People who think too much tend to be precocious.

But sometimes I can't help but wonder, what do we love someone for?

What kind of love is that silent but slowly penetrates into the flesh?

Because for as long as I can remember, Peng Ruorong has been carrying me alone.

I live with her in an apartment in the center of Rongcheng City, and she is always idle, but she is not short of money.

Except for her old friend Feng Jing, who occasionally visited her, at other times, perhaps in the bright afternoon, when a clear yellow light leaked in like water, and she sat on the marble platform with her knees crossed, quietly looking up at the window, under which you could see clusters of dense banyan leaves, connected into a sea of turquoise, rippling in such a bright light.

I called out to her, "Mommy." ”

And she just laughed and rubbed my hair.

I know, she was thinking about the man.

But the man never came to see her—not even until she died.

She gradually lost weight over the years, and I did not dare to look up, and I was afraid that others would know that I had no father, and I was afraid that others would know that my mother was such a person, that she was not a thrush in a cage, nor a moldy embroidery on purple satin, but a small, docile, silent and extremely delicate relief.

I could only bow my head and be silent with her.

Fortunately, I have to wear a school uniform in school, and no one will find out that I am wearing a name brand; Fortunately, those little girls will only gossip about those boys who are superior in learning and have outstanding appearances; Fortunately, things gather people in groups, I am unknown to everyone, and no one will know me too much.

I always give in when things happen.

It wasn't until that afternoon after school that I met Zhi Siyu.

My face was like fire, so humiliated and so angry—but I would have backed down in the end, if it weren't for her.

But she was in front of me like that, she seemed to be not afraid of heaven and earth, and she was like a newborn calf, and I was thinking at the time, how could there be such a stupid girl in the world, who didn't care about anything, but just by her own heart.

But I never dared to let my heart go, like a snail carefully curling its tentacles.

But then I think, what kind of despair is that? Thousands of calculations have no last resort, but they only miss their sincerity.

The orange-red sunset slowly faded, she turned around, with a touch of brightness on her face, shrouded in the crooked eyebrows, she smiled and stretched out her hand, and said generously: "My name is Zhi Siyu." ”

Zhi Siyu, Zhi Siyu, Zhi Siyu......

That voice echoed in my heart like this, and I couldn't wait to see her every moment.

Under the banyan tree in the evening, on the long stone bench, there will be a touch of tranquility that makes me nostalgic.

Sometimes she reads thick "Dream of Red Mansions", and sometimes she memorizes English and French words.

I paid attention to everything about her, tried her favorite desserts, read the books she read, and I would even copy the words from the book in a diary, a leather book with a copper lock, and I would clip a banyan leaf from school next to her on the title page of my notebook.

"The rain washes the eaves and wet Hunan curtains, and the light shadows are so bad. It's hard to try on the sleeve of the pillow, and let him dot and spot. ”

"The color line is difficult to collect the beads on the surface, and the old traces of Xiaoxiang have been blurred. There are also thousands of bamboos in front of the window, and there are no incense stains and tears? ”

She loves strawberry flavors. Next to the huge row of dark green glass windows in the cafeteria, the bright sunshine turned a thousand times, just like her eyebrows and eyes, like the brightness of flowers and trees, she said happily: "It's really delicious, such a bright sunshine, you have to draw a curtain, the kind of Xiangfei curtain in the book, I stay with you, and even the rolling blinds are saved every day......"

I'm happy when she's happy, so I depend on her for everything.

I'll never forget the day she was expelled.

I never knew it would be so desperate - I couldn't do anything, watching her being pointed at by a thousand people, watching her being pushed to the brink of collapse, watching her disappear step by step in my world.

Helpless.

Until the crystal pendant at the end was also lost by me.

"I lost it."

I finally gave up, and Peng Ruorong also had the money to support me, so I completed four years of study in two years.

After being admitted to Shanghai-Nanjing University, I ushered in the final goodbye to Peng Ruorong, I never knew she was sick, and she never wanted to be treated - Feng Jing tearfully turned her head and couldn't bear to look at it again, seeing her lying in the white ward, smiling and holding my hand, laughing as she had done for many years, I felt hot droplets of water slowly falling from my face, she wiped away my tears, and put a key to a bank safe in the palm of my hand.

