I'm Kanazawa, and I'm also the left eye.

Kanazawa said my heart to my throat with a single sentence, and I felt that he was very wrong today, a little weird.

I pinched my baton and said to him, "You come out, are you Kanazawa?" ”

That's right, at this moment, I suddenly wondered if this person was Kanazawa, because with Kanazawa's sunny image, he shouldn't have been able to do such a thing, and Kanazawa wouldn't have run under the bed in my dormitory to scare me for some reason.

Not to mention that I didn't see his face, he was wearing a mask, and the human voice could be imitated.

I suspect that this man had been hiding under my bed to try something wrong, but his phone rang and woke me up, so he wanted to pretend to be Kanazawa and then slip away.

And his next move made me more and more suspicious, he did not crawl out from under the bed, but said to me: "Chen Mu, you come in." ”

He told me to go under the bed, but of course I refused, so I pointed my baton at him and said, "If you don't come out, I'll call for someone to arrest you." ”

As soon as I finished speaking, he suddenly reached out and removed the mask from his face, and then turned his head slightly to look at me.

I saw his angular and resolute face, and the light shone along the bottom of the bed on his face, making him look more and more handsome, especially the side of the face.

"Uh, Kanazawa, you, what are you doing under my bed?" I couldn't help but ask him, and at the same time breathed a sigh of relief.

Kanazawa said in a very hard tone, "Come in." ”

Then I obediently crawled under the bed, for I wondered what secret I might have under the bed, and Kanazawa wanted me to see.

But when I climbed in, I found that everything was normal under the bed, and there wasn't an eye embedded in it, or a bugging device or anything like that.

I turned my head to look at Kanazawa in confusion, and Kanazawa was lying quietly on the floor with his head in his hands, looking at my bed board in a daze.

I knew Kanazawa must not be in a good mood right now, so I didn't press him, and I just followed him, lying on the ground, lying next to him, and I could even hear his heartbeat, as if we were lying leisurely on the beach, soaking up the sun. But instead of sunshine, we're bathed in darkness.

Suddenly, Kanazawa opened his mouth and said to me, "Chen Mu, remember what I said to you. We can't choose the past, but we can choose the future. There is only a thin line between angels and demons, and it depends on how we choose. ”

I nodded at Kanazawa, and then I had a bad premonition in my heart, Kanazawa suddenly told me this, am I sick again, sleepwalking and doing bad things? He was watching me when he hid under my bed?

But soon Kanazawa continued to say to me: "Chen Mu, everyone has a devil living in their hearts, it depends on whether we can suppress him, I came to you today to ask you to help me suppress the devil in my heart." ”

After listening to Kanazawa's words, I was stunned, and my heart said Do you want to lie on Kanazawa's body and press him?

But I quickly dispelled this obscene thought, Kanazawa must have some deeper meaning, so I said directly to Kanazawa: "If you have anything to do with me, just say it." ”

Kanazawa said directly: "I'll tell you a story first." ”

I nodded, and Kanazawa continued, "There used to be a bunch of children living in the orphanage, and every once in a while someone would come and adopt them. And each of these children has a different personality, some are withdrawn, some are naturally cheerful, and of course there are also cold on the outside and hot on the inside, so different people have different natures. One of the children is the first type, he is more withdrawn, does not like to communicate with people, and has little playmates. But then he made a friend, the only friend, and a hole opened up in his withdrawn heart. But half a month after he made this friend, this opening in his heart was quickly closed again, and his only friend was about to be adopted. ”

Hearing this, I suspected that the withdrawn child in Kanazawa's mouth was himself, but I didn't ask him, but just listened to him continue.

Then Kanazawa went on to say to me: "This kid really doesn't want to lose this friend of his, he's afraid of being a lonely kid who no one cares about, but there's nothing he can do. And the day before his only friend was about to be adopted, he did what would be a nightmare for him for the rest of his life. ”

I followed Kanazawa's words, and my heart hung in my throat.

Kanazawa continued, "The kid tricked his only friend into the grove of the orphanage, where there was a sand pile. He lied to his friend about playing a game and buried his friend in the sand, and he wanted to kill his friend so he could stay here forever. ”

Hearing this, my heart suddenly trembled, firstly, I was frightened by this child's cruelty, and secondly, I was thinking that this kid could not be Kanazawa's, Kanazawa would not do such a thing.

