(Girls' Literature)

"So now even if you really force me to pay back. I don't have a penny. That's all I have to live. You can take it away at any time......" Xu Hu said, his mouth making a "poof" sound when it came into contact with the cigarette holder. It looks like this puff of smoke. He smoked it with all his might.

I flattened my mouth. Take a breath. "I really didn't mean that." He was forced into debt and was a little nervous. That's why I wonder if I came to him to ask him for money. But the conscience of the field. I didn't mean that at all. Xu Hu looked at me. Then he smiled. "I'll pay it back. Although I have nothing now. But trust me. I'll really pay it back. ”

I nodded. "I believe in you. But there's one more thing I want to tell you....... "My hand slipped." A fork to eat instant noodles in your hand. All of a sudden, it landed in the instant noodle bucket. I took the tissue out of my bag. Scooped the oil-stained fork out of the barrel. Wipe clean.

Xu Huhu looked at me suspiciously. "If you have something to say, just say it. Don't worry about anything. "I threw the paper towel with red oil on it in the trash." That one. It's about Ziying. She was really pregnant a while ago. But you don't believe it. I paused. Because I saw Xu Hu's pupils tighten suddenly. "The child is really yours." I made up my mind to finally say it.

Xu Hu was silent. Ash falling from top of a cigarette. It shook off the back of his hand. But he didn't even realize it. "How is she now?" Xu Hu frowned. The cigarette in his hand had burned a long stretch of ash. He didn't even knock down. I looked at the crumbling soot. It turned out that he was the boss. There are still feelings.

"She knocked the child out. I accompanied her. When I met you in the hospital that day. It's a week before she's had surgery. I went with her for a follow-up. "I took a sip of the soup. I was burned by the rich spicy smell and grinned a little. It seems that Xu Hu likes spicy food. Spicy beef noodles are full of spicy sauce. It's all added to it, too.

I wiped my mouth. Breathe in the fresh air into your mouth. The spicy stimulation didn't make my nerves so sensitive. I was also observing Xu Hu's expression in my heart. I am always afraid that my words will make the person in front of me not calm. After all, it really can't be classified as a normal person now. Both physically and mentally.

The smoke that was burned and almost extinguished was discarded in the trash can by Xu Hu with a wave of his hand. But the embers were not extinguished. I don't know what was lit in the trash can. There was a smell of burning confetti. Xu Hu let out a long "ha". Two hands ran the entire face from chin to forehead. He sniffed.

"I'm sorry for her. It's true. He said lightly. But believe it. I'll definitely make it up to her. He looked at me steadily. Please believe me. "Time stood still again. The environment was silent again. There is only a strange smell floating quietly in the room. And the clock in my heart is in the minute by second. The sound of tick-tock walking. Reminds me that time is ticking.

I looked at Xu Hu's face. It was swollen like a piece of cake with red dates and raisins. Belch. It's also a steamed cake made from black rice. I also remembered being in that abandoned warehouse. Curled up on the ground, it looked like Xu Hu who had just been stripped of the shrimp line. The boss with a panicked face. And the whip I had on my back. Now this time. Although the scar is now largely healed. But now it looks like he's been electrocardiographically induced. It still hurts faintly.

Xu Hu still looked at me steadily. It was as if waiting for my final confirmation. "I believe in you." Although the residual pain in the back is still there. Although Xu Hu and I are basically not friends now. But I still want to believe that he is true. It's like I believe that the stars in the sky can speak. Even if this is a very unlikely event.

Xu Hu was stunned. Then he nodded. "Thank you." He smiled slightly. It was the first time I had seen his face, which had been almost a year-old face, had a vivid color. This smile is like a ray of warm sunshine. It flowed happily on the cheeks.

I still believe that people in this world will get better. It's like happiness after passing through the snowstorm in winter and the wooden fence in spring. It will eventually be the same. "So what's next for you?" I put the instant noodle box in the trash. Continue to ask Xu Hu. He was silent again. Banyu raised his head. "I haven't thought about it yet. But one thing is certain. I have to give you back. And I had to leave a sum of money for my grandmother. ”

He said lightly. His hands were in the pockets of his down jacket. The room was as cold as an ice cellar. I only sat there for a while, and I couldn't help but feel cold in my hands and feet. Live under this environment. For the recovery of his body. Certainly nothing good. It's a healthy environment where people get sick.

