The moment I slowly closed my eyes, there was only one sentence left in my ears, and I once said to him sincerely, "It's great that you're still standing in front of me." ”

Endless remorse poured into my mouth and nose along with the cold and biting water around me, the cold gradually filled all my senses, I hugged the urn, hoping to give me a trace of warmth, but no, I felt, except for the cold, only fear.

I trusted them so much that I was powerless to resist them when they raised their swords against me.

I died at the dawn of the new year, on the first day of January.

A little palace maid in Heyi Hall told me that if a person's mind is full of unhappy past events before he dies, he will become a poor worm who will never know happiness in the next life.

I thought, I can't be a pitiful worm in the next life, I want to laugh, I want to forget all the sorrows, I want to forget all of them, I want to forget Jimo Yi holding a dagger to my throat, I can't forget Zhu Dong's merciless threat, I can't forget His Highness's blind eye, I want to forget the cruel sword that Master Yushi Chengge gave me, and I also want to forget Yuwen Zhonghong's deception from beginning to end.

I don't know if the fate of the world is destined to be a catastrophe.

All my encounters ended up being one joke after another.

I thought they were in the game, and I was the only one outside, and I thought I could see it clearly, but in the end, I realized that everyone had made a choice in this lore, but I couldn't choose anything.

They all say they like me, but I'm so confused, is it hurt to really like me? If you like it, you should hug it tightly, and it hurts madly, which is not right.

I've never understood the rules of this game.

But they understand that those who want rights will do everything to pursue rights, those who want freedom will give up everything to find freedom, and those who want to give up their lives for glory must also move forward.

I died on the lost Haizi, and the people said that the Haizi of the grassland was Tengger's child, so it seems that after I died, I should be able to go to Tengger and ask him why he did this to me.

I have never been afraid of life and death, all I care about is the people I want to protect, even if I die, I want to protect them.

But, why, I still lost everything.

Will I meet them again next time?

If Tengger bless me, I hope I don't meet any of them in the middle of nowhere.

I can't forgive them, and I can't forgive myself.

I really want to see my brother and mother again, even if it's just a glance, and I'm willing to suffer the pain of ten thousand arrows piercing my heart.

But will I really see them when I die?

I remembered what my mother had said to me before she died, she told me to flee immediately and go to my brother, and I ran all the way to the corpses of the three thousand Southern Wei soldiers, and finally found my brother's body, my brother, the protector general of the Southern Wei Dynasty, died on his battlefield.

He didn't know that his sister was holding his corpse and crying until dawn, almost crying bloody tears.

That night, my tears were dried again and again by the mourning winds of the battlefield, which seemed to be the cry of the souls of dead soldiers, and my cries were mixed with the sound of the wind, hovering over the three thousand corpses.

I carried my brother's corpse on my back and walked away step by step on the corpses all over the ground.

They fought for the Southern Wei Dynasty, and their death in battle was their supreme glory, and it was also the glory of my brother, who defended the last shred of face of the Southern Wei royal family with his life.

He would never have thought that a few years later, a sentence in the history books would lead 3,000 soldiers to surrender to the enemy as prisoners, be buried alive and die, and outside Shannan Pass, he would not be able to see the sky. With just this sentence, these three thousand loyal soldiers were sent to a place of no return. I can't believe it, the history books will also slander Zhongliang.

They have no name for the ages, only after death, leaving a temporary infamy, between heaven and earth, who will guard their faith!

This year's winter was so cold that I lay under the sea of disgrace, and I saw the ice above me getting farther and farther away.

I've lost everything, but I don't know where to look.

I threw my head back into the cold ice of Haizi, and the bottom was said to be a deep abyss, I didn't believe it, but I could see the bottom of the water when Haizi dried up.

I laughed, tears melted in the water, and I couldn't tell whether they were cold or hot.

It seems to be a hundred years, the time when I sink, I think I am joking, I want to die immediately, so I hate the time of sinking for too long.

I remember before sinking.

There was Boduang by the sea, and I walked towards the depths of the sea, and I walked farther and farther on the frozen water, and he called out my name, and every word trembled, and I was not allowed to move any more.

I was obedient and stood still.

In fact, I think that they are really hypocritical and fulfill each other, if he doesn't stop him, he won't come to me, and I am not as good as a grass on the grassland.

I turned around and called out to him, "Boduang." ”

He didn't dare to come.

I looked up and put tears in my eyes, "I don't have anything left." ”

I hugged my brother's ashes and screamed, "You've been lying to me all along, I'm a ...... An ant is even tiny, what is worth teasing you about? ”

"It's not! No! Not ......"

He would only repeat it, and I had heard enough of his lies, and I used to trust him so much.

He said let me live in his house, he was an idle prince, I was his concubine, I was the only one, I believed him, I actually, maybe I liked him for a long time, but I didn't want to admit it, I was afraid that he would look down on me, and he humiliated him in every way for the rain master to sing songs, and then I really cared about him, but I didn't dare to speak.