Kanazawa continued: "But in the end he relented, and he didn't bury the friend, he just gouged out the friend's left eye with handmade scissors, because as long as the friend lost his left eye, he would never be adopted again......"

Then I couldn't help but ask Kanazawa, "What about later, do you know that child?" Something to do with this case? ”

Kanazawa suddenly turned to look at me and said, "That kid is the left eye, and the left eye is me." ”

When I heard this, my left eye hurt violently, as if it had been gouged out in an instant.

I hurriedly said to Kanazawa, "Huh? And what about later? ”

Kanazawa continued: "Then I was sent to psychotherapy for a whole month, and when I came back, the child who had my left eye gouged out has been adopted, but not the previous one, but another, and I have been checking it since then, but I have never found him. As for me, after the psychotherapy, I became more cheerful, and in order to remember this lesson of myself, I always reminded myself, so I nicknamed myself the left eye, and everyone called me the left eye. Later, I gradually integrated into the group of the orphanage and made real friends. Later, the incident of me gouging out someone's left eye was also forgotten by everyone, but it was a pain for my whole life. ”

After listening to Kanazawa's words, I hurriedly said to him, "Everyone has an unbearable past, and besides, you were still very young at that time, so you don't have to blame yourself too much." ”

After saying that, I suddenly realized something, so I hurriedly asked Kanazawa: "I found a photo of your orphanage before, there is a photo of you and Haohao, that Haohao is Fang Lin, you should know, why don't you keep saying it?" ”

Jin Ze sighed and said, "This is my inner demon, Chen Mu, do you know, I blinded that friend's left eye, he was not adopted, and the family re-adopted a child, and that child is Hao Hao, that is, Fang Lin, who was later transgendered!" ”

Listening to Kanazawa's words, I was shocked for a while, and then I kind of understood why Kanazawa didn't say it all the time, and I didn't dare to face it, in a sense, this is like the butterfly effect, Kanazawa because of a perverted behavior in his childhood, directly created the tragic lives of two people.

But I can't blame him, after all, everyone has had a haze, so I patted Kanazawa on the shoulder and said to him: "Kanazawa, you don't have to think too much, although things started because of you, but as you said, everyone has a past, and the focus is on how we choose the future, and your future is enough to make up for your mistakes, you have caught so many bad people." ”

Kanazawa suddenly seemed to get a little excited, and he suddenly put on the clown mask again, and said to me, "No, but I'm not him." Chen Mu, do you know, I have the same problem as you. In fact, I don't remember anything about this perverted eye-gouging incident in my childhood. My real memory is that night I hid in my bed alone, cried all night under the covers, cried and cried, and fell asleep. But when I woke up the next day, I was arrested by the director and said that I had gouged out my friend's left eye. ”

I was stunned, and I said that Kanazawa couldn't do such a thing, so I hurriedly asked him, "Is someone blaming you?" ”

Kanazawa shook his head and said, "I want to answer yes too, but the orphanage is monitored, and I was filmed coming out of the sand with scissors, so I had to admit it myself and go to psychotherapy, and they said that I had intermittent split personality." And this is one of the reasons why I have always wanted to help you, not only to help you, but also to help myself, because we are helpless in this situation, more confused than ordinary criminals. ”

Listening to Kanazawa's words, I opened my mouth wide and couldn't speak for a long time, I didn't expect Kanazawa to have such a strange experience, he had a split personality when he was very young, and it was just that once, and it never happened again.

I said to Kanazawa, "It's okay, it's all over, don't think about it." ”

But after saying that, I feel that things don't seem to be so simple, since Kanazawa doesn't have that eye-gouging impression at all, and suddenly has a split personality, just like me, will all this have any connection?

Just as I was thinking about it, Kanazawa suddenly said to me, "I once thought that the past had been sealed in the dust, and the haze in my heart had long been swept away, but now it seems that someone wants to uncover that past." Chen Mu, I actually quietly followed you to the scene before. Bao Dafa's body was buried in the grave, and Huang Feifei's left eye was gouged out, which is exactly the same as my haze, which is obviously aimed at me. Do you know one of Bao Dafa's identities, he is the sponsor of that orphanage? ”