Before dawn, a young couple walked with a little girl to the walls of the orphanage, and the wife crouched down and stroked the child's face, tears rolling in her eyes and her voice was out of tune from choking up.

She said: "Nanxing, mom and dad are going to buy something, you stand here and don't move, mom will come back to pick you up later."

The husband behind him whispered something, as if urging impatiently, the wife opened her mouth, swallowed what she wanted to say again, only stuffed a plastic bag in the child's school bag, and hurriedly turned around and left with her husband.

The distance between the two is getting farther and farther away, and the child wants to go with her, but no matter how hard she tries, her legs can't be lifted, as if there is an invisible force that binds her and makes her unable to move.

"Don't go!"

The dazzling sunlight shone into the bedroom through the gaps in the curtains, Chu Nanxing sat up from the bed violently, and then clutched his chest like a dehydrated fish, clutching his chest and gasping for breath. The two cats in the house heard her cry and ran over to lick her fingers soothingly.

She had that dream again, the dream that would come up every once in a while. This nightmare that has plagued her for more than ten years, to this day, I don't know if it's a nightmare or not.

When Chu Nanxing was six years old, he was sent to the door of the orphanage by his parents. Her mother lied that she would come back to pick her up, and then never returned, her parents were very poor, and the children of the poor were precocious, in fact, from the time her mother spoke, she knew that she was already an orphan.

Her parents may not know that when they discussed how to abandon their child, their child was not asleep, and the child listened calmly and did not show anything unusual. If you look back at her mother when she abandoned her, you can see her cold and sharp eyes.

If that were the case, how would her mother react? I think I'll be able to flee faster, maybe I'll fall down on uneven roads, and maybe I'll think she's a monster. Thinking of this, Chu Nanxing lifted the corners of his mouth, and a sneering smile appeared on his face. Adults are always like this, they deceive their children, they become angry when they are recognized, they blame the children for their young age and scheming, but they never reflect on their own mistakes, or rather, avoid reflecting on their own mistakes.

Castle Peak Orphanage, she heard their destination from her parents' conversations, and for her, the orphanage was no different from the dilapidated house with four walls. A child who grows up in a family without love, only quarrels and abuses accompanied by poverty may not be much better than a child in an orphanage.

Today, more than ten years have passed. The scene of that day seems to be vivid, and it seems to be a bizarre dream. She remembers the warm sunshine that day, the candy her mother bought her for guilt on the way here, and the feeling of oppression when her parents disappeared from sight and looked back at the orphanage.

But Chu Nanxing has no way to determine whether this abandonment is exactly as seen in the dream, whether her mother's face at that time is really reluctant, and whether she really wants to chase with all her strength like in the dream, begging her mother not to leave. It's been so long ago that their faces have blurred in their minds, and they can only be glimpsed in dreams, and when they wake up, they forget all about it. The mood I felt at that time had also faded away, and only the palpitations that accompanied the memory of my body every time I passed by that section of the wall remained.

In the first six years of his life, Chu Nanxing's memories of his parents were nothing more than his mother's gentleness and cowardice, his father's laziness and irritability, and the rest was endless quarrels and abuse, the roars of men's anger and the desperate cries of women, and the cycle repeated. In her opinion, such a marriage is like purgatory, but the older generation never knows how to change the way in marriage, only knows that one way to go dark. Such a family, even if their parents abandon them, will not be rich, they will always be poor and torture each other for the rest of their lives.

But at the moment of abandonment, she secretly felt relaxed, at least, she was no longer the reason for other people's hardships, and no one would scold her for losing money or debt collectors. Her material life has not changed, but she is no longer part of that family, she is out of her cage and has become a free chick.

Chu Nanxing has no hatred, if you want to say that there is, it is just a little regretful, no child will not want to live a stable life with her parents, she is the same, but unfortunately she does not have such an opportunity.

She also knew that her mother did not have feelings for her, but that she loved her husband and son the most, so other feelings and other people could give up.

When they separated, her mother left her, except for the back, only a few dozen yuan that was hurriedly stuffed into a small schoolbag and a peach wood amulet that could no longer be seen in its original color. The money had already been spent, and the talisman was still hanging on Chu Nanxing's chest. Whenever she is sad, rubbing this small wooden card has become a habit that she can't break.

