Chapter 89: Explanation of doubts before the grave

"Do you blame me?" As soon as he took two steps, Zhao Yuling's slightly hoarse figure came from behind him.

"He never blamed you until he died, so who am I to blame you?" Xu Mengmeng stopped in place and sighed almost inaudibly.

Suddenly, Zhao Yuling smashed the yellow paper in his hand into the firelight, got up and ran to Xu Mengmeng's side, and asked loudly with hazy teary eyes:

"Ning Jun, in fact, what's the difference between you and me? My sister loves you so much, but what about you, you haven't just let someone like her and Sima Zhao become a **! I, Zhao Yuling, am not as stupid as her, so in this life and this life, I can only bear others, and I will never give others a chance to bear me! ”

"Really? Do you really think so? Do you really think I'm going to let your sister marry someone like Sima Zhao and do nothing? Xu Mengmeng's eyes narrowed slightly, and she looked at her with a smile.

"What do you mean?" Panicked by Xu Mengmeng's eyes, Zhao Yuling spoke calmly.

"Follow me!" Xu Mengmeng grabbed her wrist and took her on his horse, then turned over and walked towards the imperial tomb.

"Come here, don't you want to know if I have failed your sister? Dig it! Taking Zhao Yuling to a pile of new graves, Xu Mengmeng took off the shovel on the horse and stuffed it into her hand, and stood aside with her hands on her chest.

Although Zhao Yuling didn't know what medicine was sold in Ning Jun's gourd, she still dug it up obediently, but she was a young lady raised in the deep boudoir, and every movement she made was extremely laborious because she had never done such rough work.

I don't know when the sky is getting darker and darker, and the fine rain is falling and hitting her weak body, obviously tired, but she gritted her teeth and stubbornly wants to dig out the truth.

Xu Mengmeng, who was also in the rain, silently stared at the stubborn figure, in a daze, she seemed to see the same persistent self in her previous life, and tears poured out in an instant, she reached out and pressed Zhao Yuling: "It's raining, don't dig it, go back!" ”

"No~ I want to know how self-righteous I really am!" Zhao Yuling broke away from her hand and said with a firm gaze.

"I'll do it!" Xu Mengmeng snatched the shovel in her hand and dug it vigorously, the rain became heavier and heavier, the wounds on Xu Mengmeng's body were cracked, dissolved in the rain, and the smell of blood permeated this space, and Zhao Yuling, who was drenched all over his body, only felt that his heart was becoming more and more depressed.

Suddenly, she asked softly, "What kind of person is he?" ”

Xu Mengmeng kept moving, and asked with a slight mockery: "What kind of person is he, don't you know best, why do you ask me?" ”

"yes, I should know best!" Tears and rain blended together, blurring Zhao Yuling's face.

"Okay, I'm tired, open the coffin lid yourself!" After Xu Mengmeng scraped the soil off the lid of the coffin, he stood aside with a shovel, trying to calm his slightly heavy breathing.

Zhao Yuling staggered forward, knelt in the dirt, put her hand on the lid of the coffin, hesitated for a long time before pushing it away, and what caught her eye was the red wedding dress, on which was pressed a letter, and the eye-catching words "divorce letter" on the letter immediately crushed her last bit of unwillingness.

With a pale face, she trembled and picked it up and unfolded it, and rows of black letters with eternal handwriting came into view.

Divorce letter: Sima Zhao, I, Zhao Qianrou, are smart and lovely, beautiful and kind, gentle and virtuous, and you are arrogant, lascivious, lustful, and sexual, how can I marry a pig like you? You don't even deserve to lift my shoes! Today, I will present a letter of divorce, and I will marry you freely in the future, if you dare to entangle again, I will definitely blow up your pig's head! Zhao Qianrou book

She collapsed to the ground holding the letter, and for a moment she wanted to laugh and cry, and finally couldn't help but bow her head and weep softly.

"Zhao Yuling, I'm different from you! No matter how vicious and vicious I am, unscrupulous or calculating, what I cherish most is always love, so I can't do anything to take advantage of other people's feelings! Xu Mengmeng muttered to himself while immersed in his own memories.

"Can you take me to see him again?" After Zhao Yuling regained her composure, she put the divorce letter back into the coffin, Xu Mengmeng restored it to its original state again, and was about to turn over and leave, Zhao Yuling's somewhat worried voice sounded behind her.

"Come on!" Xu Mengmeng sighed and nodded. She felt a little regretful in her heart, it was obvious that Zhao Yuling also cared about Jinchen, but she understood it too late as she did at the beginning.

After bringing Zhao Yuling back to Jinchen's tomb, Xu Mengmeng led the horse farther away, leaving the space for the two of them.

Zhao Yuling took out the hosta in his arms and inserted it into his hair, and smiled at the tombstone:

"Is it pretty? I always thought that I was not inferior to my sister, but today I realized that I was wrong, she has always lived more clearly than me, she knew that in her father's heart, we are just a chess piece that can be discarded at any time, so she has never cared about fame or power, the coldness on her face is not Qinggao, but she doesn't care, she has always understood her fate, and she has never disdained that position!

But I'm so self-righteous! I know that I am a chess piece, but I still can't help but defend him in my heart, thinking that he also has a trace of love for me in his heart, am I stupid?

But even if I'm stupid, why are you so stupid? It's so stupid that it hurts! I'm the daughter of a dignified master, with gorgeous looks and unparalleled talents, what kind of man can't be worthy? How could it be possible to fall in love with you as a little guard? Do you think you're stupid?

All along, everyone can only see my sister who is high, and maybe the only person in this world who thinks I'm better than my sister is you, but now that you're gone, will anyone know how good I am......" She couldn't cry a little as she spoke.

Before dawn, Xu Mengmeng personally sent Zhao Yuling back to Zhao's house, and when she was about to leave, Zhao Yuling called out to her, looked into her eyes and said seriously:

"Ning Jun, thank you! The luckiest thing for me in this life is to meet him, I think the luckiest thing for my sister in this life is to meet you, thank you, I will repay you in the future! ”

"Whether it's between me and your sister, or between you and Jinchen, they are two things that are not related to each other for me, strictly speaking, I don't have anything to do with you, so there is no need to repay them! I have not been here today, and you have not gone out! Cherish each in the future! Xu Mengmeng turned his back to her, waved his hand, and disappeared into the night.

Although Ning Jun's words were not clear, Zhao Yuling understood the meaning: it is impossible for the two to become an alliance in this life, and he doesn't have to show mercy to his subordinates if he faces each other in the future! So tonight's bento never happened.

But Ning Jun, you seem to have forgotten that it is my decision whether to repay or not, and whether to accept it or not is your choice!

Soaked and soaked, she stood in front of the window and stared quietly at the rain that was getting heavier and heavier for a while, the corners of her mouth hooked up a meaningful smile, and after a long time, she closed the window and began to clean up the traces left by Ning Jun.