May 14, 2008

At four or five o'clock in the morning, Lu Yinyin couldn't sleep, and vaguely heard that it seemed to be raining outside, and at four o'clock in the morning, when the sky was just a little bright and quiet, the raindrops fell on the trees, fell among the flowers, and fell into the soil, making a rustling sound.

Lu Yinyin opened his eyes widely, thinking back to the life of the secondary school in the past three years, as if he had hurriedly completed a course of life in an instant, and then hurriedly embarked on a new journey, meeting people of all shapes and shapes along the way, they accompanied you for a while in a certain period of your life, and then hurriedly turned around, each running towards the journey of their own life.

Lu Yinyin remembered a passage in Zhu Ziqing's "Hurry":

"The swallow has gone, and there is a time to come again.

The willows are withered, and there is a time when they are green again.

The peach blossoms are gone, and there is a time to bloom again.

But, wise one, tell me, why are our days gone?

Did someone steal them? Who's that? Where is it hidden?

Did they flee on their own?

Where is it now? “

Those distant times slipped away in a hurry and there was no return, no one will always accompany you, life is a single-handedly battle against the world, in this rainy night, Lu Yinyin was defenseless or thinking about everything about Lin Mo Nian, I don't know what year it will be when I will see you again in the future, provided that they are all in the secret city in the future, there will be the possibility of meeting.

And who knows what will happen in the future, the torn off workbook is like a sharp sword, deeply pierced into Lu Yinyin's heart, it is difficult to retract the water and break the mirror, and it must be put down.

After tossing and turning for a long time, the sky began to light up slowly, and Lu Yinyin, who could no longer sleep, simply got up and began to get dressed, ready to get out of bed and pack her luggage, but when she was climbing down from the top bunk, she was horrified to see Zhong Yanan sitting on the bed, and by the faint light of the early morning, she wrote something on the wall very seriously, and she didn't feel it when Lu Yinyin shook the bed.

Lu Yinyin didn't plan to call Zhong Yanan, but stood by the bed with some curiosity and looked at the wall, it turned out to be the lyrics of "What to Leave for You" sung by Sun Nan that Zhong Yanan had been listening to recently.

"Leave you that day and leave a few words for you

If the heart is like a tidal dream, if the embankment breaks, love will let it go

A happy ending is unattainable after all

Feelings need to rest, wandering requires courage, and I don't want you

A question that I didn't dare to touch for a long time

Every time it appeared on a windy night

It makes me, who doesn't care much about loneliness, so sad that I want to cry

Love begins beautifully and ends with no reason

It's a shame to think about

Maybe I should spend more time with you, and I should be considerate of your hesitant emotions

But the uncertain trajectory of my unparked luggage

Where will tomorrow be

And what else can I leave for you?"

Lu Yinyin pretended not to see anything, silently picked up the basin and went to the washing room, as if everyone has a way to pay tribute to their distant youth, such as tearing paper from her own house last night, such as Zhong Yanan's behavior of writing on the wall, and for example, her behavior of not going to class well on May Day and folding 521 stars, these are all marks exclusive to youth.

When she lowered her head and washed her face, Lu Yinyin habitually touched the four-leaf clover around her neck, this was Lin Monian's nineteenth birthday gift, and it was also the time Lin Monian kissed her, and since then, they have slowly become strangers.

The only thing she can leave to Lin Mo is the lucky star full of a jar full of her girl's heart, that is a star with secrets and stories, the hero of the story doesn't know how many years later, maybe he will never know these little secrets.

After Lu Yinyin returned to the dormitory, Zhong Yanan was also fully dressed. was about to go to wash, but when he saw Lu Yinyin who pushed the door in, he asked in surprise, "Little Sister Lu, when did you get up?" It's like a corpse, silently, I didn't hear when you got out of bed. ”

Lu Yinyin replied, "I was also surprised that when I climbed down from the top bunk, I saw someone sitting on the bed like a corpse, and I don't know what to write on the wall. ”

Zhong Yanan said indifferently, "Cut, Lu Xiaomei, this can't scare me, after the exam on May 18th, we will say goodbye here forever, who still has time to manage the dormitory aunt." ”

At this time, Qi Xiaofei, who was used to getting up early, also got up when he heard Zhong Yanan and Lu Yinyin talking, and said, "You two are cheating corpses today, why did you get up so early." ”

Lu Yinyin replied, "You finished the exam on the evening of the 18th, how to arrange it?" ”

Qi Xiaofei said, "Didn't the school say that it prepared a sumptuous dinner for us, and the meal tickets were all distributed, so let's have a casual meal together." ”

Zhong Yanan also said, "Yes, after eating this casual meal, I don't know when the next time we will get together again." ”

Lu Yinyin was a little embarrassed to disturb their interest and slowly said, "I won't eat that casual meal, my dad happened to have a birthday that day, and after I came back from the exam, my dad came to pick me up directly, so I have already packed my luggage, I'm sorry, there are still many opportunities to get together in the future." ”

Qi Xiaofei and Zhong Yanan heard that Lu Yinyin and her father had a birthday, and they couldn't continue to keep her, so they had to say that it was okay, it was okay, I wish my uncle a happy birthday, and then the two of them were busy with their own lives.

