She was stupid enough to think that even if she didn't get his love, she would be able to make him feel good about her, and now she realized that she was wrong. Thinking of wanting to kill herself just because of a phone call, Zhao Yuan gritted her teeth.

suddenly thought that if it weren't for Lu Changan who didn't know what to do, how could she be treated like this by Yu Xibei, and how could the image she had worked so hard to create these days collapse.

The hand at his side was tightly clenched, and his face was hideous, and there was no beauty at all. Staring at one part of the room, it was as if Lu Changan was standing there.

"Lu Changan, I won't let you have a good time."

His eyes were red and swollen, standing in front of the sink, Lu Changan looked at his current appearance, his hair was messy, and his face was haggard. Turn on the faucet, the cold water instantly occupies the entire pool, lean over and stick your whole face into it, and the feeling of suffocation comes to your face. Cold, in addition to cold, there is also incomparable sobriety.

The whole person lay there motionless, as if he was no longer breathing, and suddenly raised his head. Wipe the water stains off your face with your hands and breathe heavily. His eyes were red, and I didn't know if it was water droplets or tears sliding down his face.

After calming down, he returned to the desk and took out a notebook hidden in the innermost part of the drawer, and opened the title page with only one sentence on it: "I am trying to run towards the light, but I have no tomorrow." ”

Slowly turning back, each page is densely packed with words that record the daily events. Flipping through a blank page, I picked up the pen and leaned over to write.

"Chang'an, do you have something on your mind? Come, tell the teacher about it. ”

Professor Yang looked at Lu Changan's eyes full of worry, although she covered it well, but the dark circles and red and swollen eyes under her eyes couldn't hide it from him.

He knew that Lu Changan had been working overtime recently, but today's state obviously looked wrong. Drawing a simple picture in the morning has been made many times wrong.

He simply asked her to put down the pen in her hand, sat down across from him, looked at her and asked softly.

Lu Changan lowered his head and stared at his hand, tears fell silently, dripping on the back of her hand, like an imprint deep in her heart.

His voice was hoarse and he said, "Teacher, am I not bad." ”

Professor Yang sighed secretly, stretched out his old hand and touched her hair. Said earnestly: "Who said, the first time I saw you, I thought you were a very good child, with a gentle personality and not competing with others, and being able to do what you like wholeheartedly, unlike many people who are impetuous and utilitarian now." If you're bad, what do you do with those who aren't as good as you? ”

Hearing his last words, Lu Changan couldn't help laughing with tears, stretched out his hand to wipe his face and said in a nasal voice: "How can I be as good as you say, if it is really that good, no one will dislike me." ”

Hearing this, Professor Yang seemed to understand something, Lu Changan, a child, is good at everything, but sometimes he is too obsessed with one thing.

"And what do you think of me?"

Instead of answering her question, Professor Yang asked her a question.

Lu Changan nodded without thinking: "Of course you are good, many people in the academy praise you." ”

Professor Yang shook his head with a smile, patted her shoulder and stood up, walked to the window and looked at the outside world and said, "That's just because I gave help, so I think I'm good, but at the same time, I also think I'm bad." No one is 100% liked, like my wife, who didn't like me at first, and she didn't like me at least a quarter of the time we've been together. So, it's nothing to be bad for a while, just say something, don't take it to heart. ”

didn't expect Professor Yang to say so much to himself, Lu Changan nodded thoughtfully, indicating that he understood. But there is still a voice in my heart asking myself: "Will Yu Xibei and I be so easy to solve?" ”

"Okay, don't think too much, I'll give you a day off today, you can go and relax."

"No, teacher, I'm fine, I won't make any more mistakes."

"Okay, whatever I say is what I say, I'm your teacher, you have to listen to me."

Seeing that his tone was so firm, Lu Changan couldn't say anything, and left the studio with his bag after saying goodbye. Walking on campus, she took a deep breath, sat on the side of the flower bed, and watched the people passing by, some of them hurried, some of them strolling.

Suddenly, a pair of long legs appeared in front of him, and Lu Changan raised his head to look over.

"Yang Hexi?"

"Why are you sitting here alone? Didn't the friend who came with you that day stay with you? ”

I was just about to go back to the dormitory with my roommate after class, but suddenly I saw her sitting there alone, and the little one seemed to have been abandoned.

"Professor Yang gave me a day off, and I didn't have much to go for a while, so I just sat here."

"I know a place, do you want to go?"