He is a skilled person, and if he wants to hold the world in his hands, it should be just around the corner.

I really hope that he will get what he wants, "You will get everything you want, but I will never meet you again, and I will never forgive you again." ”

I resolutely turned my head and walked towards the center of the sea, the thin ice cracking under my feet, opening up like petals, and I waited for my fate in the center of the stamen.

I turned my back and didn't dare to look at him, in fact, I was expecting, ridiculously expecting, expecting him to come to me and put down life and death to save me.

My bearing is too small, there is no country in my eyes, only my home, and when my home is gone, I quickly wither and become a flower without roots.

My brother and Boduange are generous, what they want to protect is the country, and what they want to rob is also the country.

One wants to rob, the other wants to protect, they are all fighting with their lives, I should have known that there must be death, and the loser has no life, it is my pathetic trust that has forced me to have no way out.

I have no country and no home.

Without my brother, without my mother, without my friends, who deceived me and lied to me, hurt me and hurt me, the people I cared about didn't show me the truth, they were the lies he made up with all his heart.

In this world, I don't have anything to be nostalgic for, I can't change anything, so I have to give up everything, including my life.

My brother always said that I was a little family, I was martyred with my life, I was martyred with my life, I was martyred with my life, and I was martyred with my life, so it should not be considered a small family.

Bo Duange and Sister Yi are also people who have read the books of sages for half their lives, and they don't know that stealing the country is a big crime, which is ridiculous.

It's not just that they don't know which one of the people in power knows about it.

In the past ten years, I have lived a simple life, but I haven't thought that simplicity is my biggest sin, as a member of the Southern Wei royal family, as a child of the Jimo family, it is my fault that I don't rob, so the punishment is to lose everything.

The sky swirled, I was immersed in the cold water, and the broken ice fell beside me into the water, gently surfacing the water, while I sank deeper.

Die, die, die and be liberated.

That's what I say to myself.

But I hate it so much, I hate that Master Yu played with my mother's life in a song, he let Boduange take chestnuts in the fire when he was young, and when he grew up, he wanted me to "take chestnuts in the fire".

He asked my mother to run at me from a distance, and if my mother didn't run, he shot me in the distance, and my mother had to run to me desperately for me, and she threw herself into my arms and blocked me with her body, and the arrow pierced her chest, and I could only watch my mother die in my arms, and he laughed on the horse, and I had seen him smile at me countless times, and this time, he was the happiest.

I used to be, a young man who was engraved into my heart at a glance, and at that moment I was as terrible as a ghost, breaking the human skin, and there should be a fierce beast below, he was a ghost who stole human skin.

He jumped off his horse, came up to me, smiled and asked me, "Isn't that interesting?" ”

I stood up, hoping it was a nightmare, but my mother's blood was under my feet, my mother's blood on my hands, and my mother's blood on my clothes.

I tried to escape, but he slashed his sword behind me, and I looked down at the blood-stained blade that had passed through my abdomen, and he withdrew his sword and said, "Isn't this more interesting?" ”

"Why?" I asked him. I was in too much pain to hear his whispered answer.

I clutched the knife on my stomach, blood pouring from my fingers and heat running from my body.

Ji Mo Yi came, "You promised me not to kill her!" ”

She also knew it, she was so smart, of course she knew.

The last thing she did for me was to send me away, and for a moment the rain master was blocked, and I fell to my knees, and with the last of my strength I got on my horse, trying to leave the place in search of my brother.

My mother asked me to find him, and I got on my horse and looked back at my mother for the last time, and her unstained face was now stained with blood, and that was the last time I saw my mother.

I think that no one cares even if I die under the sword of the rain master by song, but I am going to find my brother, I am going to find him, my mother wants me to find him, no matter what, I will find him.

I found him, and at this moment, my brother was in my arms.

Ice water seeped into my throat, and I suddenly opened my eyes, and I remembered the words of the rain master Chengge, and on his sword, my blood was falling drop by drop, and what he said was, "You shouldn't stand in his way." ”

I laughed for the last time, and I said that before, I said to Boduang, "I like the rain master to sing, so don't get in my way." ”

The world is impermanent, and the cycle repeats, and these words finally came back to me.

In my life, in just over ten years, I finally endured hardships and endured a lot of happiness, hahahaha......

But I don't like bitterness, I like sweetness.

Boduang said that he wanted to be with me forever, and he wanted to be good to me, I think, I can't do it in my life, let alone forever.

Don't say it, since there is no result, I have to wish him in advance the country in hand, the beauty waiting, a long life, and worry-free in this life.

I told myself that today was the fastest day of my life.

Wake up tomorrow and I'll be a new me.

I don't want to be a Jimo pride again.