I was born in a steppe tribe, and like other girls, I rode my horse on the grassland with the pursuit of dreams, eager to soar freely like an eagle, without being bound by anything.

In the first year, I was sixteen years old, and I was slim and elegant, which was rare among the Hazarqi people, but such beauty did not bring me the same beautiful plot as in my dreams.

My younger brother, Eagle Thunder, was honorably elected by his father and elders to be the next tribal chief.

I love my brother very much, and I also love my sister Shar, and the three of us are very united and friendly, but everything changes dramatically after my brother becomes the tribal patriarch.

When my brother was very young, I knew that he was a very ambitious man, like the overlord of the sky, the eagle, who longed to have the ambition to look down on the world.

She was not yet in her first year, so she was left in the tribe, and I, by my brother, were made the Holy Daughter of the Hazaqi tribe to carry out the highest mission of the Hazaqi.

This mission does not allow me to resist, I cannot refute it, and I cannot find any reason to stay, because it is the result of the joint negotiation between the elders of the clan and the younger brother, and I am not the best choice.

Everything came so fast that I didn't have time to prepare, I didn't have time to accept, and the day after Ying Lei gave the order, he urged me to hastily pack my luggage, embark on the road to the Central Plains, and leave the home where I had lived for sixteen years.

Because I am a woman who grew up in the grassland, I have all the tenacity and strength that are different from the women of the Central Plains, I have learned to observe words and colors since I was a child, and use resourcefulness, until the moment I left the grassland, I realized that it turned out that everything was arranged.

From the Hazarqi to the capital of Linlang, the road is long, I have worked tirelessly, thousands of miles, when I entered the capital, I was shocked.

This place is far more prosperous than I imagined, more lively, and more popular, the sound of street hawking, and rare things I have never seen, silk fabrics, silk handkerchiefs, clay figures, sugar people, all of a sudden attracted me, I began to dazzle, look around, but accidentally, bumped into people.

What kind of man is that?

He has a pair of gentle eyes, exuding an irresistible sense of intimacy, which makes you can't help but want to be close, and the fair skin seems to be able to pinch out of the water.

I think I probably hurt him, he rubbed the place I hit, but he still smiled gently at me, not handsome cheeks, but also very delicate, vaguely revealing a feeling like a spring breeze.

I think it's just the feeling that makes me attracted and makes me feel good about him........

The maid I brought, Rong Yun, she is not only my sister who has played since I was a child, but also a servant who waits for my daily life, I am full of gratitude to her, but she kept me away from that man.

How I wanted to refuse, to refuse his kindness, to refuse his invitation, to reject him, not to let him come to me again.

A stormy night, under the vines, affectionate confession, deep affection, ears and temples, soon defeated me, I thought, I really can't refuse him.

On the first night, he was very gentle, hugged me, promised me a lifetime, I nodded shyly, and he said that he would send someone to propose marriage and marry me, of course, I did not forget the purpose of my coming to Linlang.

Perhaps, I thought too naïve, thinking that marrying him could not only enjoy the love of men and women, but also carry out the highest mission of the clan in secret.

It didn't take long for someone to come to the door to propose, it was the person he sent, I agreed, but I seemed to be carried away by happiness, a sedan chair, a few blowing and blowing to send relatives, just like that, I married into Murong Mansion.

After entering the house, I learned that he already had a wife, and even many concubines, in terms of seniority, I didn't even have the qualifications to eat at the table, the first time, I was angry, but he comforted me.

I asked him, why do so many women still provoke me?

He replied, "There are three thousand weak waters, and I will only take you one scoop."

This answer, which I was not very satisfied with, was still accepted by me, which was 108,000 miles away from my original expectations.

For the first time, I was sad.

He came to comfort me again, but he didn't know why I was sad.

In a word, he doesn't understand me.

The days still have to pass, and among his many concubines, my beauty has attracted him for several years, so that I conceived his children earlier than those who entered the door before me.

If it weren't for the fact that I have learned to observe words and emotions since I was a child, if I hadn't learned to use wisdom since I was a child, I'm afraid, I wouldn't have been able to give birth to my child safely, three women in one play, this is a famous saying in the Central Plains, there are so many women in Murong Mansion, intrigues, you and I cheat, if it weren't for his love and care, I think, I can't hold on to it.

On the day of childbirth, I was fighting with death in the house, and he was worried about me outside, and I thought, I should be content, at least after me, he did not continue to marry other women, and now, with children, I think, in this life, will continue to live like this.

