Chapter 13: Hope is always despairing
Cangyan Mountain is surrounded by cliffs, the stream is deep and steep, the strange stones are uneven, towering straight to the clouds, the ancient trees are born on the cliffs, there are thousands of postures, the cypress trees on the mountain become mountains, the sandalwood forest under the mountain becomes the sea, the waterfall goes straight down, the clear water is clear and the pond is clear, the fog rises, it is like floating on the white clouds, the sunset shines, it seems that the sky is raining rays.
This cave is full of 30 zhang deep, more than two zhang high, the width of the cave is more than 10 zhang, and the entrance of the cave is only one zhang wide, the stalactites stand in a forest, like countless spring bamboo shoots hanging upside down on the top of the cave.
Wuji woke up and saw that the cave was white, got up and came to the entrance of the cave, looked out, couldn't help but gasp, he found that this cave was actually in the cliff, the foot was an abyss, Wuji had never been to such a high place, couldn't help but beat his heart faster, turned back to look for the master, found that the master was gone, at this moment he was really worried that the master would leave him here, regardless of him, looking around, and finally in the morning light, found the master on the stone cliff next to the waterfall in the distance, wearing a robe and meditating cross-legged.
Wuqi really can't imagine how the master brought him to this cave, and when he arrived at the opposite stone cliff again, he can't help but envy the master, I really hope that one day, I can also practice the master's self-cultivation, no longer the useless waste, sitting at the mouth of the cave, sometimes looking at the strange rocks, sometimes looking at the cypress, sometimes looking at the rising sun, sometimes looking at the morning fog, hearing the sound of kingfishers, listening to the sound of the spring, it seems to have forgotten everything.
After the mist, the red sandalwood straightened up, stretched his waist, stood up, his toes tapped on the stone wall, and slid down a graceful curve on the stone wall lightly, like a crane spreading its wings and falling, just after falling from the stone wall, he saw his figure undulating in the forest, like a fish constantly jumping out of the water, and after a while, he appeared in front of the barrier, looked at the stunned barrier, and smiled: "Why did you get up so early!"
Wuji shook his senses and said, "Master got up earlier. ”
"Early morning is the most peaceful time of the day for the human body, so we must seize this time to cultivate one's self-cultivation, which is what my master told my master. ”
"The apprentice must remember, Master, when will the apprentice be able to learn such a body as Master?"
Rosewood stroked his silver beard with his hand, and said with a smile: "If you want to practice this method, you need to be in harmony with the form, the will and the qi, and the qi and the spirit, to say the least, it will take more than ten years, don't be in a hurry, step by step, and it will naturally come to fruition." ”
When Wuji heard the sound of 'ah!', his heart was half cold, and he said in his heart: "Maybe before I finish my practice, my life will be gone!"
Zi Tan saw Li Zhan's thoughts and comforted: "If you meet a person with good muscles and bones and a high level of understanding, it may not take that long." ”
"But the apprentice's muscles and bones must be the worst, maybe it will take longer, maybe it won't be practiced in a lifetime. ”
"The path of cultivation is endless, even if you become an immortal, you still need to continue to climb, not to mention that in the past thousand years, I have not seen anyone ascend to the immortal, and most people have not died on the way to the path of cultivation?
Wuji said lightly: "What the master taught. At this time, his heart was cold, because he knew his physical condition, but there was still a glimmer of hope in his heart.
Zi Sandalwood smiled: "Okay, seeing that you are so anxious, then the teacher will pass on the mantra of condensing qi to you, and you can also use this time to memorize it." ”
He knelt down without obstacles and said, "Please teach Master!"
Rosewood said one by one: "Empty in the heart, dispel distracting thoughts, the heart is like stopping water, swallowing and breathing harmony, observing the pulse, looking for knowledge and qi travel, turning nothing into something, concentrating on qi, qi walking around the body, gathering in the dantian ,......" Every time he said a word, he waited for Wuxian to write down, and every time he finished speaking, Wuxian nodded and signaled to continue, and Zisandalwood soon taught the thirty-six mantras of condensation to Wuji.
Zi Sandalwood said: "If you forget, you can ask the teacher at any time, now see how many words you write down?"
Wuji immediately said the thirty-six sentences word for word, and Zi Sandalwood smiled after hearing it: "Well, memory is better than being a teacher, when the master engraved the mantra on the bamboo board, and the teacher repeatedly memorized it, it took an hour to memorize it." "Rosewood is an exaggeration, intended to encourage no obstacles.
Rosewood also explained the name, location and function of the twelve meridians of the human body to Wuji, although Wuji's body is weak, but it has a super memory, never forget, Zisandalwood only explains once, Wushu has been completely remembered.
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The autumn wind blew off the crimson leaves, flipped and floated into the hole, the sun was scorching outside the cave, it was already the tenth day, sitting at the entrance of the cave without obstacles, closing his eyes and concentrating, meditating cross-legged, his hair was unkempt, his clothes were tattered, and the sweat droplets from the top of his head slid over his dirty face, leaving a white trace.
"Why can't I still feel a trace of true qi in my body, it's because my heart is not quiet?"
"No, it's been ten days, and my heart has never been so quiet. ”
"Did I remember the location of the meridians incorrectly, and I found the wrong direction?"
"No, what Master said must be this position, and I have asked Master many times, no doubt about it!"
Wuqi feels that his meridians are extremely dark, infinitely empty, unable to see a little light, unable to find a little vitality.
"Don't I have that true qi in my body at all, not at all?"
"Master said that as long as it is a living being, there is true qi in the body, 'if the qi does not exist, it will die.' ’”
"But why can't I feel any true qi at all, if I don't have that true qi in my body, then why am I still alive?"
