I didn't tell him because I was afraid that he would not be able to forgive himself even more, I think, for him, even if he is not a brother, over the years, he has also regarded him as a brother and told him what Yushi Chengge did, what should he do with him? Is it on my side and killing him to avenge me? Or pretend that nothing happened and make me forgive the past? Either way, I have already suffered the loss of my mother, and it is only another injury to him.

Rain Master Chengge will never understand my conflicting feelings for Boduange.

I want him to die, but I don't want him to hurt.

"When you're done," he said, "tell me when you're done, and by the way, preferably while you still have a life to tell me, because I'm not sure what I'm going to do to kill you." ”

I mumbled, "I'll figure it out as soon as I can." ”

He stopped, "Do you really have the heart to take a knife and slash it on Boduange's heart?" ”

"Why can't I?"

"You may not know that it was I who told him not to go near the frozen Haizi, because the ice chips had already broken at that time, and if one more person went up, it would only crack faster, so there was no need for you to hate him for not saving you."

"yes, I know." I don't remember at all.

"It's you who want to die, and it has nothing to do with us."

"Nothing to do with you? Didn't you cornered me? ”

"If you have to say that, then everyone around you is a murderer."

"Thank you for the reminder, I'll get them back one by one."

"Boduan Ge doesn't owe you anything, you remember."

"He owes me his life."

"Then he has already returned it to you. He looked for you for ten hours under the frozen sea, I have never been in such cold water, but I am the yin physique, after all, it is no problem to go into the water, he soaked in the water for ten hours, suffered from the cold, the blood is about to freeze, after dragging you up, he held your corpse and did not let go, and did not let me take it, since then, every time it is cloudy and autumn, or when it is rainy and rainy, he will cough non-stop, this cold disease, unless it is the end of his life, can not be stopped. ”

I sat down on the chessboard, and I tried to pick it up, but my fingers were so shaky that I couldn't pick it up.

Ban Yan said dryly: "What are you doing with me?" It is he who insists on going his own way and asking for his own hardships. ”

"Is your heart made of stone?"

"Whatever you say, I won't be soft on him."

"Either let him go and leave the Southern Wei Dynasty, or stay with him with peace of mind and let him have a few years of peaceful life, isn't it?"

"Oh no, why is he happy?"

"Actually, you've been feeling sorry for him for a long time, haven't you?" He asked me.

I don't know whether to say it to myself, or deliberately emphasize to him, "I don't, I will never forgive him, not in this life, I can only use him, I don't feel sorry for him, and he will never want to get a mercy or two from me." ”

"Okay, remember your words."

Ming Yin opened the door, and outside the door was His Majesty's pale face, and the rain master turned around and smiled at me, I am afraid that he had already known when he was at the door, and let him listen to my sharp words.

As for what is not good for him, he is shrewd and vicious, and will not let His Majesty hear a word.

The rain master saluted His Majesty with a song and left, and I squatted on the ground to pick up the chess pieces, and the ground was full of black and white.

"Can you pick it up alone?"

"Hmm." I said.

"I'll pick it up for you."

"Hmm."

"Does the wound on your face still hurt today?"

"Hmm."

"Did I change your dressing yesterday and apply less of it?"

"Hmm."

"Is there only one word?"

We were both crouching on the ground, and I looked at him, "Hmm. ”

I don't know what to say to him, or what is going on in his mind at the moment.

"What arrogant thinks in his heart is not the same as what he says, right?"

I didn't say yes.

"Do you believe I know yourself better than you do?"

Of course I don't believe it, no one knows me better than myself, not even my brother, who doesn't dare to say that he is a roundworm in my stomach.

"You saw me outside and hid my eyes, why?"

Seeing that I did not answer, he said, "Because you are lying, and I have heard you, and you are afraid that I will be upset, and you will blame yourself in your heart." ”

"I didn't!" I flatly deny it.

"You're seeing through to me now, so you want to cover it up."

"It's not!"

"You want to grab a lot of pieces because you're a little flustered right now."

As he spoke, I had grabbed a handful of black and white chess pieces scattered on the ground.

I stared blankly at the pieces in my hand.

He knew me so well that he could even predict what I was going to do next.

I put the pieces down, "I'm not going to apologize." ”

"I know."