"Be careful!" Zhang Xiaofu carried his sleeping daughter on his back and slowly returned home in the night.

It's always dark at night in the countryside, but after getting used to it, it's fine.

The two of them arrived home after a while, Zhang Xiaofu hurriedly boiled hot water to wash the little girl first, the little doll couldn't open her eyes, muttered a few words, and slept fragrantly on the bed.

Jiang Shengnan looked at his little girl, only to feel how cute she looked, how she couldn't love enough, he wanted to kiss the two, and he was afraid that he would wake her up if he had too much strength.

Zhang Xiaofu also saw that his daughter was sleeping well, and then spoke: "What my mother asked you to tell my second sister, I think you seem to be very embarrassed." ”

"Definitely." When it came to this, Jiang Shengnan's mood of being a little happy because of his little girl was instantly not beautiful, "The second sister is clearly making up her mind now, how can others persuade her to have children or not?" ”

She pouted: "Just say that our mother asked me to have another son quickly, I'm not happy, doesn't this mean that we Xiaojun is a girl?" also urged the second sister to give birth to a baby, and said that it is good to be a stepmother to have a baby, isn't this just poking the second sister's heart? Don't talk about the second sister, I can't listen to it. ”

"Then are you going to tell the second sister?"

"Well, I don't have to offend anyone." Jiang Shengnan nodded, "But you can't say anything in front of your mother, just tell your mother and write it." ”

Zhang Xiaofu shook his head: "I think it's better to mention it, after all, my mother mentioned it." ”

"Let me think about it."

The voices of the two dissipated into the thick night.

In the middle of the night, Jiang Xingrong, who had something in his heart, tossed and turned and couldn't sleep, Yang Jiuhua sighed: "Do you remember those things from the past again?" ”

The voice was extremely low, and Jiang Xingrong listened to it: "Alas." "I remembered, but I didn't know what to say.

Life is in his fifties, when he is young and frivolous and proud, it seems to have become a passing cloud, even if he thinks about it, in fact, many things are no longer remembered so clearly.

"It's still my fault, I shouldn't have cooked those dishes, those riches and glory have long been far away from us." Yang Jiuhua thought of the past, and he was also embarrassed, "If it wasn't for Brother Xingrong back then, there would be no me and ours today, but it's a pity that ......"

Jiang Xingrong was silent for a long time before he spoke in a low voice: "Xingrong is a good person, we haven't gone to incense him every year, it's been more than 20 years, it's been more than 20 years, it's my heart." ”

"Forget it, it's all over, don't mention it again." Yang Jiuhua also found that he had made a wrong start, "It's all my age, but I still remember the past, I'm really old." ”

"The death of the Xingrong brothers is approaching, this year, let's pay homage. For so many years, I have lived as him, but I have never even given him incense, nor have I burned a piece of paper, I am sorry for him. ”

Yang Jiuhua heard the melancholy in his words, thought for a long time, and suddenly spoke: "Did you also think of your wife?" If it hadn't been for that flying disaster, you and your wife would have been"

"There's no need to mention it, it's useless to mention it." Jiang Xingrong's voice was full of depression. I couldn't find it back then, and after twenty or thirty years, it is impossible to find it, not to mention, most of them have been separated forever, so why bother to do delusions again?

"Alas!"

In the darkness of the night, both fell into a long silence.

I closed my eyes, but I couldn't fall asleep anymore.

……

……

"Another letter from home?" When Lu Zhenjun got home, he saw Jiang Ruonan sitting at the table, holding the letter paper with both hands, his expression was distressed, he took off his coat and hung it on the hanger, raised his eyebrows and approached, "What's the trouble?" ”

"Nope." Jiang Ruonan reflexively wanted to take back the letter, and then slammed his movements, "Lu Zhenjun, I want to discuss something with you." ”

She pondered her tone and hesitated for a moment, feeling that this kind of induced thing could not be solved by escaping alone, and the procrastination trick could not be effective all the time, so she had better make it clear as soon as possible.

"About having a baby......" She rubbed her eyebrows, a little flustered in her heart, and she couldn't tell what that feeling was.

Lu Zhenjun had already sat down: "Are your parents urging you to have a child again?" ”

Jiang Ruonan nodded.

"Then ...... are you" Lu Zhenjun didn't finish asking, and looked away from her face, "Actually, it makes sense for parents to urge, you see Cai Xiaohong has it, if you are in a hurry"

"You know I didn't mean that." Jiang Ruonan couldn't stand it anymore, "Also, Cai Xiaohong's pregnancy is a matter for the two of them, what are you gossiping about here?" Besides, what do you think of me?"