"Am I really what they call an obstacle, and I shouldn't have lived in this world, or rather, I should have died!"
The images of those children came to mind one by one, those who had seen him, the helpless shaking of the doctor's head, the astonished contemplation of the Taoist priest, the discrimination of his sister's cold eyes, the fear concealed by the family, and the fierce eyes of his father, which made Wuji's mind chaotic......
"Am I a normal person? Shouldn't someone like me die? ”
Wuqi was on the verge of collapse at this time, full of despair for everything in the world, sweat had already soaked his clothes, his thin little body couldn't stop trembling, his eyes were open, his eyeballs were all black, emitting a cold cold light, glaring at the dark world.
With a 'poof', a mouthful of blood spurted out without barriers, and he fell to the ground softly.
When Zi Tan returned, he found that Wu Jian was cold, and his pulse was extremely weak, so he gave him a 'Qi Condensing Pill', and helped him up, sat behind Wu Ji, and lost his true qi to Wu Ji.
Rosewood's true qi is input into the barrierless body, and after a while, it will dissipate, and it cannot be left at all, and the rosewood has no choice but to use its own true qi to drive the operation of the barrierless meridians, which is not only dangerous, but also easy to cause the barrierless meridians to break and die, and the consumption is huge, and a large amount of true qi is needed to support, and the red sandalwood has used an hour of time, and it is already sweating profusely.
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Wu Jian slowly opened his eyes, he had experienced this situation countless times, this time he was more tired and tired, his lips moved slightly: "Master, I tried hard, but I couldn't do it." ”
Zi Sandalwood wiped the sweat off his face and comforted: "Don't worry, take your time, everything is difficult at the beginning!"
"It's not difficult, I'm not afraid of it, and I don't even have the possibility, my body is not lacking in qi, but there is no trace of true qi, I don't know what it is, I'm a waste. ”
"Why, I can feel the faint true qi in your body. ”
"That must not be true qi, it is dead qi, I have been searching for ten days, and I can't find a single one. ”
"Dead air?" Zi Sandalwood picked up his unobstructed wrist and checked his pulse again, his face suddenly condensed, and said, "How is it possible, I could clearly feel that faint breath that day, why is there no one at all now!"
"So, they're right, I'm actually a dead man, and I shouldn't have come into this world. ”
Zi Sandalwood said: "You can't look at it like this, except for your poor physique, what is the difference between you and a living person? As long as you live, you will have a chance." ”
Wuji's eyes wandered, and he said lightly: "As long as you live, you will have a chance to ......"
"Yes, since you can't condense your qi, then you can train your body and train into a strong body. ”
"Training?...... But in my body, there is that strength. ”
"So you have to practice, you have a good rest, and when your body recovers, start again. ”
There is no answer, he does not dare to have any illusions, because the more fantasies, the greater the disappointment, in fact, this has long become his character, the reason why he is young and old, is because he was born with helplessness and powerlessness, and the occasional glimmer of hope is also fleeting.
Master got up early every day, meditated cross-legged on the edge of the cliff and beside the waterfall, and then went to collect some pine nuts, hazelnuts, chestnuts, walnuts, and some pears, dates, mountain reds, and some leaves of wild vegetables, because the wild vegetables were old until autumn, and occasionally brought back some pheasants and hares, and ate some oil and water, and since they came, the number of pheasants and hares has decreased a lot.
Winter is coming, this is the first snow seen in the high mountains, no obstacle draped in red sandalwood with rabbit skin sewn blanket, sitting at the entrance of the cave, looking into the distance, large pieces of snowflakes falling, the whole sky is blank, pine sandalwood forest, mountains and rivers, all change silver.
This can't arouse the excitement of Wuji, because everything, he is just a spectator, he sees everything is actually the same, cold, he is very smart, so smart that he doesn't want to think about anything, he becomes very lazy, so lazy that his clothes stink, and the year passes quickly and slowly.
Spring came, and the waterfall on the stone wall had not been frozen for a year, and it had been flowing, but the ice on both sides of the waterfall had begun to melt.
He was thrown into the water by the master, "I've endured you for the master for a winter, I'm going to wash it off!" The cold water made Wuji's body tense, and he finally had a different expression on his face.
The barrierless cat was in the water, shivering from the cold, and its teeth chattered involuntarily, "Master, this water is too cold, I can't stand it, pull me up!"
"If you can't wash it, don't think about it, your hair is also washed, the lice are all millions of troops, they are all frozen to death, from today onwards, for the teacher to meditate on this every day, you bathe me below here!"
"Master, kill the apprentice quickly, I'm so uncomfortable. ”
"Don't worry, the teacher has his own measure, and he won't let you die, as long as he lives for the teacher, you will live. "In less than half a year, there have been nine attacks without obstacles, and the red sandalwood has been controlled nine times, and the meridians without obstacles are already well understood, but the strength of the red sandalwood has not improved a little in the past six months, and the reason can be imagined.
"Master, I'm about to freeze to death. Wuji pleaded as he rubbed his body.
"If you can't freeze to death, you just get used to it, this is also refining your muscles and bones, don't let the teacher work alone, you also need to work hard!"
Although it is very cold outside, it is actually not cold outside in the water, as long as the body does not come out of the water, the cold is still bearable, Wuji gradually adapted to the cold water, the trembling decreased slightly, and gradually felt that the body was in such water, a little more strength than before, maybe it was the trembling strength, which made him have some spirit.
He thought of his mother, of being immersed in a warm barrel, bathing him with a smile, and the pink orchid petals floating on the water, which he felt useless then, but now he thinks it is beautiful.