Shuangliu Airport Terminal.

The sound of the flight announcing the station, the tourists from the south to the north, and the flow of people shuttling back and forth are frozen into a background, leaving a panicked me and the old man ten meters away.

Brother.

In 16 years, I have not spoken these two words. He was buried deep in my heart, in a place full of barrenness and weeds.

Time is too rushed, there is no time to hide, I must be looking lost. When I got my voice back, I couldn't get those two words out of my throat.

Brother.

The pain of aging swept through the body. The hole in the heart that had been sealed by the years was suddenly broken through by the gushing blood. The senses are numb, but the pain is real. At that moment, I was as fragile as the 18-year-old girl who had once stood in front of him. But I was greedy for that pain, and it reminded me that although I had never mentioned it all these years, I had loved him transparently with blood and tears.

Mom!

Zhe Zhe threw himself into my arms like a small cannonball. looked at me all of a sudden, and then rolled his eyes to look at the senior brother who was standing on the opposite side of my line of sight.

It was very unproductive, and I maintained Zhang Huang's expression until my senior brother nodded and left.

Today, our new freshmen participated in the event for the first time, brothers and sisters, remember not to show mercy to their subordinates, the hairy ones who should be chopped, and the chopsticks that should be chopped, otherwise I will not be able to use them in the future!

Hahahaha

Haichao is the journal of the Academy of Letters, and the editor-in-chief is a junior sister, with short hair, thin hair, and white. The characters with light bones are neither cold nor warm, they speak happily and crisply, and they are tall but not alienated. The freshman fools quickly became comfortable here.

The first club activity was held in a disco near the school. I just walked into the ivory tower from the sea of books, and many obedient children like me have never been to places. Although I still sat there and pretended to be quiet and didn't speak, playing a lady - in fact, it was self-preservation from entering a completely unfamiliar environment - and my heart was excited. A few lively ones have already geared up and begun to blend into the ranks of the seniors, a noisy and noisy atmosphere. Seeing the brother fiddling with the camera turning the lens towards me, I smiled reluctantly. In fact, pretending to be a lady is something I am very good at. Quiet as a virgin, moving as a rabbit, I play the latter better, and you will know slowly.

We set off at six o'clock in a while, and made an appointment with our school radio station, and there will be many places to cooperate in the future.

Boss, thank you, little ones!

Said Cao Cao, Cao Cao arrived.

Radio stations are the same as we like to write, because we both like to write. The difference is that they prefer the stage. If most of our room uses talent to describe the inside, then unpretentiousness is a portrayal of the outside, haha. These people who just walked in looked glamorous from the inside out, and with the addition of their voices, they actually wanted to hide the sharpness of this room that boasted of being literati.

The familiar brothers and sisters greeted each other warmly, and the boss's eyes were still staring at the door. I'm still playing Quiet, so I also show up with the boss and the others.

Then I froze.

Brother.

Walked in.

I hope he didn't see me, or I would have been ugly......

Although I know that my senior brother is in Minda, and although I vaguely saw his back on the day of the opening ceremony, today's opportunity still makes me unable to hold myself. I secretly told myself in my heart, calm and calm, senior brother may not know who you are at all! Lady, remember, lady!

I'm born with a thin cuticle, but if you are shy and nervous, your face is flushed, although I really want to take the opportunity to see my brother's beautiful face a few more times, I can't risk exposing my inner thoughts, it's too embarrassing.

Turn your head, there are still more opportunities.

Zhang Heng, I didn't expect you to lead the team today. Enough to save face.

The boss is making an incision with his brother.

I took advantage of the opportunity to quietly turn my head again.

The senior brother stood at the door, casually talking to the boss and a few people around him. There is no shortage of handsome guys and beauties on the radio station, and as soon as the senior brother appeared, everything quietly faded in my eyes.

Is that the webmaster of our radio station, so handsome?

It's very handsome, or low-key luxury, not ostentatious at all

Didn't they say that their webmaster was a woman?

Yes, yes, this is our sub-station, just a sophomore. Handsome, right?

A doll-like radio station, Freshman Xinding, also joined the gossip array

Well, handsome, what kind of tone of light eyebrows and not angry and arrogant, I like it

Hahahaha

I stood in the crowd and listened to them discuss the appearance and temperament of my senior brother almost in person, and I did not shy away from it. I know in my heart that for the unattainable beauty, private comments can also be blatant, and I am not afraid that the parties are close to me. I just admire their courage. I never dared, like now, I have always leaned slightly sideways, afraid to speak loudly, let alone participate in gossip, but my eyes and ears have not rested.

