Chapter 579: Deadlocked
He didn't even care about the company's affairs and came to me. You say you like me, but where are you when I'm sad? ”
The more Cen Canglan spoke, the more angry he became, why did he accuse his friend of this identity as his current boyfriend as soon as he appeared in front of him Chang Zhongye, thinking of the press conference he held before, Cen Canglan just wanted to put the newspaper in front of Chang Zhongye for a few days, so that he could understand that he had nothing to do with him anymore!
Chang Ziye saw the cold expression on Cen Canglan's face, and he also understood that what he said just now was too much, which angered Cen Canglan. Hearing what Cen Canglan said, Chang Ziye opened his mouth, wanting to explain but not knowing what to explain.
That's right, where was Cen Canglan when he was sad? What did she do under the surveillance of Xia Ruyan and Chang's mother? It's just a matter of staying in the room and thinking about it.
Thinking that every time he seemed to make Cen Canglan sad, the first person to appear next to Cen Canglan always seemed to be not himself, Chang Zhongye suddenly felt extremely powerless in his heart.
That's right, such a self, why does Cen Canglan still like himself, why does he still want Cen Canglan to forgive himself? Chang Ziye couldn't help but secretly mock himself in his heart, and said, don't you often say that you like Cen Canglan very much? So where did you go when you were sad for her? What did you do? Why do you say that you like Cen Canglan very much?!
Chang Ziye suddenly felt that Cen Canglan didn't forgive himself seemed to be the most correct decision, he suddenly felt that there was no hope in his heart, yes, even if he reconciled with Cen Canglan, what could he do, what he brought to Cen Canglan was always the difficulties of Chang's mother and Xia Ruyan, since what brought Cen Canglan was pain, so why did he insist so much?
Cen Canglan looked at Chang Ziye's face with a blank expression, obviously his words hurt Chang Ziye's heart, at this moment Cen Canglan also realized that what he said was too heavy, obviously when he was alone, he always looked forward to Chang Ziye's arrival, why did he always say such things when Chang Zhongye really came, and pushed Chang Ziye away from his side step by step?
The atmosphere suddenly fell silent, the air seemed to become oppressive, and the surrounding noisy environment seemed to be completely isolated from the three of them, and it was out of place with the people on the beach.
Why did it become like this, Cen Canglan couldn't help but ask himself in his heart, recalling the various experiences between him and Chang Zhongye, it was clear that the two of them were good at the beginning, why did one become like this without paying attention?
Cen Canglan thought about it a lot, and the fragments in his mind kept appearing and disappearing, disappearing and reappearing, and the cycle kept on and on. She knew in her heart that if she lost Chang Zhongye, she would probably never have a person she loved so much in her life, and this relationship had spent all her strength in her life, and she had no strength to fall in love with someone else.
I never thought that I and Chang Zhongye would have such a day, everyone stalked their necks and accused each other of their appearance. There are really many, many things in a person's life that they can't predict at all.
It would be nice if all feelings were solved by just two people who love each other. Cen Canglan couldn't help but feel a little embarrassed in his heart.
It's just that suddenly Xia Ruyan's figure flashed in Cen Canglan's mind. Suddenly I felt ridiculous, even if it was really like that, even if the two of them could solve the problem as long as they loved each other, then I probably wouldn't really solve the problem between myself and Chang Zhongye.
As long as Cen Canglan remembered the picture of Chang Zhongye announcing that Xia Ruyan was his girlfriend in public at that time, as long as Cen Canglan thought that Xia Ruyan was Chang Zhongye's girlfriend now, and he was just an ex who was just a joke when others mentioned it.
What are you? What are you upset about? Cen Canglan laughed at himself in his heart, for Chang Ziye, I am actually just an ex-girlfriend.
Cen Canglan grabbed his palms hard, as if he could grasp his heart tightly in this way, so that his heart would no longer feel sorry for the person in front of him.
Thinking of watching a movie with Chang Zhongye, holding hands for the first time, hugging for the first time, kissing for the first time, but suddenly feeling very strange, Cen Canglan sometimes couldn't even control himself in his heart, and couldn't help but wonder if Chang Zhongye liked himself or not, and what was his position in Chang Zhongye's heart?
For a while, the three of them looked at each other, but none of them spoke. The atmosphere was extremely condensed, and the summer temperature did not change the atmosphere in this area.
Enough of this kind of farce, shouldn't you have hope anymore, isn't it impossible? It's impossible for himself and Chang Zhongye to do it, Cen Canglan smiled, but he couldn't hide his sadness.
