(Girls' Literature)

"Xu Hu. You're really misunderstanding me. And you also misunderstood Ziying. I don't really mean to read your jokes. I walked up to him. Trying to explain. He coughed violently again.

Hi. To say that his body is simply a dangerous building that is about to collapse. It feels more like an authentic tunnel that extends in all directions. I saw that he was coughing badly. I quickly took out a tissue from my bag and put it in his hand. "Here you go. Rub it off. ”

Xu Hu didn't look at me. But he reached for the tissue. Does this gesture indicate that he is not so resistant to me? This cough was more menacing than the previous ones. Xu Hu was coughing. The fist of his right hand kept pounding on his chest. There was just a tea stand on the side of the road. I ran over there and bought him a warm bottle of water.

"Ahh Drink a little. I looked at him worriedly. But this time, Xu Hu raised his head and looked at me incredulously. He didn't reach out and take the water. Instead, with a wave of his palm, he pushed the water back in front of me. "You go away. Don't pretend. His tone was rather cold.

"You don't know how happy you are right now. Obviously, I wish I was unlucky. Now it's a wish. Isn't it fun to pretend like this? ”

I took a deep breath. sat beside him. Xu Hu deliberately moved to the side. I knew he was trying to keep the right distance from me. Maybe he still hasn't let down his guard for me. He always thinks I'm good to him. There are some ulterior motives.

"Why do you think that? You are Xu Hu. I'm Ai Xiaoya. The joy of fish is not fish. I looked at him with a smile. You're not me. How can you tell what I think. His face again showed an expression of "empty window". Then he took out a cigarette case from his pocket. I recognize the brand of the cigarette. It's a dick smoke. Basically, it's five dollars a box.

I reached out and snatched the box over. Xu Hu didn't expect me to make this move. He looked at me dumbfounded. It's a little unclear. "You are a patient now. Can't smoke. This is not good for the body. ”

I said and put the cigarette case in my pocket. "I'll keep it for you first." Xu Hu's expression was as if he had seen a creature that had been extinct since ancient times. "How do you know I'm sick." He was a little surprised. I laughed. There was no answer. But in the next second, his tone immediately changed. Somewhat excited. And some anger.

"You're sick. Your whole family is sick. What nerves to make. Give me back the cigarettes. He held out his hand to me. I looked at his hand. Took out a white rabbit's toffee from his pocket. It was in his hands. "Ahh Don't smoke anymore. Shall I ask you to eat sugar. ”

The expression on Xu Hu's face was really treacherous. He looked at the toffee lying in the palm of his hand. Throw it out a long way at once. This time the emotions were too excited. I saw his beaten high, swollen cheeks and the saliva that involuntarily showed at the corners of his mouth.

"Ai Xiaoya. I just warned you. Stay away from me. When you heard that, you didn't give me back the cigarettes. There was already a slight hysteria in Xu Hu's voice. He violently slammed his hair with the palms of both hands. For a moment, his hair was like a bird's nest. Heaped on his head. And there is also that white dandruff on the hair strands.

The panic factor began to come alive in my heart. It was as if a catalyst had been added all at once. I looked at Xu Hu, who was close to collapse. His back began to rise and fall again. The two hands were clasped back on their faces. Keep your head down. As if wheezing. It's like crying, too. In short, from the sound of air flowing from his nasal cavity, it is clear that his current mood is really bad. And I just sat quietly next to him. Look at him quietly.

After a few moments, he looked up. The whole face is because I was just bowing my head. Blood flows backwards into the brain. So the face is flushed. He sniffed heavily. "How do you know?" He turned to look at me. I just have to tell the truth. "Actually, I saw you in the hospital just now. At the time of your registration. I heard you were in the oncology department. So I'll follow you upstairs. Heard outside the door of the examination room. ”

I looked at him a little timidly. I'm afraid he'll be angry with me for snooping on his secrets.

But he didn't get as angry as I thought he would. He just asked me like a wooden man. "Why are you following me? Do you want to figure out how down I am now? Is it better to go back and tell Guo Ziying this great news? He smiled self-deprecatingly.

