I was sitting alone in the yard watching the water lilies in the yard sulking when a strange phone call came in.

A mobile phone number from City B, I thought it was Qiao Zimo, I want to see how he explained it to me?

When the phone was answered, it was not Qiao Zimo, but An Ran, who had not been in touch for a long time.

Her voice was low for no reason, and her mouth was choked.

She said: "Bai Ziran, your Zimo can't come back." ”

I said, "He doesn't want to go back, my mother doesn't want to wait for him any longer, anyway, it's not the first time he's released my pigeons." ”

An Ran's cry was almost like a whimper, as if it was New Year's Day that year, and she scolded me for being ruthless over the phone.

"Bai Ziran, you're so ruthless. Zi Mo he, he went to another world. ”

There was a buzzing in my brain, how could it be, he told me very happily yesterday that he was coming back, that he was coming back to me, and that we would never be separated again.

How can it be?

I said: "Enron, don't lie to me, how is it possible, Qiao Zimo has always had a big life, if you don't want him to come back to me, just say it, why do you need to make this play?" ”

On New Year's Day that year, when I thought he was hanging, he was only seriously injured.

Now, when I thought he was just injured, I didn't expect him to really hang up.

An Ran's cry was very forbearant at first, and finally he didn't care about it.

"Ziran, last night, I persuaded him not to see Tang Tian, but he didn't listen to me, saying that he was sorry for Tang Tian first, and he had to go to see Tang Tian for the last time, and he wanted to make it clear to her."

I still have a glimmer of hope: "Enron, what you said is false, right?" Tang Tian is a female streamer, even if she is a karate blue belt, what can she do with Nazi Mo? Qiao Zimo is an excellent policeman. ”

An Ran replied: "Ziran, you forgot, Zimo is afraid of water." Early this morning, we found his and Tang Tian's bodies at the foot of the sunset cliff by the sea. ”

Qiao Zimo didn't give me a chance to forgive him, he left in such a hurry, just like when he ran away from our wedding, which caught people off guard.

At that time, I at least had hope that he was alive somewhere in this world. Wait until I find him one day and beat him hard.

But now, he's completely gone from my eyes.

The plane broke through the clouds and went straight to City B, where Qiao Zi lay silently, like a stranger I never knew.

The two of us went round and round for more than twenty years, and he finally turned himself away from me completely.

Enron gave me two notebooks, one of which was wrapped in ordinary kraft paper, thick and yellow, and looked a little old. It recorded what he wanted to say to me, and since he was remembering, there would be almost every day, more than a paragraph, less than a sentence.

Another black-shell notebook is what he wanted to say to me in recent years.

I don't dare to open this black shell, I'm afraid that as soon as I open it, my memories will open it with me, and I can't go back.

When he followed me back to Xiayang, it was just a handful of ashes.

The day when people will turn to ashes sooner or later, he is just too soon.

In the house on the bank of the river, the word "happiness" on the window glass is still there, but it has changed from the original bright red to white.

We're always looking for what we're trying to get to.

It's only now that I've realized that what we're looking for is what we've had, what we've had, what we've had,

I love him, not just because of the way he looks, but because of the way I am when I'm with him.

Whether it's joyful, sad, or embarrassed.

Haruki Murakami's classic quotes: I hope you don't change your name in the next life, so that I will find you a little easier.

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My name is Bai Ziran.

And your name is Qiao Zimo.

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