Everyone, don't be impatient......

The Boss spoke.

This is the deputy director of our radio station, Zhang Heng. Ladies and gentlemen of the radio station, I am in charge of the tide of the Shinin. There will be more opportunities to meet in the future, so I won't be too verbose today, the time is about the same, let's go?

The boss looked at the senior brother, and the senior brother looked at everyone with a smile, and his voice was quiet.

Let's go

With that, he took the lead and walked out.

A classroom was full of people, the afterglow of the setting sun shone into the long corridor, and there were only three or three people in the self-study classroom at dinner time. I walked hand in hand with Xiaofang, who had just met each other. Attached to the tail of the large army.

The bar is not far from the school, about a twenty-five minute walk. The disadvantage of lady's steps is that she will fall behind, and I don't usually walk fast. Soon the army was far away, leaving a few men and women with tails, chatting as they walked around. I hope no one notices my abnormality, but I really want to walk like a fly.

Finally arrived, at the door? Brother?

What's wrong?

Xiaofang was pulled by my inadvertent pause. I just thought that I didn't dare to get too close to my senior brother, and I forgot that Xiaofang was still holding me.

Lowered his head, said that it was okay, and walked forward.

Come in when all the people are ready.

The senior brother took out the cigarette in his hand and went in.

It seems that the senior brother is waiting for us at the door for a few square steps.

The bar is such a nice place.

You can be lively or lonely. You can look at no one, and you can look at anyone at will. I love this place.

The dance floor is full of light, where the lights shine, and the hustle and bustle hides everything. I finally relaxed and didn't have to carefully manage my expression and thoughts. Senior brother sat in the third seat to my left. I kept peeking at him greedily by talking and laughing with Xiaofang.

This place is so good, I am going to laugh in my heart, on the surface I am still a shy freshman, I don't drink, I don't dare to go off the dance floor, and I don't dare to show off. I only laugh in a low voice with the girls around me. If voyeurism is a sin, I am guilty of a great sin today.

A sophomore sat down next to me at some point, took a bottle of beer and handed it to me. I was a little hesitant because I hadn't drunk alcohol, and Xiaofang quietly told me that it was okay to drink, Corona, drink.

Only then did I notice that it was the senior brother who was in charge of taking pictures. I smiled and thanked him, and he struck up a conversation with me

Why not go dancing?

No

You don't need to, just swing your body casually

……

I'll take you down?

If you don't go, I'll sit down for a while

While I was drinking, I quietly turned my head, what about Senior Brother?

There is a faint loss in my heart, although I can't talk, but sitting together like this, although I am separated by mountains and rivers, my heart is also satisfied, but my senior brother will not sit here all the time......

I refused repeated invitations from my senior brother in the same society

Besides, I just thought about where my brother went......

Xiaofang next to him was also dragged to dance, and I was the only one left. The joy at first sight, the ecstasy of participating in the event together is only dazed and lonely at the moment. It's good that I can pretend to be a lady. I sat alone with a straight back and an indifferent face, alas, I didn't like to pretend to be cool so much. Coupled with the noisy music and messy light, it seems that I am lonely and desolate. I was hurting myself when someone sat down. Intuition is a senior brother. But at this time, there was no one left and right, and although the light was dim, there was no shelter, and I didn't dare to act rashly. I feel more straight, and if others mistakenly think I'm in good shape, I thank you, I'm stiff, stiff! I drank all the bottles of Corona, and I didn't know what was next to them, so I fumbled to pick up another bottle.

Not......

With my little poor experience, it's beer!

Keep it, you can't collapse, you can't be embarrassed! Maybe Senior Brother is looking at you......

Ordinary people like me, I also look forward to the occasional glimpse of the person I secretly like...... Maybe not, but I assume there is......

Dancing is probably an irresistible pleasure, I pretended to be cold, and took a bottle of beer in one sip, but none of them came back...... My neck is going to stiffen.

Although I didn't dare to turn my head to look, I knew that my senior brother had been sitting quietly next to him.

After drinking alcohol, what I couldn't hold on to was to go to the toilet, which I couldn't bear.

