Time flies, the weather is getting colder day by day, Shen Zhuzhu's abdomen is gradually bulging, and the New Year is approaching. During this time, Su Zong's condition was still stable, and every time Li Yu and his wife visited Empress Zhang, Empress Zhang was very affectionate and happy, shushing the cold and asking for warmth, and there was a harmonious atmosphere. At the same time, Shi Chaoyi's rebels lost Yongning, Mianchi, Fuchang, and Changshui counties, and retreated one after another, seeing that the counterinsurgency was really just around the corner. Shen Pearl knew that this was the prelude to the coming storm, and sometimes carefully observed Li Yu's expression, not impatient, like a bamboo in his chest, a little relieved.

She's also unhurried. She gets along with Li Shi every day, personally teaches him to learn words, plays with him, watches him fall asleep, Li Shi was alienated from her at the beginning, he is extremely attached to Su Porcelain, if he is sick and falls, he must first lie in Su Porcelain's arms and be coquettish. However, Shen Pearl was not in a hurry, she was patient and meticulous, taking care of Li Shi bit by bit, and as time went by, Li Shi became more and more attached to her...... It's just that she hasn't called her a "mother" yet.

Murong Lin entered the palace every once in a while, and handed over the decoction to Shen Pearl to take, but it was strange that after a few months, Xue Hong did not appear in Chang'an.

Zhang Hanruo must come to greet Shen Pearl every day, in just a few months, her face has lost a lot, but her arrogance has not diminished, whenever Shen Pearl wants to talk to her, she always says goodbye in a hurry, and she has already lost the intimacy of the year. Shen Pearl could only sigh secretly.

On December 19, Shen Pearl's birthday was met again. Su Zong has been sick for a long time, and it is forbidden to sing silk and bamboo in the palace, Li Yu is evasive, fearing that it will be unfavorable to Shen Pearl at this time, and Shen Pearl will stop it, so he will avoid all the red tape, and only prepare a small table of birthday banquet, and wait for him to come back from Daming Palace in the evening with Shen Pearl.

When she arrived, Su Ci took Li Shi to Yichun Palace as usual, she remembered today's day, so she asked Li Shi to kowtow to Shen Zhuzhu, Li Shi's body twisted around, but she refused to follow. Shen Pearl smiled and stopped: "Where are there so many rules." Seeing that Su Ci looked very tired, her eyes were dark, and she was obviously not sleep-deprived, she and Su Ci were used to it casually, and persuaded: "You better go back to the hospital to rest, you were seriously injured to save me in the past, and now you have worked so hard for a long time, it's not fun." ”

Su Ci listened to her words, her eyelashes flickered slightly, nodded silently, and said, "The slave maid has a little thing to do, but Xiao Shizi is here——? Shen Pearl knew that she was not worried about Li Shi, and said with a smile: "It's okay, isn't there a grandma to help me!" "Plain porcelain Fang bowed and stepped back. Shen Pearl looked at the back of Su Porcelain, there were many sighs in her heart, Su Porcelain has changed a lot, she has a lot of worries every day, it is rare to really smile, she sometimes tries to make Su Porcelain happy, Su Porcelain is more forced to laugh. In this East Palace, it seems that everyone is depressed, and there is little real joy.

Li Shi is very stubborn, a five-year-old child, extremely energetic, playing with the palace maid for a while, getting into a few cases, tables and chairs and beds, and arguing for Shen Pearl to accompany him to hide and seek, Shen Pearl takes potions every day, and now she is more than six months pregnant, and her spirit is still good, and she has not shown any serious illness...... Seeing Li Shi playing so happily today, I couldn't help but accompany him to play a game of hide and seek. After playing in a circle, I felt unsteady and exhausted, so I sat down to rest.

Li Shi was also tired of playing, so he rushed to Shen Zhuzhu's side, and saw a dazzling array of red and green melons and fruits on several cases, and even more green papayas from Fang tribute, which were eye-catching and cute, so he took one and nibbled it in his mouth. A palace maid had already stopped with a smile: "Xiao Shizi, wait for the slave maid to help you, and the papaya will be peeled." ”

"I want you to cut it!" Li Shi was stubborn again, hugged the papaya with both hands, and refused to hand it to the palace maid, but turned around and handed it to Shen Zhu.

