For Ye Feng, Xue Dan, and Yin Ping, this is the most talked about in the past ten years when the master has communicated with them. The smooth expression, with sighs, tensions, and loss, makes the master more and more like a real person, a person who also has seven emotions and six desires, rather than a monk.

So much so that it seems that all the conversations between the four of them in the past ten years are not as rich as the current moment.

Ten years, and that's it.

After listening to Master's story, the three of them were a little shocked and confused. But more than that, it's a sudden enlightenment.

It turned out that he lived in the temple all the year round but never changed the name of the Buddhist family, let alone officially shaved the monk, but he had a name and surname like an ordinary person, which is the reason.

And the master did not let them out of the temple gate, not to control them at all, but to protect them.

Thinking of this, Xue Dan couldn't help but glance at Ye Feng and Yin Ping with a little anger. These two people simply don't know what to do, and they have been fighting against the master everywhere in the past few days. Now that the truth is out, they should be ashamed.

Ye Feng was not ashamed in his heart, but had a feeling of sudden realization. For more than a year, no matter how much he wanted to break his head, he didn't expect it to end like this.

It turned out that the relationship between the three of them and the master was not as complicated as they imagined, but a simple relationship between the benefactor and the rescued.

The three of them were thinking about their own life experience at the moment, guessing the intention of the master's words, and what to do in the future, so naturally they didn't notice the unnatural expression on the master's face and the slightly trembling body.

Even after many years, when all the truth was revealed, and the three of them gathered here to talk about today's events after releasing their previous suspicions, they were still surprised that the master, who had always been calm and indifferent, did not notice at all when his mood fluctuated so much.

People, sure enough, they are most concerned about themselves. Because of this, other things are often overlooked.

Then, there was a long sigh.

There are feelings, incomprehensions, dissatisfactions, and regrets in this sigh.

If they had discovered Master's abnormality at that time, would they have been able to avoid regrets in the future? If they had stopped today's fallacy in time, wouldn't everyone have had a better time? If everyone's identity is not misplaced, will we have a completely different path and a completely different life?

Unfortunately, there is never an if in this world. The regret in the world is nothing more than to sigh the word "if".

Of course, that's another story.

"Have you figured it out, do you want to stay or get out of here?" Master kindly asked, "Whatever you choose, I respect your opinion. So don't worry about it and choose carefully. ”

Ye Feng was still trying to digest what Master had just said, thinking about what to do next.

Maybe it was because he had just eaten too much, so he felt that Master's words were difficult to digest. Moreover, he was really reluctant to be the first to speak.

In this case, the first to speak, no matter how you choose, will always be a little weird.

Just say that you want to leave, everyone will think that you are ruthless, after all, everyone has been getting along for ten years, and it is better to be born than to raise grace, if there is no master, they should be dead a long time ago.

If you want to stay, you want to be beautiful! How could he stay! This is the only chance in more than a year. Moreover, even if the master didn't take the initiative to say it, he would do everything possible to escape.

Yin Ping was also surprisingly silent, obviously very confused and didn't know where to go. Maybe it's because I've been obedient for a long time, and the master is a "one-word hall" type of order. And now suddenly democracy is back, and it is a bit confusing.

They are better at obedience than they are at making their own decisions. What's more, this is still a major decision related to the rest of his life.

While the two were still silent, Xue Dan had already made a resolute decision: he decided to continue to stay in the temple and spend the rest of his life with his master. Ye Feng and Yin Ping heard him say, "I am willing to stay, I will not leave." ”

Regarding Xue Dan's decision, the master just looked at him quietly, without any statement, neither against nor in favor, as if everything was expected.

Ye Feng was speechless in surprise, he wanted to shout, he wanted to shout: Xue Dan was only 10 years old, and he made a decision for his future like this!

The ancient Buddha of the green lantern, the sound of the Buddha's language, it is okay to listen to it, and it is not a good thing to live a dull life. But what Xue Dan needs to face is that he needs to be with his master for the rest of his life, walking alone in this almost isolated place.