The first time I came to this kind of place, I couldn't tell the difference between the southeast and the northwest, and I had no one to accompany me, so I didn't know the bottom of my heart. The toilet is a must go. I have no choice but to cheer myself up in the bottom of my heart, I fight, and I can't show my cowardice in front of my senior brother! Even if he doesn't know who I am or what I'm doing.

I forced myself to relax and discern left and right. Now I saw that in addition to me and my senior brother on the card seat, there were a few people drinking and chatting on the side, and my senior brother was sitting alone, and he didn't seem to notice me. Nice and safe. I'm going to get up and walk out on the right, and I can always find someone to ask. I know that big things are not good together, why are I dizzy under my feet, am I drinking too much? …… It's strange, I was sitting there just now and I was fine. It's a mess. I fumbled around the edge of the sofa and the bar as I walked, hoping that no one would notice my vain steps, and that my brother would not see me coming......

Nervously passing through the snake-like dancing crowd, the area in front of me is slightly open, but where is the toilet? There are all kinds of people coming and going, and I don't dare to catch a random person to ask, because the sound and color places are not necessarily all pure people, and I don't know if the self-preservation of a 18-year-old freshman girl who has drunk a whole bottle of wine at this time is ridiculous.

Eh, that's it, brother!

I was looking left and right, hoping to find the kind of sign in the mall, when I suddenly found my brother standing in the direction I had just walked. Why do I think he's standing there, not just coming over? I don't know, I'm already dizzy, but my sixth sense reminds me that maybe he has to go to the toilet too. The lost person saw a navigation light, Amitabha Hallelujah. I'm not afraid to look at him anymore. I stood there and watched him, and as he walked by, I quietly followed him. Sure enough, he walked to a corner, turned a corner, I followed the corner, oh my God, I'm so smart, my brother really came to the toilet! Well, this sign is wearing a skirt, and I go into this. The toilet was so happy, haha! Before I came out, I splashed my face with water, hoping to wash away the fever on my face that I had just started. Okay, go back.

When I walked out of the bathroom, I secretly screamed in my heart. I'm a road idiot. There is so much light that I can't find an exit from a new place, let alone here. Hell place, ghost place, I have long forgotten the good mood of being able to peek at my brother through the dim light. No way, Meng, turn the corner......

It's a good habit for a boy to smoke a cigarette at the door after going to the toilet, haha. I'm still quietly pretending to be a lady, and there happens to be a shared sink here, so I'll wash my hands slowly...... Sure enough, there was not much left of my brother's cigarette, and I caught a glimpse in the mirror that he had very gentlemanly extinguished the cigarette and walked on. God help me! I was silent and followed him through the crowd, and as I walked on, my brother pushed open a door.

Cool breeze.

Summer nights in a small seaside town are incrediblely beautiful. I completely forgot that I should have returned to the booth, and I forgot that my brother was still holding the door at the moment, so I jumped outside like a rabbit and greedily opened my arms to blow the wind!

Rabbit, I was in such a chaotic moment, and I still knew that I had become a rabbit, and I had been playing the role of a lady before......

Anyone who has ever drunk knows that when the wind blows, and when I turn around, my life is over.

The entrance to the bar is always a sight to behold. At this moment, my eyes are full of my senior brother's fingers, and a bean of scarlet flashes that are bright and extinguished.

Starry eyebrows. Later, I figured out that it was all gold that I had put on my brother, and my brother wore glasses. He stood there, leaning against the wall and bowing his head to smoke, and I, who had only dared to look at him from afar, walked over step by step, stood at the foot of the steps, and looked up with his face upright, smirking at him.

Brother.

Brother, you are really handsome. Do you know? Smokers look more handsome!

The senior brother chuckled, yes, he smiled at me. His eyes, the first time I saw him head-on. Through the glasses, the smile seemed to be very gentle. He snuffed out the cigarette in his hand.

I'm going back to school, are you leaving?

Let's go?? Of course! The bar is such a great place! Banzai!

I turned around and left, my brother was two steps behind me, and I was about to fly with joy. In fact, the road behind me has been drifting and flickering. I walked in front with waving my hands, and from time to time I turned around and smirked at my brother. Senior brother put one hand in his pocket, alas, that action is simply handsome and angry, and occasionally reminds me, be careful, slow down.

I'm careful.

I walked super slowly.

I wish this road would never come to an end!

