Struggling on the edge of pain and pain, Zheng Yilu.

This chapter is Zheng Yilu's extra, whether everyone likes her or not, but in Xuexue's heart, every girl is an angel who has fallen into the mortal world, and she will wait for the prince who belongs to her......

I always felt that I was an extremely selfish person, until one day, a man appeared in my life, and he smiled evilly, and I was slightly stunned, and the hairs all over my body were about to stand up.

I thought we would pass by like this, but he gently exhaled a hot breath in my ear: "We are all the same kind of people. ”

The moment his words fell, I thought I was hallucinating, and when I looked at him again, he looked at him as if nothing had happened.

At that time, my young self did not know the inner meaning of that sentence.

I'm thinking, a class of people? Do people have to draw symbols such as three, six, nine, etc.? I couldn't help but smile contemptuously, and I didn't take that sentence to heart, I've never been a nosy person, and I've never paid attention to boring people.

Since I was a child, I lived in the rush of being collected for debts, watching different men go in and out of my mother's room, how could I understand what happened between adults when I was young, but I just nodded politely and called uncle according to my mother's meaning.

It wasn't until I was in fifth grade that I vividly remember that it was an afternoon, and the warm sun shone into the damp hut, and I asked my teacher for leave because I was unwell, so I went home early.

As soon as I entered the door, there was an indescribable smell that made me a little disgusted, and the door of the large bedroom was hidden, and I had always been a person who had little sense of existence, so it was not easy for people to notice when I walked.

When I opened the door curiously, I was stunned by the scene inside, two naked bodies intertwined on the broken bed, the panting of a woman, and the low roar of a man kept coming to my ears.

Before I knew it, my whole body was shaking. I thought I would run quietly to my bedroom, but I didn't see anything.

However, God always likes to joke with me, just like what I liked later was Mo Yan, but it gave me a Gu Yu......

I kicked down a wine bottle in the corner, I was so frightened that I quickly bent down to pick up the bottle, and at the moment I raised my head, the disgusting eyes of the two people on the bed swept towards me, and I was frightened, and the bottle in my hand fell to the ground again.

I sat down on the floor, and then the man, naked and then got out of bed, and approached me step by step......

At that moment, the fear in my heart was like a bottomless black hole, and I was deeply immersed in it, numb and unable to extricate myself.

At this time, the woman on the bed also got out of bed, hurriedly ran to the man, grabbed his arm, and prayed: "Boss Wang, she is my daughter, you can let her go!" ”

The man obviously ignored her and continued to walk forward, the woman was holding the man's arm tightly, with some crying in her tone: "Boss Wang, I don't want money this time, please let my daughter go!" ”

The man who was called Boss Wang by the woman stood less than 20 centimeters away from me and stopped, he bent down, grabbed my hair, and glared at me viciously, I was dragged by him and lost consciousness.

He swung hard, and my head hit the wall, and I lost consciousness when I felt a warm current on my forehead......

Since then, I never dared to go home again, I stayed alone in school, how many times I was on the desk in the classroom, in the dead of night, the wind whirring outside the window, I wanted to open the window, desperate to jump, but I didn't have that much courage after all, I was afraid of death.

When I was a freshman in high school, I went to a school in the city, where the tuition was so expensive that I could no longer calculate the math skills I had.

Later, seeing that it was about to start school, I still didn't save much for tuition, and a friend introduced me to a job, and I was young and ignorant, and I thought it was fun to go to the bar.

I should mention here that since I didn't go back much, that woman rarely gave me tuition, and all I could rely on was myself.

On the third day of going to the bar, I went to a private room to serve drinks as usual, and I didn't expect that when I first stepped inside, all the lights in that box suddenly went out.

I froze in place, and suddenly, something climbed up from my waist, and although I was terrified, I still had one hand free to touch it.

When I touched the object, I threw the tray on the ground in fright, and the strong impact did not affect the recklessness of the hand.

A broad embrace ensued, and my heart was filled with fear, and I instinctively resisted, but the man's strength was so great that I was imprisoned in his arms, unable to move at all.

