Lin Suwan sighed, and began to feel very unhappy when he talked about his father, because he had been thinking about it a long time ago that he would never be able to talk about his father in this life.

The main thing is that when I talk about tears, I can't stop falling down, but I don't know what's going on at this moment, the main thing is that I feel very warm when I see Yu Shushan's eyes, and the so-called sense of security is also directly very heavy.

Lin Suwan didn't feel that his father's matter was a shameful thing, and he didn't shed tears directly at this time, and looked at Yu Shushan very seriously, hoping to be able to explain these things very clearly.

I only hope that this matter can be explained directly this time, and if you ask about it next time, it will definitely not be such a good temper.

Lin Suwan took a deep breath, not wanting this matter to be said to be particularly simple, after all, there were too many things to deal with for himself

If you always think about your father's affairs, there will definitely be nothing too good, but if you don't tell your father's affairs accurately, there will be no good results.

After all, Yu Shushan will always be cranky, and it will become very difficult to change at that time.

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My father was actually a big truck driver, at that time, I thought my father was very majestic, I don't know why, since when did I start to think that my father is the most handsome man in the world, and every day waiting for my father to come back is the happiest thing for me.

I had to share these things with my mother every day, and I could see the smile on my mother's face every time, but I don't know why my father was so strict with him when he came back.

It's as if something very serious happened and I didn't take care of it, but I didn't think it was necessary, after all, my father was still very safe in front of me, but these were my thoughts when I was a child.

When I grew up, like my mother, I felt that this job was really insecure, because there was a little bit of instability, and although the money I earned was still able to live a better life at home, it was obviously impossible to be happy like this all the time.

Later, my father had a big accident, and the whole person could not be found, and even the police had already appeared to look for him, but he just couldn't find it

I don't know why I lost contact with my father like this, but from that time on, my mother told me not to think about my father anymore, and told me that my father may have gone far away.

I went to see if those places were good, and if they were beautiful, they would come back and pick us up, but at that time, my mother was in tears after saying it, and I remember it very clearly.

So I thought it wasn't that simple, and when I was a few years older, my mother took me by the hand one day and wanted to say something from my heart, and I was very shocked because I hadn't communicated with my mother for a long time.

I was actually very shocked to say something, afraid that my mother would tell me something very serious.

After all, I didn't do very well in my studies at that time, and sometimes I would make jokes, and I was always afraid that my mother would laugh at me about these things, and then put on a very serious face.

But at that time I hadn't seen my father for several years, and I always felt that my father was working outside the home or going to see beautiful scenery, forgetting that there were still us in the family.

Sometimes I also feel that my father is so cruel that he can leave us people directly without us at all, and he doesn't even reply to a phone call, not even a letter.

At that time, I also thought that my mother had intercepted all these things, and just hoped that I could study hard, so I didn't think about so many things, and whenever I heard something bad, I could start thinking nonsense.

I always felt that my father must have encountered something wrong, but my mother kept telling me that it was impossible, and at that time my mother did not shed tears, very sincere, and very calm.

But after that time, my mother told me very clearly, when I was a child, my father was hit by someone because he was driving a big truck and didn't pay attention to safety, and then he fell into a quagmire and couldn't get out, because the technology was not very developed at that time, so it took too much time to look for it.

When I found it, my father was just a little bit of clothes left, and I was shocked when I heard that, because I never thought my father would leave like this.

At that time, like my mother, I was very worried about what would happen to my father, but I never thought that I would leave us in this way, and after all these years, I have been trying to think about my father, just looking at the scenery outside, without too many problems.

Who knew it was such a big problem, I tried so hard not to believe it, and with my mother holding my hand tightly, I could feel some security, but I didn't seem to get the security that my father gave me.

These feelings of security are not particularly easy to obtain, and are mainly a kind of comfort in the heart, but if a specific situation does not occur, a specific emotion will naturally not exist.

At that time, my mother's attitude towards me changed, as if she was relieved, and she explained a very big thing very clearly, and then I also knew what my own father was like.

From that time on, I didn't like to talk anymore, because I felt that I was a person without a father, and there was no one around me who could rely on like a mountain.

When I read about my father, I would always burst into tears, and people around me would always ask me what was going on, even if there were people around me who were in a similar situation to my family, I would find it very difficult to accept.

I tried hard to choose to forget, because I didn't want to always remember that my father left this world, but when I think about it, my mother is not wrong, my father is looking for a more beautiful scenery.

But at least whether it is more beautiful or not, it may be decades before we know clearly.

I don't know what to say more than that, but my father is so important to me that there is no way to get out of my world.

My mother was just as good to me, but what I was thinking about was that my father was not uncherished, but that I could always recall some things that happened with my father, and there were some particularly sad things, and more of them were some good memories.

In fact, people live in this world, I think the best thing is that some good memories have been floating in my mind, and this is probably the case, and it is not a big deal, but my father is no longer here, and I don't want to mention it again, but because you asked, I told you again.

Lin Suwan said such a big thing, which was to briefly explain his father's situation and how he felt after losing his father, but at this time, Yu Shushan cried.

I didn't expect such a big thing to happen to Lin Suwan since he was a child, but he has always given others the feeling that he is very strong, and he always gives people the feeling that his family is very happy, not as bad as he imagined.

But in fact, Lin Suwan has begun to make himself strong since he knew that his father was really leaving his side, because only in this way can he realize the beauty of this world.

Although the real person has left, he always thinks about his father in his heart, and every time he eats, Lin Suwan will set up his father's dishes and chopsticks, even if her mother forgets one day, she will take the initiative to do these things.

After growing up a little more, Lin Suwan still insisted on doing such things, but her mother was a little angry, because her mother had found another better uncle and lived a very happy life.

Whenever her mother wanted to tell Lin Suwan about these dishes and chopsticks, Lin Suwan pretended not to hear it, because Lin Suwan didn't want to forget those things and didn't want to forget her father.

Although the uncle my mother found later was very good, there was still a little bit of estrangement in my heart, if a person could easily accept it, it would either be acting or really being good to people.

But the latter is obviously not something that ordinary people can encounter, basically now Lin Suwan is always arguing with her mother, and her mother always feels that Lin Suwan does not take her to heart, and feels that this situation is becoming more and more common.

But Lin Suwan felt that her mother had been doing some meaningless things, such as the current quarrel, that is, it was meaningless, and if she continued to quarrel, Lin Suwan always put her parents first, and none of them were particularly important.

Yu Shushan hugged Lin Suwan at this time, wanting to give a little warmth, he felt that there were indeed too many difficult things in this world, and there were too many difficult people, but it happened around him, but he never listened to these stories carefully, and felt very guilty, not to mention a girl who had liked it for so long.

Yu Shushan also thought about it later, it was precisely because of respect that he didn't ask, but now he regrets it very much, he didn't know so many things in advance, otherwise there would definitely be no quarrel with Lin Suwan.

Lin Suwan has been very strong since he was a child, and he is absolutely unable to compromise on some things, which is such a character that many things cannot be easily solved.

And many people will think that Lin Suwan is just an egg and a direct bone, but in fact, Lin Suwan is just striving for perfection and wants to do things well.