The lights in the room were not turned on, and the soft moonlight outside shone through the glass windows on the floor and bed, and Wen Er wept silently in the cold light of the darkness.

She always knew that she was not the biological daughter of her parents. And where does the truth come from? In fact, everything is traceable and can be explored.

When she was 5 years old, Wen's mother said, "Erer, your eyelashes are so long, they really look like your little aunt." Young Wen'er, like all children of the same age, was at first confused, wondering why her mother kept mentioning that she was similar to others instead of her.

Later, she saw her gentle mother crying silently in front of a photo alone in a quiet and comfortable afternoon. Dad once told her, "That's another brother." ”

He is very young and likes to follow his young father out to sea to fish.

He wants to be a soldier, a navy, and protect the beautiful mountains and rivers of the motherland.

He is diligent and filial, and often runs errands for Wen's father to buy tobacco and alcohol. Under the summer sunset, there is a vibrant life running......

In the end, he died in a fire. That year, he was 11 years old, and Wen Er had just been born.

Wen Er knew that she was the daughter of Wen's father's youngest sister. The little aunt is very beautiful, with a melon seed face, willow leaves and thin eyebrows, especially a pair of big eyes, which are very charming. She married a local family, and her family branch is very large, and her economic strength is also one of the best.

Thousands of years of patriarchal thinking have not been effectively weakened by the family planning policy, and the slogan "boys and girls are the same" still did not defeat the deep-rooted concept of "passing on the family lineage" at that time.

Maybe it's because of her thin life, that beautiful woman gave birth to three children in a row, but they were all girls. Wen'er is the second child, and if he can't go up or down, it's redundant. In order to continue to give birth to boys, Wen'er can only be disposed of, which is equivalent to giving birth to only one girl in the past.

The world is impermanent, and Wen'er is abandoned and saved. In 1995, a month after her birth, she came to a brand new family with real relatives. Because of his brother Wen Shengqin's relationship, Wen Er could only be regarded as a superbirth, so he started a short journey to hide in Tibet. After several twists and turns, he was finally justifiably left in this world.

Undoubtedly, Wener was lucky. When she was a child, she had heard a lot of gossip about her neighbors in the village.

There was a family in the town who gave birth to six girls, and the seventh finally got their wish and gave birth to a boy. Rumor has it that the couple also had three daughters, one of whom was secretly thrown into the old high toilet bowl and drowned in the middle of the night when he was just born; One was left to fend for himself in a dilapidated house in the town next door on a winter day. The other was adopted by well-wishers, and when he grew up, he came back to see it, saying that he was unwilling to recognize his relatives in his life.

Later, their six daughters married far away, and their only son was overspoiled and lazy, and was killed by a large transport truck in his early twenties. As for the fate of this couple, it can be sighed with "If you do too much injustice, you will kill yourself"! The wife went down to the sea to catch razor clams, perhaps standing in the wet mud for too long, and when the tide was high, she could no longer pull out her feet. In the end, she watched as the endless sea flooded herself little by little. The husband, alone and nowhere to be found, gradually became an uninhabited dilapidated house.

Every time he recalls the rumors and experiences of his childhood, Wen Er is full of gratitude and hatred. Two contradictory feelings often tormented her in her youth.

On the one hand, she is grateful to her adoptive parents for their salvation; On the other hand, she feels that her family has brought her a lifetime of childhood trauma and mental scars.

She knew that her mother had both love and resentment for her. Wen's mother loves her, and she has taken good care of Wen'er in material life since she was a child, which is enough to be praised by outsiders, and even joked that Wen's mother is too fond of Wen'er. However, Wen's mother also complained about her. In the body of this traditional woman, she has never really been able to let another girl take the place of her dead son in her heart.

In some moments and in certain scenes, she will uncontrollably hurt Wen'er with words. For example, she will compare the well-behaved and sensible neighbor's daughter, and talk about the perverse willfulness of Wen'er's personality with a little blame. She would also talk to her little sister in the room, and when she occasionally talked about Wen'er, she would deliberately silence her, but add a whisper to the end: "Don't talk about this now, Er'er is probably not asleep." She pretends to be asleep a lot of the time. ”

Under the mother's intentional and unintentional "hints", the young Wen Er explored the secret of his life experience with the child's unique sensitivity. Since then, she has become delicate, suffering from gains and losses, and in childhood, she has tried clumsy ways to attract her parents' attention, naively believing that doing so will give her a sense of security.