"But, Xianhe, no matter how unwilling you are, you can't do anything, whether it's you, or her, or me, each of us has no choice since birth, we can only accept it like this, because, except to accept, we have no other way."

Shen Xianhe looked at Su Nianjun blankly, she knew that what he said was right, but she just couldn't accept it, those injuries were like a scar engraved on her heart, no matter how intact she was outside, but her heart was already full of holes.

It was precisely because she knew such pain too well, and knew too well such a long-lasting wound in her heart, that she didn't want Miss Bell to experience such unspeakable pain like her.

However, she also has a share in these pains, maybe she should have listened to Mo Yu's words at the beginning, don't have too strong curiosity, turn a blind eye, maybe, the bell girl will never know these truths in her life, and she will not experience such pain.

She couldn't say these words to Su Nianjun, just like she couldn't forgive Su Nianjun for hurting her.

So he withdrew his gaze from Su Nianjun's face, laughed self-deprecatingly, and then raised his steps and continued to walk forward.

"How can a person like you understand that you will only hurt others and deceive others? I'm just ridiculous to talk to you about these topics all the time. ”

Hearing Shen Xianhe's words, as well as her sudden change in attitude, Su Nianjun's heart throbbed, and she was about to explain, when she saw that she had already walked forward.

He couldn't help frowning, feeling that he couldn't go on like this, if some things were not explained clearly, they would always be between them, like an invisible invisible blade, pushing them farther away when their relationship eased a little, and the estrangement between them became more and more serious.

Thinking of this, he strode after him, grabbed Shen Xianhe, who was worried, and said domineeringly in her stunned eyes.

"I have something to say to you."

"Let me go...... I don't want to hear you say ...... No matter what you say...... I don't even want to hear ....... ”

After speaking, regardless of whether Shen Xianhe agreed or not, he took her hand and walked towards a quiet place.

And Shen Xianhe was very resistant to refuse and struggle, she was full of resentment now, she didn't want to show Su Nianjun her mood swings, she didn't want him to see her weak appearance.

But no matter how she struggled, Su Nianjun never let go, forcibly grabbed her hand and walked towards where he wanted to go.

Shen Xianhe, who had been fighting with Su Nianjun all the way, didn't pay attention to where he took her at all, and only struggled intently to let him go, and the two fought all the way to a courtyard.

It's just that, it seems, this yard is inhabited.

A little girl who was basking in herbs was startled at first when she saw them break into her house like this, and then reacted quickly and questioned them sharply.

"Who are you? What are you doing in your house? ”

Su Nianjun glanced at her uncertainly, and ordered the little girl in a cold voice.

"We have something to say, you are relatively quiet here, borrow your place for a while, you go out first."

In the face of Su Nianjun's unreasonable request, the little girl was directly stunned, but Shen Xianhe, who was still grabbed by him, sighed lowly, walked in front of him, and said softly to the little girl.

"Little sister, we have some things to discuss, we need to borrow your place for a while, and please make it convenient for you to leave here for a while."

Seeing that Shen Xianhe's attitude was so relaxed and polite, the girl looked at the two of them, and then looked at Shen Xianhe seriously, and was suddenly surprised.

"Yikes! You are a saint! ”

Being recognized, Shen Xianhe did not have the slightest surprise, but nodded calmly.

"Well, please make it easier."

After recognizing Shen Xianhe as a saintess, the little girl couldn't hide her surprise, and waved her hand again and again as she walked out.

"The saint doesn't have to be polite, it's my blessing to be able to help you, I'll leave now, I won't disturb you, you are free."

As soon as he finished speaking, the people disappeared outside the door, and even closed the courtyard door for them.

After the others left, Shen Xianhe turned to look at Su Nianjun, who was looking at her with complicated eyes, and said to him coldly.

"Whether I want to or not, I've been forcibly brought by you anyway, if you have anything to say, just say it, it's just, it's time to let go."

Shen Xianhe said as he took Su Nianjun's hand and sent it to him, signaling him to let go quickly.

Seeing her like this, Su Nianjun didn't want to have a relationship with him at all, her heart was like a knife, her mouth was full of bitterness, and she slowly let go of her hand reluctantly, and those words that she finally mustered up the courage to tell her began to hesitate.