Shen Pearl looked at it and picked up the delicate knife on a few cases. Unexpectedly, the fruit knife was extremely sharp, the papaya was tender and smooth, and when her hand slipped, the knife slashed to the back of her left hand, and the wound was not deep, but blood came out in an instant. The palace maid beside her was shocked, and hurriedly took out her handkerchief and pressed it tightly on the wound, shouting loudly for others to take medicine. In fact, there was no big deal, but Li Shi was frightened when he saw the blood at first glance, and fell into Shen Zhuzhu's arms, "Wow wow" and cried loudly: "Mother, mother!" ”

Shen Pearl was stunned for a moment, and then there was an indescribable joy in her heart. In this life, the happiness she needs is only so shallow.

When the sun set, Li Shi was tired of playing, so he fell asleep in the corner of the palace at will. Shen Pearl hugged him to the couch and carefully wiped the thin layer of fine sweat on the tip of his nose for him, his sleeping appearance was cute and cute, he was sleepy, he had a very slight snort, and his long eyelashes were cool and drooping, falling down in a bend and casting a small shadow under his eyes. She couldn't help laughing, and Li Shi's face never got tired of looking at it.

Hearing steady and brisk footsteps behind him, he knew that it was Li Yu who had returned. Shen Pearl stood up and turned around to greet him with a smile. Kankan turned around, his body tightened, and he stretched out his arms to hug her in his arms. It's just so sudden, hugging her tightly and not speaking.

After a long time, she heard him say, "In this life, I have failed you too much. His voice was low, but every word was soft and long, as if poured out of his heart, carrying unspeakable pain.

Shen Pearl was frightened for a while, she had never seen Li Yu speak to her with such a look, she only said that Li Yu had already known about her condition, and her heart was like numbness, and she was good from time to time.

Li Yu had already helped her sit on the couch and said, "I know today that many of the things I did in the past were very wrong. I misinterpret you, I don't understand your mind, and I insist on imprisoning you. But rest assured, from now on, I will try to remedy it. Stroking Li Shihong's fluttering little face on the couch, "Our family of three finally got together, and we will never be separated again." ”

Shen Pearl didn't understand what it meant, but when he looked at his words carefully, he seemed to be sudden, and even had the pleasure of being completely released from the pain, and he shouldn't have known about her condition, so he smiled and said, "Today's birthday, why did you suddenly remember to talk to me about this call?" In the past, such as dying yesterday-" His voice trembled slightly when he said the word "death", "Didn't you and I understand the meaning of Lord Zhang Jiuling's words that day?" ”

His lips touched her temples, and the fragrance of fireflies in his hair filled his chest, and for many years, he was immersed in deep depression, and he had never enjoyed such comfort, "In short, from now on, I will take into account your heart, and no longer be self-righteous." ”

He said: "Fortunately, it is not too late for this, we still have the first decades, hundreds of years, long lives. ”

A long life.

She is really lucky, how big the world is, but she can look at Mo Yan and clasp her fingers with Li Yu.

Even if the joy is suddenly reaped, even if it is between love and sorrow, even if it is necessary to bear the pain of parting.

Even if she will eventually return to the Netherworld.

In such a life, she is also unshakable.

On the last day of the second year of the last year, Su Zongqiang supported the sick body and fainted at the mouth while performing a sacrifice in the temple. On that day, the thick black clouds rolled, and the wind and thunder covered the sky and the earth, and the heavens and the earth shook.

Three days later, Su Zong woke up and was unable to stay, but he was in bed to listen to the government, so he changed the year name to the first year of Baoying.

Half a month later, Li Fuguo added the title of the secretary of the military department, and took charge of the military power of Chang'an City.

A month later, an assassin infiltrated the palace to assassinate Su Zong and the queen, and the inner flying dragon made Cheng Yuanzhen a meritorious escort, and he was also a leading envoy, and all the inner court guards were dispatched by him.

Li Yu became more and more leisurely, and in addition to serving Suzong every day, he mostly accompanied Shen Zhu's mother and son. As the pregnancy grew, Shen Pearl gradually understood the meaning of Murong Lin Zhi's "oil runs out and the lamp is dry", although he does not move every day to drink medicine and tonic, he is still mentally tired, his strength is not continuous, his body is weak and timid, and he often wakes up and sweats, seeing that Li Yu is often worried, he smiled and comforted: "Pregnancy is like this, but you still can't trust Lin Zhi's medical skills." This is really an invincible magic weapon, Li Yu sighed helplessly, and put aside the idea of letting other doctors see a doctor for her.