He stumbled and pushed me onto the couch, and I screamed and yelled that no one had come in for a long, long time.

The clothes on my body were stripped off one by one, and I was desperate to stop struggling uselessly, and my ears, neck, and chest were all eroded by the man's hot lips.

Then my body also warmed up, the man roughly ripped off my small clothes, and now I felt the heat between my legs more truly, not mine, but some object of the person kept staring at the base of my legs, I bared my teeth, but did not scream again.

He couldn't wait to stuff it into my body, grabbed my shoulder roughly, moved my waist, and there was an unbearable pain in my private parts, I bent my waist in pain, and the person on my body seemed to be slightly stiff, but continued to occupy me without any pity.

I gritted my teeth and clasped my hands tightly together......

I clearly remember that the man asked me three times, and it didn't hurt so much later, but in fact, there was still some enjoyment, and it was a wonderful feeling.

Finally, when the man fell asleep tiredly, I hurriedly put on my clothes and stumbled out of the box. What I didn't expect was that as soon as I went out, the foreman's eldest sister gave me something like an envelope, and I opened it in confusion, which contained a thick pile of hairy grandfathers.

I still remember the words that came out of her mouth when she gave me a contemptuous look: "It's still good, the price is really high." ”

With the money in my hand, I really wanted to throw it out in front of her, so dirty, so disgusting......

But I didn't, and what little sanity I had left told me that I needed the money, and I really needed it.

When you are poor and can't even eat, what qualifications do you have to talk about self-esteem, isn't it a joke to say it?

With that money, I managed to enter high school, and I had the same long black hair as now, but the difference was that I had Qi bangs at that time, and when I lowered my head, I even covered my eyes.

In fact, at that time, I was extremely inferior, and that inferiority complex has been inherited until now. Maybe it's because it's in your bones! So in the back, no matter how glamorous I become, I can't get rid of that natural inferiority.

I never spoke to anyone in the class, and because of this, the head teacher often talked to me, and as I went back and forth, I gradually became familiar with the man in his thirties.

Maybe it's because I didn't have a father since I was a child! I still crave my father's love, so much so that I secretly have feelings for the head teacher.

There is a reason why I hate men, the head teacher has married and had children, but he also has a good impression of me, if I were alone, I would definitely hide that feeling in my heart, but he confessed to me, the first time someone was so good to me, I didn't realize how deformed that feeling was, and finally agreed.

I was so stupid that his wife ran to the classroom and slapped me in front of everyone, and I was still thinking that he would come to help me, but I was wrong, no, he never showed up.

Maybe that's when I learned to protect myself. I've always said that fate is tricky, at least it's constantly teasing me, and after three months of changing shifts, I unexpectedly found out that I was pregnant.

At that time, I was sixteen years old, and when I came out of the small clinic in the alley by myself, I was spread out on the side of the road, and it was at that time that I met another boy, who was as warm as the sun, so beautiful that I didn't dare to touch it, and I, I was so filthy that I couldn't even get the water in the sewer.

Maybe every boy is born with a sense of protection! He helped me up as I sat on the ground, and I still remember the smile on his lips, it was really warm and nostalgic.

I don't know why he helped me, and I don't know why I told him at the time, maybe when people reach the extreme of fear, anyone who appears will be like grasping a life-saving straw and desperately trying to tell it.

He has a good family background, he was seventeen years old, took me to the hospital at the age of sixteen, when I came out of the operating table, he pulled the corners of his mouth, saw that I was fine, he was surprised to follow the hospital bed, holding my hand all the way, never relaxed.

I always remember his tired eyes, and the tenderness in his eyes......

Maybe I like Mo Yan because Mo Yan has his shadow in his eyes!

He accompanied me through the first and second years of high school, and I was really happy during that time, and when I was young, I thought that happiness could really go on forever, but we were all wrong, and we couldn't play fate at all......

After going through that, I found that I was not as sad as I imagined, maybe people are selfish! At least that's what I am, and I won't fall to the point of dying because of a person.

When I was in college, I tried to forget the past, and I have to say that time is really a good thing, and those unsightly things can really stay quietly in that place called memory when they are not mentioned.