He hadn't seen the outside world yet, and his biological parents were still out looking forward to seeing him again. And he ruthlessly left all these behind and ignored them.

This is almost unimaginable and absolutely unacceptable for Ye Feng.

For the first time, Ye Feng was a little anxious for Xue Nerd.

He wanted him to go out with him, he wanted to tell him about his ambitions, he wanted him to change his mind. However, looking at Xue Dan, who had a calm face and seemed as if nothing had happened, he had no choice but to swallow a stomach full of pride and advice.

If you think about it, it is true that everyone has their own ambitions, and a choice that seems to you to shine like gold may not be famous at all to others.

As the saying goes, the honey of A, the arsenic of B.

For Xue Dan, in the face of everything being unknown, it may be the wisest choice to choose a stable life that is as boring as Gu Jingbo but is familiar to him without danger.

Living in peace and stability may be more important than anything else.

If it weren't for the mature soul inside, would Ye Feng still have such blood and passion? It is quite possible that it will not, but will make the same choice as Xue Dan.

However, God has given him a different vision and experience. Then, he has to use this different courage to make different choices.

Even if this choice will make his head bleed, but this road, he must go, he will definitely go.

Thinking of this, after organizing the language a little, Ye Feng said calmly: "Master, Xue Dan, Yin Ping, I have also thought about it, I choose to leave and go outside to find my father's and mother's own home." ”

Although the outside world was full of unknowns, although he didn't know anything except that his name was "Ye Feng", Ye Feng didn't even hesitate at all.

Yes, not at all.

In the same way, the master didn't say anything, he looked at Yin Ping, "What about you?" ”

It's just two words, but it seems to weigh a thousand pounds. Because it's either/or, because Yin Ping knows that he has to make a choice at this moment.

The usual tricks of stealing and playing tricks are of no use at all at this moment. And the choice is different, which means a very different life from now on. It's not that he didn't want to look at the outside world, find his biological parents, and live the life that ordinary people should live.

However, his vision and fear forced him to face reality.

He didn't know anything, he was penniless, and there was nothing outside but a large forest. He didn't know what he could do when he went out, and he didn't know how to live.

In the past ten years, what he has learned is to live a step-by-step life, morning classes, listening to lectures, chanting scriptures, participating in Zen, and growing vegetables. The rest, he doesn't know, he doesn't know anything. In the past ten years, he has not learned anything, except to be a monk.

As if he had exhausted all his strength, Yin Ping said slowly and reluctantly, "I am willing to stay." ”

Hearing this, Ye Feng still wanted to fight for it.

After all, it has been Yin Ping who has been with him all the time for more than a year, worried about his troubles, and happy for his happiness. Such buddies and such friendships are rare.

After thinking about it, Ye Feng said, "Yin Ping, do you want to consider leaving with me?" Master said that no matter what you choose, He will respect your decision. And as long as we go out, we support each other and help each other, and it shouldn't be difficult to survive. What's more, we can find our own parents together. ”

Seeing Yin Ping frowning, Ye Feng said again: "I swear here, if you leave here with me, even if you have a hard time in the future, I will do everything to take care of you first." ”

Yin Ping knew that this was the biggest promise Ye Feng could make for him.

However, the premise of this promise was that Ye Feng could leave this endless forest alive with him. What if he can't survive himself?

Thinking of this, Yin Ping made up his mind, sighed and said, "Ye Feng, thank you, really, thank you very much." However, I am not leaving, I still want to stay. ”

After speaking, he stopped looking at Ye Feng's face.

He was afraid that he would change his mind at any moment.

He also wants to go to the outside world to see and find his biological parents. However, he wanted to live even more.

There was silence in the meditation room for a moment.

After a while, seeing that the three of them stopped talking, the master nodded and looked at the three of them kindly: "You and you are going to stay, and you are leaving, right?" ”

Xue Dan nodded, Yin Ping nodded, and Ye Feng also nodded.

"Okay," Master said.

Although it is just one word, everyone knows that this can be regarded as a formal acquiescence to the choice of the three people.

His face returned to the peace and calm he wanted, but in his heart, he thought that it was not surprising that the three people with very different personalities would make very different choices.

