Lake, broken bridge, Xiangshan, the rest is to take her to Xiangshan to pray for blessings, this is every time someone outside the village comes to me to play the highlight, there should be such a sentence here 'don't go to Xiangshan, don't enter the mountain', which means that to the depths of our mountain, you don't go to Xiangshan to pray for blessings, even if it is in vain, so, every time someone comes to play, I will take them to Xiangshan, which has long become a habit of mine.

The wilderness surrounded by green mountains, full of vitality, I took Zhu Yingying all the way to the temple on the top of Xiangshan, I bought some incense from the old woman outside the temple, lit it, inserted it into the incense altar, Zhu Yingying knelt outside the main hall, folded her hands, looked back at me with a smile, and then, spread out her hands, and bowed to the three emperors in the hall, I think, she looked at me because she made a wish to hope that we were together, well, it should be like this.

"Young man, this time it's a different girl," the old woman outside the hall laughed at me.

"Oh, my friend, come to play with me" I had to say this, Zhu Yingying stood up from the ground and her face looked a little red and ugly, in a word, it can be explained, who likes the person he likes has liked others, he has never paid his sincerity to other girls, how much is his sincerity left, is it enough to love me? I think the heart of a cute girl must be so entangled.

This afternoon's time, fulfilling, pleasant, I looked at the delicate Zhu Yingying since she saw me today, she didn't fade the smile on her face, my heart rippled and throbbed, I really wanted to go up and hug her and then affectionately said to her, yes, I will marry you in this life, no longer looking for it, but my reason tells me that I can't do that, I can no longer be like the love with Qingyu, that is, vigorous and make me feel very sloppy at the moment, whether two people can spend their lives together, it depends on another fate, It's really not the two of them who look at each other, you say you can, I say okay can be together, it really doesn't rely on impulse and very courage to get it, the looks really depend on God's meaning, I have some doubts at the moment, should I take her there, broken bridge, Xiangshan and her kite flying, go to the lake to fish, I am now very afraid of causing her misunderstanding, just like today, I really don't have too many words about Zhu Yingying, at best I am a tour guide, take her to swim the mountains and rivers here, but my intuition includes everything that happened today, including the beautiful Zhu Yingying, she is not the right person, and the two of us can't go together.

In the afternoon, although I was entangled but I still pretended to be very happy, I said, let's go and catch the fish basket in the lake, we will definitely harvest a lot of fish and shrimp, she stood behind me and grabbed me at once, said, no, she suddenly looked at the western sky and sighed, as if to say, it is not early, I should go back.

She grabbed my cuffs like that, without any intention of letting go, and she bowed her head with the shyness of a girl and asked me:

"I came all the way to you today, don't you have anything to ask me?"

"Why do you ask when you know in your heart?" I can't bear to break this peace, but I can't escape it after all.

"You know it in your heart, but why don't you say it?"

"I'm sorry, Yingying" I'm a countryman, I don't know when I learned to use the word 'I'm sorry', maybe I owe too many people.

She may think that I said sorry in a tone too sad, she laughed for a day and cried at the end, this needless to say, she has a great grievance in her heart, I can't imagine now, how a girl's family tells her parents that she likes a boy, and she has to ask her father to ask someone to kiss, how much courage does it take to make it, I really can't imagine what makes her so righteous, and we have only met once before, what she likes about me, I really can't tell.

"Yingying, how can I tell you?" To be honest, my brain was really blank at the time, and I scolded myself in my heart, how could I make such a beauty fall in love with him, and I still have to refuse without understanding the amorous feelings, maybe the cruelest thing in the world is nothing more than that.

"Then don't say anything, I'll be gone in a while" When she said this, a thousand words that I had suppressed in my heart poured out.

I called her softly, but she only sobbed quietly and did not answer, and I watched as the sun set as she sat on a smooth stone beside her, shining faintly on her curled figure.