In the more than ten years in the orphanage, when most of the children in this world were enjoying their childhood, she could only work the assembly line of the black factory, taking half of her salary, just to be able to have money to go to school.

It is difficult to be equal in life, this truth, Chu Nanxing understood very early, in the long more than ten years, life has long worn out all her innocence, making her more mature and vicissitudes than people of the same age.

Her face is still young, but her heart is old, life is the best textbook, but also the worst teacher, it presents all the basics to you, tells you, come on, this is the open book, when you lift the pen, you find that it is all over-the-top questions.

Life will not stop for anyone, even if the fate is bumpy, time passes as usual, and more than ten years are just a flick of the fingers.

In the old days, the only thing that made her happy was to finish college. Because of her education, she has a job that allows her to support herself.

She finally doesn't have to live like a robot on the assembly line of the factory during the summer vacation, she doesn't have to beware of the molestation of the student's father during make-up classes, she doesn't have to watch the faces of passers-by on the hot street and hand out leaflets, and she doesn't have to live at the bottom of society.

She sits in a tidy office every day, talking with her colleagues about high-tech, fashion brands, and a new era for women.

She can live in a neat bachelor apartment, buy her favorite clothes in the mall, carry fruits and vegetables to see the dean's mother, and live like a dignified person.

No one is more eager for economic independence than her, up to now, Chu Nanxing has worked for more than two years, with a monthly salary of 9,000 yuan, and she also has nearly 100,000 yuan in savings under frugality. Although 100,000 yuan is nothing in the Shenzhen market, for her, life is finally not stretched day after day. Life is still long, and the road ahead is still full of hope.

Seeing that the sunlight was getting more and more dazzling, and the time was almost noon, Chu Nanxing retracted his thoughts. It's time to get up and wash up and have a "brunch", she rubs the top of the cat's head and carries them to the bathroom, the two cats like to watch her wash.

These two cats were kittens born to stray cats in the community, and the old cat died of illness, leaving only two kittens, so they were adopted by Chu Nanxing.

After washing, Chu Nanxing opened the refrigerator, took out two eggs, cut the thin green onions, spread a fragrant egg cake, scooped up a handful of rice, cooked a pot of porridge in a pressure cooker, and a simple breakfast was ready.

After all, he ate a big pot of rice in an orphanage since he was a child, Chu Nanxing's cooking skills are really not very good, he can only cook some simple meals, no matter how difficult it is, he has no energy to study it.

After a full meal, Chu Nanxing opened his laptop, browsed the web, and swiped the news as an after-dinner pastime.

At this time, a video appeared in her sight, due to the rough shooting technique, the clarity of the video was not high, and the picture was shaky, and she could only see one person holding another person's neck, and his face was buried deep in the other's neck socket. The sound in the video is very noisy, accompanied by screaming and screaming, a few seconds later someone came out to pull the two apart, one of them struggled very hard, vaguely saw a large area of red on his face, like blood, the videographer seemed to be frightened, the picture shook violently, and the video came to an abrupt end.

Chu Nanxing's gaze swept upward, and the title was "Zombies appeared in a city on the border of China, eating the flesh and blood of passers-by", and then, when she clicked to play it again, this video was actually harmonized.

Although the title of the video seems a bit ridiculous, this speed of harmony is really disturbing, if it is really a rumor, why is this outrageous rumor immediately harmonious. Chu Nanxing immediately opened the post bar and entered the title, and sure enough, many people were already discussing. Netizens have different opinions, some think it is deliberate hype, some think that the candid video of the movie shooting set, and a few conspiracy theories that someone is secretly researching the zombie virus.

Chu Nanxing looked at the analysis above one by one, and felt more and more that things were not good, and sure enough, after a few minutes, I refreshed it again, and this post was no more.

As a person who has struggled to survive since childhood, Chu Nanxing's intuition is more acute than that of ordinary people, although she can't say why, but after watching the video, she fell into a heavy sense of crisis, and when she encountered danger in the past, the feeling of numbness on the scalp came again. And this time, stronger than ever, as if the only life-saving straw to grasp is about to break.