"I'm going to say I'm not. Would you believe it. "My gaze was unusually determined on him." I really didn't mean that. Believe it or not it's all up to you. I'm just worried about you. ”

If Xu Hu's expression just now was as if he had seen a creature that had become extinct in ancient times. So what he saw now was probably a fake savage. He looked me up and down. "You." He held out his index finger and pointed at my nose. Then he aimed the index finger between his nose. "Worry about me."

I nodded. "Yes." Xu Hu leaned back and laughed. "Huh. Ai Xiaoya. Do you think my head is full of mush? Do you think I'm going to believe your? You want to skin me right now. Be. I didn't live with you before. But is it necessary for you to be so hypocritical now? ”

I buckled my lower and lower teeth hard. I don't know how to answer. Since he didn't believe what I said. Then I just kept silent. Xu Hu put away his heartless smile. He turned his head straight ahead again. Silence ensued. There was a long silence. Suffocating silence. Spread all around us.

It's all around. It seems that Xu Hu's diagnosis is in silent mourning. After a while. Xu Hu slowly turned his head around. Asked leisurely. "Do you still have toffee?" I was amazed to hear it. However, he still took out the only two pieces of toffee from his pocket. It was all in his hands. "Come on. It's all for you to eat. I said happily. How did this guy's attitude change so quickly?

Xu Hu pinched one from the palm of my hand. The remaining one was left to me. He peeled off the candy wrapper and stuffed it in his mouth. I peeled off my own, too. When the taste buds on the tongue come into contact with the toffee for a moment. The rich fragrance spreads on the tip of the tongue. I suddenly felt in a good mood. Sweets can sometimes bring a certain amount of pleasure.

Xu Hu's mouth was now chewing on toffee. It's going to be a bit of a stretch. He put the toffee in his mouth and melted it quietly. "I grew to 21. Until these two months. I'm learning something. They were all stupid before. Hehe. He smiled wryly. I didn't speak. I listened to him quietly.

"I used to think I was the best. Awesome. There's nothing my dad can't do. What a human favor is as thin as paper. When people walk away from tea, it will be cold. I never thought so. Unexpectedly, these two months were the time when I experienced these two sentences the most. I even understood the meaning of these two sentences perfectly. ”

Xu Hu looked at me with a smile. This image of a blue nose and swollen face. With a smile on his face, he looks scary and eerie. "No one is going to be nice to you for no reason. Not really. The only thing that is good to you in this world is your parents. But now none of them are anymore. I only have a gray-haired grandmother. This old man is my only relative. ”

A cute little boy rode past us on a brand new bike. I nodded at Xu Hu. He continued. "It turns out that whenever people are down. Everyone else is falling down and everyone is pushing. Broken drums and 10,000 pounds. Even if you bow your head to life. Or will you be hit into the dirt. Or even hell. He took a puff. He chewed vigorously on the toffee in his mouth. Swallow the toffee in three or two clicks. Seeing him so hard, I don't know if his cheeks will hurt.

I opened my mouth with some hesitation. "Actually, I'm about the same as you." He looked up at me. The light in his eyes seemed to be projected from the eyes of an eagle. "What did you say?" He asked. "What do you mean to be the same as me." I played with his candy wrapper in my hand. Close your mouth. A cloud of gas gushed out of his nasal cavity. "My dad also passed away this year. It's only been three months. So I can understand how you feel. ”

Xu Hu's eyes changed too quickly. So much so that I always felt as if there was a catalyst in his eyes. I still smiled at him. "Xu Hu. I'm really not here to ask you for money. It's really not here to see your jokes. I'm just worried about you. Yes before we were friends with each other. I'm worried about you. ”

I think I must be more sincere in what I said. I also hope that Xu Hu can sense that I don't have any malice and bad intentions. Xu Hu did not reply. But the expression on his face has completely softened. He patted his ass and stood up.

I don't know why. Damn, no. I think it's a more sincere sentence. Did you still tell people to leave? Wipe. That's it. Or is it wrong for the aura of the two of us?

Xu Hu, the master, just walked forward without stopping. . It seems that this guy is really ready to leave like this. My heart is bleeding. In dripping blood. Fortunately, he didn't have to take a few steps to stop again. Ups and downs. It took him two shakes to gradually balance. He turned. Still swollen like bread, he said to me. "What are you doing sitting there? Get up and go. I'm going to be home soon. ”