157: Confession
Guzawa: "......"
He never thought about it, or it could be said that he never thought about it until he went to the third galaxy.
In his thoughts, he always felt that it was impossible for the boy to leave him.
In the past, in the present, he never doubted it.
After all, this young man, he tried so hard to drive the young man away, and the young man never left.
But when the boy returned, he suddenly came back to his senses, and found his palms clenched, and his back sweating.
So he asked that sentence at first, as if he were joking, very easily.
When the boy responded, he stood stunned as if he had been punched.
How to say that?
Gu Ze thought back and found that his reflex arc was really slow, so slow that he didn't come back to his senses until the boy asked such an ambiguous and heart-pounding question.
It was as if a question that had never been suspected before was now pulled to his eyes and forced to face it, as if the impregnable barrier that he had always felt unusually stubborn and impregnable suddenly broke, and the enemy came behind him in an instant.
He couldn't move, he couldn't think.
My mind was replaying the boy's words over and over again like a repeater.
"Are you trying to drive me away?"
Did you always want me to go?
In fact, that's right.
When he first met the boy, he wanted the boy to get out of his eyes.
The boy is a person from the third galaxy, and the third galaxy has always been very bad in his eyes, he has always protected Yueliu and protected everyone here, and he also knows that the people of the third galaxy are innocent, but he can't completely let go of the barrier, and he can't really accept the boy.
He subconsciously wanted the boy to go, to get him out of here, no matter where he went, as long as he didn't appear in front of him.
He didn't want to hurt any innocent person, but he couldn't treat everyone equally, and he couldn't fully accept the teenager, even if the teenager insisted on following behind him, indifferent to his cold words for so many years, always, always maintained the original appearance, following behind Gu Ze.
Gradually, when Gu Ze didn't know it at all, he subtly integrated into Gu Ze's life.
A person's habits are really terrible, even though Gu Ze has already experienced a hundred battles, and he doesn't care about who is standing next to him at all, but it is undeniable that the boy has occupied an important position in his heart and in his life.
He couldn't give up on his boys.
But the problem is ahead, and Gu Ze's heart is very complicated.
He knew very clearly that this kind of reluctance had grown in his heart.
As the most important combat power support of the Yueliu Planet, all he has to do is to be invincible, and all he has to do is to make himself an impregnable wall without any shortcomings and gaps.
If he admits that he cares about someone, there is no doubt that that person will become his weakness.
This is why he has remained silent for so many years, has always been unfriendly, has always kept a certain distance, no one can approach him, including the students he can't remember at all, and none of them can stand by his side like a teenager.
Back then, probably because he couldn't drive away the boy, he was led and clinged to him, he didn't bother to pay attention to him and didn't want him to be hurt, and finally died tragically, so he kept him by his side like a dog, taught him to read and teach him how to fight, so that even when he was away, he could protect himself, and if he had the ability, he would not always be by his side.
But he didn't expect that when habit became natural, he should have let him leave and go to find his own sky, but Gu Ze put it off again and again, and now he has to ask himself such a question, which is undoubtedly to put all his efforts in front of him, and then knock them out one by one.
Gu Ze smiled bitterly and looked up at the boy.
The boy was also silent, staring at Gu Ze carefully, as if he wanted to make a hole in his face, and then look into his inner world through the hole.
How could the boy not know Gu Ze's thoughts?
When he came to Yueliu back then, he knew it very well.
Even if he is just a child, a child who has not yet reached the age of ten, in this unfamiliar place, he doesn't understand anything, he doesn't dare to speak loudly, he doesn't dare to walk around, he is too obvious, the aura of the people of the third galaxy, the way of upbringing, and even the face can be seen at a glance.
The people of the third galaxy are so special, everyone says so.
They advertise that they are the only one, they are domineering in rejecting others, while occupying other people's positions, and very viciously hindering other people's lives.
The third galaxy has a very bad impression on everyone, even if he is just a child, they don't need to get along with a runaway teenager, but they have never thought of giving such a child a little charity.
The child next to him, a child who has no food like him, receives a large amount of money and food from well-wishers every day, but only he is empty.
He has nothing, no matter how good-looking he looks and how pitiful his performances are, no one wants to look at him squarely.
Until that day, when Gu Ze's passing, it seemed that he only glanced at him inadvertently, and did not look directly at him but at the young man beside him, he suddenly had an intuition, and intuition told him that this person could believe, he could find a place from this person, and he had to seize this opportunity!
Gu Ze also stopped, and indeed walked towards this side as he thought, and there were children beside him who had already recognized this person as their great hero, Gu Ze, and they were so happy that they wanted to rush over and ask for Gu Ze's help.
And he turned white in an instant, and he didn't dare to move.
Even if he was still very young, he had heard the name of this person several times in General Gu's mouth, this person was very powerful, and he hated the third galaxy very much, every time the third galaxy came out of the army, it would be carried in his hands, and at least half of his life would be lost. They all hate Guze, they all hate Guze.
They said that if it weren't for Gu Ze, they would have unified Yueliu a long time ago, and it would have been good if Gu Ze had died earlier.
Since they all said that, the boy's heart was cold at that time. He thought, they all hate Gu Ze so much, and Gu Ze, who is hated like this, must hate them too, right?
So the first reaction was that the boy wanted to escape, no matter where he fled.
However, just as Wrong Eye was looking for the best escape route, their eyes met.
