouth of the hawker, she also generously became a Kai and sold the hosta to Bo Yun.
This hosta is exactly the same as that one, but it is better than that one or two grades in terms of workmanship and material. At first glance, you can see that it is made of high-quality jade to make people feel good. From the notes just now, Xiao Ling knew that this was what he had prepared for himself. I also know why Wang Su didn't give the hosta to himself.
After Wang Su ordered someone to make a hosta, he originally wanted to give it to Xiao Ling when he saw her again. But after meeting Xiao Ling, he found that Xiao Ling's feelings for the man she had been thinking about were even deeper. In the inferiority complex of emotions Wang Su retreated. Until he left the world, he didn't have a chance to give this hosta away.
Xiao Ling put the hosta back in the box. When Wang Su was alive, she didn't have a chance to receive this hosta. Now that she can't respond to his feelings, she won't want it anymore.
Putting down the hosta, Xiao Ling picked up the white sè cloth on the side again. The cloth is already a little yellow. Xiao Ling carefully opened the cloth, and there was a brush wrapped in it. This is what she gave to Wang Su at the beginning. I didn't expect it to be the same now as it was when I gave it to him. He must have never been useful.
Unfold the cloth completely. Xiao Ling also saw a poem written on the cloth. I finally understood what the page in Wang Su's notes didn't understand meant: "Guan Guan Ju Dove. On the river island. My Fair Lady. You're good."
The tears flowed uncontrollably again. She recognized it as her own handwriting. I also recalled that this cloth was a sentence written at random when I wanted Wang Su to show the brush. What she didn't expect was a random sentence she had written, and he would always treasure it. I often take it out and look at it.
She could imagine Wang Su's struggle and hesitation every time he picked up this cloth. He must be reluctant to put it down every time he picks it up. He must have been very envious of the king in the verse. Because he can boldly pursue the lady he wants.
Xiao Ling put everything back into the box one by one. Wang Su's emotional wishes were heavy for her. She can't respond and can't do it for her. For Wang Su's overly deep feelings, all Xiao Ling can say is sorry.
In the end, Xiao Ling buried the box in front of Wang Su's tomb. She can't give Wang Su this heavy emotion. She had to give it back to him. Hopefully he can take it away. Take it to a girl who can respond to him with the same emotional response he gives him. Now the only thing she could do for him was that wish. Will the door brocade