"If you really have me in your heart, why do you want to get to the point where we are incompatible now." I lamented, "I don't want this child, he shouldn't have come into the world to suffer from the two of us." ”

I touched my lower abdomen, it was still flat, and my baby was still very young. He wanted to come to the world with joy, to see the sunshine, to see what her father and mother looked like. But I was his mother, and Le Changfeng was his father, so he shouldn't.

"What did you say!" Le Changfeng clenched his hands, like a hungry wolf, staring at me deadly: "This is our child, how can you be so cruel." ”

"I'm cruel. Le Changfeng, what qualifications do you have to call me cruel. Everything you do to our family is more cruel than I do. "My heart was desolate. That's also my child, saying that I don't want him is just a sentence in my mouth, it's very easy, but if I really beat him hard, the most heart-wrenching thing is not myself.

Le Changfeng Xu saw that my mood fluctuated too much, he held back his anger, and softened his tone: "Ruyue, the grievances between me and you are put aside for the time being, the child is innocent, no matter what we do, we should not involve innocent children in this." He's only so young, he hasn't seen his father and mother yet......"

"Don't say it, I beg you to stop it." I covered my head, not wanting to listen to Le Changfeng anymore. What I desperately didn't want to think about, he cruelly made me remember.

Le Changfeng didn't force me anymore, he decided that I wouldn't beat this child, so he was relieved. He only increased the number of men outside the house where I lived, and did not allow anyone to come near it, nor did he allow me to go out. Zhike was the only one who took care of me before, and now there is another girl named Zhilan.

I was bored for two days before I remembered that the word Zhilan was written on Baiyu before, and now there is more Zhilan around me, maybe there is a relationship between the two. Le Changfeng still comes every day to see me drink fetal pills and eat food or fruits that are good for the child. I have lived for half a month, and I began to sort out my thoughts and prepare to ask Zhilan.

That night, it rained in Miaojiang, and when it arrived, the sky was lightning and thunder, and half of the sky turned purple with the thunder. The rain fell under my feet, splashing large bubbles, and I stood in front of the door and watched for a while, and then Zhike called into the house.

"Miss, this is a pear soup specially ordered by the king, it is sweet and delicious but not greasy, and it is very good for your body, Miss." During this time, I didn't have much appetite, I ate and vomited, but I lost a lot of weight in half a month, my belly was not big, and I became thinner and thinner.

The only thing that can be eaten is sweets, and I can take a few bites of delicious sweets. For this reason, Le Changfeng specially ordered someone to go to Beishan to pick pears, just to let me eat more. I don't like anything, I feel bored in what I do, I am bored in the house all day long, no matter how Le Changfeng deliberately makes me happy, makes me happy, and even moves to the stage of Zhiguo, I am not interested.

I went to my mother's place every day, and she still seemed to be asleep, and no matter how much I talked to her and washed her face, she didn't pay any attention to me. I think she must be angry with me, thinking that I am with Le Changfeng, sorry for my father, sorry for the Bai family. She has always been reluctant to talk about me, and she has been so reluctant to let me suffer a little grievance since I was a child. She understands the hard work and helplessness of my forced smile every time I talk to him. She understands me too well. But I also understand her, if it weren't for me and my eldest brother, she would definitely go with my father. She loves my father so much, she won't be willing to let him be lonely and lonely on Huangquan Road.

I went to bed very early today, ate in the morning, and went to see my mother full of energy. My mother was still asleep, and the gauze had been removed, and although the flesh had grown, it had left scars and wrinkles, and it could never be restored to its original appearance.

"You've been beautiful all your life, and now you must be very sad like this. It doesn't matter, you just think you're old, your skin is getting worse, and you have wrinkles. ”

"In the past, you always said that you and your father were good materials for martial arts, why was it that I was not a good material for martial arts. Actually, I would, I just didn't bother to learn. Anyway, I'm my father's daughter, and you two elders will protect me for the rest of my life. ”

"You also said that people who were born with pear nests have a hard life, I didn't believe it before, and now I believe it."

I know my mother can't hear me, but I still want to say it, as if I haven't talked to her for a long time, and I can't say enough about it.

I cried and laughed at the same time, holding my mother's hand for a long time.

After staying for a long time, Le Changfeng dragged me away. I was carried by a sedan chair, and the long wind hugged me, I didn't want to look at him, and I couldn't stop crying.

I finally ate some meat in the morning, and I got off the sedan chair and vomited. It was as if the bile was about to be spit out, bitter and astringent.

Le Changfeng patted me on the back, "It's not good for the child to cry too much, Ruyue, don't toss yourself anymore." ”

I wiped the corners of my mouth with a handkerchief, and the bitterness in my mouth couldn't get away for a long time: "Le Changfeng, do you say that the child will be happy when he is born?" ”

Probably not, after all, he can't have a complete home. There is no grandfather who loves him, and there is no father who should be by his mother's side.

Le Changfeng patted me on the shoulder and hugged me in his arms: "Yes." He will be happy. ”

I smiled and let Le Changfeng carry me back into the house.

Ever since I was pregnant, everything in this room would be wiped down every day, and the flowers on the table would be changed every day, and I remember not seeing the same flowers in the house for a long time. I liked begonias, so he broke all the plum blossoms in the yard and changed them into begonia flowers. There are 12 of them.

I hadn't rested for a moment when I heard someone barging in.

The person who came was a guard, he knelt on the ground, and hurriedly said, "Your Majesty, the one in the side hall is dead." ”

I looked at him in a daze, my chest was suffocating and I couldn't breathe, I took two quick breaths of cool air and ran off the bed.

It wasn't far from this room to my mother's house, and I ran and ran, and for the first time felt that the path was so long that it seemed like there was no end in sight. No matter how Le Changfeng stopped me, stopped me from running, and I rushed forward with my head in spite of it.

Two palace maids ran out of the house, took a hurried look at me and left. When I went into the house, my mother was covered with a white cloth by them. I quickly dragged it down and asked the witch doctor who was packing up the things: "My mother is fine, what are you doing to cover her with a white cloth." The white cloth is unlucky in Zhiguo, do you know it. ”

The witch doctor lowered his head and knelt on the ground when he saw me followed by Le Changfeng.