Gu Ze's gaze like Gu Jing Wubo was so plain, as if he was just looking at an insignificant object, he glanced at the young man, and the aura that belonged to the hero emanated from his body infected the young man.
He was very naïve to wonder if this hero would come to his rescue?
The next second they thought about this, the tall figure turned in their direction, and stopped squarely in front of the young man.
His shadow enveloped the boy, and it was clear that there was no temperature, but it made the boy feel warm.
No one knew that the place where he was standing happened to be a very uncomfortable corner, there was a building in the beveled corner not far from here, and every time the sun rose, the light would be refracted from the building to his position, and the strong light made people unable to open their eyes, but if someone passed by, they could not see that he was tormented by the strong light, but he could only see his eyelids lowered, and he shrank in little by little.
But if you shrink inside, you won't get sunlight, it's very cold and damp inside, and there are a lot of insects, and he's afraid of them.
This is the position of being excluded, and the other children have taken the best position, so he is thrown into this position, and the children here are slightly more friendly, and if they go to other places, they will be considered to be grabbing land and being beaten by other children.
He didn't dare to go anywhere, he didn't dare to move, he just kept his eyes down, praying that someone would stop, even if he didn't bring him something, just help him block the light for a while.
But this opportunity was too small, and he gradually became afraid to ask for it.
Until the arrival of Guze.
He just stood casually, at least it seemed like this, and he didn't care about the boy at all, but he just took care of the boy with his tenderness as if he had no intention.
He didn't know where he got the courage, he didn't know why, so he raised his head so violently, and with his best and hardest performance, he begged Gu Ze to take him home.
No, if you ask to take him home, the boy knows that Gu Ze must refuse, so the boy immediately chases after him, throws away his face, and sticks to his side.
Gu Ze is everyone's hero, so he can't throw away the boy in front of everyone, the boy secretly thought, at least he can follow Gu Ze to a place where no one is, as long as he has the opportunity, he must follow Gu Ze, not only that, he must not let go, no matter what others are saying.
He only has one chance, no one else can want him, and Gu Ze is his salvation, although this is very selfish, but in order to survive, do anything.
Perhaps he should now regret why he escaped from the Third Galaxy and came here, even if he was treated coldly by his father's side, he wouldn't have fallen to this point, begging others to take him away or give him something to eat like a little beggar with no face and no skin.
Speaking of which, he himself doesn't know why, but his consciousness hasn't kept up yet, and his body moves first.
The body's reaction made him move towards Gu Ze, and fate arranged for them to meet, even if the reason Gu Ze stopped was only for the child beside him, the new child, the helpless and poor child who had just died.
He shamelessly took away the child's future, maybe Gu Ze would take him away at that time, but he took the lead.
It was indeed a shameless act, but he did not regret it at all.
If he regrets it, where did he put Gu Ze's serious education now?
What did he think of him?
It is precisely because he believes in Gu Ze incomparably and later that Gu Ze gradually let him go, in order to let him live a good life, there are obviously thousands of opportunities to throw him back into the third galaxy, and he can torture his own identity, but he still indulges himself to continue by his side.
So he never thought that Gu Ze would want to abandon himself until now.
A dog that has been cultivated and trained for so many years is said to be ......
Is Gu Ze really a heartless monster?
The boy unconsciously clenched his fists and stared at Gu Ze with clenched teeth, trying in vain to detect something on his face.
A little reluctance is okay, any additional emotions are fine, maybe not so much, as long as he is relieved, no matter what attitude Gu Ze will have, he feels that he can continue to stay by Gu Ze's side.
He can't leave here, he knows that his current expression should be very pitiful, during that time, the most he learned is to pretend to be pitiful, so in this aspect, he is very handy, although this method has never seen the effect on Gu Ze's face.
Time passed little by little, and Gu Ze still didn't speak, and time seemed to stand still in this second.
The boy stood a little numb, he rolled his throat, and suddenly became afraid.
He was afraid that Gu Ze would open his mouth and say the results he didn't want to hear.
If that's the case, then where has he been looking forward to it for so long?
He thought that Gu Ze should know, although he had always played the role of a machine that was cheeky and seemed to never know how to lose face, projecting his feelings unipolarly, and the distance between Gu Ze and him was many, many galaxies, and even a universe, but he felt that he had not been completely unsuccessful in projection, and Gu Ze must have known his expectations.
It's just that Guze didn't respond.
But he didn't respond, and he never stopped his actions, so as long as they maintained this level, they could still live as before, and today...... Today, they were both thrown into the trash, as if it had never happened, as it should have been.
So the young man rolled his throat, thinking of what Chu Qian had asked him just now, he pretended to be relaxed and said: "I've been here for a long time, I've forgotten what I want to do, Chu Qian just asked me to see her cat, now that you're back, I don't need to watch the door, I'll go first!" ”
He tugged at the corners of his lips, squeezed out two ugly smiles, and was about to walk towards the door.
The next second.
"You actually ......" Gu Ze said suddenly, and he froze in place.
"It's me who neglected you." Gu Ze raised his body and looked at the young man squarely, "I didn't pay attention to your affairs before, but now that I think about it, it's really time to give you an explanation." ”
The boy's heart thumped, and an itch came from his throat, and he wanted to say something to interrupt the conversation, because he knew that what was going to happen next would be something he didn't want to see at all.
However, his mind was blank, he couldn't think of anything, there was impatience circling in his heart, and in the face of Gu Ze, he couldn't make any sound.
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