Her eyes were fixed on the door of the ward.

The last breath settled, and the door to the ward was not pushed open.

Inside the safe is a file. There are secrets of the Yi family that have not fallen for a hundred years, as well as a series of unknown agreements reached between the Yi family and the national government and the Wang puppet government.

But what Yi Qingyuan left me was a secret industry in Europe. I knew that Lin Yi and the two families had been fighting each other for many years, and I saw the outline of the Liumang Group, and I also knew that Yi Qingyuan was slowly hollowing out the Lin family's drug business in Europe.

I understand Yi Qingyuan's worries, and I understand even more that accepting these, what awaits me in front of me is almost tens of billions of net worth.

This is a truth that I have been able to imagine a little bit since I was a child.

But when everything really came, it seemed that a bright room of sunshine flashed in front of my eyes, maybe my mother was quietly looking at the green ocean outside the window, maybe it was the simple happiness of Xiaoyu when she cut the cake.

I silently put the file back in the bank safe.

The vast population is Huzhou, and she and I are a drop in the ocean, a drop in the ocean, a drop in the bucket, a duckweed hit by the rain, and catkins hit by the wind.

"I won't let her be Concubine Xiaoxiang."

But in fact, apart from the words "where there is a will, there is a way", I can't think of any other words to encourage myself.

I chose French as a major because she also likes French.

"French is so difficult, and Sister Kelin is even more difficult."

I didn't touch the money in the bank, in addition to taking the scholarship, I also had to earn my own living expenses, I would always go to various places to work, I wished that I had 48 hours a day, I could gnaw through that brick-like dictionary, I could run through every corner of Shanghai.

There are also people who have pursued me, but they have always "once turned the sea into water, except for Wushan, it is not a cloud." ”

It's not her.

"A scoop of weak water, a lot of red dust."

Until that day, I met Lin Yiyi, maybe I was lying to myself, I didn't even know that she was surnamed Lin.

"I seem to see another you."

In the crowded street, I felt completely confused, like a person who saw a brilliant sunset, so fell into the dark night, and finally ushered in the bright starlight.

"I should probably give up."

But even if she looks the same, Lin Yiyi is not her.

"What I love is the one and only."

In the end, I still regarded Lin Yiyi as an ordinary friend. Still looking aimlessly, finally, on a bright day, at the entrance of an alley on Qingrong Road, I asked an old woman who was scavenging and found her eyebrows.

I waited there all morning, but my tutor called me again and again to urge me to go back to school, and the University of Paris gave me a full scholarship, and I wanted to delay, but I had to go back to school, so I had to ask my grandmother to help me tell her.

But when I arrived there again in the evening, I not only finally saw my Xiao Yu again, but also saw my brother who I had never met, Yi Youqian, I recognized him at a glance, he said with a smile and hugged my Xiao Yu, my unattainable Xiao Yu, and left like this.

Champagne-colored Rolls-Royce, remnant sun blood red, something that I will never be able to catch up with after I back down, but it easily burns out my high sky.

"You're gone, I couldn't catch up."

I just realized that I want money, I want wealth and power that can crush everything.

Otherwise, even if I appeared in front of Zhi Siyu, she would go with Yi and Qian as always - so this time, I can't back down.

I'm going crazy.

Lin Yiyi and I came to France together.

When I think of my little depression, I stay in that sea of red and green, as if it was still the bright sunshine many years ago.

Lin Yiyi was surprised why I suddenly changed my major, and I smiled and took a strand of her green silk, and said leisurely: "Only then can I have money." ”

On a moonlit night, she hugged me, we kissed lingeringly, she climbed on top of me, I put her snow-white European sheets, sometimes looking for pleasure in numbness, sometimes kissing her eyebrows, but I just said, "Go to bed early." ”

Then I exited her room.

Because I think of a sentence - the passage to a woman's heart is......

I don't want to think any further, I also feel despicable.

Over and over again, the night was so cold.

In this way, I completely put Lin Yiche into it step by step.

When I returned to China, it was already four years later.

I bought a villa in the bay and drew a curtain as I said.

"Two Hunan concubine curtains embroidered with bamboo leaves with flat gold peacock feather thread."

She changed, and I had to change.

