"I kept thinking afterwards, it's not Vicom's fault for this, it's me. If I hadn't asked him to accompany me to sketch in a small county, I wouldn't have found an opportunity to retaliate against him. None of this would have happened, then. ”

"I won't have a dozen projectiles left in my body to block bullets for Vicom, and I don't have to suffer from the pain day after day and year after year. As for the cub, he won't hate his dad because of it. ”

"When I married Wellcome, I knew about his profession. I know how dangerous his profession is, and it will and will put his loved ones in danger. I know, but I'm still married to him. So, it's not to blame Vicom. Nian'an, you can also imagine how much self-blame and pain Weikang felt after my accident. ”

"In order to make him feel guilty, I don't know how many good things I said to him. Cut, Ye Weikang, that man, is naïve to death. I have to coax him to be good, where do you think he looks like a special combat soldier! ”

"I thought about it for a long time, it wasn't my fault, and it wasn't Wellcome's. He was carrying out his mission, and he was doing what was right. I didn't know that people would chase them all the way to get revenge on Weikang. None of us are wrong, it's those who break the law and commit crimes, Nian'an, do you think I'm right? ”

Mu Nian'an had been listening quietly, knowing that Chen Lu had asked her by name at this moment, so she nodded her head solemnly, "Yes!" You and Brigadier Ye are not wrong. It's not you who are wrong, it's never you. It's the brutes. ”

"I was painting on the beach that day, and Vican sat next to me, leaning against the stone and falling asleep. He's so tired, really, so tired. He was busy for half a year, half a year, and no one had seen Wellcome, and no one knew where Wellcome had gone. The old man was about to die, and when he went to inquire, he couldn't find out where Weikang was or if he was still alive. ”

"Actually, I was ready for the news of Wicom's death. Suddenly, one day, Weikang returned. I came back with a limp, and I was proud to tell me that they had done a great job. I asked him what it was, but he wouldn't tell him. I wonder if it weren't for Vicom's lameness, he wouldn't even have the time off to take that little time off. ”

"I know Weikang is tired, half a year, when he came home, I almost didn't even recognize the man I loved the most. Where does he have a little bit of Ye Weikang's chic handsomeness, he is simply a ...... An addict! Nian'an, you can't believe me when I say it. Ye Weikang, who is 1.82 meters old, disappeared for half a year and came back, and it was less than 110 catties! Can you imagine that? ”

"Wei Kang was so tired that someone approached us, and he, the king of the special operations brigade, didn't hear it. Actually, I understand that it's not that Vikon is too tired and sleeps too deeply to hear. It's that he didn't take it seriously, he is such a keen person, and he has just returned from the battlefield, how can he relax his vigilance in the slightest? How could he not hear footsteps? He took the sound of his footsteps as a child who went down to the sea to pick up oysters and cook them at home. ”

"That's a kid indeed. He was about the same size as the cub at the time, but his body was much stronger than that of the cub, and his skin was very dark. It's just a child in his early teens, but that kid is not an ordinary child, he actually has ...... in his hand" Chen Lu trembled, and even her back began to sting fiercely, "Seeing that kid raised the gun and aimed it at Wei Kang, I subconsciously threw myself on Wei Kang's body." ”

"Bang, I don't know anything. When he woke up again, he saw that Weikang's face was very pale. His face was even paler and weaker than me, who had been lying on the operating table for more than ten hours, escaping death. He took my hand and said to me, he's sorry for me, he's sorry for me. He was like a repeater, and he could only say this one sentence. ”

"Nian'an, you didn't see it. Vicona's expression, it's funny. I really regret that I didn't have a pen in my hand and couldn't draw his funny look. If only I had a camera in my hand, I would have been able to take a picture of Wicom's ridiculous appearance and show it to everyone. ”

Mu Nian'an's eyes were red, and she shook Chen Lu's hand hard.

She couldn't say a word. She didn't know what to say.

She wanted to cry, but she felt she shouldn't. Even Teacher Chen didn't cry, why did she cry?

Strange hypocrisy.

"Since then......" Chen Lu blinked, the sadness in his eyes was too thick, so thick that Mu Nian'an couldn't bear to look at it.

"The cub hated his father so much. He hated his father from the bottom of his heart. Now that the cub has grown up, he has buried this hatred deep in his heart. But when he was young, when he saw his father, he would call him a waste. Ask his father why his father can protect so many people, but not his mother. ”

"The cub thinks it's his dad who didn't protect me. It was his father who hurt me. If his father wasn't a special operations soldier, people wouldn't have retaliated against him, and I wouldn't have ...... The cub actually liked soldiers when he was a child, and he was especially envious of being able to wear that military uniform. When he was a child, he always secretly wore his father's military uniform, and when his father found out, he would be severely beaten by his father. But he still had to secretly wear his father's clothes when he had the opportunity. The cub's biggest dream is to grow up quickly and become a soldier like his father. ”

"But since then, the cub has hated it so much......" Chen Lu choked a little, and Mu Nian'an silently stuffed the water cup that the biscuit had just sent into Chen Lu's hand.

Chen Lu took advantage of the time to drink water to sort out her emotions.