But I was wrong, when the midwife went out, he urgently asked whether it was a man or a woman, and when he heard the midwife say in a loud voice Congratulations to the master, it is a female baby, and there is no follow-up.

Although he is still tender to me, I know that I can feel that he is a little different to me.

In the past, he never went to socialize, even if he went, he would take me with him, and even if he went, he would be the first to come to me after returning home, however, after Ran Er was born, everything changed.

In the bleak night, I waited, one night, two nights, three nights........

It wasn't until Ran'er was 100 days old that he remembered to come and see our mother, and I asked him, why is this happening?

His reply to me was straightforward, because you gave birth to a girl.

Am I his fertility tool? Could it be that everything he used to do to me was fake?

I don't believe it, I don't believe it.

Other concubines, even the main wife, saw that I was not favored, bullied me all day long, oppressed me, in my closet, no longer silk and satin, three meals a day, no longer delicacies from the mountains and seas, even the slaves and maids who waited for me were transferred away by the main wife with excuses, and in the end, there was only Rongyun by my side.

Ran'er is very cute, but she is frail and sickly, the wind is cold at night, I have to stare at it all the time, and in a blink of an eye, Ran'er is one year old.

He came to me for fewer days, and at the same time, Linlang Palace draft girl, and I could only send Rong Yun to apply for the election, fortunately, Rong Yun's appearance can be regarded as smart and delicate.

I also began to arrange for the establishment of the Hazaki power, the Assassination Hall, and made preparations in the Xuanyuan Kingdom as early as before I came to Linlang.

My younger brother would never have imagined that his lost child was also brought to the Central Plains by me, and, erasing his memory, I wrote a flying pigeon biography to Xuanyuan, and the child came, although Ran Er was well-behaved, but always seemed too lonely, so I let my brother's child accompany her and protect her.

My brother, do you know why I am doing this?

In fact, I overheard your conversation with the elders back then, and in the past few years, the sentence has always echoed in my mind: My father has already arranged it back then, she should be competent, and if not, there is no need to keep it.

It turns out that I am just a chess piece, a chess piece that has long been put in place, just waiting for success and failure, death or life.

I hate, I hate it, when I was so young, other children went out to play, only I had to work hard to memorize and learn all kinds of knowledge, and now I am only treated so ruthlessly.

Brother, don't resent me, think about you, where did you put me?

Ran Er is growing up day by day, although she is still just a girl, but she has a beautiful appearance and finely carved facial features, I expect that she will be a woman who will fall into the city and the country in the future, and she will definitely match the dragon among people.

Since Ran'er's physique is very weak, I searched everywhere for ways to make Ran'er stronger, and finally, I met a man in the rivers and lakes.

I gave all the treasures I brought from the Hazarqi tribe to that person, and that person was not bad, and taught Ran Er's internal strength to maintain his physique.

Sure enough, in the first few days of Ran'er's school, her body has improved significantly, and I am very relieved that my efforts have not been in vain.

My daughter is fine, but I fell ill, in the three years I was bedridden, Murong Tianming only saw me twice, although it was not cold, but it was also very indifferent, as if, I was just an irrelevant person.

In the three years that I was bedridden, he married a lot of concubines, counting the house, except for the main wife, there are already more than 20 of them, what does he want? Want to live like an emperor? Oh, I forgot, he is the richest man in Linlang, but his money has nothing to do with me, all these years, I have been living on the weak silver taels of the assassination hall.

In this life, who should I blame for ending up like this? If it weren't for the fact that I believed his tender words at the beginning, if I hadn't been able to control it at the beginning, if I hadn't come to Linlang at the beginning, if I hadn't .......

No matter how much I regret it, my life will never turn again, but my daughter must bear the mission of the clan, otherwise, she will be hunted down by the Hazaki tribe until she dies.

This is what I overheard back then, I didn't expect that my brother would be so careless about family affection, I am his biological sister in the end.

I once wrote letters to my brother, but they never returned.

Yinglei, do you think I'm a weak woman, no matter how full of poems and books and scheming, how can I be worthy of the great task of dominating the world? Are you overestimating me? Or are you overestimating yourself?

If you want this world, you should fight with your own hands and use your own courage to get it, not what I did as a woman.

That year, when the leaves fell in autumn, the dead branches were swayed by the cold wind, and the flowers withered, just like my life, at this moment, it also came to an end.

Murong Ran's mother, Hasaqi Mu's Dur is finished.