"You're in this situation and you have to be hospitalized. Receive formal and systematic treatment. I said seriously. Xu Hu glanced at me. I know I followed him upstairs today. Overheard of his condition. It's not a glorious thing indeed. But God testifies. I really didn't have the slightest malice. I steadied myself. Xu Hu's expression did not change in waves. "I'm sorry. I track you know this. There was no malice at all. Xu Hu nodded slightly. Good. I understand all of this. ”

He said and smacked his scalp. "If you're a detriment. I guess we were stuck inside the warehouse. You will definitely not promise Zou Jialiang to pay to save me. He looked up and gave me a grateful look. I couldn't help but ask another question of my own. "You legs, then."

I pointed to his leg. I was beating the drum in my heart. I was worried about whether it was because Zou Jialiang only took me and the boss away at that time. Leave Xu Hu over there. was discounted by Crystal Crystal for a leg. That's the case. I'm guilty of sin. It would be better to take Xu Hu away regardless of his previous suspicions at that time.

Xu Hu saw my concern. He shook his head. "This is another creditor of mine. He, like Crystal Crystal, is a loan shark. These people are ruthless. When you ask for money, you will do it black. I just got a leg gone. compared to others. I'm kind of better. He laughed "hehe". This kind of self-deprecating explanation. It sounded like it made my heart ache uncontrollably. "Those people are so hateful." I said hatefully. But Xu Hu waved his hand at me again. "Don't say that. At the end of the day, it's my own fault. If I hadn't provoked them. I didn't ask them to borrow money. Give them more than a hundred guts. Don't dare to mess with me. ”

Xu Hu smiled bitterly. "It's only to blame myself for being too lazy and lazy. Actually, when my dad was caught. I just have to adjust my mentality. It's time to start working your own again. As a result for so many years. Not only did I let Ziying suffer so much for me. It also harmed other innocent people. It's all your own sin to think about. So now God has given me this disease. It's also a punishment for me. I can't complain about anything else. ”

I listened to this. I really don't hate him anymore. I actually had a kind of admiration for him in my heart. Really admired. In the eyes of others, the sky is falling. He even said it so lightly. "You know what. At the moment when I received the checklist. There was a sense of relief in my heart. This kind of muddy and nightmare days of my own. I wish it was over soon. It's not. God helped me. Helped me make a decision. suffering from this disease. To this extent. It's all arranged. ”

"But you need treatment too. There is still hope. As long as you insist. Miracles can happen. "I couldn't find the right words to comfort him for a while." I think you have to tell Ziying your reason and your current situation now. I believe Ziying still has feelings for you. The two men encouraged each other to move forward. will be more motivated. "I patted Xu Hu." Please don't give up. I looked at him with burning eyes.

Xu Hu started smoking again. Oh, my God. This addiction to cigarettes is basically the same as that of a person who smokes Fushou cream. He threw his head up at the roof and spat out a heavy eye circle. The thick smoke obscured his face from obscuring his face. "Is it possible?" He looked at me with a smirk. "She's definitely hating me now. Look at my own virtue. I'm a wreck. What more can I give her? I don't even have the qualifications to say that now. Now there are many people who want my life. A stable environment. I can't even give it to her. Not to mention a wonderful future. If Ziying doesn't leave me. Her life will be ruined by me. ”

Xu Hu's words are reasonable. Oh, yes. Looking back. The boss has been following him all these years. It's basically a state of displacement. And now it has caused so much damage to her body and mind. I shook involuntarily.

I haven't been in touch with the boss for a while. Maybe there is no Xu Hu in her heart. Women are sometimes silly and cute. It's almost like a bowl of water that lets you see the bottom. But there are times. It's almost a mystery you'll never be able to guess.

I just nodded helplessly. Xu Hu doesn't love the boss. Or whether the boss loves Xu Hu or not. Now it's as if it was yesterday's yellow flower. Withered in this fucking life. Then go and turn around and look for it. It's all melted into the dirt. Become a piece of grit.