I wasn't surprised at all.

Ye Feng thought that the master said a different "follow me", "come in", and "good" today, from three words, to two words, and then to one word, a total of six words, if the three people are divided equally, one person is only two words.

However, why should two words decide a person's life?

After saying what to say and answering Ye Feng's several questions such as how to go down the mountain, the master completely returned to his usual appearance, not smiling, and no longer kind. He is now the monk who has no expression every day and every month.

No matter how desperately Ye Feng wanted to ask about this world again, he just didn't open his mouth.

In fact, Master's answer is equivalent to saying nothing.

For example, Ye Feng asked, "Master, in which direction should I go down the mountain?" The Master replied, "There are roads in all directions, under the sky." ”

Ye Feng asked again, "Is there any information about my biological parents?" The Master replied, "They are waiting for you where you are." ”

After some tossing, Ye Feng finally understood that he couldn't ask anything. Or, in fact, the master didn't want to tell himself, maybe he really didn't know—thinking like this made Ye Feng even more relieved.

After all, he had been raised for ten years, and Ye Feng was unwilling to use bad thoughts to figure out his master.

Seeing that the master stopped talking and meditated with his eyes closed, in desperation, Ye Feng packed his luggage and decided to leave. In fact, the so-called luggage is nothing more than two sets of clothes and a small bag of dry food that Master has placed on the table.

Naturally, Ye Feng also went to the firewood room and took away the cloth bag containing dried fungus and eighteen bird eggs.

When Ye Feng left, there was no one to see him off.

He took his luggage and walked slowly towards the temple gate along the road he used to take on weekdays. Usually, I go to the door just to breathe some outside air and pour dirty water, and I still have to come back in the end.

And this time, it's just to get out, not to come in.

When Ye Feng left, Master was shaving Xue Dan. Yin Ping, on the other hand, stood aside without saying a word and watching the ceremony with a blank face. He and Xue Dan are each other's audience and witness, and they are the only one.

He knew in his heart that it would soon be his turn.

Halfway through, Ye Feng looked back and happened to see this scene. Xue Dan had his back to him, so naturally he couldn't see his eyes. And although the master faced him, he did not squint for a moment, as if he did not exist at all. He just focused on shaving Xue Dan.

Only Yin Ping seems to be trying his best to hide something.

The master held a sharp razor in his hand, and this knife cast a line of glittering cold light through the light, which looked so hideous and terrifying. Just raised his hand, the ground was covered with the hair of a ten-year-old child, and Xue Dan had kept his hair for ten years.

This abominable knife! Ye Feng cursed it in his heart.

If your hair is shaved, it can grow back. However, the heart that has been imprisoned for ten years has been as quiet as water since then, and I am afraid that it will be difficult to wake up again.

Yin Ping also turned his back to him, obviously Ye Feng's footsteps were so heavy, he didn't turn his head in a daze.

It's just that if you look closely, you can see that his back is trembling slightly. It's just that Ye Feng can't see it.

Ye Feng didn't know if this was ordered by the master, or if it was a voluntary posture of the two. But he also understands, too, that the two of them are officially Buddhists, and they don't look like they are ruthless, but there is no big mistake; But if you see it, it's wrong, it's nostalgic for Hongchen, and it's regretting your decision.

And, what if you take a look?

In short, he chose a different path from everyone, and what he saw again could only be the backs of the two.

Yes, the direction is different, what do you expect to see except the back?

The Tao is different, and they do not conspire with each other.

When Ye Feng left, a gust of wind blew. This wind blew up Yin Ping's hair that had been shaved off but had not yet landed, and it also blew away the stubborn tears that Ye Feng had been holding back.

This journey was not long at all, but it took him several times as long to walk out of the temple gate on a regular basis. On weekdays, I can't wait to jump in three steps, but now, it has turned into a step and a stop, slowly moving forward.

It's not that he doesn't want to go out, it's not that he doesn't want to leave, he just wants to show his respect for the people in this temple in this slow way.

In the past ten years, they have grown up with him and sheltered him from the wind and rain. From now on, he needs to face all the hardships and dangers of this world alone.

