In this short silence, I looked into his eyes, not without thinking to tell him about the deal between me and Cheng Yu. I didn't tell Brother You, I didn't tell Shutong, I didn't tell Lan Zhou, but I really wanted to tell him. When I was thrown into the fire, when I was about to fall into the fire again, I saw the hand that reached out to me, and I wished I could hold it tightly - I wanted to live.

My fingers moved, but a palpitation struck, and my hand was imprisoned again.

What can you do if you involve Lord Zhao? It is enough to worry the people up and down of Jinguo in my heart, and if I tell him about this matter again, it will only add to his troubles. In addition, since I returned to the southern country, I learned that he and the guard were no longer as hostile as they used to be, and although they seemed to not disturb each other, they now seemed to have reached some kind of tacit understanding. If I tell him about my intention to take revenge on the guard, the first thing he will do is stop me, no matter which side he is on.

Moreover, Lord Zhao Mengqing Zhao of Jinguo should always be quiet and tenacious, and everything is indestructible, even if it is lightning and flint, the sky is falling, it cannot be that he is trapped and hesitant. He wasn't supposed to be what he was tonight.

So I looked into his jade-like eyes, a few giggles overflowed from my mouth, and I laughed at myself: "Lord Zhao, I will not be stupid enough to give up Immortal Cong to Cheng Yu." ”

He looked at me for a long time, and saw that I was calm and frank and did not look like a lie, and then sat down again in a trance, "You are drinking tonight, why do I think I am drunk?" You just mentioned that you were my squire before, and I didn't realize that you had regained your previous memories. Speaking of this, his fingers touched his brows, no longer the leisurely and leisurely appearance of the party, Lord Zhao at this moment was physically and mentally exhausted, and his face was haggard.

"My lord should have been too worried recently, I heard that the "Some Suggestions on the Future Development of Jinguoshi Agricultural Industry and Commerce" given to you last time has been implemented most of the time as planned."

He still looked like he had never eased up, and his voice was tired: "I haven't done all the suggestions you wrote, some of them are what I have thought about over the years, such as the one related to commerce and trade, I implemented it according to my own ideas, the first step is to widen the streets and rivers, so that the carts and ships can run smoothly, so that it is convenient for the countries next to me to come to Jinguo to do business with us." ”

"The widening of the road will inevitably affect the people's houses, which is a very big project and requires the people to work together to complete, but now the situation is confusing, and the neighboring countries are also eyeing the people, and the people's hearts are the most unstable."

He nodded, looking at the inky sky in the south: "Not only commerce, but also the crux of the other three, Jinguo is now full of devastation, and winter is coming, and this year's harvest in several major grain provinces in Jinguo is not good, and the people's food for the winter is extremely scarce, if Yang Chengwei chooses to go north in this winter, we are afraid that we will not have the power to fight back, Jinguo is at his fingertips." ”

At this point, my heart sank.

A few days ago, I heard a children's rhyme from Nanguo Mansion -

Changlan River, Changlan River, I only see the Ningsu River singing, I don't see the fisherman in the south, and I don't see the king of Chong'an on the riverside.

Since the Nanguo Mansion was captured by Yang Chengwei, the Changlan River, the biggest natural danger between Ningjin and Jin, has lost the role of the Jinguo barrier.

The people of Nanguo Mansion withered, they were the first to be captured by Ningguo, and now they are looking at the Changlan River rolling eastward, and they are sad and sad, they are only shallow compared to the emperor and my generation.

Thinking of the people of Nanguo Mansion, I couldn't help but think of the little son of Lanzhou again, I looked up and asked Zhao Mengqing: "Is Chen Lanzhou okay?" Is he used to staying in the Ministry of Rites? What do you do to him? ”

Zhao Mengqing laughed out loud when I asked a series of questions: "Since you like him, why do you want to break his heart?" After breaking his heart, I left him with me, and I had no other way but to arrange a large number of official duties for my new squire every day, so that he had no time to think about you. Fortunately, he seemed to coincide with my thoughts, and he tried his best to help me deal with the affairs of the court and the central government every day, and almost lived in the palace. ”

I lowered my head and couldn't help the sourness in my eyes: "You also know that I am the wife of King Chong'an." ...... with him It can't be in one place, it's better to cut off his thoughts cleanly. "It also broke my own thoughts.