"I know that we can't have children like this now, but Ruonan, I said it a long time ago, you will have to solve this problem sooner or later." He can't escape either, and instead of listening to her judgment, it is better to strike first.

Jiang Ruonan took a deep breath: "Yes, I know that I will have to solve it sooner or later, so I am solving it with you now." She sighed, "I told you a long time ago, there are already four children in the family, even for you, there are biological children who can inherit incense, so I'm really not interested in having children." ”

"And I don't like you either." Of course, I won't have children with you.

Lu Zhenjun's words of persuasion suddenly stopped, and his face changed slightly: "Don't like me?" ”

The gaze that was originally dodging suddenly sharpened, and he deceived himself: "Is this the truth?" ”

Slowly, the feeling of oppression came to his face, and Jiang Ruonan's breath stagnated.

He still smelled of sweat on his body, and he penetrated her breath domineeringly.

"You—what are you doing so close?" She moved back.

was clasped by Lu Zhenjun's wrist: "Don't you like me?" So what are you hiding? ”

"I, I'm ......" Jiang Ruonan was short of breath for a moment, but his heart had already pounded very unhappily, "I am ......"

"Is it that hard to admit that you like me?" Lu Zhenjun was sharp and didn't give an inch, "Or do you think that I am a person of inferior character and unworthy of your liking, so you don't even want to admit that you like me?" ”

When he said this, his eyelids drooped slightly, obviously in a posture of oppressing Jiang Ruonan from above, but for no reason there was a sense of loneliness.

"It's not!" Jiang Ruonan blurted out.

Lu Zhenjun raised his eyelids again suddenly, and his eyes revealed a smile: "So, you like me?" ”

Jiang Ruonan's brain crashed in an instant.

"You admit it, just now." Lu Zhenjun pressed step by step, "Don't deny it, I heard your heartbeat." ”

His gaze is perceptive.

Jiang Ruonan's mind was in a mess, knowing that his mind had already been exposed in front of his eyes, and he was shocked, ashamed and inexplicably flustered for a while...... All kinds of tastes came to my heart, and I was stunned.

But all the emotions turned into endless sweetness in Lu Zhenjun's next sentence.

He said, "You like me, and I am pleased with you, and I rejoice when I see you." ”

This is probably the most beautiful love word that Lu Zhenjun can say.

After saying this, he was ashamed of himself, it was too numb!

And I always feel like this, just like those merry men with flowery mouths.

However, after seeing Jiang Ruonan's surprised and satisfied smile, he suddenly felt that it didn't matter if he was numb or not, as long as this woman was happy, it seemed okay to say a few more words.

And to be able to get her like her and her recognition, why should he press it step by step?

He thought about it and said, "Ruonan, I said it a long time ago, I really planted it in your hands." So, you can get along with each other as you like, as long as you can do this, the closeness between us can come step by step, as for the matter of having children, let it be, if you don't want to give birth now, we won't give birth......"

Streams of sweetness and irrepressibility poured into the heart.

People who lack love in their bones are often more touched than ordinary people when they finally get love.

Jiang Ruonan admits that this feeling is really addictive, indescribably beautiful and beautiful, it is a pleasure that a high spirit needs to be satisfied, and her whole brain seems to fall into a sweet pink dream.

She was moved.

Thoroughly, irrepressible heartbeat was beaten.

She wanted to be with him, and she wanted to keep it that pleasure going.

Until she heard Lu Zhenjun's words later: "When the water is a matter of course, at that time, we will have another son and a daughter, and make up a good word." Of course, that's for later, and we'll talk about it when you're willing. ”

"I don't want to." Jiang Ruonan blurted out.

Born in the same environment as in her previous life, she didn't think she could raise a child well.

As a stepmother, she is completely a matter of chasing ducks to the shelves, and because it is an employment equality relationship in her heart, she can treat them fairly and objectively.

But if you really give birth to your own baby, it's really different. She knew very well in her heart that it was a piece of meat that fell from her, and what would she do to him/her when the time came?

Could it be that because he or she was born, like most parents in Huaguo, they feel that they gave him/her life, so they are unscrupulous?

Between biological mother, son, mother and daughter, because of this layer of blood relationship, there has been an unequal relationship from the beginning, can she still treat each other as completely independent individuals as equals and respect them like this?

Jiang Ruonan didn't believe in himself.

One of the reasons why she didn't get married in her previous life was also this, she felt that she couldn't raise a baby well, she couldn't be responsible for the child's life, she didn't want to have children, and naturally she didn't want to delay those men who were going to have children when they got married in the general environment, so they simply didn't fall in love and didn't get married.

But now, Lu Zhenjun still said that he wanted to have a child.

This made her panic.

"I'm not going to have children." Under Lu Zhenjun's puzzled gaze, she spoke firmly again.