In March, Xue Hongxian finally came to Chang'an.

When Murong Lin Zhi and Xue Hongxian entered Yichun Palace, Xue Hongxian was not wearing his usual red dress, but wearing a narrow lake blue skirt and a small white flower beside his sideburns. Shen Pearl saw that she was dressed differently and didn't have time to speak, Xue Hongxian pouted, threw herself into her arms and cried: "Sister Shen, my master has passed away." ”

It turns out that Xue Hongxian has been traveling all over the world with his master in the past few years, although his master is more than seventy years old, he is still as light as a swallow, and his appearance is no different from Xue Hongxian's childhood, and he has always been kind and strict to Xue Hongxian. Hongxian is a young girl with a heart and always loves to be free, so she met Murong Lin Zhi in Huifu more than half a year ago, and when she talked about Shen Pearl, she was itchy and wanted to get out of the fence under the master's control and go to Chang'an to play. His division did not refuse at that time, but when Hongxian wanted to leave three months later, he tried his best to stop him, saying that he would "go back in a few months". Hongxian didn't dare to disobey the master, he was unhappy in his heart, and he only pouted and hung his head to follow the master every day. Who would have thought that in the previous month, the master suddenly woke up Hongxian in the middle of the night, Hongxian listened to the master's explanation in a daze, and fell asleep again, and woke up early the next morning, the master looked at the nose, the nose looked at the heart, and passed away at the time.

Although Xue Hongxian knows that people will die, she has regarded her master as an immortal since she was a child, and believes that no matter how she messes around, there will eventually be a master to rely on, and there will always be a master's arms to rely on to be coquettish.

Xue Hongxian said that it hurt to the point, and he cried with Shen Zhuzhu. Shen Pearl and Murong Lin looked at each other, sighing separately. Shen Pearl suddenly remembered Mo Yan, but Murong wanted to inexplicably recall Li Qi.

Shen Pearl asked Xue Hongxian again: "What did your master tell you before he passed away?" ”

Xue Hongxian rubbed his red eyes like a child, and said, "I just can't remember anything, that's why I came to you in such a hurry to ask." "Pause, hesitant to recall," as if to say—no ...... No, wandering...... Shape...... Name ......"

Murong Lin frowned, Shen Pearl stood up and paced back and forth, and suddenly saved: "Is it 'indispensable, wandering into the form name'?" ”

Xue Hongxian jumped up: "It seems to be it." "This sentence is not in the Buddhist scriptures, no wonder I don't know." ”

Shen Pearl smiled: "This is indeed not in the Buddhist scriptures, otherwise I haven't read a few Buddhist scriptures, and I can't guess it!" This is a poem written by the Jin people Zhi Daolin, and the whole poem is 'Vimo body divinity, Linghua Zhaoji Court.' There is nothing to do, wandering into the name. If the people move, I will be sick, and the people will calm me. Tranquility is not a shadow, and the shadow should be a situation. The string rhyme is multiplied by ten philosophers, and the stubborn and arrogant four heroes. Forget the time to meet the head, and praise death and life. ’”

Xue Hongxian was confused when he heard this, and asked, "What does this mean?" ”

"This poem originally admired and praised Vimaha," Shen Pearl thought for a moment, "However, since your master's last words are given to you, they should have another deep meaning." Looking up, he saw Xue Hongxian's temples and clouds, and asked, "Hongxian, did your master mention that you were asked to become a monk?" ”

"The master said the year before last that he would choose a day to shed my hair for me, but I was reluctant, so I didn't bow yet." Xue Hongxian lowered his head a little discouraged, his tone was still resolute, "The master has passed away, I must follow the master's last wish and return to the Three Treasures." ”

Murong Lin Zhi also understood at this time, and laughed at the same time as Shen Zhu: "No need. ”

Xue Hongxian's eyes widened and he looked at the two of them in surprise, "Why?" ”

Murong Lin said, "Didn't your master say it—it's indispensable." It means that you can become a monk or a monk. Shen Pearl continued: "She also said 'wandering into the form name', which means that there is a Buddha in the heart, and there is no need to be confined to the form. ”

"Really?" Xue Hongxian's eyes flashed, and he couldn't hide his joy. Shen Pearl is also deeply happy for Xue Hongxian, but also admires Xue Hongxian's master, this life is a saving side, this dynasty advocates Buddhism, although she does not understand the Buddhist scriptures, for such a strange person, only deep humility.