"Do you remember when you came to my house to look for me, and I was writing a letter to Princess Xingran?" For some reason, Zhao Mengqing suddenly asked me this question.

"I remember when you calmly told me that you were writing love letters to her."

He chuckled, brushed the dead leaves that fell on his body, and said something as if it had nothing to do with him: "I heard that she got married a few days ago. ”

I was suddenly surprised: "The girls you like are married, why can you still laugh?" ”

Zhao Mengqing turned his head and looked at me faintly, the smile on the corner of his lips was as light as the wind, as if the wind could take away this smile when the wind blew, "The girl I like is indeed married, even if I once said that I wanted to marry her, but she never gave me an answer, even if it was to cut off my thoughts, she never said it." ”

This sentence made me feel some sympathy, "Maybe Princess Xingran has met someone I like better." I comforted him in this way, but I was caught off guard by the purpose of my visit to his house tonight, so I poured him a glass of wine, and poured myself a glass, and smiled as lightly as he did—

"What a coincidence, my lord, the person I like has married another girl today. Why don't we have a toast, I wish your Princess Xingran, and my Royal Highness King Chong'an, each of them a good harmony, and a white head to old age. ”

Without saying anything, he took the glass of wine, lowered his head and drank it one sip at a time. The boundless darkness behind him seemed to melt him.

Actually, I didn't tell the truth that night.

I don't want Princess Xingran to get married at all, I don't want to see Zhao Mengqing so sad; I also don't want King Chong'an to grow old with Tao Wanwan, if I really hope that they will be together, then I will never move to Chong'an Palace.

But here I am, I came in the same wedding dress as when I married him. When I stepped out of the carriage, my hands holding the hem of my skirt were stiff, but I smiled brightly. Only Shutong knows how long I have been practicing in front of the bronze mirror with this smile. It is really harder to smile at the enemy, and to laugh with sincerity and brilliance, than to cry.

As if he didn't care about my smile, he walked straight up to me, untied his coat, draped it over me, and then took my stiff hand. This set of actions was smooth, not only made Ben Shoufu dumbfounded, but also made Wan Wan in front of the door stunned.

"This dress is too thin, your hands are too cold." He pulled me forward, and when he passed by Wan Wan, he said coldly, "You can go in with you." ”

The reversal of attitudes before and after the guard period is so big that this first assistant is a little unexpected-

In this way, Cheng Yu has really taken out the hatred about me in Wei Qi's body, and planted it on Tao Wanwan smoothly? Cheng Yu, Cheng Yu, as long as it is related to Immortal Cong and Changsheng, you are really attentive and reliable.

This made Honshosuke overjoyed, but I still took the joy that surfaced in my heart, and tried my best to show this joy and excitement on my face, so I said lightly: "It's really a little cold all the way." ”

As soon as the words fell, he leaned closer to me and squeezed my hand tighter, "I fried sunflower seeds for you, follow me to the study, and I'll peel them for you to eat." ”

The tip of my heart trembled violently, and even my heart was about to shatter.

Sunflower seed.

In my mind, the house covered with ginkgo biloba outside the window, the red clay stove spitting out the blue letters, the gentle boy wearing a jade face and a silk shirt, is an emotion that I have hidden deeply, it is the years that I have been lonely and barren for more than ten years, it is the karma that has made me let go and tempted me to turn back several times, and it is also the starting point of my road to no return.

In the distance was a crisp voice like a collision of jade: "Uncle Shi, what is 'hatred'?" ”

Can this be seen as a reincarnation?

Now, I know this answer better than anyone else in the world, but I'm nearing the end of it.