Lu Zhenjun didn't speak.

Jiang Ruonan finally calmed down: "Maybe, I like you, but I really don't want to have children." Or rather, I don't like you enough to be willing to have a baby for you, and maybe never that day. I hope you understand, because even if it's even if it's any closer to getting into bed, I still can't ...... Maybe I'm thinking badly and I can't take away your reproductive rights...... So, you respect me, and I respect you honestly, and we're the best at it. ”

Lu Zhenjun frowned: "Why?" "How can a woman not want to have children?

In the matter of having children, he is still a typical man of this age, thinking that having more children is more blessed. Moreover, as early as after he found out his heart for Jiang Ruonan, he had thought countless times about what the daughters of the two lives would be like, and they would definitely be as beautiful and cute as Jiang Ruonan......

At this time, Jiang Ruonan was almost ruthlessly rejected, which completely broke his illusion and made him really unhappy in his heart.

Two people like each other until they give birth to a child in the end, that is the continuation of two people's lives, isn't it good?

Jiang Ruonan couldn't explain so much to him, and besides, the growth environment in her previous life was different from now, and she couldn't explain the psychological burden that those experiences brought her.

It's ridiculous to say that she was born in her previous life a few decades later than this time, but her childhood life is not as good as this time.

At that time, it was already a good life to be able to eat meat once a week, and she had never made bacon sausages during the New Year, so she was not as moist as she is now.

So, how can this be said?

She just continued a little blankly: "I think it's good to do this, and, Lu Zhenjun, I thank you for saving me from the quagmire, and I will take good care of a few children." I'm going to get a divorce in the future, and at that time, the children are older, and they don't need me anymore, so you can rest assured."

"What do you tell me?" Lu Zhenjun grabbed her shoulder suddenly, "Divorce? How could you think that? ”

Jiang Ruonan only felt a pain in her shoulder, stiffened for a moment, and she had already said it anyway, she gritted her teeth: "Yes, I really planned it." There will be eight or nine years at most, don't worry, I will help you take care of the children, and when we get divorced, you can remarry and find a woman, and you can still have more children. ”

Therefore, she really thought right in her previous life. People like her, who think that they are incapable of being responsible for giving birth to children, and who can't have children, really shouldn't delay others.

Seeing Lu Zhenjun's shocked and angry face, Jiang Ruonan thought about it again: "If you think I have delayed you, then, at least five or six years, and we will divorce in five or six years."

"Shut up!" Lu Zhenjun suddenly became angry, "Do you think I'm so and thirsty?" Do you understand, I want children, but what I want is children between us! ”

He roared, seeing Jiang Ruonan's face pale, he couldn't help but soften: "Let me ask you, when did you have the idea of divorce?" ”

Jiang Ruonan felt that she was still selfish after all, if she was an ordinary person, she should have quit at this time, and she was the only one who would continue to rely on Lu Zhenjun in order to avoid it for ten years.

Looking at Lu Zhenjun's disappointed expression, how sweet her heart was before, and how sad she was at this time.

Sure enough, she didn't deserve love.

Her heart was as cold as water, and she replied woodenly: "I had it from the beginning." ”

"TM's!" Lu Zhenjun burst into a foul mouth, finally let go of her, got up and walked around the house irritably, waving his hands, full of depression.

Finally, he stopped: "I had it at the beginning, so even if you like me, do you still think like this?" ”

Jiang Ruonan: "I, I ......"

Her hesitation was acquiescence in Lu Zhenjun's eyes.

"What do you think of me?!!"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I don't know, I don't know......" She didn't know that Lu Zhenjun would like her, and she didn't know that Lu Zhenjun would want to have children in such a long run, she couldn't do it, she really couldn't do it.

She sometimes feels like this, like the kind of white lotus who deliberately seduces people, and behaves a little green tea; But on the other hand, she felt that she was right, she had to insist on herself, and she and Lu Zhenjun were originally just nominal marriages......

This kind of contradiction and entanglement makes her heart no less angry than the current Lu Zhenjun, but the source of all this seems to be on her, so that she can't even vent it in a righteous and bright way.

Because she was selfish and afraid, she didn't even have the courage to say that she would divorce now.

She would rather face Lu Zhenjun's contempt, and would rather lose her self-esteem here than leave this safe haven to face the sinister environment outside.

What selfishness and cowardice!

She wanted to hide her face and cry, but she didn't even feel like she had the courage to cry.

At this moment, she finally admitted from the bottom of her heart that she also liked Lu Zhenjun, and could even be said to be in love with him, but if she liked her love, should she deprive Lu Zhenjun of his reproductive rights?

Isn't that a bit too selfish?