I really want to dig out my heart, why is my heart so uncomfortable? Why is I in so much pain now? Isn't it often said that time is the best medicine? Why is it that after so long, why have I already gone into hiding abroad, as soon as I see this person and know that Chang Ziye appears in front of my eyes, my heart can't control the pain?
Cen Canglan felt that he and Chang Ziye were like the mermaid and prince in a fairy tale, neither of them knew what the other was thinking in their hearts, but everything in the outside world was constantly pushing the two away, and they didn't know where to start, they couldn't understand each other's minds.
At the end of the story, the prince marries another woman, and the mermaid can't tell the truth, so she can only be secretly sad by herself, and finally turns into a bubble. Cen Canglan thought of this, and couldn't help but feel that this was probably the end of himself and Chang Zhongye, about one day, Chang Zhongye would marry Xia Ruyan, and on that day, he and Chang Zhongye probably really had nothing to do with it.
"Let's leave it at that. Actually, it's really good, now that you're Xia Ruyan's boyfriend, I have nothing to do with you. This is really good, so that you don't have to be embarrassed, and I don't have to look at Chang's mother's face anymore, this kind of ending is the most suitable for us, just let it go. I'll take my single-plank bridge, you take your sunshine path, there shouldn't be any intersection between us. ”
Cen Canglan didn't know whether he wanted to convince Chang Ziye, or he wanted to comfort himself, it was really good to keep repeating this, you don't have to feel sorry for me, and I don't feel sorry for me, but I probably won't believe it if I say it.
Obviously the whole person was trembling so uncomfortable, and the tears were almost uncontrollable, who would believe what he said like this?
But these words are indeed what Cen Canglan wants to say to Chang Zhongye, she doesn't want Chang Zhongye to be embarrassed anymore, even if there is no Chang Mother's prejudice against herself, with Xia Ruyan, it is probably impossible for herself and Chang Zhongye, since it is impossible, why bother the other party, and why bother to entangle it again.
I hope that without me, you will be fine in the future, without me, you will be well, you are still the same as the original Chang Zhongye, I am still the same me, we just pretend that we haven't met, like returning to the original appearance, isn't it great? Didn't we all live well in each other?
Why, Cen Canglan really wanted to ask himself why? Obviously, everyone has no other person in their lives and lives well, but at this moment, as long as the thought of separating from Chang Zhongye, as long as the thought of not having Chang Zhongye in his life in the future, his heart hurts.
Didn't you decide that you had been thinking about it for so long? Don't you all know that you and Chang Zhongye can't do it? Why, the tears are still falling, does it know that this will embarrass itself?
Cen Canglan felt as if there were thousands of ants eating his heart in his heart, otherwise how could his heart hurt so much, the pain was so painful that he almost felt unbearable, and he wanted to leave everything and run away, never to see this situation again.
I never thought we'd end up like this one day, but it was the best outcome I could think of.
Cen Canglan could only seem to persuade herself, and as if she was persuading Chang Zhongye, she smiled reluctantly, "It's okay, it will be fine soon." Doesn't everyone else say that time heals everything? So, soon, I believe that it won't be long before we will change back to the way we didn't meet, I'm still the same Cen Canglan, and you're still the same Chang Ziye. ”
Hearing Cen Canglan's words, Chang Ziye only felt extremely uncomfortable in his heart, and he couldn't control the trembling in Cen Canglan's voice, and seeing Cen Canglan's clenched fists, Chang Ziye only felt extremely helpless.
He didn't want to be like this, he didn't want to have Cen Canglan in his future life, as long as he thought about it, Chang Zhongye felt that his heart hurt uncontrollably.
Chang Ziye couldn't imagine what he would be like if he didn't have Cen Canglan's days, and what was the meaning of life? What's the point of living on your own?
It turned out that unconsciously, when I looked back, I didn't know when I started, I already liked you so much, I didn't know when I started, you were so important in my heart. Chang Ziye really wanted to ask Cen Canglan how you let me leave.
Dan Dan stood aside, listening to Cen Canglan's words, looking at Chang Ziye and Cen Canglan's expressions at the moment, he only felt that there seemed to be a layer of separation between the two, separating himself from afar, and he actually felt that he couldn't fit into the atmosphere between the two of them at all.
However, thinking of what Cen Canglan said just now, Dan Dan couldn't help but relax a little, it doesn't matter, as long as Cen Canglan and Chang Ziye make it clear, as long as there is no relationship between them, there is still a lot of time for themselves, and there is still a lot of time, Dan Dan believes that there will be a day when he can move Cen Canglan, and one day, Cen Canglan will completely forget Chang Zhongye.