It's just that they didn't know that Lu Yinyin didn't even eat a meal, it wasn't that Lu Yinyin and her father really had a birthday, but for another reason, Lu Yinyin was preparing to be a shrinking turtle, she was afraid of hearing Lin Mo Nian's answer, so she had to make thirty-six plans and go as the best plan.

After Qi Xiaofei came back from washing, Lu Yinyin put a duffel bag on her bed and said, "Xiao Feifei, please take it for me later, it's raining outside, I want to go see the cherry blossom rain, please." ”

Qi Xiaofei said, "Then don't forget to bring an umbrella, remember to have some breakfast after reading, gather in front of Ziqiang Building at eight o'clock, I will be waiting for you there." ”

Lu Yinyin walked outside with his schoolbag on his back, and replied, "I know, I know, Aunt Qi, it's really heartbreaking on me." ”

Qi Xiaofei looked at Lu Yinyin who was walking out, and said with a smile, "Look at your heartless little sample, it's good to know, go quickly." ”

Lu Yinyin, who was relaxed a second ago, felt very heavy in his heart after walking out of the dormitory, especially when he walked on the waterlogged campus, and saw the rows of cherry blossom trees next to the basketball court from a distance.

In response to the verses in Meng Haoran's poem "The sound of wind and rain comes at night, how many flowers fall", the rain is still dripping, and when Lu Yinyin, who is holding an umbrella, approaches, he sees the petals that are blown by the wind.

It's just goodbye, my lovely cherry blossoms, Lu Yinyin said silently in his heart, if farewell also needs a sense of ceremony, then at this moment, the cherry blossom petals dancing in the wind are the saddest swan song before farewell.

Lu Yinyin leaned the umbrella on his shoulder, stood under the cherry blossom tree for a long time, and only after looking at the time that it was almost half past seven, did he walk towards the front of the Ziqiang Building.

Qi Xiaofei was already waiting there, and asked Lu Yinyin if he had eaten, Lu Yinyin said, "I don't want to eat, I don't have a taste, you know, I've been motion sickness, and I'll have to sit in the car for three or four hours later, it's good if I don't vomit, I can't eat, I will definitely vomit when I eat." ”

Qi Xiaofei said, "Then don't eat it, it's uncomfortable to get motion sickness, and it's even more uncomfortable to vomit again." ”

The two of them stood on the steps in front of the Ziqiang Building and talked, and Lu Yinyin asked, "Why didn't you see Zhong Yanan, she is still in the dormitory?" ”

Qi Xiaofei suddenly saw something, poked Lu Yinyin with his hand, and Nunu said, "No, she won't come, I called Lin Mo Nian in the dormitory just now, and said that I asked Lin Mo Nian to get her luggage."

Lu Yinyin looked in the direction pointed by Qi Xiaofei, and sure enough, she saw Zhong Yanan, who was talking and laughing, and looked at Lin Mo Nian, who was carrying a duffel bag side by side with her, walking forward together, the two of them walked together, eye-catching and harmonious.

Lu Yinyin lowered his head, making people unable to see his thoughts, and said to Qi Xiaofei, "Feifei, I'll go to the classroom and come down immediately, I will definitely not be able to delay the gathering." ”

Qi Xiaofei heard that Lu Yinyin was suddenly going to the classroom again, and then looked at her calm appearance, trying to maintain her composure, so he said, "You little fart child has a lot of things, go quickly, go quickly." ”

Lu Yinyin ran away in a hurry, not daring to take another look behind her, her heart was extremely painful, not as good as Lin Mo Nian and any other girl standing together, the visual impact on her was unprepared, she couldn't afford to love it, and she couldn't afford to love it, and she couldn't tolerate a grain of sand in her eyes, so Lu Yinyin could only flee in embarrassment.

After arriving at the classroom, Lu Yinyin miraculously met He Kun, He Kun said thoughtlessly, "Lu Xiaopang, why did you run up?" ”

Lu Yinyin asked rhetorically, "Then why did you come up, can you come, but can't I come?" ”

He Kun pouted and said, "You little kid always talk like lifting a bar, I just want to take advantage of the fact that the classroom door is not locked, and come up to see this place where we used to work together, work together, and fight for our dreams together." ”

When Lu Yinyin heard He Kun say this, all the sadness in his heart suddenly flooded, but he still said with a hippie smile, "Okay, don't be sensational, although I think so too, hahahaha." ”

Lu Yinyin and He Kun walked around their respective classrooms, and after a while, He Kun came over and shouted, "Lu Xiaopang, let's go, gather downstairs." ”

Lu Yinyin agreed, and took one last look at her seat, as well as the position next to Lin Mo Nian would often sit, he often sat there with his head down, patiently telling himself every problem she encountered, but Lin Mo Nian would never be able to solve the problem in her heart.

It's just that everything is goodbye, goodbye, that love that ended without a problem, goodbye, that heart-pounding meeting, goodbye, that unrequited love that only belongs to Lu Yinyin alone.

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye!

After Lu Yinyin and He Kun walked downstairs, the teacher had already begun to take the roll call, and then the mechanical and electrical class walked to the bus one after another, Lin Mo Nian had no chance to say a word to Lu Yinyin from beginning to end, so he could only watch Lu Yinyin get into the car with a little depressed.