1255 I Don't Want to Live Anymore
General Zhenbei entered the city, took an army of 30,000, and wiped out the remnants of the rebellion in the blink of an eye.
Jun Murin had already run to the fallen corpse from the tree, and Bai Heran put the gun in his hand into his sleeve pocket, remembering what Feng Yuheng said when he stuffed this gun into her hand on Chinese New Year's Eve: "Be careful to hide, don't let anyone know that you have a gun, maybe one day it can save your life." The gun didn't save her life, but it saved Jun Murin, who was almost hit by a musket.
On the other side of the street, Bai Jinghong fell to the ground, his bullet piercing his chamber and bleeding all over the ground.
Jun Muxi landed on one knee, hugged the person tightly, and shouted one by one: "Bai Jinghong, Bai Jinghong." ”
Her consciousness had long been blurred, but she barely opened her eyes at the sound of this call. I have to take another look at this person who I have protected with my life, there is no hope in this life, and being able to look at this prince in green shirts again has become her only wish before she dies.
Unfortunately, her vision was not very clear, and she had to work hard to discern where the person was. I wanted to raise my hand to touch his cheek, but I finally lifted the strength, but I put it down again when I was about to touch that face.
"I don't deserve it." Subconsciously said this, Jun Muxi was stunned, as if she understood what she was going to do, and without a trace of hesitation, she took her hand and held it on her cheek. Bai Jinghong tried hard to hide, and said one after another: "Don't dirty you." ”
"It's already dirty!" He was anxious and panicked, and he had never been so flustered when he faced Su Yuyuan's death. He told Bai Jinghong, "You don't need to care about anything, you can shake my hand if you want, and touch my face if you want." Bai Jinghong, even if there were thousands of mistakes in the past, those mistakes have been offset in the past few months. Don't be ashamed of yourself, no one is cleaner than anyone else. ”
She didn't understand what he meant, and she didn't understand what it meant to be dirty a long time ago, she only knew that the person holding her was the fourth prince of Eastern Qin, a figure she didn't dare to think about in the past. She had so many fantasies about her future, but none of them were about him. It's not that I don't want to think about it, but I don't dare to think about it.
But now that she is dying, perhaps before she dies, she can indulge herself once, take a closer look at this man, feel this embrace carefully, and touch his cheek carefully. Even if you are about to go to hell, it is worth it.
She wanted to cry, but before tears could come out of her eyes, she vomited blood in her mouth first.
Jun Muxi hugged the person tighter and continued to call her: "Bai Jinghong, hold on, Ah Ran is about to come." ”
But she shook her head and tried to speak: "Don't treat me, I don't want to live any longer." ”
He was furious: "Nonsense! There's no one who doesn't want to live. ”
"But I just don't want to live!" She pulled her lips and laughed, pulling out a sad smile, "I don't want to live for a long time, and from the day I arrived at Gobu, what I hope most is to die as soon as possible." But no, my biological father is still being detained by the monarch, and if I die, the Duan family will be finished. I have already ruined the Bai family, and I can't ruin Duan anymore. What's more, Lin Hansheng will have an evil technique, which can make the dead into a living corpse that can be driven by him, and it is said that there are still remnants of consciousness, and eternal life cannot be transcended. I was so scared that I couldn't survive, and I couldn't die. Now that it's finally over, I can finally die with peace of mind, how can I not be happy. ”
"Happy?" He looked down and asked her, "Can you be happy when you die?" If I could, I would die with you. ”
She was puzzled, "Why do you want to die?" After a pause, he seemed to remember something, "By the way, I heard that the sweetheart of the Fourth Highness was sent to Luo Ye. And then? What happened next? Have you seen her again? The consciousness blurred again, and the eyelids sank and sank, but fortunately, the pain in the heart came again, and the consciousness that was about to fall asleep was instantly pulled back again. She said, "I can't remember many things in the past, since Lin Hansheng cast Gu on me, my memories have become more and more fragmented, and then I became pregnant with that child, and my brain has become even more difficult." ”
When she said this, she suddenly felt a little annoyed, how could she say this? It is simply a sin to say such a thing to such a fairy-like person. I wanted to open the topic, but when I opened my mouth again, another mouthful of blood gushed out.
finally shed tears, very aggrieved, and the only little reluctance in the world also came to my heart. She burst into tears, clutching Jun Muxi's hand, and had a lot to say in her heart, but when she finally said it, there were only two words left: "It hurts." After working harder, he added a few more words, "Fourth Highness, I am in so much pain, what hit me?" Why does it hurt? ”
Jun Muxi knelt on the ground completely, took the person into his arms, and told her over and over again: "I'm here, don't be afraid, bear with it a little longer, and when Ah Ran arrives, you will be saved." Don't say those words that want to die, you just think it's for the sake of fulfilling me, and I still want to continue to live, so you just think it's for me, accompany me, and don't die too soon. ”
Bai Jinghong felt as if she was dreaming, and she asked him, "Why do you want me to fulfill you?" How can I be with you? ”
He asked, "If you don't want to be with me, why did you lay down your life to save me?" "There must be a reason why I can save someone without even giving up my life. He also went to save someone like this, thinking that if that little girl died in front of him, he would not forgive himself for the rest of his life. Instead of living like that, it is better to exchange her life for her.