Huguang Zhan's, chasing the auction competition, I watched the infighting of the Zhan brothers, plain clothes, and beautiful presidents.

On the dance floor with Jinghua's best crown and colorful clothes, I surrounded Lin Yiyi's slender waist, she also looked at me with a smile, I looked at the peach-colored figure in the corner, but whispered to Lin Yiyi: "Do I look like Yi Youqian?" ”

She replied, "It's like that, but I only love you." ”

I said: "But I heard that in the eyes of public opinion, the Lin Yi family has always had unwritten rules. ”

She also laughed: "Are you jealous? ”

I just chuckled and heard her say, "I like to watch others break the rules or something." ”

After Lin Yiyi called the secretary to explain a few words, the "click" sound of the camera shutter was hidden in the laughter.

A dance is over.

Zhan Yuche walked towards me, and in the rhythmic dance steps, he smiled: "I originally thought that the Yi family had strong genes and was ruthless, but now it is an amorous species. ”

I said, "Brother Zhan Shi, don't mind, my brother would rather die than cooperate, and he is also trapped by love." ”

He said: "It seems that Mr. Peng and I are like-minded? ”

Wise people don't speak secret words.

But my eyes unconsciously looked at the corner of the dance floor, the peachy figure was trembling, and the "gorgeous dress" was dazzling, and I had a vague guess.

I said, "Brother Shi wants to clean up the portal, and the Yi family wants to deal with the European Lin underworld, how can you not be like-minded?" ”

"What are you going to do?"

I smiled and said, "Of course I want to completely eradicate Lin Yiyi for the Yi family." ”

"Tut, it's really ruthless, but what I want is very simple, Lin Yiyi's six-mang share contract, is it okay?"

Everything went according to expectations, Lin's acquisition of Yi's stalled, and Lin Yiyi planned to cut the grass and eradicate the roots.

That lonely night, I went to see this infatuated brother, and I told him my story.

I finally got Zhi Siyu.

A complete man who is close to the end of the world.

On the night of my wedding, I finally lowered the curtain – but not for so many years.

Where there's a will, there's a way.

I tried my best to please her, I tried to remind her of the old days, but I had completely changed, how could she believe it? Believe I love her?

Or Hunan curtain high roll.

Until I got the share contract in France. Originally, I thought that Liumang Group only had two giants, Zhan Yuche in the Americas and Lin Yiyi in Europe. But there is also an An Xiaoqin-

Zhan Yuche wants to keep An Xiaoqin, and he has to completely eradicate the tumor of Liumang.

Zhan Yuche turned out to be a person who could guard and steal for love.

Lin Yiyi's lawsuit in the Americas became more and more intense, and it was Zhan Yuhao who helped Zhan Yuche along the water.

That's another story.

I wanted to make a final struggle, but Xiao Yu didn't think so—I completely broke with her sincerity.

For seven years, she wrapped herself in beach iron that I couldn't touch.

I also want to be merciful once.

That way, she won't be as cold as I am.

When I was in France, she always breathed a sigh of relief – she was seriously perfunctory. In the fragrant manor, the stars were shining, and I instinctively wanted to kiss her, at that time, I just thought, indulge like this again, she won't believe it anyway, anyway, I will leave, but when she leaned on my shoulder and said that confession, I knew what despair was, that is, the faint hope of the stars in hopelessness.

How much I want to tell her that I love her, that I love her no matter how she is.

I made up my mind, and I just shook her smile and frowned, it's ridiculous, right?

The fantasy of the Xiangfei curtain is that the person you love also loves you.

Until the end, I also vaguely wondered, why do we love someone like this? Love until there is a river of blood and tears, love until hysteria, love until there is no corpse.

The life of ordinary people, support and hand-holding, tea, rice, oil and salt, the past has passed, and the years are quiet.

In the end, I was a little more thorough, maybe she inadvertently awakened the only remaining bit of determination under the ice field in my heart, love is her, she is love.

Coincidentally, that bit of warmth in the desolation was enough to accompany me through my short and long life.

So I'd rather not go through the vicissitudes of life for a lifetime, and I want fireworks to be fixed in her heart.

In this way, they will be together for a lifetime.

Attachment, rolling blinds, this is a sad story, and there is the last sentence in my diary-

"Roll up the time that loves you."