Shen Pearl said: "Hongxian, you like to travel around, and from now on, you can travel the world with your sister Lin Zhi." Lin Zhi's medical skills are superb, which can save lives and help the wounded; You are an outstanding martial artist, you can punish the evil and help the weak, how happy, and it is exactly in line with your master's heart. Xue Hongxian nodded again and again.

Murong Lin Zhi sobbed in a low voice, "What do you say that the medical skills are superb, I ...... I'm useless like this, I can't even save you......" Xue Hongxian was shocked, "Sister Lin Zhi, what are you talking about!" ”

Shen Pearl didn't want to hide it from each other, and Li Yu hadn't returned to the palace today, so he happened to have something to explain to the two of them, so he lightly said that he was seriously ill and died. When Xue Hongxian heard this, he couldn't help but cry, and said continuously: "You can't be true, don't fool me!" ”

Shen Pearl smiled and took Xue Hongxian's hand and said, "You are a big girl, why do you cry at every turn?" It can be seen that you can't go home to follow the master to learn Buddhism, and even if I go, I still have the Buddha's words - when you go to the blissful world where you are always happy and pure, and you are far away from the hustle and bustle of the world, what is there to be sad about. ”

Xue Hongxian just shook his head and cried, and said, "What do you say, I am always happy, I just know that there is no such thing as your sister Shen in the world from now on!" ”

Shen Pearl saw that the time was not early, and Li Yu was about to come back, so he hurriedly said: "Okay, it just so happens that you are all here today, and I have something to ask you." "Lin Zhi, thank you, I can survive until now, I'm just worried about whether I can give birth smoothly, and how long I can live after giving birth." ”

Murong Lin choked up, "Don't worry, with me, you will be able to give birth to a child smoothly." ”

Shen Zhuzhu's face became happy, and she looked at her expectantly: "When I give birth to a child, can I live for another three months?" Murong Lin couldn't bear to look at her, don't look over, "I can." ”

"That's great!" Shen Pearl was even more happy, "After the child is three months old, I will immediately leave the palace with the two of you." ”

Murong Lin turned his head slightly, "You are really crazy, how can you move around at will at that time, you can hide it from Li Yu now, how can you hide it until then...... He! ”

"I just, I don't want to die in front of him." Shen Pearl lowered his head and said slowly, "If he knows what it is, he will definitely feel guilty for the rest of his life, and the grief is extremely great, I really can't bear to make him sad." ”

Murong Lin said: "But you have no news of you, and you have asked him to wait every day, isn't it even more painful?" ”

Shen Pearl said: "If he can be honored in the Ninth Five-Year Plan, as the king of a country in the future, there will be endless state affairs entangled with him." He got up and opened a few cases under the drawer, turned over a stack of things from the bottom, and unfolded it, but it was a neatly written cover and a lacquered letterhead, handed it to Xue Hongxian, and said: "Hongxian, I have dozens of letters here, the date has been indicated, and after half a year, you will send the first letter to him, saying that I still want to go to Huashan again, and every year and a half in the future, you will send the letter on schedule." ”

Murong Lin said, "Aren't you worried that he will really go to Huashan, or other places you marked, and look for you everywhere?" ”

Shen Pearl said: "Then he must not be found." I know him best, he will not delay the affairs of the state because of me, he can't find me, but he still knows that I am still in the world, and it is good to have a trace of thought; Or, after a long time, he thought that I was reluctant to return to the palace because of my affection for the landscape, and he had a grudge; Or, gradually forgetting me, that's better. The longer the better. Or, in a few years' time, you will not be very sad if you tell him about my death, as long as he does not witness it with his own eyes. Su Yan said to Xue Hongxian: "Sister, you must help me with this." As you traveled, you occasionally left traces in my name or in the name of Gao Yueming, so that he, and my two children, thought that I was still alive. She smiled and laughed at herself: "Actually, I am also selfish, and I hope that he will always remember me." After a pause, he said slowly, "But it's better to forget about me." ”

All three were silent. Shen Pearl said to Xue Hongxian again: "Han Ruo is also here, if you are free, go and accompany her and explain more." Now, I'm afraid she has some resentment in her heart. He sighed, "Hanruo, it's good." In the future, I only hope that she can accompany her. ”

(Tianjin)