So that time, he didn't hesitate to block a blow for Hakuzuru Dye. So this time, needless to say, Bai Jinghong also understood her intentions. He just didn't think that the eldest lady of the Bai family, who once thought that there would be no intersection in his life, or that he would go the opposite way in his life, walked and walked on the same path as them.
"Why did you lay down your life to save you? Why? Bai Jinghong was at a loss, why? Because when she took her final revenge in the palace of Gobu, the whole palace was cold to her, but in the palace of Qinyang, she knew that there was a person there who came from the same place as her, and was inexplicably close. Also because of that day, she went to Qinyang Palace to talk to him, and he said that she was restless and stroked the piano for her.
"The sound of the Fourth Highness's piano is ten thousand times better than that of Qin Yang Gongzi." She remembered that she had heard the piano and the piano in the past, and although it sounded good, it would never have the effect of calming the mind. But is it just for the sake of listening to the piano? No, it's for the one who strokes the harp.
It's a pity that she can't say it, she doesn't have the face to say it. The ruined body dares to covet the four princes of Eastern Qin, does she still want to have a face?
"Sister!" With a terrible shout, Bai Heran finally rushed through the crowd and came to her side.
"Ah Ran." Jun Muxi hurriedly said, "Save her, please, save her." ”
"Save, I will definitely save, even if she dies, I will snatch her back." Bai Heran was so anxious that his eyes were red, and he stared at Bai Jinghong, "Listen, if you dare to die, I will never forgive you for the rest of my life." ”
The little girl raised her hand, the silver needle cut through the palm, and when she returned her hand, she pressed it to the back of Bai Jinghong's heart.
Bai Jinghong dodged, and with a slam of his mind, the whole person fell from the four princes. The forehead smacked on the ground and slammed.
"Bai Jinghong!" Jun Muxi was startled, and quickly helped the person up again, Bai Heran was about to press the bleeding hand to the back of her heart, but Bai Jinghong looked at Jun Muxi with a begging gaze. He was helpless, closed his eyes, and shook his head at Bai Heran.
Bai Tsuru was anxious, "Why?" Why don't you let me save it? Bai Jinghong, are you wrong? What's so good about dying? You're not even afraid of death, are you still afraid of living well? I can cure you, whatever is wrong with you, I can cure you. In the future, if you want to go back to Kyoto, you can go back to Kyoto, and if you want to live in Gobu, you can live in Gobu, I am a Gobu woman, and no one dares to bully you anymore. If you don't want to live in either of these places, you can go to Tianci Town and live in my princess's mansion, where Huayan is also there. By the way, there is also Yan Yu, she is now the county lord of Ling'an, you can also go to her county lord's mansion to live, she will be good to you. ”
The little girl cried with a flowery face, holding Bai Jinghong's hand tightly, crying silently.
"Why? I finally forgave you, and I finally wanted to take you to live a good life with you, why did I convince myself, but you didn't want to? Sister, there is no one in the family, my father is gone, my grandmother is gone, the entire Wenguo Mansion is gone, everyone only saw me burn my own home, but I didn't know how sad my heart was when that home burned down. I desperately want to catch everyone who can be caught, even if it's crazy and trembling Huayan, I will raise her well in Tianci Town. I never want to resent anyone, as long as you can give me a good, I am willing to pay back a hundred good! Sister! ”
The cry was terrible, just like when he was on the battlefield outside the capital, the fifth prince shook his head at her, saying that he didn't want to save it, he wanted to die.
Why do they all want to die? She has no ability, but the people she wants to save are bent on death, why?
Two lives, the previous life survived, and in the end, she was the only one left in the great Bai family. She wondered if it was her clan's fault, or was it her own? Without her, can the clansmen still live in the world, and can the Bai family continue to be brilliant? She revenge one revenge after another, and in the end, she is left alone, what is the meaning of her living?
So in this life, she has changed a lot, she is obviously a poisonous girl, but she began to have faith, what she wants to do, people she wants to protect, responsibilities, and burdens. These are all self-inflicted, many times they are actually burdensome, too much burden, after all, it is better to be alone. But a person is too lonely, she is very afraid of the loneliness in her previous life, so she would rather bear more responsibilities, and also hope that she can live a little more flesh and blood.
She had already forgiven Bai Jinghong when she was in Lancheng, and she also thought that Bai Jinghong had changed for the better after going through so much, and she could get along with each other like Zhen Zhen and Yan Yu, and help each other. She even thought that if Bai Jinghong was willing, she would take someone back to Tianci Town to live, leave a yard for her in the princess's mansion, take care of her body, and find a good husband for her in the future.
Unexpectedly, in the end, Bai Jinghong resolutely chose a dead end......