When I saw the school gate, I suddenly remembered something. I quickly turned around and ran to my brother, almost bumping into him. He raised his hand and gave me a slight lift on the shoulder, looking at me with a puzzled look.

Senior brother, I am your senior sister.

He withdrew his hand and looked at me with a faint smile.

No, no, I'm not your college student......

Alas, what a mess, senior brother......

I know.

You know?

Well, I know.

It's over, I'm dead. I stood across from him and watched him look at me with the eyes of a small pet. He knows, what does he know?

Does he know I secretly liked him in high school? Knowing that I didn't hesitate to fill in this university as my only choice because I saw his name appear on the admission list of Minda?

I just stared at him blankly, standing at the gate of the school, it was the time to return to school, shuttling back and forth, and the flow of people was like water. Someone has already noticed our unusual position. Their eyes naturally glanced over to find out. But my brain crashed. My body is no longer functioning.

It wasn't until my brother gently tugged on my arm and turned me around, and then I followed him apathically until I reached the door of the four houses.

Finally returned to the familiar place, and after thinking about it all the way, my wine seemed to wake up a lot, but I felt that my face burned even more......

That senior brother, I began to stammer, trying to explain, I really am not your junior sister from college...... I am......

You're in the second of two, right? Little Woman?

Yes? Finished. My head really didn't work today, it crashed twice. What is Little Woman?

Brother, have you been drinking? I habitually looked through my glasses, rolled my eyes from the top edge of the glasses, looked up at my brother, and asked my question timidly and tremblingly.

Yes, drink a little.

Did you drink too much?

Also?

I saw my brother laughing again, but this time I didn't feel happy, my heart was on fire, and I was very anxious.

He thought I was someone else! He must have been mistaken! My brain Kakaka, which crashed a few times just now, is rapidly reinstalling the system. When I was at the gate, I thought he really knew about me. What was I thinking along the way? Shame, shame at home, whimsical to the people, it's really ......

Ah, that senior brother, did you recognize the wrong person......

I knew that my tone seemed to reveal a little bit of blame for my brother, so I quickly adjusted the language transmission device.

But it's okay, hehe, it's okay

Hehehe, hehe, hehe, hehe, hehe, is the most annoying tone particle to deal with others and often express dissatisfaction, well, stupid.

The senior brother is still the same senior brother, Yushu is quiet and indifferent in the wind, and I have changed from a lady to a rabbit, and now I am still like a monkey with a burning buttocks, scratching my ears and cheeks in order to justify. Senior brother doesn't seem to be smiling anymore...... Oops, I'm dead!

That, thank you, senior brother, for sending me back, that, I, I'm up......

I ran up the stairs, into the patio, and into the dormitory. But I clearly knew that my legs were soft when I went up the stairs. God knows how much I regret my stupid actions tonight, this hellish place to be in the bar!

I climbed up to the sixth floor with a sigh of relief, slammed open the door of 608, took a few steps and fell in, lying face down on my bed, motionless and pretending to be dead.

In the midst of alcohol and madness, I think of a sentence that happiness, sadness, and even the once unforgettable love will slowly fade away with the passage of time. But only embarrassment can make you think about it again and again, and it can make you want to strangle yourself late at night.

I don't want to be angry, I'll just strangle you......

I thought about it over and over in my head, one of my explicit and stupid expressions. I want to go back and pretend to be an invisible lady from beginning to end, even if my neck is so hard that it breaks, and I want to go to the toilet and think of a bladder bursting, I should sit on the card seat without moving, and pretend to be elegant.

What are you doing? Isn't it stuffy?

The fish was slapping me in the ass, and I barely managed to twist my face. This girl is good at everything, but her glasses are high, and she always looks like Lin Daiyu. I picked up my glasses from the bedside desk and handed them to her, and she immediately changed her tone with a very unladylike ahhh

What's wrong?

Yanyan, you?

Ah, me?

She grabbed a small mirror and handed it to me.

Sometimes you feel that when your life goes to a low point, it won't go any lower, right? But reality will pull you up and piapia slap you in the face.

A face in the mirror, red and swollen, not like a monkey butt, completely a monkey buttocks.

That was the first time I had drunk alcohol and the first time I knew I was allergic to alcohol. The most important thing is that the facial skin is sensitive, red and swollen.

I just ...... That's how it works...... To the senior brother......