"Yingying, you see, behind us is the Autumn Mountain, the altitude should be about a thousand meters, on our left is the Xiangshan Mountain, famous for the maple trees, to the south is the South Mountain, which almost blocked the way from our village to the town, and to the west is the most barren barren mountain, when we are in this deep mountain, how we yearn for the outside world, envy the wonderfulness of the outside world"

"And what is the essential difference between Heifengkou and Yamane Village, they are both surrounded by barren mountains, and most of the people in it are still dreaming of a round sky, in fact, I want to say to you, from Heifengkou to Yamagen Village, it is just a change of position with the left foot and right foot, just like a person who blindly pursues happiness and does not know that he is standing still, if so, are you still willing to marry?"

"It's not as complicated as you say, as long as you dare to say marry me, I dare to say marry you, it's that simple"

"Hehe, I'm eighteen years old this year, if it weren't for the terrible grades, I think I would be in high school right now, and so would you"

"You're trying to say, I'm naïve, aren't you?"

"No, our naivety is really slowly retreating, and after the age of eighteen we are already adults"

"You come with me, I've begged my father, he will find the town leader to arrange us to work in the town government, we don't count the first step out of the mountain, that's why I came to you over the mountain"

"Miss Yingying, I'm afraid I'm going to live up to your kindness, I'm ......"

"Don't you like me? Right? It's me who did something wrong, I've worked so hard for the two of us to be together, do you still want to be indifferent? ”

"Yingying, I'm a rotten person, it's not worth you to do so much, I'm not as good as you think, I'm just a very ordinary mountain person, I can't give you the life you want, I'm not the right person for you, we can only be regarded as fateful"

"However, I still want to thank you, because you give me a self-confidence and make me feel happy" Just like now when I look back, there is still happiness around me, when I was young, there was a girl who desperately wanted to like me, and even wanted to marry me, which may also be a fulcrum of my self-confidence over the years

"I see, that's one of the reasons why I'm coming to you today"

"I'm sorry," I apologize again.

"Shao Erdan, you will definitely regret it, if you don't believe it, we'll see" Zhu Yingying is this character in the end, she loses face but doesn't lose words.

"I'm leaving, I won't bother you in the future" Zhu Yingying wiped away the two lines of tears on her face, got up from the blue stone, turned around and left.

I followed her until I sent her into the mountain pass into the mouth of the black wind, and I was able to return, to be exact, I came back by stepping on the moonlight over the mountains, but fortunately I did not lose the tiger's mouth in the deep mountains.

Suddenly there is a feeling, we human beings have the nature of pursuing beauty, just like sparing no effort to pursue a beautiful thing, you have gone through a lot of hardships but never tired of it, because you want to get it too much, your desire is too strong, but one day, this beautiful thing suddenly comes to you, and when you reach out to take it, you are afraid, dare not reach out to take it, you are worried that you can't catch it, afraid of breaking, so you choose to hide far away, people are sometimes so entangled, can't help themselves.

And at this point, the story of me and Zhu Yingying is still not over, but I think I rejected her or did the most bastard thing, because, Zhu Yingying committed suicide by drinking pesticides on the night she returned to Heifengkou, fortunately, she did not lose her life in time, because she was too annoyed, too angry, too stupid, and her temperament was too strong, that is, when all the people around her knew that she fell in love with me Shao Erdan, and her father also asked someone to kiss, I failed her true feelings, and rejected her the second time we met, and did not leave her a little thought, When I learned the news, in addition to being shocked and remorseful, I felt that I should be cut by a thousand cuts, and because of me, let this innocent one get so much harm, I deserve to die, even to kill!

Zhu Yingying, this girl who was stupid for me, didn't even have a chance for me to compensate her later, and now I feel uneasy when I think about it, maybe this is the so-called cruelty, she wants me to owe her a lifetime, regret a lifetime, maybe this is also a kind of unforgettable, the person who still stays in your heart after many years, even, a person you can't forget in your life, who can simply say that he just blames himself, and has no love?