The whole person was not willing to give up, because he was afraid that after showing his scars to Shen Xianhe, he was afraid that she would not be moved at all, and he would still be estranged from him as always, and he was afraid that she would still refuse to forgive him.

Shen Xianhe saw that his face was very ugly, and his whole body was uncontrollable, with a hurt look in his eyes, and her heart couldn't help but tingle slightly, and she began to reflect on whether she had gone too far just now.

However, when she thought of her recent state, she began to want to forgive him, she was afraid that she would repeat the same mistakes as before, so she had to continue to harden her heart, turned around and carried Su Nianjun on her back, tried to suppress the sourness in her heart, and said in an extremely cold voice.

"What the hell are you trying to tell me? Originally, I didn't want to hear it, but everyone was pulled here by you, so I reluctantly listened to it, but you didn't speak for a long time, but it was like I forced you, I don't carry this black cauldron, and I'm not the kind of person with serious curiosity, since I don't want to say it, then forget it, don't waste time, I'll go first. ”

Shen Xianhe said these words against his will, and the fingernails that hung down on his side and hid in his sleeves were deeply sunk into the flesh of his palm, and his face with his back to Su Nianjun was also painful.

Su Nianjun finally had the courage to gather together, and after hearing Shen Xianhe's words, his heart was like a knife, and a sense of desolation slowly rose from his heart, and he didn't have the courage to speak the words that he was about to say.

looked at her back in a daze for a long time before he said lightly.

"I ...... Speechless...... Let's go....... ”

Shen Xianhe's eyes were full of tears, and she couldn't breathe in pain, so she pretended to be casual and continued to speak coldly.

"Are you sure you don't say it? If you don't say it this time, there will be no such shop in this village, and ...... in the future Even if you want to say it...... I won't be listening to ....... ”

Su Nianjun's heart was like ashes, and he laughed self-deprecating with a white face.

"You've said that, do I need to continue? Even if you say it, you won't care, I don't want to make myself undignified in front of you. ”

The tears that she had endured for a long time finally slipped down on Shen Xianhe's face, and the nails in her palms were slowly loosened, and a feeling of dust settling welled up in her heart.

"Whatever you want."

With that, he strode out the door.

She held on to this sad emotion, and after walking quickly to a place where there was no one, she finally burst out uncontrollably, squatting on the ground and crying silently.

Since Su Nianjun appeared, it took her a long time to slowly calm down her emotions, and the moment he appeared in front of her, she collapsed in an instant, and she could deceive herself before, she no longer felt for him, and he couldn't shadow her anymore.

But after all, she was just deceiving herself, she never could not be influenced by him, even if she could ignore his existence at the beginning, but the longer she got along, the deeper she sank, so that it reached the point of being out of control.

Such an uncontrollable feeling made her miserable on the one hand, because the more happiness Su Nianjun brought her, the more painful she felt in her heart, she was afraid that she would be hurt again, afraid that she would become not like herself, and afraid that she would become a resentful woman who even looked down on herself.

That's why she's so uncertain and so uncontrollable.

In fact, just now, after she said those hurtful words, she was extremely remorseful, and she hated how she could become so mean, so she secretly made up her mind in her heart that if Su Nianjun was willing to explain his hardships to her even when she spoke badly, then she would follow her heart, forgive him, and not care about the things he had deceived her before, and believe him once.

But in the end, it still doesn't work, they are all too proud, they are all people who value self-esteem more than anything else, how can they show their sincerity when one party is so vicious?

They still can't get close to each other after all!

When Shen Xianhe returned to the Holy Maiden's Mansion, it was already very late, and seeing that she hadn't come back for a long time, No. 1 was worried that something had happened to her, and after going to the bell girl and not finding her, he searched for her in Miaojiang City, but still couldn't find her.

So he hurriedly returned to the Holy Maiden's Mansion, and was about to take the other secret guards to look for it when Shen Xianhe came back.

"Miss, where have you been? Why did you come back so late? What do subordinates think has happened to you? I'm looking for you everywhere. ”

Shen Xianhe had two eyes that were swollen like peaches, and explained to them apologetically.

"I'm sorry, I'm worried, I'm fine, I'm idle and bored, so I walked around Miaojiang City, and then forgot the hour."

Shen Xianhe's excuse, not to mention that she didn't believe it herself, even No. 1 they didn't believe it, but no matter how much they didn't believe it, she said it, and they could only believe it like this.