"The cub cut all the military uniforms of his father and the old man with scissors. As soon as his father came home in a military uniform, he would cut that suit to shreds. Weikang felt guilty in his heart, and never scolded the cub for this. After that, his father would never come home in a military uniform again. Cub ...... He never mentioned that he wanted to be a soldier like his father and grandfather. ”

"Actually, it was his fault that Weikang had always been a cub and that he was like this. Obviously, cubs were enviable in the past......" Chen Lu smiled bitterly and looked at Mu Nian'an sadly: "In order not to be a soldier, the cub ran to get a tattoo." After being slapped hard by his father, he became more and more profligate. He's doing it that way...... Get revenge on his dad. ”

"Nian'an, I'm heartbroken. But I didn't know what to do to ease the relationship between father and son. I...... No matter what I say to the cub, he's all good. But when I mentioned his father, he felt like a different person. I didn't dare to mention it again, so I could only get used to the cubs and protect the cubs. Since he doesn't want to fight horses, he won't fight horses. It's not a big deal. ”

"But the cub ...... In his father's words, it's depravity. I watched it, and it hurt my heart. But the cub told me that since he gave up on the horse, he felt very relaxed, he felt free. He said that was the life he wanted to live. Nian'an, do you believe it? ”

Facing Chen Lu's eyes, Mu Nianan couldn't lie.

This kind of game in the world is not Ye Lingbi's original intention. Nor was it the life he wanted to live in the first place. Teacher Chen is right, he is using this depravity to get revenge on his father. Revenge failed to protect his mom's dad.

Mu Nian'an couldn't lie, so she could only say, "Ye Dong is like this now...... It's pretty good, too. He lives more chic and wanton than anyone else. There is money, what he has is money, money that he can't spend in several lifetimes. You can do whatever you want, your girlfriend has changed one stubble after another, and I don't know how many men I want to envy to death. ”

Chen Lu asked her, "Nian'an, what I'm asking is, do you believe Ye Lingbi's nonsense?" Is this really what he wants? ”

Mu Nian'an replied: "If you don't do your job properly, if you don't do it well, you will be degenerate, you will be a waste, you will be a second ancestor, and you will be a moth." It's okay, it's Ye Dong, play the world, and be happy. ”

Playing the world, having a good time?

Chen Lu repeated Mu Nian'an's words several times, and suddenly smiled, "You kid, why are you so good at talking." Well, you're right. What kind of life is very good. As long as you don't regret it, it's a happy life. If you want me to say, it's actually good not to fight horses. It's not that dangerous, and it's easy to get started. Look at Weikang, how hard is it? A wound all over his body, his old wound hurt at every turn, and he was sweating profusely. My son is not a soldier, and I am relieved to be relaxed. ”

Self-deception, self-soothing.

Mu Nianan coldly spit out these eight words in his heart.

But how could she bear to blame this mother, who had been suffering and suffering and blaming herself for nearly 20 years? Teacher Chen's pain is far more than what she has heard and seen...... A lot more.

It was a sharp pain she couldn't imagine.

"Nian'an, what do you think I can do? Like his dad, take a whip and whip him? I can't. His father was so strict that I could only be a mother who spoiled her children. The cub has a stubborn personality and is particularly stubborn. The more his father pumped him, the more he was dissolute. In fact, if his father was willing to say sorry to him back then, as long as he said a soft word, maybe the cub would ...... Hi, this is where there are so many ifs. If there were, I wouldn't have taken those hundred or so projectiles, wouldn't I? ”

Chen Lu is a smart woman, and she is also a transparent woman.

She understands the truth. Comforting words, she didn't know how many times she had told herself on how many nights.

Mu Nianan understood that Chen Lu didn't want to be comforted by telling her this. She just wanted to find someone to talk about what she had hidden in her heart for so many years.

She just needs to listen quietly.

Chen Lu suddenly raised her head, looking at the dark and foggy sky of the capital, without a single star, the tip of her nose suddenly sore, and tears slowly flowed down the corners of her eyes.

"Nian'an, I'm so reluctant. Reluctant to Weikang, reluctant cubs. If I live, their father and son will still be able to whitewash the peace and maintain this father-son relationship. If I die, they will be father and son...... It can really only be an enemy. I love both father and son so much that I don't want to leave them. I want to spend more time with both of them. Ye Weikang is a loner, why not Ye Lingbi? Without me, father and son would really be alone. ”

"No—" Mu Nianan slammed Chen Lu's shoulder, "You're dead, Brigade Commander Ye still has his job and his beloved career." He is not alone. Ye Lingbi will not be alone, he has the right to be young. If Ye Lingbi is willing, I will accompany him. ”

"That's the most reassuring phrase I've ever heard. Nian'an, can you stay with Shaoting by the cub's side? After I die, you two must be by your side. I'm not worried about Ye Weikang's old thing, he will suppress his pain, and he will continue to live. But cubs ...... Promise me, you and Shaoting will guard the cub inch by inch! ”

"Teacher Chen, I promise you! Quan Shaoting and I will definitely stay by Ye Lingbi's side every step of the way. Help you keep an eye on him and let him live well. ”

"Nian'an." Chen Lu solemnly handed over his son to their husband and wife, "Thank you, thank you!" ”