It's just that there is an end to the road, and there is always a moment to finish, no matter how slow you go. When he arrived at the threshold, Ye Feng paused, and finally took a step out of the threshold, and gently closed the temple door from the outside.

In the past, doors were closed from the inside. And this time, he was pushing from the outside.

The moment the door was closed, he saw Xue Dan who was no longer like him through the crack in the door, Xue Dan who looked more and more like his master, and Yin Ping, who was a little trembling and seemed to be holding back his bare head who was unwilling to cry.

Gently, Ye Feng closed the temple door, as if one thing had an end at this moment, and the dust had settled.

Then, Ye Feng kowtowed a few times in the direction of Master's meditation room.

Although the master couldn't see it, Ye Feng still had to do it.

This time, and for the first time, or for the last time, he kowtowed three times from the bottom of his heart, each time he was pious, and every time he was full of gratitude.

For this person, although he can't talk about deep feelings, or even some dislike, he has raised himself for ten years.

If it weren't for him, where would I be?

Was he picked by the head of the drama troupe to do a small drama, and practiced every day to hang his voice? Or in which black kiln do you sell coolies, and you can't eat enough food and clothing? Or have you starved to death and been thrown into mass graves, to be eaten by wolves and dogs?

To be honest, the reason why Ye Feng was so determined to leave this "shelter" was not only due to his mature soul, but more importantly, it was related to his life experience in his previous life.

In his previous life, he grew up in an orphanage. Until the moment before the crossing, he didn't know who his real parents were. Since graduating, he has also searched through various channels, but after all, there is no news, and there is no result.

The only information he knew was inferred from the director's rambling complaints: his parents had left him at the door of the orphanage on a snowy night.

Hearing a knock on the door, when the dean came out to respond, he only saw a pair of distant backs. Inferred from the back, these were two young men. It is worth noting that the woman is still carrying a schoolbag, and the two look more like students.

In addition, both of them are dressed very plainly, and they don't look like children of wealthy families. But Ye Feng was wearing clothes with very good materials, and he was also white and chubby.

So Ye Feng thought that the two of them were young, maybe they had children out of wedlock, and they were afraid of the world's eyes; Or he is still a student in school, and he has no ability and does not dare to raise him.

Sending him to an orphanage, rather than just being somewhere, shows that you want him to live; They knocked on the door and waited until the dean came out before leaving, indicating that they were afraid that he would freeze to death outside the door and no one would know, and they were still kind-hearted; Dressing him up so neatly and raising him for nothing shows that he always loves him and is reluctant to give him up. Throwing him away must have been a last resort.

One day, when they have the ability, they will come to the door.

At that time, a family of three will ......

It's a pity that the stories in fairy tales are all deceitful.

Slowly, the brothers and sisters who grew up with Ye Feng in the orphanage were adopted by kind-hearted childless families or caring families one after another.

When they get together, they are always ready to separate.

Separation is a joy for them in a sense.

So, despite the separation, they never cried. They smile, celebrate their new life, and try to make a good impression on their new parents.

No one likes a crying child.

Actually, it's not that no one wants to adopt Ye Feng, in fact, there are several. Ye Feng is white and chubby, and he doesn't like to cry, although he is young, he looks very stable, so he is very lovely.

But Ye Feng refused every time.

Just because he thought that since his parents put him at the door of the orphanage, he would definitely come to the door one day. If you are taken away, how can you meet at that time?

So, he waited with this firm belief.

It's a pity that he waited for a long time, from the age of five to the age of ten, from the age of ten to the age of twenty, from the age of twenty to the age of twenty, to graduate from college with the financial support of well-wishers, to find a job, and to rent a house next to the orphanage to live, but still did not wait.

But he was not discouraged at all, he knew that he had parents.

Since they didn't come, he took the initiative and went to find them himself. With the help of the National Anti-Abduction Office, he reported the case to the local public security bureau, collected blood and put it into the DNA bank, and waited for the day when he would see his parents again.

Until, until he unexpectedly came into the world and continued to live with the mind of an adult instead of a ten-year-old child.

The lyrics of a song by Zhou Huajian, a male singer that Ye Feng likes very much, are like this: Carry all the hardships of yesterday and buy some happiness and blessings for tomorrow.

Ye Feng especially liked this sentence.

In fact, not all the children in the orphanage are orphans, especially some who have been rescued after being abducted and trafficked and cannot find their parents for a while, so they can only stay here to live, waiting for the day when their biological parents will find them.

Since graduating from college, he has spent almost all of his monthly salary on the children in the orphanage, except for his own food and drink. He even helped several orphans find their parents.

As soon as I have time, I either volunteer or participate in various public welfare organizations. He didn't fall in love, because he didn't know who he was, because he wanted his parents to be able to sit in their place and look at him lovingly and bless him when he got married, rather than just being alone like now.

Therefore, he felt that he was not doing good deeds or helping others, but helping himself. Because when you help others find their way home, you are also helping yourself. There are so many people in their organization, and there are more and more ways to find people, and he firmly believes that he will find his relatives one day.

And now, he came to this world unexpectedly and became a person named "Ye Feng" with the same surname and first name as him. He thought, maybe this is because God thinks that he was a good person in his previous life, so he wants him to come to this world to fulfill his wish in another way.

In this life, you must always have the opportunity to enjoy family life with your biological parents, and you must always know who you are, at least, you must know when you were born, so that you can not come to this world in vain.

At least he can't be like he is now, living for two lifetimes, and he still doesn't know his birthday. In his previous life, his birthday was the day he came to the orphanage; And in this life, he just wants to find his parents quickly, and the truth will be revealed at that time.

With these thoughts that the master and Xue Dan and Yin Ping didn't know, and with a lot of pride in his head, Ye Feng strode forward until he gradually walked out of the scope of the temple, and this pride slowly disappeared.

What appeared in front of him was a large forest, as far as the eye could see, and sometimes the wind blew, like green waves. This made Ye Feng feel frightened for no reason, as if he would be swallowed by these green waves in the next moment.

In the past, when watching film and television dramas, heroes who were driven to a dead end would always say proudly: There is no place to stay here, there is a place to keep a master. However, Ye Feng couldn't say such a thing at this moment.

Because even if the world is big, there is really no place for him right now.

At this moment, the scorching sun is in the sky. As a science student with good grades, although he knows how to distinguish between the east and the west, what is the use of knowing the direction?

South, east, west, where is the home? Where should he go?

But he quickly calmed down, did not catch lots, and did not follow his feelings by pointing in a direction with his eyes closed, Ye Feng chose to walk to the west after a little thought.

Without it, because the sun is moving towards the west.

Although the sun rises in the east, it sets in the west.

Walking in this direction, first, you will not get lost, and second, you will always have the sun as a companion along the way, it will accompany you from dawn to dark, and your heart will not be so lonely.

Leaving the shadow behind him, Ye Feng strode forward, and at the same time praised himself in his heart, because he felt that he was so amazing at this moment, and made a great decision.

Walking with the sun, how to see how bright, how to think and how excited.

However, many years later, Ye Feng could only smile bitterly at his "great" choice at that time.

Because, if we take his starting point at that time as a starting point, then the relatives he dreamed of looking for, his biological parents, lived precisely in the direction of the east. That is, the loved one is in the opposite direction of the choice he made.

Because of this choice, he is getting farther and farther away from his loved ones.

It was only then that he realized that sometimes some ideas and things seem beautiful, reasonable, and scientific, but they are only just appearances. Making such a seemingly right choice may make you further and further away from what you want to be, or even go far from what you want.

Unfortunately, we often don't understand this truth at the beginning, and even if others tell us, we can't understand it, and we only think that they are just preaching.

We are always stubborn in our belief that we should be true to our hearts and choose what we really want.

Then we held on until, until we hit the south wall and our heads bleed.

The author has something to say: This chapter is a chapter that I am more satisfied with, because it is really touching. I myself am now feeling the choice I made thirteen years ago. It's just that, as the article says, there are no ifs in life.